Tyler Robinson

SE please protect me.

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#trust the process. I have a genuine heart. It will always show. I don't need to destroy myself in trying to fight evil Remember to run away from dark smoke. Always. I pray to SE to protect me.

I always believed and trusted in this Supernatural Entity. They can use their weapons. Allow them to. That's what SE told me I'm still free And I'm celebrating.

The Shadow, also known as the The Empty, is a mysterious cosmic being/entity who lives in and controls the Empty, a place of nothingness predating God, Death and the Darkness.

I was talking about Larka 1, Larka 2 and Larka 3 These supernatural entities. The question is what did I forget? Larka1 being God like Entity. Larka2 being a Satan like entity. And Larka 3 representing the snake of materialism.

I'm not an intellectually gifted person.. I have been diagnosed with autism. I have been repeatedly targeted and labeled as a "fool" by these so called intelligent people. But from my personal experience of dealing with intelligent folks, they never called me a fool. Granted they didn't call me intelligent and I'm not that smart, you can see from my replies that I'm not smart. But at least I wasn't called a fool. And these were highly intelligent people. That's why I said that highly intelligent people don't go around calling others fools. That's not a sign of intelligence. I think from my experience I only wish to deal with highly intelligent people. You're making a mistake. You're conflating intelligent with intellectual. It's one thing to score high IQ and be intellectually gifted and another thing to be truly intelligent. Like Leo says intelligence cannot be measured by IQ. Although intellectual people are also nice to hang out with, I would be careful about intellectual folks with narcissistic qualities. I have had my fair share dealing with the types you are referring to. And they took me on a hell ride completely abusing my trust. I can spot them. Easily. You only have to see their boasting and you know right away. They keep telling how much they are contributing to the world. I had the misery of dealing with these highly intellectual narcissistic types and they made me sign invisible contracts to shut my mouth. And I like a loser signed the contract allowing the abuse to go on for months. Finally I broke the terms of the contract. I don't know what I was doing or why I took me so long to break the contract. But finally I succeeded. I learned a lot of lessons, first not to sign such contracts with people. I was like a donkey being lead on. I admit that I am not the wisest in the crowd. But I'm also not a fool. I did out of emotions. I was made to believe that I am protecting someone. I was exploited for months and months until I began to suffer physically and finally told the other person about the contract. And I got freedom that day. It's very difficult for people like me because I am too autistic. My autism is what people take advantage of. But I'm not going to deal with such people again. I'm only going to talk to intelligent people like Leo. Because such people don't exploit me. They understand my weaknesses. They don't call me a fool for my weakness. They don't set up traps for me.. One sign is that they will not dictate me on how to do or what to Do. They don't treat me like a donkey. They are generally protective of me. I'm safe with such people is what I observed.

God is already doing what God can do.

Nah. Delusional and fools are not the same. Maybe same for you. Not in my mind. Fools is a derogatory way of referring to someone. It means you consider them worthless. But delusional is not the same. Delusional does not mean they are worthless. A fool is unconscious. A delusional person is not unconscious. They are well aware of what they are doing but choose to do it anyway because they think they are doing something good in the world, meanwhile achieving the opposite. They really believe that they are better than everyone. They are not better than anyone. By calling someone a thief, I don't become a thief. I am simply calling a spade a spade. I don't know their reasoning. But I know that they are generally humble about it. They don't brag about how intelligent they are. That's the last thing they do.

Because I have dealt with low consciousness people and only I know how much that can hurt. I'm not demeaning them. I'm pointing to out what they do. You're thinking that I'm insulting them. Pointing out how I suffered because of someone's actions is not the same as demeaning them. I usually do not prefer to say bad things about others or to others. But if someone has caused me deep pain and suffering then I am going to dish out some precious things to them, why not. And you can say that I'm doing the same thing that they are doing. But this is precisely the reason why you should avoid them, because they reduce you to their level of bad behavior. It's like they gossip and then you are forced to play their game in order to deal with them. In other words they bring out the worst in you. In order to deal with their attacks you have to attack them. Obviously it will make you look bad. But that's the whole point. If you cut off these people out of your life, you won't need to become like them. Like I said I'm not interested in demeaning them but I am forced to attack when I'm under attack. It's like you have to punch someone finally when they don't stop punching you. So the solution? Just cut them out otherwise you will begin to engage in the same behavior you criticize them for which I was doing right now.

Low consciousness people are very predatory. Dealing with them is a source of lifetime of torment. Once you have the misfortune of running into them, there's no catching break. They'll always hound you and make sure you suffer, that's why I call them predatory. They're the apex predator in the crowd and they will use every opportunity to sadistically abuse and exploit you. These predatory people have a Karen mentality where they simply cannot have someone who is trying to go about with their lives. They will call 911 on a black man who is doing nothing but simply standing in a park. Such predatory people exploit those who are weak or vulnerable in order to play victim every chance they get. They actually act like victims but in reality they act too entitled and privileged and unable to see their entitlement because they are narcissistic as hell. They will destroy your life by constantly hounding you. They will find you wherever you are and look for an opportunity to attack your Vulnerability. They will scour through your personal life to find that one piece of information that they can use against you, fucking predators. They are like child abusers and use your naive innocence to abuse you and when they are confronted they will go back to their victim playing nonsense. They will make a mountain out of a molehill. And this is a fundamental characteristic of these low consciousness predators.. They will invent stories upon stories to set you up and when you actually look into the details, you'll realize there was hardly anything that such a big fuss was made out of. How to deal with low consciousness freaky predators who are always hell bent on ruining your peace of mind - First is that you learn nothing from them other than that you were too naive to trust them in the first place. That's always your first and only fault. This is probably the biggest learning lesson. You can't simply avoid these people since you don't know how to detect or screen them in a crowd. But you could still use some ways to deal with these people and their frustrating nonsense if you are dealing with one. Keep an eye out for the following toxic traits: Jittery, nervous energy. Constant whining and complaining Clinginess and dependency Criticism, usually aimed everywhere Negative or cynical worldview And in extreme cases, abuse The most important point here to remember is how these people constantly whine about the same thing or person over and over and can never get over it. They engage in constant complaining and whining. We all have our down days. But when it comes to toxic people, the blues are a constant rain cloud. And they want everyone to be just as wet and miserable as them. If you never see emotions other than anger, sadness, and jealousy, it is best to steer clear of that personality. Low consciousness people can never be happy for others even if that other person has long moved on and doesn't want anything to do with them. But such low consciousness predators simply cannot see others moving on or being happy. This is a hallmark of such destructive behavior Trust your gut- if someone makes you upset and uncomfortable, make some space. You can see it, even feel it, in your interaction. Once you get the feeling of awkwardness around these people, just believe yourself and move away. You can always tell something is off and you know when something is off, and you know to avoid such people. One indicator is that they will suddenly ghost you out of nowhere and you'll be left clueless. The problem with such people they can never have relationships with true emotions. That's why it's so easy for them to be so cold towards you, they are so hollow from inside and they lack empathy for your emotions and its totally visible in their narcissistic ghosting behavior. These people hardly ever change, even if they do, they simply do it for social approval.. They never own up how they screw up things in a dynamic. It's always the other person's fault. They are very narcissistic so they will find every opportunity to one up you. Instead of trying to collaborate with you they will engage in stupid toxic rivalry with you. Because for such people stupid rivalry is more important than learning something new. These people have nothing unique or original about themselves. They closely stalk and follow members of their own species to even copy their writing style or their disorders. They constantly have this poor me attitude and they will always find something new to add to their poor me arsenal. They will never call themselves a narcissist because it hurts their pride. Anything that makes them look like a proper victim to the public is actually good. Do you know someone who finds the darkness in everything? Much like your parents on Thanksgiving, misery loves company. These people will always complain about something, never see the good in anything, and claim they hate everything. It's exhausting just thinking about it, which is why they'll try to drag you into their little pity party. People with very negative worldview will often be competitive about their misery, trying to outdo other people's sadness. This is the worst. When you talk about your problems, they go back to talking about their problems trying to outcompete you. Again the vulnerable narcissist.. They are always looking for people to pity meanwhile acting like they are trying to empower others. Watch out for people who constantly, even gleefully, talk about their failures and sadness. Anyone who criticizes the failures of others, or seems overly cynical, might have a toxic personality worth avoiding. They will never take responsibility for hurting you. Forget about closure or apologies, they will simply come up with excuses like they were drunk or they were high on drugs for all the abuse and pain and suffering they put you through. It's like a woman who rams her car into another vehicle carrying a child and ends up hurting the baby and her "poor me" excuse is that she was simply drunk instead of taking responsibility for the hurt and damage they caused. But their sense of entitlement is so severe that they can scarcely comprehend the amount of damage they cause to other people, instead they will try to find a way to escape their accountability and get away with it with lame fucking excuses like "being drunk." it's always about how they are so innocent. They will constantly prey on your flaws, your mistakes, your scars, your wounds, they will rummage through even the most minor insignificant details of your life to find something on you and paint you as a target so that you get humiliated by everyone and they can sit back and watch the whole thing go down meanwhile pretending like they don't like drama. This is like a person who watches a house burn up in flames, comes around and pours gasoline and immediately runs away and comes back and makes it look like they had nothing to do with it. They are always the prime participants in a drama but when it gets too much especially when it begins to come in their direction, they begin to backpedal their way out of it. Basically they are shit starters but always claim they had no part in it. You can never be Vulnerable or open to them about your flaws. They will use this as an opportunity to put you down and basically prey on you so that you suffer. Instead of being forgiving, they will relentlessly use your flaws to prey on your sanctity. They are never forgiving. You can see this video that explains this kind of Vulnerable toxic narcissism. If you run into a problem with such people a year ago, they will use something that happened over a long period of time, be totally unforgiving and constantly bring up that and maintain a permanent grudge against you and use that to attack you over and over. They just cannot ever give up.. They can never forgive. Like Grande suggests, they will victimize you over something that is insignificant and happened over a long time ago and use that as a weapon against you to continue tormenting you. Like I said they are vicious predators. Feel lucky and celebrate if you are free from their vampirish clutches.. They never let go. The video that explains how unforgiving these vicious predators are.

Also low consciousness people have a "poor me" attitude. They take others disorders and attach it to themselves in an effort to play victim to a larger crowd.

It's generally the low consciousness people who like to demean others and call them fools. Because their fingers are always pointing outwards. Also low consciousness people think too highly of themselves. In fact people who are highly intelligent tend to doubt themselves very often and are generally humble because Humility is a very potent sign of a highly intelligent sane person It's the delusional types who always like to believe that they are somehow above the crowd. And these people copy others style and even follow them around but pretend like things are the other way round. They're like the housewives who constantly complain about how they don't like drama but exactly go looking for it by inserting themselves deliberately into other people's personal lives, stories and conflicts. Also low consciousness people love to gossip about other's lives and can't get enough of it. And when shit hits the fan and smacks them in their faces, they begin to backpedal and hide themselves in embarrassment because they simply can't have the Humility of being challenged on their drama.

The people who consistently call others narcissists are narcissists themselves. The only thing they lack is a mirror. How obtuse. For a hammer, everything and everyone looks like a nail. Do they really try to let go? Not really. Low IQ folks almost always contradict themselves and always fail to see their own hypocrisy. Such hypocrites can cause too much drama in your life and so it's best to be free of them. I agree that such socializing can completely damage you, not just make you stupid. Once you learn how to stay away from such people completely, you can be away from their perilous ways and get time to focus on your growth. Also its always dumb people who try to compete. Intelligent people don't weaponize rivalry.

one of the best ways to avoid such people is to detect signs of victimhood in such people. If anybody plays victim, then avoid. That's what those two people did to me. Also people who help you can be abusive too. Two people who played victim to me and two people who tried to help me. All four were abusive and exploitive. They had one thing in common. They were all low IQ. Maybe they did all this unconsciously. So this is how it went. 2 people whined and played victim by telling me how another person was abusing them. One made me sign a contract which I did. Another made me go attack another innocent person which I did on their behalf because they told me all these stories how they were abused. And they encouraged me to attack. I got into savior mode and went after the person who abused them. Afterward the other person told me that such thing had never happened. They showed me evidence. Then I felt betrayed.. I apologized to the person I had attacked. The second person did the same trick but made me sign a contract. They spoke very sweetly to me and I'm such a sucker for sweet talk. So I believed that them. They told me that everything was for good reasons. I had a great friendship with the other person. This second person kept feeding me a lot of garbage for months and months and I began to realize that something might not be true. That's when I broke the contract and told the other person about it. Instantly the second person blocked me calling me a psychopath because I broke their contract. I could see their manipulation. Next two people were who spoke sweetly to me and told me how much they love me. One person ghosted me because they didn't need me anymore. It was out of the blue. The other person, they manipulated me and then used me as a punching bag for their needs and issues. I realized that any person who is helping me might also have an agenda. Only one person out of the four was high IQ but he was a fucking narcissist who played his game well. Now I try to avoid three types of people during socializing - 1) people who try to get too close to me super fast, I can feel that they want something out of me and it's probably not something nice. They give me creeps. Because something is not right. Why they want me so bad? Earlier I used to believe them. Now I don't trust people who come close to me. They are first to be off my list. I know it's no good if they want me too badly. 2) people who bitch to me and gossip about how someone did this that to them. These people are feeding on my "savior" personality. I generally become like mama bear and get protective of people who are abused. But I think I have been exploited because of this. I was fed lot of stories upon stories and after believing them I was told to protect these people. Which I did and got into a lot of trouble. Because those stories were made up. 3) people who try to fix me or help me. These are very dangerous people. They come to me telling me how much they care about me and make me emotional. Afterward they start playing games. Then they take advantage of my weakness and start exploiting it by treating me badly. I met one high iQ man and although he was a total psychopath he wasn't that bad. He did not take advantage of me. He helped me without harming me. He also had an agenda which I came to know about in the end. But he was at least civil with me. So high IQ are a safe bet. They don't exploit or start shit. They don't twist things. They don't play victim or try to help. They keep proper distance and don't get too close. At least nobody is exploiting in the name of helping. So I think socializing with high iQ actually benefited me great deal. They did not exploit me and I also got to learn from them. Although some of them can be narcissistic, but that's okay, you can filter out those ones. There are lots of high iQ people who are not narcissists. Choose those

I'm not trying to say that I'm perfect. I'm far from perfect. I also hurt people by lying to them. I am bit psychopath in that sense. But just because I am not perfect, I don't deserve to be thrown around like a ragdoll and emotionally exploited. It's best if I stay far away from people for good,in that sense Leo is right, socializing is not only making you stupid but could be harmful. The one strategy around it would be to socialize from far and not get too involved with anyone. And not put emotional investment. And only put emotional investment when that person has consistently shown trust for many many years. I can't really vouch for this because I trusted someone for more than six months by emotionally investing in them and they betrayed me. So I really don't know what to advice. Just use your gut maybe. I have seen someone being betrayed after two solid years of trusting. So I am not really aware of the right solution. Just stick around with people who stick around..

I made mistakes too but not intentionally. The problem with me is my lack of self awareness because of my autism and my mental disorder means I will act very reckless around people which I did. When I did things with people like lying I did not do it on purpose. Without malicious intent. I did not think through in the moment the consequences in the future. I did not take anything too seriously and then it was taken as malicious intent. I tend to act inappropriate because of my autism. But I never had any specific agenda or motive to cause hurt. Everything happened the way it was designed without me thinking too much. So while signing the contract I did not think too much about the future and the consequences of agreeing to the contract. As a result when I broke it, the person thought I was being a psychopath by betraying them. However it was simply my recklessness. I hadn't thought much while agreeing to it. I'm also extremely forgiving. I can even forgive a person who is trying to kill me. I believe in compassion, not because I am a good person and in fact I am not a very good person at all but I still believe in compassion. And forgiveness too..but forgiveness is like a double edger sword. One side is that by forgiving people, they can easily come back into your life and exploit you again. The other side is that they can change and become good people to you or by forgiving them you are showing humanity which is good. That's why it's tricky. One thing I learned is forgive but don't forget. Don't go back especially when someone repeatedly broke boundaries. Give 2-3 chances, enough, after that just cut them out for good. But throughout these things I learned a lot on what not to do. I avoided things that got me into trouble. When I'm being reckless around people I'm not thinking too much. Then it blows up and boomerangs back into my face and that's when I realize ii fucked up. So it's never intentional. But like I said it's best to avoid people especially people who aren't cool enough, Judge and shame too much, people who don't try to connect with you. People who don't put a decent amount of effort in gaining your trust. But there are no guarantees. In fact I'm more wary of people who try to gain my trust because it almost always ends up with me being betrayed somehow. I see their true colors later. Socializing is like a gamble. You're exposing yourself and it can go either way, good or bad or really ugly. There is no formula that can work.. The only thing that works in my opinion is time. Give time. The very first signs of Drama and unnecessary allegations and false victimhood - immediately cut out. Any judging, blaming, shaming, cut out. You come to know a little later not before so give time. Within a few weeks you realize what you're dealing with. Mostly people who bitch a lot and complain about your behavior should be the first one to go. My biggest mistake was (in hindsight) is that I trusted people who complained about me right from the get go. I thought I can still win them. No. Once a whiner always a whiner. If they show early signs of whining, they are not cool. They are going to betray one way or another. They are not looking for unity or deep friendship. They are already showing that they don't trust you even if you didn't do anything wrong.. Immediately cut them out. Don't look for approval. Approval is a dangerous drug used by the narcissist to keep you hooked. You want their approval. So you do everything to impress them, they are still not impressed because they will never be satisfied until they abuse you. If they act dissatisfied or unimpressed, don't look for their approval. Just drop them. You seek their approval because of low self esteem and they will block you or ghost you. And keep you confused. They don't give a fuck about how you feel upon ghosting. also I would like to mention that people who make you sign contracts are really fishy people I was told to sign a contract where the person told me that they would be my therapist but in exchange I need to give all kinds of personal information. They asked me very Intrusive questions about my family. They told me that they will not tell anyone if I sign the contract. For once I became suspicious and told that person to gtfo. What a relief. Such people are looking for something which is not good. But thank God they are out of my life. I really don't have a perfect solution on how to Deal with people. One of the best solutions is communication. A person who refuses to communicate is not trying to resolve issues or build bridges. Cut them out. You'll suffer a lot in life with such people. Invest your time and energy and emotion into people who are at least ready to communicate. These are healthy people, because they don't want drama, rather they want resolution and unity. They want to work things out rather than turn their back on you. They are interested in keeping it. They most likely won't betray and are looking for harmony. Not all though. I have come across people who have tried to communicate but their communication is more about self righteousness and argumentation rather than harmony and understanding or respect. They use communication as a weapon to create more frustration. They use communication to manipulate. They use communication to gain information. They use communication to hurt you rather than understand you. They take the communication in a negative direction. These people, I have observed, are very Obsessive. They will try to interrupt all your work, ask you nonsense questions, break your boundaries, they will call you anytime. You become their punching bag. Avoid such people. Make sure that the communication is healthy and not purposeless unempathetic communication, it's abusive.

I pray that my dead cat find peace. And she doesn't need to worry about me. I will do fine. I give her a high five in heaven. She was always a good sport. I remember yelling at her once when she got stuck in a tree. I was super angry and pissed off and the mama bear in me kept roaring at her - "what the fuck are you doing up there and I can't even get you, just crawl your way down, will you." After some time she kept looking at me and realized I was pissed at her antics and began to shimmy her way down the tree. I held her as she came down and took her home and gave her some lecture and put her in a time out. She wasn't obedient and that was the best part of her. But she knew I cared about her. So she wouldn't repeat things I didn't like. When I gave her a lecture she would close her eyes in agreement as though giving a nod Today I remember her and I guess she is still playing in heaven. Her spirit watches over me. She deeply cared about me. I love you. And I'll be fine, don't worry..

My empathy still extends to people who I deeply care about.

Today I donated $30 to a local charity for the disabled.

I want to send my healing energy to a lot of people that I can't reach to. I want to send my healing energy to autistic kids. I suffer autism too. So I understand the difficulties faced living in this world.

Today I was thinking about all those 26 victims of the Sandy Hook shooting. All the children who died. My prayers of love and healing to all those who lost their lives. May they find peace in eternity. Charlotte Bacon, 6 Daniel Barden, 7 Rachel Davino, 29 Olivia Engel, 6 Josephine Gay, 7 Ana M Marquez-Greene, 6 Dylan Hockley, 6 Dawn Hochsprung, 47 Madeline F. Hsu, 6 Catherine V. Hubbard, 6 Chase Kowalski, 7 Jesse Lewis, 6 James Mattioli, 6 Grace McDonnell, 7 Anne Marie Murphy, 52 Emilie Parker, 6 Jack Pinto, 6 Noah Pozner, 6 Caroline Previdi, 6 Jessica Rekos, 6 Avielle Richman, 6 Lauren Rousseau, 30 Mary Sherlach, 56 Victoria Soto, 27 Benjamin Wheeler, 6 Allison N Wyatt, 6

The worst thing that I can think of is someone suffering and trembling with cold in winter and they don't even have a blanket. I pray in my heart that these people find the necessary resources and get protection from cold. May God help them and I offer my healing energy from far, let my healing energy reach them and let them find warmth through my healing. God please take care of them. They need you and your strength.

I'll call this the molding technique.

Not sure. A lot of intelligent and sophisticated people can be quite nerdy and so they lack the romantic qualities or style of communication which can be easily off putting and boring. For romantic attraction, the dude needs to be a bit poetic, emotional, soft, a good listener and someone who knows how to charm with smooth talk. And this might not need intellectual sophistication but these guys are smarter than average still, smart is a bit different from being intelligent, it's being Street smart, so these guys are good at daily mannerisms, nice skills in the social area and a bit smarty. They're clever, they know how to be witty. It doesn't come down to the conversation you're having, math or physics. It's how you can turn conversation, even the most boring ones exciting, stimulating and then make it romantic towards the end or insert romantic aphorisms in between to get naughty and make her smile Or blush in the middle of the conversation where she is not only being loaded with the conversation but little tidbits of flirty stock thrown her way so she feels the warmth and the excitement from the guy. But not being too pushy about it, keeping it light hearted and chill, pushiness can make the girl feel awkward or tensed or make the guy look like a try hard or wannabe, it should be effortless and natural and this would need chemistry between the two. Tango.