Tyler Robinson

Entry4/44 I don't want any fake attachments.. Fake sympathies. Fake friendships I cut the cords long ago. Emotionally I'm in a happy place than before. I was way too anxious and suicidal back then. I went through some really harsh and cruel experiences especially on this forum.. But I'm out of that now. It taught me valuable lessons about how you can be manipulated in the name of someone trying to help you. There is no pure intent there. Only a facade of trying to help. But doing more harm instead. Away away away. I'm so glad I could finally put my foot down and throw people out of my life.. I invited them out of sheer trust and goodwill. I felt preyed on. Completely preyed on. I was taken advantage of. My Vulnerability was.. Thankfully it's over now.. I wish I had an angel to help me.. To show me a way out of this delicate mess.. I was so innocent. And my wings fell in a trap. And I suffered so much. So much hurt pain and betrayal I claim myself back now.. If you fuck up someone and they start acting all messed up around you, then don't be surprised, you did it to them. I didn't know those people were so toxic. If I would have predicted what was to come, I would have run for the hills. People fuck me up emotionally and then call me a weirdo. Don't play games with me. Hurt me. Abuse me. Then when I begin to act strange. Blame and shame me. It's blatant abuse. When I finally put my foot down and say a firm no and remove people from my life, they suddenly act like I'm a criminal You know what's toxic.. When a person gets mad and pissed off that I don't give them attention anymore or that I have dropped them from my life, It's the most potent sign that they are and were the most toxic persons in my life. And I should be more than happy that they are out. Finally its peace. No thanks I don't need anyone's pity. I'm just glad that I will no longer have to deal with such people and I no longer have to feel messed up.

Entry3/44 Sometimes I felt like I couldn't deal with things just because I just wasn't too used to it. My tears fall on the back of my palm, I think of all the days gone by, who I was, what I was, I feel terrible how I was enmeshed into something I never wanted to be a part of. Only because I was so naive and inexperienced, just because I had childish yearnings and impulses that I acted on. Because I didn't have enough mental clarity or anyone to guide my hand. I felt abused. Tortured. I cried for days thinking why I suffered the way I did. I had done nothing wrong to deserve it. I try to give an inch and a mile is grabbed from me. Always. Looking back now, so many things are weird to me, the way I acted, the way I craved for things to be, the things that mattered so much back then, just don't matter anymore now. Back then all these silly things were such a big deal, how things appeared. Not anymore. Now they have suddenly taken a back seat, I was thrust into the future by accident or by fate, just to be out there and make something of myself, life felt like a blur and I was racing against time to make it to end with no rest in between, I simply had no clue, I was a clueless girl who came from a clueless background, who knew nothing. So much of whatever happened only because I had not a single clue about the world around me. I just kept sleepwalking through it like a maniac lost in a distant world. I had to learn so many things and I had to learn them quicker than my brain would allow me to. I made so many mistakes that I was hardly forgiven for, why, because I just couldn't be skeptical enough to doubt everything around me, it never felt necessary because I had such an innocent heart that wouldn't allow me to believe that things were not truly in my favor. So I just let things happen. Now when I look back, so much of who I truly am was missing, in those days such things mattered that now by comparison. look very fickle. It seems I have matured over time to realize that absolutely nothing really and truly matters other than what truly and forever belongs to me.. Things that I would have likely thrown a fit over back then look unnecessary and timid now. Things that made me angry two years ago don't make me angry anymore. I understand how people feel much better, I can see through things, I can understand how they feel, and this isn't much that I would expect out of people anymore, it feels like I'm at a calmer place where I already know how things are going to pan out, how people act, how they react, everything feels like an NPC, everything has become so predictable and boring that the same thing keeps playing endlessly like a broken record to the point that I no longer need to know what's it's outcome is going to be, I just know, it comes to me like something that springs out of a blurred memory. Nothing has to make sense, there's nothing to sit and figure out, because it's all out there already. All I have to do is just absorb the experience and let it pass.. Then there are times when I ask myself - are you really growing or are you just trying to get by? Because nothing seems really sustainable at this point, how did I even make it so far is just a wonder. On 8/15/2022 at 5:03 AM, Tyler Robinson said: I wish I was sleeping in the arms of an angel. I feel so tired and heavy and stupid.

Chapter44 - A Lot of Drama Entry1/44 On 8/11/2022 at 0:59 AM, Tyler Robinson said: Excellent. When you're too attached to something, the end result is only drama and nothing else. On 8/11/2022 at 3:32 AM, Tyler Robinson said: I'm so tired ugh.. On 8/11/2022 at 11:24 AM, Tyler Robinson said: What if I gave myself growth points in terms of percentage? On 8/11/2022 at 1:53 PM, Tyler Robinson said: Like.... I'll keep a baseline percentage at 4, just a random small number. Tracking my growth Mathematically. Everyday I can say I'm growing a little bit, in any direction, that's irrelevant.. Today it's 4.1% growth in me. On 8/13/2022 at 11:59 PM, Tyler Robinson said: I want to keep a calculator like a tab meter. Tab meter. It's always 0.1%. 20 points is 0.1 percentage

I talk to homeless people. They are spiritual.

Chapter43 - Bullet focus Entry1/43 On 8/14/2022 at 6:00 AM, Tyler Robinson said: Moving through chaos On 8/19/2022 at 4:18 AM, Tyler Robinson said: Percentage growth points Track in terms of learning and growing Reward points and coins for stuff done Iteration numbers avatar 1, avatar 2 and so on. Reward points for atomic lists

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Entry4/42 I wanted to be completely naked. Blurred thoughts. My inner child is crying. .......... You and me are separated by a cord I'm lost into myself. Into delusions of grandeur and splashes of reality intermixed into the tapestry of life that passes through me, seeking my permission and at the same time leaving me utterly miserable and lost and helpless Where are you? Where are you? Where are you? Where are you? Where are you? Where are you? Where are you? Where are you? Where are you? Come and rescue me Come and rescue me Come and rescue me Because I need you Because I need you Because I need you Because I need you Because I need you Because I need you I don't want anymore reassurances. I'm not a child anymore I need a strong hand I need love I need authenticity Will you be mine? Will you be mine? Will you be the last one waiting for my lost soul?

Entry3/42 8/16/2022 at 2:58 AM, Tyler Robinson said: Entry5 Rob, if I died right now, and if you wrote all the good stuff about me and felt guilty for me, remember just remember I won't be here to read it. Do you think of that? On 8/16/2022 at 4:40 AM, Tyler Robinson said: Ego, competitive, jealous, narcissistic. Creepy. Aka snub On 8/21/2022 at 0:25 AM, Tyler Robinson said: Entry6 Be fearless. No. Be fear-less Yea. Be yourself at the end of the day. I want to be profound. I want to be meaningful.. I think the truth to every situation lies somewhere in between all the lies. Your gut instinct tells you everything you need to know about things that happen to you. I come to the same room, the same place, the same NPC. I'm tired of dealing with inauthentic energy all the time. I'm tired of dealing with my inner abuser who just wouldn't leave me alone. I'm tired of being wanted and then not being wanted. I'm tired of Rob..

Entry2/42 On 8/16/2022 at 2:31 AM, Tyler Robinson said: Entry2 I changed. I completely changed. I unbanded. I disbanded. I truncated. I hollowed out. Entry3 [Verse 1: Simon] Your honour, please, gotta believe what I say What I will tell, happened just the other day I must confess, cause I've had about enough I need your help, gotta make this here thing stop [Pre-Chorus: Lee & Antony] Baby, I swear I'll tell the truth (Uh-huh) About all the things we used to do (C'mon) And if you thought you had me fooled I'm telling you now, objection overruled (Here we go) Oh baby [Chorus:All,Duncan & Antony] One for the money and the free rides It's two for the lie that you denied All rise, all rise (All rise) Three for the calls you've been making It's four for the times you've been faking All rise (I'm gonna tell it to your face) All rise (I rest my case) [Verse 2: Duncan & Simon] You're on the stand, with your back against the wall Nowhere to run, and nobody you can call (Oh no) I just can't wait, now the case is open wide You'll try to pray, but the jury will decide [Pre-Chorus: Lee] Baby, I swear I'll tell the truth (Uh-huh) About all the things we used to do And if you thought you had me fooled (C'mon) I'm telling you now, objection overruled Oh baby [Chorus:All,Antony & Lee] One for the money and the free rides It's two for the lie that you denied All rise (All rise) All rise (Oh oh, all rise) Three for the calls you've been making It's four for the times you've been faking All rise (I'm gonna tell it to your face) All rise (I rest my case) [Bridge Rap: Simon] So step back, cause you don't know this cat I know deep down that, you don't want me to react I lay low, leaving all my options open The decision of the jury has not been spoken Step in my house, you find that your stuff has gone But in reality, to whom does the stuff belong? I bring you into court, to preach my order And you know that you overstepped the border (Uh-huh) [Chorus: All,Lee & Antony] One for the money and the free rides It's two for the lie that you denied (Ooo) All rise, all rise (C'mon) Three for the calls you've been making (Yeah yeah) It's four for the times you've been faking All rise, all rise One for the money (What'cha say) and the free rides It's two for the (Can't you pay?) lie that you denied All rise (What you've done) All rise Three for the calls (What'cha say) you've been making It's four for the (Can't you pay?) times you've been faking All rise (What you've done) All rise (Where you've gone) [Last - Chorus:All,Duncan & Antony] One for the money and the free rides It's two for the lie that you denied (Oh oh) All rise (Oh oh) All rise Three for the calls you've been making It's four for the times you've been faking (I said all rise) All rise (I'm gonna tell it to your face) All rise (I rest my case) Entry4 Disorganized Disordered Dysfunctional . All in one. It's like I'm beating myself up with my own stick. There's love in hate I guess NPC. Because berrylee you were trapped among a bunch of cheapsters. And now you can't find your way out..Right??????? It's like Rob is screaming in my ears - I WON'T LET YOU GO. TRY THOUGH.... I have to stop being a nerd and feel the way I want to feel let it loose.. For some weird reason, everything is beginning to come together. I don't feel as much lost anymore, the way I used to be once. So when you hate me, do you love me too? I'm cold and frightened right now. Why am I always cold? I am trying to warm myself up with coffee. But nothing works. Now in this moment it feels like I already know too much about the universe.. I'm feeling sick and nauseous. NPC, first things first. My imagination is going helluva strong. Jump onto something meatier Cultivate the inner light Build a tight circle Everything is NPC I'm so cold right now I'm trembling. I just dont know. I need a boat load of blankets. There is absolutely nobody. There is absolutely nobody. There is absolutely nobody. And it doesn't even matter. There is absolutely nobody..

Chapter42 - Completely naked Entry1/42 NPC, what's the point of saying something if it's not going to be happening, if it's not going to be reality. NPC yess. What are we doing other than hopelessly and selfishly trying to attain our respective agendas? What else is there to life? It's a circle. It's getting tighter. It's a tight circle. It's a tight circle It's a tight circle. It's getting tighter. That's how I see it. Life is all about agents and agency. We live in an agency. We did in an agency. It's a box. Everything is a box.. We are boxes chattering and wasting away our lives, our meanings mean nothing to the universe which is a giant space that keeps moving at infinite speed and doesn't care about what we love for ourselves. The desires of the universe has no relevance to who we are, we are narcissistic mortal beasts who have been bred time after time to occupy a space and eat it up to our heart's content. Everything is imaginary and that which is loving is full of light and it grows and it shows. Rest is just white noise.

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Chapter41- Eduoid - human NPC Entry1/41 8/22/2022 at 3:16 PM, Tyler Robinson said: I don't know what to say. On 8/22/2022 at 3:18 PM, Tyler Robinson said: I'm focused on what I'm going to do next. On 8/22/2022 at 3:38 PM, Tyler Robinson said: Eduoid means you follow a set of instructions to navigate through the maze of uncertainty. On 8/22/2022 at 3:57 PM, Tyler Robinson said: Reality is dysfunctional but you must live. You must survive through thick and thin. You need a twin flame who understands and truly loves you. On 8/22/2022 at 5:58 PM, Tyler Robinson said: Yea maybe humanoid torture On 8/22/2022 at 6:22 PM, Tyler Robinson said: Only imaginary forces can help me survive in this world. Only imaginary forces can help my spirit heal. Only imaginary forces can truly love me.

Entry4/40 Go meta on love. Question everything you believe about love. Pretend like you don't know anything about love. Treat love as the greatest mystery of life. Treat love as magic, because that's what love is. Love love for the fact that it exists. Love love for the fact that it is so magical. Love love itself, not any particular thing. Love the fact that you experienced love at least once in your life. Recognize the fact that love exists, and be grateful for it. Love your existence unconditionally. Be so grateful for your existence that not even hell can disturb you. Love yourself for the fact that you can love anything at all, no matter how shallow are stupid that thing might be. See the beauty in how profound your ignorance of love is, because that's how deep god's knowledge of love is. See beauty in confusion and chaos. See beauty in the fact that you're fucked. See beauty in the fact that your life is fucked. See beauty in the fact that the world is fucked. See beauty in the fact that the state of being fucked even exists. Feel proud of your future self for the fact that he can love something as bad as life. Love the dance of the universe which is your experience, and dance with it. Love the show of mankind because it is run on love and more importantly, the ignorance of love. Love the beauty of sadness. Cry more.

Entry3/40 You can't fight or beat evil. You have to run away from it. Escape it. Evil is like dark black smoke. If you inhale this smoke, it's going to poison you. You can't beat or make this smoke vanish. It's impossible. Once you're engulfed by this smoke, you're unable to think straight, let alone fight it. You basically get drawn into it's negative energy and that energy messed with you. You're already weakened before you could attempt to do something. So what's the solution? The solution is to get away from this dark smoke, run away from it. Escape. Get as far as you can away from its toxicity and negativity. That's where you see good things begin to come in life.

Chapter40 - Angelic Energy Entry2/40 I used to romanticize evil. I used to think that evil had some purpose in this world. That a lesser form of evil was needed to defeat a bigger form of evil.. In the sense poison beats poison kinda way. I contemplated on the subject of evil for 4 years and never received a clear cut answer or insight on this subject. It was most confusing part of my spiritual journey. I was still looking for answers.. I even starved myself for 3 days thinking that somehow I'll get some answers with pure focus. But no success. Then recently I just received this insight after a ton of contemplation that evil is not something manufactured by some outer space entity that we call the devil. Evil is real. Evil is created. I'm finally liberated after 4 years. All the evil we see in the world is the evil we ourselves create. It has nothing to do with that cosmic devil. I no longer fantasize evil.. That doesn't mean that I don't think about Satan. I will still do Satan med or Satanic Contemplations. I have UNDERSTOOD that for evil to really go away, certain prerequisites are needed - Angelic energy More NPC elements and less non NPC elements. Minimum non NPC elements. A non toxic environment Pure love Well being High IQ Simplicity Peaceful What I found is that evil is not an opposition to good, its not a rival or a rival force fighting with good. Evil is a product. Evil is an outcome. Evil is a result. Evil is a consequence. Evil is a product of something. Therefore you can't fight evil. You cannot fight a product. You cannot punish a product. You have to see how the product was created. So shaming, punishing, demonizing, moralizing is absolutely pointless and even detrimental because it doesn't go to the heart of the issue and rather doesn't allow the resolution of the issue because we are stuck in punishment mode. The punishing makes us feel like we have solved the problem which is just an illusion. We actually haven't solved anything. In fact we have made it difficult to even get a solution. We cannot battle evil. We cannot fight evil. That's just not the right way about it. It's a temporary solution if at all. The real solution is to see how this product existed in the first place, what caused this product to be created. And as you dig deeper you realize that the product was created by a toxic environment. An environment that made a person choose wrong things in life. When you have a great environment you won't have this product.

Chapter40 - Angelic Energy Entry1/40 On 8/23/2022 at 3:17 AM, Tyler Robinson said: I'm moving. On 8/23/2022 at 3:36 AM, Tyler Robinson said: I'm finally liberated after 4 years. All the evil we see in the world is the evil we ourselves create. All the evil is a product of lack of well being lack of angelic energy, its a product of a toxic environment. And there's nothing enticing about evil. Love, pure love, banishes any residual attraction to evil. On 8/23/2022 at 6:43 AM, Tyler Robinson said: What should you do when you face evil in life? You can't fight or beat evil.

Entry5/39 On 8/26/2022 at 3:01 AM, Tyler Robinson said: The kind of people that I need to be avoiding Too extroverted. Too unstable Bipolar. I don't get along with bipolar people. Girls who use the word - chick Stage Blue people who come from Mormon or religious backgrounds. Hypocrites all of them. Low IQ people - they're a big pain in the ass Low EQ people - they can't empathize with someone's suffering. Either they are like robots or they are too insensitive assholes, or they moralize/judge/shame too much or they don't understand what's going on with you, they make a mountain out of petty nonsense. Guys whose philosophy aligns with Andrew Tate Policy updated

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Do shadow work. Sit down silent. Ask yourself a set of interrogative questions. Keep probing. Keep ego aside. Answer your questions as honestly as possible. Keep opening up. I did this 4 years ago and I had a flood of tears. Repressed memory came back. Went to the psychiatric office. Got diagnosed with PTSD. Game over.

Entry3/39 True. You could elaborate on his controversial principles. Do you think his treatment of women is fair? This is his ploy. He used social media to gain popularity by making his fans post his videos. It's sort of a grift. It's clever but it's not valuable. Another word for it is clout chasing. Meanwhile "experience is king" is very true, but do you really need a role model just to tell you that much. Leo tells you that everyday He wouldn't need to clarify if he wasn't impacted by the ban. On one hand he pretends that he doesn't care about what the internet thinks about him and on the other he releases a long video defending himself as a response to the ban. His claims that he is not impacted by anything are false as its clearly visible he is impacted by it. He also uses emotional music in his video to make people sympathize with him. Another clever trick. He is deeply insecure about the fact that he got banned otherwise he wouldn't need to make such a long response video. He is preying on vulnerable people by making it look like he cares for the concerns of young men, he saw that this would easily attract sympathetic men towards him like moths to a flame and people began to ride on his coattails. The only thing he is truly concerned about is fame and money and mostly fame that can be converted into money. More people talk about him, it generates more money for him. That's what social media influence is all about. He knows that if he talks about controversial topics it will easily attract frustrated men to him. He has deeply misogynistic views but he makes them look trendy. He is the epitome of the collective red pill shadow that most sexually frustrated men tend to share with him but don't have the balls to express it like he does so they're in awe of him because they have found someone who is resonating with their own shadow so openly. So they want to worship him. But he doesn't give two fucks about people because he is only using them for clout and money. He will not make anyone rich nor will he help these dudes get any girls, in fact he will end up achieving the opposite for these men, by following him, a lot of men will ingrain his toxic ideology on women and this will backfire and all these men will lose their girlfriends in apocalyptic ways and if they followed his rogue tactics of approaching women, these men would not even attract women in the first place,because his strategies are women repellant, and the only reason he gets a few low self esteem women is because those women themselves are clout chasers pretty much like Leonardo. Di Caprio's arm candy girlfriends, so the reason Andrew Tate attracts non holistic women is because he has money to spend on them and he gives them air time, lots of gold diggers would love that, this earns him even more money because guys genuinely believe that he attracts women, when in reality he could be paying Insta models to just hang out with him for photops that he could use on social media to create more buzz, more buzz means more money. That's Andrew Tate in short. An NPC response that I just love. Wish I could always be like that. Repeat - "I'm doing good, my growth is constant." Entry4/39 On 8/24/2022 at 10:26 PM, Tyler Robinson said: An NPC response that I just love. Wish I could always be like that. Repeat - "I'm doing good, my growth is constant." On 8/24/2022 at 10:47 PM, Tyler Robinson said: Sadly I have realized that there are too many Andrew Tates out there. There's nothing that can be done but sigh at the ridiculousness of it all. Andrew Tate.... Connor Murphy. Same Same.. On 8/24/2022 at 11:32 PM, Tyler Robinson said: Because the enemy would never know hidden reasons. On 8/25/2022 at 1:36 AM, Tyler Robinson said: Note to myself - don't take the forum too seriously. On 8/25/2022 at 5:04 AM, Tyler Robinson said: Was this like really high value? I think you can probably get some stage Red stuff from him about success but much of it would be based on grifting, I don't know how far that would take you. Some people who are too desperate and don't care about morality as long as what they get might actually see the appeal with this dude.. But his success is not for the long term. Because long term success is based on something you build. Not on boasting. If you thought that life is totally meaningless then you might actually find value with his lifestyle because at the end of the day Stage Red focuses on getting what they want by any means. Although it can do collective harm, it is useful for the person who is doing it. I'm kinda confused when it comes to morality because it's very Stage blue and I don't like that, anything that contributes to everyone's wellbeing is good Oh wait, Andrew Tate should become my godfather lol On 8/25/2022 at 6:58 AM, Polymorph said: Watch this.

Entry2/39 On 8/24/2022 at 9:46 PM, Tyler Robinson said: Before I go into a world of insecurity and bitterness, I have to remind myself why things are the way they are. Once again it comes to IQ and EQ. In my opinion the people who act reasonable in life are the ones who have high IQ and high EQ. Morality is not a factor here. Morality is only for stage blue dweebs. I don't wish to interact with anyone who is low IQ because they create drama and misery. Consistently. I don't consider Tate as high IQ and extremely low on EQ because he think women are just objects and refers to them as a bitch. So I already see signs of low IQ because high IQ people don't use labels.. I can see why he is so popular. He would be popular among low IQ men. Easily. Should I care about what a low IQ man has to say? Absolutely not. Because low IQ would only mean collapse of the planet in no time. It's like the whole world will turn into a trailer trash. Not an outcome you want. People say he is stage Red. No he is just an insecure hurt man, to be honest he gives out that small dick energy vibe and looks like a horribly insecure guy. I mean my first question was - who hurt you? Because it's so obvious he is trying so hard to compensate for something. I like men who are genuine and who don't care about money, who are happy with who they are, happy with what little they have but they know they worked hard for it and treat women with kindness. This whole forum has an incel-y energy and that's why they worship this guy. Now I get it. Well I know what I'm going to do. I will limit my interactions to only high IQ and high EQ people.. They will be my circle. Remember if you want to fight negativity and evil, and I'm not afraid to say that Andrew Tate is a force of evil because he tries to sow the seeds of division and make money off of it, then you have to draw your NPC circle where it's only you and some great quality friends. That's the only solution. On 8/24/2022 at 9:52 PM, Tyler Robinson said: I found a helpful video on this Tate dude. I'm glad that there are still intelligent dudes who see through fake alpha man BS.. By the way as a side note, we are witnessing a fake alpha male blowhards epidemic on the internet. Dismantling fake alpha male blowhards. Do not engage. Do not engage. Do not engage. #there are good men in this world. Don't worry. On 8/24/2022 at 10:13 PM, Tyler Robinson said: I mean this Andrew Tate guy has to be a legit criminal. Someone below the video even hinted at this. I think he hides his criminal record by traveling to other countries. I constantly get this feeling that sooner or later this guy will have a criminal record because either he has already and masterfully hidden it, or he is going to be raking up stuff. Tate's fans will claim that this is all an act, that he is an amazing actor, he hasn't broken character in a decade.