Tyler Robinson

I'm Zhodein in Millybar and Zhodein Millybar a pirate captures Zhodein the pirate princess from a rival pirate gang, subjects her to extensive torture as a part of revenge against the gang, then has sex with her and begins to feel guilty for how he treats her. Guilt invokes mercy and then he begins to fall in love with Zhodein. They've a turbulent relationship, jealousy ensues, many of the pirate ladies envy Zhodein and set their eyes on Millybar, who isn't easy to bewitch, and eventually both Millybar and Zhodein go through endless struggles to find peace with each other, their loyalty being tested throughout yet never losing faith in one another.

I'm Tarsis in Tarsis and Manny. In Tarsis and Manny, I'm a village Belle. Manny is a repairer. He deals with machine parts. He comes to a lonely town where Tarsis sees him and its love at first sight for her. Tarsis lives with her dad. Manny isn't interested in her in the beginning and scoffs at her, ignores her. Later in the story, Manny sees her as a deeply emotional vulnerable woman who needs love. He begins to think about her a little more than usual and eventually falls in love. He proposes her at her home when her dad is not around and then begs her hand to her father. They get married and then he has to leave town for work. He returns in a week to meet his beloved and they share a beautiful loving chemistry.

These are final characters. No more.

From the dirty priest fantasies I've slowly graduated to romantic pairs. Romantic pairs Tarsis and Manny (real life character) Roberto(real life character) and Tyler Merebeth and Tiby (ghosts) Millybar and Zhodein

I have 3 fantasies now. Millybar and Zhodein Tarsis and Manny Me, Tyler and Roberto. I also wanted a ghost version. Merebeth and Tiby

I never thought I could be in love with a Sagittarius. Roberto is a Sagittarius. The guy I'm having a crush on. He is important to me. Of course he is too old now But I'm imagining a younger version of him. Like having fun with him and he is always deeply intuitively understanding me. I don't know but I like his pictures when he was young.

It seems he violated some guidelines relating to incitement of violence. Elon tweeted about it.

Angel instinct This is a helper instinct. The need for a helper. This instinct is activated when your subconscious screams for help. It can be accessed by prayer. Evil instinct This is when you have evil forces tormenting you. You have to implement special or unique protective forces to shield you from evil. Whats the spiritual meaning of life? Answer - life is a sacred journey. It must be protected and shielded from beginning to end. It must be lived to its fullest and in fulfillment. It must be lived to reduce spiritual signature. To reduce karma. So the afterlife is easier and we aren't stuck. How to reduce spiritual signature? Are we here to change the world? Answer - No. But we can make it better.

But he banned Ye. So that's a good thing. I don't think Kanye West is such a bad guy. But he could be a phony since Jared Kushner invested in his company so that could have prompted him to support Trump. It cannot be simply for attention. Ye might be looking forward to widening his right wing base with his antics, maybe he wants to be a republican candidate or start something like Alex Jones channel. But he is onto something. Also I liked how he denounced Balenciaga, it's in the news and it's the worst thing right now.

1Survival instinct- Basic instinct to want to live 2 Creativity instinct - Is to create something exciting, full of passion, full of enthusiasm, desire, hope 3Liberation instinct - Want to be liberated from suffering, pain, disturbance 4 Achievement instinct - Wanting to do something that feels awesome, gives satisfaction, promotes growth and progress, success, it's a very important feeling, it gives a feeling of completion 5 Beauty instinct - Wanting things to be joyful, radiant, beautiful, complete, eternal, immortal like building the pyramids 6Romantic instinct - Wanting a connection, intimacy, a partner and a feeling of being loved, treasured, belonged. 7Healing instinct Wanting to be healed from past troubles, trauma, hurt, pain, wanting to feel okay, wanting to recover from setbacks, wanting to start again, wanting to feel space and peace in order to recover, wanting to get better and plump again. 8Fear instinct -The fight versus flight response. A response that alerts us to danger and wanting to huddle to a place of safety 9Protective instinct Wanting to treasure or protect something very valuable like a friend, a pet, a child or an important picture or a gift or a work of art. Even protecting basic resources like food 10Harmony instinct Wanting to create harmony with your environment and surroundings, with nature, wanting to blend in with everything, wanting harmony with the unique and universe, wanting the feeling of creating a home within this environment and feeling at home with your environment. You want that community feeling. A lot of people join organizations to have this feeling. A lot of people join religion 11Balance instinct Wanting to sustain balance between everything that we do like health, relationships, work, passions, time etc. 12Purpose instinct This is an extension of the self. You want to do something for the world, you want to contribute to your community or the world at large. Noble instinct. 13 growth instinct You want to develop yourself, explore, learn, expand and grow. You want to feel that you are progressing not just surviving 14 Transcending instinct You want to outgrow whatever you are currently learning or dealing. You want to evolve to your next phase and development in life 15 Transformation instinct This is also a part of self evolution. Sometimes you want to radically transform yourself, your life, shed all past baggage and turn over to a new leaf. Clean the slate, start afresh. 16 fulfilling instinct This is about your needs, wants, desires, from the utmost basic to advanced and higher needs. You want these needs to be fulfilled as much as possible to leave room for other things like spiritual stuff. Most people waste their lives in fulfilling needs because our social system constantly deprives us of our needs and makes us into a hamster running on the wheel chasing our needs. Like a dog chasing its tail, we're never free to think about other things. When needs are not fulfilled whether it's something like survival, food, security, sexual, love, bonding, financial, health, we become deficient and miserable and can hardly focus on anything else, we become too stunted and lost, deprived and confused, trapped and in constant search of something. And very frustrated. This is the single biggest reason for everyone failing to achieve anything else. This instinct is sorely left ignored. This side needs to be compulsory fulfilled in order to get other instincts properly sorted out. This is the most important instinct as far as survival is concerned. Without this there is no spirituality and you're in limbo. This is a major bridge. If you're on this bridge you'll forever stay on this bridge. You are stuck. If you fulfill most of your needs, that's where you get the golden chance to cross the bridge. And a chance to achieve your higher growth. Until then everything is a pipe dream and nothing else will matter and nothing will even make sense or meaning. You wouldn't even want to pursue spirituality. You will half ass everything and live forever dissatisfied, much of your spirituality will feel like an unhappy vacation where you're just pretending to smile. If you want something of substance and really want everything to count on your future travels into eternity, then this instinct has to be compulsorily fulfilled. 17 Vibe instinct There's a certain vibe you want as your guide. Everything carries a vibe. Even the stuff you eat. You want always the right vibe to motivate and stimulate your inner energy. You don't like vibes that don't suit your character, personality or style. You want a morning vibe in the morning. A pleasant vibe when you are working and a snuggly vibe when you are with your special one. 18 fuel instinct You need fuel to motivate and stimulate yourself. Any energy, emotion, vibe can serve as a fuel. Anything that gets you going and motivates you is a fuel, even a prayer. God can be your fuel. Masculine and feminine energies can be your fuel. God's energy can be your fuel. This is the most important instinct. It's like a breakfast. You must have it before your main meal. It's your starter kit sort of. Your launch for the day. Your energy. Your fuel. Your must have travel kit. It's your energy bottle. Without it you're just languishing through the forest with a map in hand but no energy to walk. 19 Karma instinct This instinct exists like a conscience. It tells us right from wrong and guides us to good karma, shields us from bad karma 20 Companionship instinct We all need friends. Someone we can share things with at the campfire. Someone who listens and understands and offers warm company on cold nights. 21 Communication expression instinct This is important. We all have needs for communication whether you are introvert or extrovert. Your communication is your main method of expression. 22 Regulation instinct After doing what we can, we want to regulate our life cycle to see how it's all going. We want to spot flaws, resolve issues, solve problems, get back the rhythm. Get things back on track. But for that we must regulate our daily goings on. 23 Reflection instinct In order to solve a crisis, we need time to reflect on what should be done. Going back to the drawing board. Reassessing. Analyzing. Studying? Wanting some insight, some answer. Taking a break and Reflecting. 24 Wisdom instinct This instinct is best used when you gather wisdom and implement it 25 Courage instinct. You need courage to push a breakthrough in life or else you are stuck. One courageous move will change everything. Take that leap of faith. 26 Innocent instinct You'll reach this stage or instinct after death. Here you're set free from all fears, attachments, worries, needs etc. Here your spirit is like a child again, innocent and pure. You are finally yourself. No fabrication. The living version of this is the "authentic instinct." 27 Spiritual instinct I don't know how to describe this instinct. This is where I'm puzzled. I think spiritual instinct is like a process. Imagine a computer slowly generating your identity, all your personality traits being typed out line by line on each cursor prompt. That's how this is going to look like except for this is going to be your spiritual identity. This will consist of your deepest desires, your unfinished business, your general vibe in your ghost state, these are your spiritual signatures unique to you like a DNA. They will define you spiritually, they will constitute your spiritual identity. This instinct will carry a strong Subconscious energy. 28 Communion instinct I think just like material existence comes with an expiry date/death, your existence as a ghost will have it's own unique expiry date. After your spiritual existence has expired, your journey in the afterlife is over and you will slowly come to the end of a tunnel. This tunnel is dark. It's your spiritual tunnel and it's your gateway to the next realm. Once you come to the end of the tunnel, you will turn into a ball of bright light. Bright ball of energy like the Sun. You'll come out of the tunnel and escape as a ball of bright light. Your spirit has been converted into energy. This ball will then merge with a much larger ball of energy that looks like a big sun. This is God. You're entering communion. The ball disappears as it merges into this large ball. It's the end. While turning into a ball your spirit experiences extreme bliss and fiery energy and peace. Restless souls will take even centuries to turn into a ball. Or they might just never make it.

Instinct 1 Survival instinct- Basic instinct to want to live 2 Creativity instinct - Is to create something exciting, full of passion, full of enthusiasm, desire, hope 3 Liberation instinct - Want to be liberated from suffering, pain, disturbance Achievement instinct - Wanting to do something that feels awesome, gives satisfaction, promotes growth and progress, success, it's a very important feeling, it gives a feeling of completion Beauty instinct - Wanting things to be joyful, radiant, beautiful, complete, eternal, immortal like building the pyramids Romantic instinct - Wanting a connection, intimacy, a partner and a feeling of being loved, treasured, belonged. Healing instinct Wanting to be healed from past troubles, trauma, hurt, pain, wanting to feel okay, wanting to recover from setbacks, wanting to start again, wanting to feel space and peace in order to recover, wanting to get better and plump again. Fear instinct -The fight versus flight response. A response that alerts us to danger and wanting to huddle to a place of safety Protective instinct Wanting to treasure or protect something very valuable like a friend, a pet, a child or an important picture or a gift or a work of art. Even protecting basic resources like food Harmony instinct Wanting to create harmony with your environment and surroundings, with nature, wanting to blend in with everything, wanting harmony with the unique and universe, wanting the feeling of creating a home within this environment and feeling at home with your environment. You want that community feeling. A lot of people join organizations to have this feeling. A lot of people join religion. Balance instinct Wanting to sustain balance between everything that we do like health, relationships, work, passions, time etc. Purpose instinct This is an extension of the self. You want to do something for the world, you want to contribute to your community or the world at large. Noble instinct.

One way to find out is to not create camaraderie with them. The more you give in, the more the person is at an advantage to have power over you. You give your power over to them. You let them decide your fate. You shouldn't do that. Take control within your own hands. This might seem dominating and bossy but this is about self protection. You stay stoic. You stay where you are. You stay how you are. Let the other person come to you. Let people come to you rather than the other way around. This way you have monopoly over your own emotions and you are less vulnerable or prone to being emotionally exploited. You set your own rules. You define how things are going to be. If they truly wish to be with you, they will find a way to be with you. You have to learn to let go. You have to test their commitment rather than the other way around.

Whatever we find between spaces is the most beautiful thing in the world. Not what we find consciously. But what we move towards unconsciously is the most beautiful. This is the place of rescue. This is the place of peace. Because here there are no outcomes of good or bad. These are interstitial spaces. If you live in Central places you will always suffer. But if you move to a place of safety and escape, that's where you will find growth. It's not a place that came to you. You went to it. Similarly we go to God.

This is what happens when a woman approaches a man. We get questioned and looked at with suspicion. *insert nuclear Facepalm.

My lifelong crush.

One at a time Take the good, leave the bad Be open minded Use critical thinking Integrate some of it in your life

Meanwhile in London.

The other thing that you need to understand is what is fundamentally true is fundamentally true and what is fundamentally false is fundamentally false. If you hold the bastion of truth, you will attract truthful people. Your own conscience is the attracter. You attract what you are. This does not mean that you can't attract bad apples. Yes you can. But sooner or later there will be a fallout with bad apples. Because they won't align with your conscience. If you give leeway to sociopaths, you will attract sociopaths. But if your conscience denies sociopaths you won't have them in your company. It's what you choose to associate yourself with. This is ultimately decided by your own conscience, nobody can do this for you.

I need the following Tons of love and healing The earth needs the following Self Love The present moment Healing Duality of love (love from a source) Protection of masculinity Deep solitude Healthy conscious love Masculine and feminine forces are some of the most important forces in the world.

Another thing I need to focus on is to decomplicate things as much as possible. Don't make it overly complicated with a lot of stuff on the plate. I know I want to learn as much as possible. But don't push. Don't get greedy. Keep it minimum. Try to decomplicate.

What I'm looking for Trust Intimacy Connection (deep) Sexiness Vulnerability Emotional connection (repeated point) Domination (too much to ask for) /challenging/grounding Surrender Containment Masculinity Understand/maturity Alignment and harmony

Evil will never succeed anyway due to its spiritual imbalance so we don't have to worry about it anyway. All universal laws of spiritual balance are in compliance with morality.

And there's harmony, balance, equilibrium and continuation and protection.

Distracted again. Spirituality is about fulfilling needs and wants and deepest desires. About food and fuel