Tyler Robinson

Some guy wanted to extract more information about me in the name of advising/answering my question. So I deleted my question in the dating section. I swear third world country attitude. I can just smell it Lunatics.

My family is deep stage blue. When I told them that I spent a lot of time with my ex boyfriend 4 years ago and that we were together for a night, they began to make a big deal out of it. They're constantly cussing me out and calling me slut and whore. I had to explain them that I didn't actually sleep with him. I simply slept beside him. I didn't have sexual intercourse with him. But they are just not ready to accept what I say. They're constantly pestering me asking me - how could you do this before marriage? And I keep explaining them that I'm still a virgin and that I never had it but they don't understand that I was sexually intimate with my boyfriend but didn't have sex. They're shaming me for being with him before being married How should I convince them that I didn't do anything wrong and although I didn't have premarital sex, that premarital sex is not a bad idea. Now they have stuck this label on me and everytime there's an argument they call me shameless and whore. It's impossible to make them understand.

https://www.spiritual-integrity.org/ethics/ Honor Code As spiritual teachers, we commit to: 1. Holding ourselves to the highest standards of ethics, right behavior, and professional competency, as commonly recognized by our peers. 2. Performing our roles as teachers in a caring and compassionate manner, in both one-to-one interactions and groups. 3. Respecting the rights, dignity, and safety of all students and fellow practitioners. 4. Fostering autonomy, empowerment, self-sufficiency, and emotional maturity in our students. 5. Treating students’ questions, concerns, doubts, and experiences with respect, and never trivializing or dismissing their enquiries. 6. Being self-aware, open, and humble about the limitations of our knowledge and experience. 7. Making only honest, realistic statements regarding the benefits of our teachings, practices, courses, and other offerings. 8. Refraining from giving counsel in matters outside of our areas of training and expertise, and making appropriate referrals as needed. 9. Being honest and transparent regarding our professional business and financial matters. 10. Honoring the sanctity of privacy and maintaining the confidentiality of everything conveyed to us in confidence. 11. Abiding by local laws with respect to the disclosure of information in cases of sexual abuse, child endangerment, and the intention to harm oneself or others. 12. Using only with proper care and caution any techniques that can potentially cause harmful side effects. 13. Acknowledging that, regardless of our spiritual attainment, we are human beings with human personalities, limitations, drives, and needs. 14. Not seeking or presuming exalted privileges or glorified status because of our role as spiritual teachers. 15. Never manipulating, exploiting, or deceiving a student to satisfy our personal aspirations, needs, or desires. 16. Establishing and maintaining clear and wholesome professional boundaries with all students, employees, and associates. 17. Never abusing the trust of students to obtain sexual gratification, money, free labor, or other personal benefits. 18. Being particularly mindful of sexual boundaries with students—and honoring them at all times. 19. Cultivating and practicing honesty, integrity, compassion, humility, and empathy. 20. Engaging in continuous self-reflection, learning, and holistic personal growth. 21. Regularly reviewing our motivations for serving as teachers and monitoring the integrity of our words and actions. 22. Encouraging feedback about our own methods and behavior—and taking that feedback seriously. This includes complaints submitted to the ASI. 23. Addressing promptly any personal issues, concerns, or challenges that might affect our professional competency. 24. Offering support to our colleagues and fellow ASI members, to the extent that we are able and available.

Funnily, this is something that reminds me of — rules only exist on paper. ................... One thing I have observed and learned about spiritual teachers/groups/communities/organizations is that these people/groups are only held accountable when something really ugly happens like too many suicides rocking the community, too many rapes or cases of sexual abuse, and something is done only when it reaches the brim. Does something close to this as an analogy? I scratched and scratched my brain. Eureka! The thing that comes closest to this as an analogy is - oppressive dictatorships. People only rebel when things are out of hand and the regime is extremely cruel and corrupt. That's when people get the common sense to topple these regimes and establish democracies. Yea pretty much similar. Anything related to Religion/Spirituality is similar to an oppressive dictatorship. You'd be lucky if you found yourself in a healthy one, that's just pure luck because most are infested with cult like dynamics. Think like this - is there a healthy religion out there? Maybe, for example Buddhism. But still. The problem which such things is not the issue of moderation/regulation by an authority to check abuse of ethics but that these systems are inherently and fundamentally flawed by design. People who create such systems want to monopolize power and resources. It's almost like asking why are dictatorships so toxic. The answer is quite simple — because they are just designed to be so. The people who want to be dictators cannot be good people and obviously dictatorships will never attract healthy people in the first place. There are inherent toxic stage Red elements put in place that make these systems dysfunctional by default. That's how I look at this. Such groups attract cult leaders and cult leaders are psychopaths. The system is flawed at the root because it's meant to attract people who crave power at the helm. And such people are like bullies, nothing stops them from trying the inevitable, from wanting to harm in order to control. Defective by design. So the formula is kinda just baked into it. They will always seek harm because they always want control, that's why they exist as isolated groups and communes in the first place. Just my 2 cts.

There's hardly ethics followed in any other field let alone spirituality. There's corruption in the police force.. Psychologists and psychiatrists routinely break guidelines. Dr K? Most spiritual groups are full of cultists. Spiritual communities are the least moderated /regulated groups out there. It would be like policing a bar where people get drunk and engage in fist fights. Spiritual communities are just as shady as the internet. You can't expect a clean experience. It will be decades before such a thing is even a possibility. How many religions have we succeeded in getting rid of? This is "do it at your own risk" sort of a thing. There will never be proper guidelines for this. The only thing someone can ever do is raise awareness about the dangers of spiritual communities that behave like cults and let people make their own choices. People who are not ignorant and care about their own well-being will be less likely to join such things I compare this phenomenon to drugs. Ignorant people will always want to experiment with dangerous drugs despite being fully aware of the consequences of it. Yet people who are wise and are thoroughly responsible/matured will never do such things. I'm not trying to victim blame. My point is that toxic things exist in the world because some people like those toxic things. They really want it. This is a part of self regulation rather than public regulation since it's impossible to monitor every community. Some communities are secret.

So tired

So I reflected on the aspects of productivity and motivation and much of it is high energy, high vibe, fighting, struggling, pushing forward, being passionate, excited, fierce and pumping, moving upwards and gaining momentum etc. It's like fire. It's very motivating Then I watched some videos about self love and healing and taking care of the self and I noticed the gentler aspects of self improvement which are not about being Type A. Just no pressure, relax, letting go, taking care of oneself. A sophisticated system of - Gentleness /Empathetic connection - softness, pleasantness, caring-ness, compassionate emotional intelligence - sophisticated soft delicate gentle vibe. There's an emotional sensitive sweetness to it. I'll call it Emocouvia(my new word lol) This is relax, balance, rest, peace, calm. Emocouvia is about moving downwards, being gentle, balance, peace, resting, soft, Empathetic, sweetness, listening, flowing calmly and freely without the tension of upward mobility. Both systems are necessary equally. You need days where you want to feel active, charged, motivated and excited to inject your work with passion and pushing forward, making progress. But you also need days, when you want to wind down, be on the down low, be gentle and passively protective,just compassionate and gentle with the self, emotional yet not overly emotional, just soft with how you feel and connect and gentle with yourself and everything around you. Being a bit sensitive and pleasant and appreciating pleasant vibes. Sort of a refuge for the tired wounded hyper stimulated self yet with some gentle tacit passive motivation still woven into it. So I used the words "emotional" and "cove" and created my own word Emocouvia to describe this soft vibe and state of Gentleness combined with soft (less loaded) emotion.

So I reflected on the aspects of productivity and motivation and much of it is high energy, high vibe, fighting, struggling, pushing forward, being passionate, excited, fierce and pumping, moving upwards and gaining momentum etc. It's like fire. It's very motivating Then I watched some videos about self love and healing and taking care of the self and I noticed the gentler aspects of self improvement which are not about being Type A. Just no pressure, relax, letting go, taking care of oneself. A sophisticated system of - Gentleness /Empathetic connection - softness, pleasantness, caring-ness, compassionate emotional intelligence - sophisticated soft delicate gentle vibe. There's an emotional sensitive sweetness to it. I'll call it Emocouvia(my new word lol) This is relax, balance, rest, peace, calm. Emocouvia is about moving downwards, being gentle, balance, peace, resting, soft, Empathetic, sweetness, listening, flowing calmly and freely without the tension of upward mobility. Both systems are necessary equally. You need days where you want to feel active, charged, motivated and excited to inject your work with passion and pushing forward, making progress. But you also need days, when you want to wind down, be on the down low, be gentle and passively protective,just compassionate and gentle with the self, emotional yet not overly emotional, just soft with how you feel and connect and gentle with yourself and everything around you. Being a bit sensitive and pleasant and appreciating pleasant vibes. Sort of a refuge for the tired wounded hyper stimulated self yet with some gentle tacit passive motivation still woven into it. So I used the words "emotional" and "cove" and created my own word Emocouvia to describe this soft vibe and state of Gentleness combined with soft (less loaded) emotion.

So the key components of a deeply spiritual life are Self Love. Self Love requirements /raw materials Self care. Healing Instincts Spiritual balance Purification Emotional Support System Love and Wisdom. Divine strength Divine connection Divine guidance Kundalini forces(fierce) Ma'at Spiritual and Psychic energy Divine motivational force Prayer Chakra system Mutually supporting systems Black magic, witchcraft, spells, sigils Protection. Dragon energy. Hyena energy. Serpent energy Gentleness /Empathetic connection - softness, pleasantness, caring-ness, compassionate emotional intelligence - sophisticated soft delicate gentle vibe. There's an emotional sensitive sweetness to it. I'll call it Emocouvia(my new word lol) This is relax, balance, rest, peace, calm. Opposite of Kundalini ferocity. Kundalini is all about getting charged and moving upwards at speed. Whereas Emocouvia is about moving downwards, being gentle, balance, peace, resting, soft, Empathetic, sweetness, listening, flowing calmly and freely without the tension of upward mobility

Two mindsets that keep you away from toxic relationships One is An empowering mindset Second is Abundant mindset not scarcity mindset And the third mindset Bravery mindset And the fourth mindset Stallion mindset

Creating a solid emotional support system.

And I'm also going to be talking about self love and how self love is the ultimate healing road to all problems and the road to living the best life. Self Love is the most important core aspect of spirituality other than Kundalini. So the key components of a deeply spiritual life are Self Love. Self care. Healing Instincts Spiritual balance Purification Emotional Support System Love and Wisdom. Divine strength Divine connection Divine guidance Kundalini forces Ma'at Spiritual and Psychic energy Divine motivational force Prayer

Creating a solid emotional support system. (where there is no real love, no wisdom, evil will take up space like weed growing in a garden which is not tended. Where there is a strong real love, divine guidance, divine connection, spiritual balance, wisdom, evil cannot live there, only God's aura can live there, goodness can live there. Ma'at can live there. Kundalini lives there.

Recipe for self love First - raw materials Self Love porridge Self care self improvement

Entire list of Kundalini Sywek Gods Seth Horus Dayhrium nekbet Monusi Gauwgel Anubis Tawaret Maat Hathor Dayhrium Bastet ..... Kerymet Shethyeth God Nut or Aaaak Goddess Nut

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I always think I must have low IQ. But there's hope for people like me. (I suffer autism) Recently I have realized that I don't need to feel so helpless about this. I'm contemplating that the brain is like a muscle. It can be trained to think and think and think. (I suck at this because my brain often goes fully blank). If I keep training my brain, maybe I'll keep getting better at making decisions and thinking. Anyone with similar struggles who relates and has probably found alternative solutions and insights? Thanks. (most people do better than me on intelligence based tests and I get low scores and that gets me very upset that I can't compete with them) sucks ass.

I'm so fricking tired I feel like killing myself.

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