Tyler Robinson

Diary2 - Updates journal Entry3/2

Diary2 - Updates journal Entry2/2

Diary2 - Updates journal Entry1/2

Diary36 - Mind clearing diary Entry11/36

Diary36 - Mind clearing diary Entry10/36

Diary36 - Mind clearing diary Entry9/36

Diary36 - Mind clearing diary Entry8/36

Diary36 - Mind clearing diary Entry7/36

Diary36 - Mind clearing diary Entry6/36

Diary36 - Mind clearing diary Entry5/36

Diary36 - Mind clearing diary Entry4/36

Diary36 - Mind clearing diary Entry3/36

Diary36 - Mind clearing diary Entry2/36

Diary35 - Mass shooters Entry1/35

Diary32 - Diary of a liar Entry1/32

Diary34 - Death Entry1/34

First of all, sleep as early as possible. Switch off devices. Relax and calm yourself. Cut caffeine in your diet. Regular cold showers. Hit gym.

I don't have many friends. I lost a few of them I had over the past year. Now I'm feeling a bit insecure. These were my school friends but they moved and they just decided to forget me. I don't hold any grudge because people forget each other over time. Now I'm desperately looking for new friends. And it's getting hard. I feel like I just don't know many people. What are the some of the best options to make a ton of friends as quickly as possible. I'm growing impatient. I no longer care if they're deep friends or not.

I'm looking specifically for online friends to chat with. I don't have time to go out because of work related stuff.

And how do you do it?

It's hard to find really deep friends. Especially because of the internet. People drop you at the click of a button. Try to find communities where people resonate with your thoughts. I had many friends that I lost because they simply forgot or lost attachment. Or they were never friends to begin with, simply pretending to be. I would describe a deep friendship as someone who doesn't judge you, respects you, is available when you need them, doesn't betray you, doesn't ghost you and does not want for superficial reasons or clout chasing. It's hard because most people won't stick around.

Yea these are really nice people imo. Had good interactions with these.

I usually get along with ENFPs. My last bf was that. I usually get along with most MBTIs. It depends on their level of emotional intelligence across the board.

@Raptorsin7 I have been in a situation where my ex lied to me about his bisexuality. I asked him again and again about it. He was hiding it. He thought that if he told me about it, I would reject him. Back then I was a bit, you could say, not so comfortable with the idea of entertaining bisexuality. I probably would have rejected him. So our relationship ended and he later on admitted that he was bisexual which hurt me because I thought he should have let me know early on. That day I reflected on why he wasn't being open about the truth to me. I realized that he thought he was going to be judged or shamed. His idea was not to deceive me. He was only hiding because he was not too open about such things, he didn't know how I would react to it. Hindsight is always 20/20. I don't think that way anymore. Now I'm more open to the idea of bisexuality than before. My transformation to becoming a trans has helped me understand and explore the idea of transgenderism and homosexuality. A few weeks ago when I confided in a male colleague about my trans situation, he was very pissed. Next day he gave me a death threat and said that such people do not belong in society. That has caused me to not open up about my trans struggles to people around me. It becomes difficult to tell the whole truth when you're judged and shamed by those around you. In addition people get to call me a liar if I don't tell the whole truth. It's a tricky thing. What prompted me to comment is the statement you made - "I fucking hate dishonest people." Not gonna lie but that statement hurt me very badly because I have been dishonest too in my life to people around me. But I only did so because I always feared their judgement and hate towards me.. Being truthful was probably a huge struggle for me ever since childhood. But I know deep down that I never had bad intentions. I was just addicted to lying and dishonesty and a lot of it has to do with the way I felt judged all the time. That prompted me to comment, I can see others struggling with truth just the way I do. If we all lived with more compassion and less judgement, maybe people would feel much better being truthful. Just my two cents. I'm also writing a journal on serial killers and Mass shooters and trying to understand why they kill people. At the end of the day, after a thorough contemplation on the nature of good and evil I have come to the following conclusion - All the evil we see in the world is the evil we ourselves create. It goes along the lines of another famous saying - Be the change you wish to see in the world. What I mean is - we blame all the evil on a person, on people who do wrong things. But it's the ultimate absence of love that gives birth to all this evil. People who do wrong things are mere scapegoats that we point our fingers to. Who are the mass shooters? Who are the narcissists? Who are the psychopaths? We might blame them endlessly. But that doesn't solve the problem. We give birth to them. We create them and we blame them. These people were raised by the same society that blames and shames them. We don't want to address their trauma, their concerns, their parenting, their upbringing but we just want to put them in jail and throw away the key, without addressing the issues at their root. I feel this is unjust and unfair. Evil is not an external force with puppet strings in the hands of the devil. Evil is right here within us and we cause it because we don't want to truly love each other. It creates separation. Separation creates a society of you versus them. Then a person no longer cares about you and scams you. We don't see the underlying connections. We only blame the person. There's a saying in the Bible - don't blame the sinner, blame the sin. So yeah, when we create a more compassionate society, we won't have charlatans, sociopaths, psychopaths and mass shooters. There won't exist a need for one person to do wrong to another because where there is empathy there is no greed, there is no bad intent. Just my contemplative thoughts on the subject of good and bad, good versus evil

I appreciate this and this is good. But not everyone works with your own code of conducting things. People have different perspectives. Depends on how they were raised, their trauma, their insecurities. Maybe they were treated very badly whenever they came out with the truth. It's always good to be sensitive to what factors might be inhibiting the other person from being or doing the highest good.. We can't judge them from our moral lense. And just because someone is at a lower level on the scale of morality(since morality is relative anyway), it does not always imply that they're a horrible person at heart. It could be a good person at heart not really aware of how they're screwing others. On the flip side, sometimes we think we are doing good by bringing attention to charlatans. There is a saying that goes - the road to hell is paved with good intentions. You might not be directly threatening his family or career. However constantly dragging him in the mud could potentially ruin his career for good. I mean it's like - he stole a few bucks from you and that's just money. But you could be stealing his whole life, his peace of mind, his reputation. Who is the bigger thief. Sometimes we hurt others 10000 times more than they hurt us, just to console our own moral righteousness. The path to true spirituality comes through non judgement and empathy. Growth in consciousness. By judging too harshly we create a wrong versus right society, we create division. We create a society of sinners versus good people. But in the eyes of God, every child is same. Hopefully you will develop that compassion for those who did wrong to you. With that said I finish here, have a good day. Cheers.