Tyler Robinson

You got to stop thinking that life revolves around women. That's your biggest problem. Invest in yourself. Take up some hobby that motivates you. Bring meaning to your life. Stop playing with your life. Try to lead a meaningful path. You're living in a shallow world of relationships and giving it way too much credit and importance. Your behavior could be the result of too much social media influence. Cut it down. Maybe you're busy comparing yourself to others. Life is meaningful with or without relationships. Understand this. You're desperate for female validation. Notice this drama in your life is playing out because of your excessive attachment to the idea of a woman or a perfect relationship. Remove this attachment and you'll notice a huge difference in perception. Everything will change. Say to yourself - "nothing matters." Make those words a reality.

Yea exactly. It just seems odd to even suppress something that is naturally arising. Feels like going against nature. Well it might have some health benefits like not losing physical energy or protein from your body, I think the mental harm caused by suppressing desires outweighs any benefits that people boast about. It's almost like mental torture, one might get used to it after a while, but long term suppression might even lead to deviant sexual behavior.

You offer very reasonable arguments but I think this statement is straight out of fantasy. Most people are not good at self control. It's a tough. The urge for sex or drinking is quite strong. Unless you have some hormonal problem going on, I'm sure you would have periods where you really crave it. Suppression of sexual desires is not healthy either.

@KH2 I mean you could still do porn and keep it in moderation. You don't need to be a porn maniac..

I think it's a good idea if a therapist is high consciousness but sometimes I feel we cause too much judgement by constantly placing people in boxes on the basis of character and or behavior. It's not so black and white. So meanwhile she might be a heavy drinker at the bar, she could still be capable of spewing some wise nuggets that you could apply to your life's situations. Don't judge a book by its cover as the saying goes. Keep it simple. Focus on the advice and not on the person.

Yea I would agree with this. It causes a ton of harm.

Consciously untangle yourself from all the activities around you. And then place your focus solely on your mind. Let emotions and thoughts flow. You could write them down. Keep a track on your thoughts and if they are negative then don't be attached, just let them pass..

Entry4/2 Wednesday, 10 August 2022, Columbus, Ohio. it's good to break up with those who don't bond with you strongly. just be who you are. don't judge but also don't put up with other's shit.

I don't know what to do about it. I'm just a bit tired.

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That's why I used the word primarily.

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I think it has lot to do with trauma and female dominance. If you had a dominant female or male figure in your life, you would be attracted to people that resemble or mirror the qualities of that figure. Because sex primarily involves domination of some form, you have to figure out the gender that played the dominant role in your upbringing - male or female. It depends on the scenario. If your dominant figure was a dad, and you are a male then you would most likely grow up to be a dominant man yourself and expect your future partner to act the way your mom did. If you're a girl, then you would look for dominant males. If your dominant figure was a mom, and you're a male, you act like a stereotypical mama's boy, if you're a girl, then you would want dominant males once again. For women, any dominant parent, whether mom or dad makes them submissive. Dominant women are not a product of their parental upbringing. They are generally biologically that way, but I assume that most dominant women either have a submissive dad or both submissive parents. I had a submissive dad but I turned out to be submissive because of a dominant mother. I have seen bossy dominant women, but mostly in a very feminist culture. Although I wasn't raised by a dominant dad, I always craved dominant men. It's not always necessary that we look for partners who mirror the opposite sex parent in our family. For example, I am never attracted to submissive men although my dad was submissive. I was heavily dominated by my mom and most of my relationships were a reflection of this pattern she had created where I would look for a guy who would dominate me the way she did, I would always try to recreate that dynamic.

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