Tyler Robinson

Aspects.

@Ethan1 just imagine the first video with the gender reversed. That is men saying the exact same things about women. There would be panic everywhere. And petitions and signatures to ban the video.

@Ethan1 the first video was full of disrespectful women. Something truly fucked up with those women. Sad.

Stand on that weight scale. Cmon dude. You weigh 20 kilo less. Look at you. Go eat yogurt.

One of the biggest fear of a child is getting abandoned because that would mean death. So it’s very understandable that you fear her being angry at you and fear her being angry at you in the future. If she had a very mean look in her face then that would literally tell a child „I might just abandon you and so you might just die.“ That can of course be so overwhelming that it causes trauma. Did she give you free space to express yourself? I feel like children in general want parents near them so they feel protected but not to close that they feel that they don’t do their own stuff. Quote Did this get translated into the Dream? For me it sounds like your childhood trauma is getting replayed. Your fear of her eyes that you had and your fear of her finding you when you hide. Of course when you hid from her in your childhood you closely tracked her eye movement and were afraid that her eyes might detect you. So everything you described just seems like a replay. Maybe you could try lucid dreaming to go deeper into this bad trip. As a anecdotal story I did lucid dreaming some years ago and in that time I also had a few bad dreams. I gained a lot of consciousness through lucid dream work though so in many of my bad dreams I had enough consciousness to do the counterintuitive thing and straight up confronted the object that haunted me. It took all of my guts to do it but it worked. If I got pursued I ran into my pursuer. If someone became a zombie I just ran into them. The moment the confrontation would have happened I always woke up. I had the same build up fear like from a normal bad dream in my chest but the bad dream stopped before it really happened. I feel like I conquered my fear. If you had the same dream but the moment you saw your mom you would just jump up and run into her the dream would probably just stop right there before you even manage to get close to your mother. I would tell myself that it’s just a dumb dream and not real. If you confront your mom in the dream enough times I think you will loose your fear. But that’s just my take on it.

6 hours ago, Jannes said: but do you worry about that your mother might not approve of your boyfriends choice? In your dream, were you afraid that your mother noticed your boyfriend ? She didn't notice him. She has never disproved my boyfriends either. But it's like... I'm afraid of her eyes watching me. Her eyes used to look very mean when I was a kid. She would look at me with anger. So the main context of the dream was that I didn't want her eyes to see me. And I was glad that she didn't see me. But my heart began pounding when she saw me from the corner of her eye. There's another piece of information. I used to hide a lot from her. Hoping that she won't find me. And I was afraid of the so called "mother's intuition," that she would use that to find me. In general I used to despise her watching me when I was a kid.

You all should stop blaming women and start learning women instead. If you can't be more emotional, is it a woman's fault? If you want to truly love a woman, then learn emotional language. A woman is not a business model that you are trying to tinker with and. She is an ocean of emotions. You need high EQ to understand her mind and heart. Keep your logic and mechanics away. And if you don't bond with her emotionally, you don't have the right to be with her ... If you can't be what she wants, why should you deserve her? Go Play your stupid video games.

Actually this is true from my personal experience. I have seen women always in love with losers all the time. It's because they don't use logic but prefer emotion. Hey you can't blame women for that. Our bodies are designed to respond easily to emotions. Who told you to be too logical?

Jannes said - No dream expert here, but do you worry about that your mother might not approve of your boyfriends choice? In your dream, were you afraid that your mother noticed your boyfriend ? We always interpret things in our childhood as our own fault. So maybe there is an aspect in your boyfriend that you can connect to unconsciously but have hidden it yourself in your subconsciousnis because you thought it was wrong, because of your mothers reaction. If your mother saw your boyfriend he would reveal that part of you that you have hidden and you expect the same traumatizing reaction form her. Just speculating …

I had a bad dream last night. I get this particular dream quite frequently and I don't know how to interpret it. It makes me quite anxious. So in the dream, I'm running towards a small building/house. And I lay down on the front porch. My boyfriend comes along and I tell him to sleep beside me. After some time I can see my mother from far, quite far she can't see me, she is looking elsewhere but I see her. I motion my boyfriend to be completely silent and not make any movements so he hugs me tightly from the side and buries his face in my neck. After some time, I see my mother slowly approaching me, still not looking at me. My heart beat is going up. She is darn close yet its dark and she can't see me. She is looking up, then she is looking elsewhere, finally noticing the house, she doesn't look down. And then she turns around and walks away. I breathe a sigh of relief. My peace doesn't last long. I see her standing at a corner with her back towards me, and then she turns around and directly looks in my direction. I Can see her. And it feels like from the corner of her eye she can see me. She is walking at a steady pace in my direction, as though she knows what she is about to find. She is getting closer and closer. My heart is pounding with fear. Dream abruptly cuts off. I wake up in sweat. When I was a kid, I used to see my mother angrily marching towards me and I used to get extremely anxious. My mom traumatized me. I don't know how to interpret this dream! Is the dream linked to my childhood trauma?

You need to expand your heart a little more. You constantly keep talking about your teachings. Does your teachings have space for people who are emotional? You always throw aside psycho-emotional aspects of the human nature. It's closely tied with the spirit too. How a person feels is important. How will you explain spirituality to a child? I don't mean literally children. I mean people who are as innocent as children. You can't separate spirituality from the psycho-emotional aspects of one's path or life. It is like you are a doctor who has found the cure for cancer. But you don't want to admit that emotional stress can also attract cancer to the body. You make spirituality like a separate brand and very narrowly focus on it without widening your spectrum. I hope you make your teachings more wholesome so it includes psycho-emotional aspects of the human psyche and not just plain separated spirituality. And yes your teachings should work on everyone. Why not. Why should anyone be separated from your consciousness. You are too mechanical and logical. Maybe in the future you'll start adding emotional aspects to your teachings.

Yea this. I suffered the feeling of abandoned which in turn gave rise to my BPD diagnosis (Borderline Personality Disorder). The doctor told me that I suffer from overwhelming fear of Abandonment and paranoia due to it. Absolutely no. Literally every little thing had to be her way. Even my hairstyle. She was a pusher and I was a pushover. I began to lose trust in her. So I would eat my favorite things when she wasn't around Yea. This sounds like it. I have confronted her in real life. Currently I'm in therapy. I try not to fear her. My mother has NPD and she has bipolar

She didn't notice him. She has never disproved my boyfriends either. But it's like... I'm afraid of her eyes watching me. Her eyes used to look very mean when I was a kid. She would look at me with anger. So the main context of the dream was that I didn't want her eyes to see me. And I was glad that she didn't see me. But my heart began pounding when she saw me from the corner of her eye. There's another piece of information. I used to hide a lot from her. Hoping that she won't find me. And I was afraid of the so called "mother's intuition," that she would use that to find me. In general I used to despise her watching me when I was a kid. Did this get translated into the Dream?

@OBEler why is meditation needed for spirituality? Spirituality is not written in books. Spirituality is in the heart that realizes God. It's basically God realization. Maybe an ape's heart beats the same way for God as a human heart does. Maybe the ape is in tune with God's music.

I don't see any difference between ape and human spiritually.

A psychopath has cold cold eyes Sometimes I feel like I am coerced into loving a psychopath. They catch me wherever I go. And my biggest weakness is sex. Apparently psychopaths are great at sex. Which I'm not. I get awkward and shy with sex. Most men that I dated were fashionably great at sex. I used to feel awkward around it. My second ex used to tell me long stories about sex. Like Bait me into it Since sex was my fundamental weakness, he caught on it. It was extremely hard for me One day he told me to come upstairs to a desolated place. He lied to me about his intent. Told me that he had something to tell me. Then when I got there, he forcefully held my head in the palm of his hands and then kissed me for at least 5 minutes maybe. And I pushed him off. He laughed at that. But he got me wet. When I got home, he called me up, apologized and then he set into motion a lot of different tactics to win my affection for him He told me that he would never be sexual with me without my consent. This is all hogwash as I later discovered. He never cared for my consent. Now I feel awful. Because my weakness for sex was exploited.

Take a break buddy.

Now it takes time. A psychopath always makes you feel like everything is normal and smooth. Then they suddenly trip, make a mistake, tell you something callously My ex told me one day that he would marry someone else. Just callously while I was making breakfast for him That's how they do it. They throw things at you as a matter of fact, just plain and bizarre. And expect you to just roll with it.

You'll see those initial signs of awkwardness and rejection and you will know right away that something is amiss Since I'm autistic I missed on these cues and played right into the hands of a psychopath who was lying in wait for me ready to throw bread crumbs for me to eat.

I was born with autism. I tend to trust people easily. My trust was always taken advantage of. Once you see the face of a psychopath, it's literally impossible to forget. So how do you know that someone is a psychopath? You should not trust someone or anyone easily. Wait and watch. A person who is truly interested in you will try to engage with you on a personal level. Psychopaths are superficial. They will reflect it. Like they will retract back in their intimacy. Be with people who are pleased to be around you Psychopaths will signal their displeasure right away.

This person comes to me and says - What are you doing here? Hahahahahahahaha It was me in my dreams.

One thing I have realized is that psychopaths have superficial charm. They feign emotions. They tell you what you need to hear, what you want to hear. And in the moment you believe in them. The same way I did. And then you get trapped in their traps.

I've never truly understood psychopathy until now I used to assume that psychopaths are people who plan things the way I used to do.. But that's not it. Psychopaths are people who are well aware of what they are doing and go out of their way to hurt others. That's when you know that you're dealing with one. It's like you always thought that they were or are the best people out there.

I'm now able to spot psychopaths better and I realize at last that I was never a psychopath.

Time to focus on productive stuff It's time to move on with my life. I prepared my bed lol.