Tyler Robinson

This would be cool. Will Leo like this?

Sad.

Is there anything else that can work besides a taser?

This is like some new agey stuff.

Sounds cool.

@MarkKol try debating with people but make sure to emphasize your points with affirmation. Use statements like "I want" "I'm sure" etc. Start with I am statements. Stick to what you say. Don't be vague or all over the place. Act and talk strict. Say no when you don't like something. Be firm.

@Oeaohoo how would you define a true Democrat though?

Do you think Trump has something to do with it?

Finally my God I can breathe.

Fun journal. Sometimes I just want to relax and let it all go. No comments please.

I fell in love with a guy and we broke up but my mind just cannot forget him. He is in my mind. It's been a long while, more than a few months and I just cannot get him out of my mind. He broke my heart really badly. I felt shattered but I was insanely attracted to him and in love with him. He was extremely lovey dovey with me. Now that he is gone, I can't imagine how cold hearted he was. He just didn't give a damn about my feelings. He never wanted anything to do with me. It hurts everyday. I have been in and out of many relationships and they never hurt this bad and I usually got over them easily, not quickly but easily. But this one sticks out like a thorn. It doesn't die down. It's not like I'm putting any effort into forgetting him because I'm not. I was just madly into him I feel like he broke my mind.. What should I do? I'm ashamed of myself sometimes.

There were no fools born in England. And he was a smart British man. Brutish. I fell in love and then he broke my heart. Manny why did you do that to me?

I think my most important question concern or worry is this. Don't take life too literally. Take it as a learning. Have you ever experienced deep pain and sorrow and like you were in a bottomless pit, then suddenly when you have hit rock bottom, everything comes flooding to you, all the love from your ancestors, from all the people who ever loved you and genuinely respected you, and they just hit you like a wave and give you all that love again and tell you to be strong and it's a watershed moment.

It's better to accept than fight. God loves you Tyler. And that's the biggest truth I battled a lot of things in my life. Suicide, mental illness, medical issues, father's death, the loss of a pet, abusive relationships, childhood abuse and trauma, rape and sexual trauma. Despite all the suffering, a voice in me always wanted to live. Everyday.. When my father died, I promised him that no matter what, I will make it through. I'll remember that..... I'm so sick of this place. It always takes my energy two notches down. It's especially hard when some nagging conversation is going on on this forum I forgot. I can use the ignore option. Just ignore a bunch of nonsensical pussies and move on. I'm getting increasingly tired of this forum and not wanting to be here. I think I get it now. It's the toxic Masculine vibe of the forum that irks me.. I am used to seeing healthy forms of masculinity. I had a very hard working dad. I'm used to seeing men sweat it, not in the gym, but out in the fields, construction, mines. So when I see men arguing over a bunch of nonsense, it sends me in rage and triggers me. I don't like men who waste time, act like pussies, don't step up, play victim, aren't hard enough, aren't soft when it's required of them, play mind games, gaslight, manipulate too much, don't show moral integrity, show excessive attachment to religion or sky God, hate women, don't show passion, don't step in to help a woman but just watch, don't act assertive, don't take charge, take shit from a woman, engage in gossip, encourage bro culture, don't have lonewolf energy, can't handle things on their own, don't show anger in a healthy way, act too emotional when it's not called for. Nah..... That's not a man in my eyes. These things trigger me and get me angry at men who act like that. Abhorrent. This forum is definitely masculine, without doubt, but it's that insecure lame incel masculine, the type of masculine you can never admire. That's why it is triggering me so much because all my life I have always been appreciating and seeking healthy Masculinity I can never like or admire men who sit on the couch, play video games, watch porn all day, play shitty metal music, pump in the gym just for likes on FB, eat potato chips, smokes all day, complain about women, never have a vision in life That's a no.. I see these men as boys who never became men. I am not talking about building wealth. But it's nice to see a man having something to do with his life, making decent money, has his own space and dignity, doesn't get into fights, plays video games only in free time, has no alcohol/smoking addiction, works hard physically instead of going to gym and has a vision for the world, Something that he desires and wants. I'm going to kinda leave the forum today and just focus on journaling. I'm tired of the BS forum politics. I know I have said this many times but everytime I wake up I forget that I promised myself to leave the forum. I'm in a half sleepy state and unaware that I had said the same thing the previous day. The forum is too lame and toxic and my first step towards my own development should be to dissociate from the toxicity of this place. To get away from it and to not forget this that this is a lame ass place that serious people can never be too long in a place like this.. Everyone here is only for clout except a few serious journalers. Rest are bullshitters looking for a good time and they hate me because I don't give them that good time. Augurge

Congrats! Congrats! Congrats! Congrats!

What's a true Democrat?

Have you ever experienced deep pain and sorrow and like you were in a bottomless pit, then suddenly when you have hit rock bottom, everything comes flooding to you, all the love from your ancestors, from all the people who ever loved you and genuinely respected you, and they just hit you like a wave and give you all that love again and tell you to be strong and it's a watershed moment.

Question for contemplation.

I'm truly amazed and gobsmacked.

@inFlow sex can be both good and bad. If I have sex doesn't always mean it will be good sex.. And no harm in having ideas about sex before going for it. I just want the idea of it for my imagination

Can I take some parts of whatever you have written and put it in my journal.

Make more friends who can fight for you or stand up for you. You shouldn't be involved with people who are physical because that's a safety concern. If someone is verbally bullying you, as long as they're using bad words, it's fine, you can let go. If they are harming your reputation or resources, like workplace harassing, threats to life, stalking, then either confront them or let your boss know.. Although women like alphas, a woman liking bullies is not a great thing. You shouldn't look up to it. Those women have terrible self esteem and they are like clout chasers. They rely on these bullies for protection I guess. You shouldn't pay so much energy to these people as long as they aren't harmful. And they're being idiots, there's nothing masculine about bullying someone. And nothing unmasculine about being sensitive. But being overly sensitive has downsides in relationships. You could easily walk away if there's just a tiny bit of stress in a relationship. You need to build some resilience. Challenges in both relationships and life need you to be somewhat ALPHA. That's life and you can't complain about it. Even women have to be alpha. This is everyone's lot.

Hmm. Manny I'll always be yours.