Tyler Robinson

Heavy metal detoxification journal.

I don't know what I'm going to do. I'm just trying to survive.

I haven't really experienced Tinder. Everything I have speculated is based on the terrible stories I've heard about Tinder. But anyway, good if paying works, although paying for dating already sounds not so fun, drab. Taking a woman out on a date and paying for the dinner is fun fun but paying to get more swipes is such a hole in the sole. I don't know, but if I were a man It would make me feel like I'm desperate for women and that's a dip in self esteem. Ironically these dating apps are what makes men even more miserable. They don't boost self esteem. They make men more dependent on female validation especially by making them pay. It just sounds cheap and corny. Like paying to get a look at a girl. Imagine if you paid, then found the girl to be low quality, that's going to be a major disappointment. A hurt to the ego. Being rejected in real life is far better, at least you know you didn't lose any money in asking a woman out.. That's why dating apps should be a second option. Primary option should be real life socializing.

That's what I'm trying to imply. How do you know that the female profiles (I mean the extra ones) aren't bots(like paid testimonials), set up to make it look like you're profiting by paying? The whole thing could be a scam. Maybe even the dates are staged. There is no way to trust a system that is deliberately playing around the algorithm to make profit off vulnerable users. If they're using shady tactics, it's just another rabbit hole to avoid. Right now I surfed on YouTube and found many videos criticising Tinder and how people are swindled by it. This tells me that nothing about the Tinder algorithm can be trusted. Even the extra matches could be a part of their set up.

Also I'll never accept a guy who uses Tinder. Instant reject. In my eyes Tinder means bad reputation. So if I know the guy who I'm texting has used Tinder before, I would stop texting him. I cannot think of men who stuff like Tinder to be interested in wanting a relationship. So think again before you use Tinder. You risk losing other women who might have been interested in you otherwise since Tinder automatically creates a bad impression. You can say I'm being judgemental but just the way men have standards, women have standards too. My standards won't include men who use Tinder. That's a low quality place for low quality desperate horny men who look for sex only. I'm sorry but that's the impression Tinder creates in the minds of women who wish to date high quality men So one of my qualifications for a potential man would be that he should not have used Tinder. If you think this is a high standard, then it's not. Women want a basic dignified guy. And Tinder = zero dignity. It has a "whorish" reputation. "Low quality alley for sex" reputation. It's a serious disqualifier for men. Just letting you know this in advance because most women use subconscious brain filters (we shit test you all the time without letting you know, not those cruel shit tests, just basic screening for "good guy" feelers but we won't let you know that), women who are keen on finding a good partner are subconsciously ticking off boxes, and if I'm having lunch with a dude and he spoke about Tinder, next time I'm not going out with him. That's it. Zero compromise. So you wanna do all this Tinder nonsense then keep it a secret since it has low reputation. If not then risk losing women who will judge you in the future for it. Your choice. I'm telling you straight up because most women don't tell men the kind of men they reject. They don't give information on such things. So a lot of men are clueless to how they are being perceived by the women-kind by binging on their adventures of dating. If men are judge of a woman's character, then women judge men's value. And your value progressively declines as a man the more you dabble into dating adventures like Tinder. No pickup guru will ever tell you this because even they don't know how a man's value is preemptively judged by women beforehand. You can't change how a woman is programmed. Hard luck.

Can you give me ideas on passive sources of income?

I don't understand how paying for an app will change anything. If anything you're just filling someone's pockets. If you are having to pay for the results that you are supposed to get by already signing up, don't you think it's a straight up scam? Why would you pay for an algorithm? That makes no sense. It's like paying to walk in a park. You walk with or without paying, the experience of walking in a park should remain the same. Tinder is not a marriage site. It's dating. And it's supposed to be random, with or without algorithm. If they're screwing the algorithm on purpose to screw you, then you should screw them by not logging at all. Here's my rap song for Tinder - give it a read! Tinder is no beast Be smart at least and save up your buck to buy a cute treat for a girl you'll actually meet Signing off this thread goodbye.

I've noticed this - when I'm friends with a dude, he gives me a ton of respect. And when he gradually gets closer to me and becomes my lover/boyfriend he begins to take me for granted and respects other women the way he used to do(to me) prior to me being his girlfriend. Why does every guy do this? Every time I move from friend to girlfriend status, I get treated like "no longer important." Guys are only nice in the friendship and honeymoon (read hornymoon) phase of the dynamic and beyond that they become boring, don't pay as much attention to the girl, don't try to impress, lose interest and act tardy. I don't like how guys try so hard to impress me at first and then start acting like it doesn't matter anymore. I lose interest later with such behavior.

I apologize for my behavior.

No need to get drunk to please others.

Whatever happens, they say afterwards, it must have been fate. People are always a little confused about this, as they are in the case of miracles. When someone is saved from certain death by a strange concatenation of circumstances, they say that's a miracle. But of course if someone is killed by a freak chain of events -- the oil spilled just there, the safety fence broken just there -- that must also be a miracle. Just because it's not nice doesn't mean it's not miraculous. Terry Pratchett

@lisindel thank you.

Being around people doesn't make me happy. I'm tired, bored, dejected and sad right now.

Dale Wess Orson

. Yuresus Dale Wess Vincent

Out of all the places.

Role playing a loving girlfriend.

Loving girlfriend part 1 Being a wonderful feminine loving girlfriend and improving my quality as a woman. Learning to worship and respect men. Adoring men.. My general feelings. Regarding dating and relationships. Platonic. Emotional side of relationships. Loving girlfriend part 2 Other stuff. Nightmares.

Relax.

Did I really need someone like Dale in my life. The journal- a loving girlfriend will deal with my efforts to be a loving girlfriend. Especially Manny. My dreams of an ideal guy.

I displayed some symptoms and signs of OCD as well.

In some ways I always feel like my mental illness is taken advantage of. I escape into a deep dark sad mood. Pensive mood. I begin to contemplate on the meaninglessness of life.

I really don't know how to express my deeper feelings. What goes through my mind. I'm interested in deep connection with myself. I bought myself a brown teddy bear.

I don't even know what I'm doing right now. Just silently journaling.