Tyler Robinson

I was a bit gender fluid for some time of my life at least this year. I wanted to feel what it meant to be a non binary. It was a temporary state of mind where I ran into some gender conflict and felt confused. It felt like it wasn't bad for me to be both men and women at the same time Later my frustration began to grow, I felt like I simply wanted to feel like a man but wasn't really sensing it inside. I was still attached to being a woman. But this short thought experiment like liberated me and made me understand LGBT struggles better. If you wanna understand the struggles of the LGBT community especially that of gender non binary or gender fluid and of trans communities, I Recommend only safe person to you who does it in a clear cut non confusing way and his name is - Jeffrey Marsh Watch Jeffrey Marsh videos on YouTube. They are precious and priceless and they encapsulate non binary gender fluid struggles in the most elegant and excellent way..

I'm sorry you went through this experience and how white knights on this forum constantly shaming you on this thread so that they can use you to look better Classic ego games these people are playing by shaming you. Some of the men who act like they understand women are the most vulture types (personal experience, learned to stay away from white knight hypocrites) Coming to your situation - You didn't deserve it. That woman in the car was a total nut job. She didn't need to make it about gender. She was trying to be condescending and shaming you. That wasn't fair and it was unnecessary for her to act like she knows the situation better. She didn't have to add - woman power. It was menacing of her to do that just like a casual insult or put down. These are the kind of feminists we must avoid because they are about female dominance over men rather than true equality Regarding your obligation - You already did a good job trying to keep her safe. It wasn't your responsibility though when someone chooses to deliberately put themselves in danger. You could have ended up risking your own life by running after her. And equality in this specific situation means you should treat her just the way you would treat a male friend who is drunk. She is not a child. She should not get a pass for her behavior if she is drunk. She is a responsible person like all responsible persons, the gender is irrelevant. You tried to help her but she wouldn't take it. So it wasn't your duty to protect her anymore. It's time we hold women accountable for their wrong behavior just like we do to men. Otherwise it's not fair to always let women off the hook. You did the right thing in the situation and you had no further obligation because gender is irrelevant when someone is being or going wrong or being reckless and belligerent like your friend. And the woman yelling out of the car was shaming you because she got her own issues. She must be that dominating feminist who likes telling men what to do meanwhile she never looks in the mirror herself and blames men for all her stupid issues. I'm sorry you went through this experience, it must have been humiliating to be publicly embarrassed by the woman in the car yelling at you. So don't take that woman seriously and there are women who aren't like that. That's all.

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I want to be his cuddlebug

I have been moaning all day and night. Thinking about him. Imagining his penetrations Sweet moaning. Sometimes painful.

that's not the real problem. I don't like relying on objects for orgasms. It's like every time I want an orgasm I will need to carry an object around. I don't want to feel that way. It makes me not feel the joy of pleasure. Even if I do it with my partner, I actually feel upset because it means they don't have ability to give me an orgasm. I have had guys give me an orgasm on the phone (when my boyfriend is in another city on work he would call to pleasure me), that kind of orgasm is an art, it's a skill, it needs proper escalation, emotional stimulation, buildup of sexual tension, foreplay, romance, sexual energy, development of deep intimacy, trust, knowing each other's sexual fantasies, knowing how to turn the other person on, sexual, emotional and psychological logic, connection, sexual fire and sexual chemistry, sexual compatibility in terms of arousal and climax. There's a whole gamut of factors and skills that need to be learned in order to give a proper arousal and orgasm. I don't want sex to be reduced to something as mere stimulation of organs. I miss out on the emotional and brain stimulation part of it if I took the support of porn and sex toys and technological objects. It's like taking diet pills and not exercising instead. Quick solution but exercise is much more wholesome. I want sex to be wholesome. Last time I had sex with my bf, we lasted for 3 hours in bed before we both orgasmed. The whole three hours were full pleasure and intense bonding and intimacy. The climax and orgasm were very wholesome and organic and extremely romantic and rewarding.. It was pure bliss not just stimulation. I could have achieved orgasm with clitoral stimulator or a vibrator within seconds and I could have jerked him off right away. But we didn't do that. Instead we took time to gradually seduce each other and bond in the process and finally reached orgasm that were long lasting and intense. My body was pulsating the whole time because he gave me multiple arousals. Such intense chemistry, intimacy, wholesome pleasurable orgasms with euphoria are not possible with such objects. In fact these toys ruin the fun by not allowing space for slow romantic escalation. They are meant for instant gratification and I don't want that. A real man gives me delayed gratification and that's much more natural, organic, wholesome, romantic, filled with his masculine seduction and very intense and powerful. Sometimes my boyfriend is out of town(for work) and those days can be difficult if I'm horny for him.

@KH2 that's not the real problem. I don't like relying on objects for orgasms. It's like every time I want an orgasm I will need to carry an object around. I don't want to feel that way. It makes me not feel the joy of pleasure. Even if I do it with my partner, I actually feel upset because it means they don't have ability to give me an orgasm. I have had guys give me an orgasm on the phone (when my boyfriend is in another city on work he would call to pleasure me), that kind of orgasm is an art, it's a skill, it needs proper escalation, emotional stimulation, buildup of sexual tension, foreplay, romance, sexual energy, development of deep intimacy, trust, knowing each other's sexual fantasies, knowing how to turn the other person on, sexual, emotional and psychological logic, connection, sexual fire and sexual chemistry, sexual compatibility in terms of arousal and climax. There's a whole gamut of factors and skills that need to be learned in order to give a proper arousal and orgasm. I don't want sex to be reduced to something as mere stimulation of organs. I miss out on the emotional and brain stimulation part of it if I took the support of porn and sex toys and technological objects. It's like taking diet pills and not exercising instead. Quick solution but exercise is much more wholesome. I want sex to be wholesome. Last time I had sex with my bf, we lasted for 3 hours in bed before we both orgasmed. The whole three hours were full pleasure and intense bonding and intimacy. The climax and orgasm were very wholesome and organic and extremely romantic and rewarding.. It was pure bliss not just stimulation. I could have achieved orgasm with clitoral stimulator or a vibrator within seconds and I could have jerked him off right away. But we didn't do that. Instead we took time to gradually seduce each other and bond in the process and finally reached orgasm that were long lasting and intense. My body was pulsating the whole time because he gave me multiple arousals. Such intense chemistry, intimacy, wholesome pleasurable orgasms with euphoria are not possible with such objects. In fact these toys ruin the fun by not allowing space for slow romantic escalation. They are meant for instant gratification and I don't want that. A real man gives me delayed gratification and that's much more natural, organic, wholesome, romantic, filled with his masculine seduction and very intense and powerful. Sometimes my boyfriend is out of town(for work) and those days can be difficult if I'm horny for him.

@KH2 I've tried those. I don't like the feel.. Also mechanical stuff doesn't really get me hot.

@StarStruck if they are Leo gifs send me in pm. Can watch Leo all day.

My sexual intensity has calmed down a bit. It took almost a day for my heat to calm down

I want you inside me I want to be seduced, raped, tied down and then fucked really hard. I want to see your balls drained. I wanna feel your cum inside me. It's pure pleasure and fun.

I'm cold. Just hold me tight and don't let go. Then turn me around and fuck the shit out of me. Take everything from me in return for your affection Do me (as dirty as you can). Make me your sex slave I want your masculine sexual energy I want your cum really badly All over me. I want to be your princess. Your little good girl.

This is pure torture now hun. Whatever you do to me. I feeling it in my skin.. The way you squeeze my breasts. You really want this so bad. Just fuck me then. Your desire is so strong, it's making me crazy. I can feel your penetrations deep and intense. I love your penis. It's making me horny. I'm losing control and I will let you do anything you want. Push it inside. I'm feeling it. You are sexing me up so much. I just can't do anything except surrender to your dick torture. And you are kissing me, biting my lips so bad. I just can't. You are making me crazy. I love what your penis is doing to me I'm your submissive slave now I'm getting this tender feeling in my breasts. They feel more beautiful when you touch and play with them. They are yours Grab my Tits by your teeth. Do what you want and I won't complain This is yours.

This is making me so horny and I got girl problems now.

Maybe he wanted to satisfy his curiosity.

It's my Vulnerability ultimately that attracts predators.

There's simply no solution for whatever I'm going through.

Those withdrawal symptoms are scaring the shit out of me. This is not good. Although you feel the benefits. It looks like way too much risk. I would never take it if I were you in all honesty. It looks dreadful.

Past three days I have been a horny motherfucking toad.

Precious. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. This is truly the best thing in the universe. Watched it a 100 times already.

My usual experience has been that the people who always acted like they wanted to help me were always the ones who preyed on me first and foremost out of everyone else. They made me feel secure. They did everything for egoic reasons. These are narcissists. I can never trust people ever again. Especially those who act nice and polite and sweet and try to gain access into my world.

At the end of the day, there's only one thing that is left - an epiphany.

I fell for this so many times. Nothing comes out of it. But the mind craves for attention. It craves for affection. It craves for support and love.. It craves for someone to understand and hear me out, like a true friend who actually cares. It craves for attachment, belongingness like a child craves for a parent. It craves for love and acceptance which it never truly receives or enjoys. Such is the sad state of humanity that those who need money never find it and those who truly seek love never receive it. Your innocence, your immaturity and your trust is exploited..

Today I feel suicidal again. This forum should have been a source of help and empathy. It has been a source of torment rather. I hate mean comments and they really upset me. Whats the point of asking for help. There will be another rude comment. It can really set you back and bring you down. I don't wish to go back to the same predators who fed on me. It's vicious. It's a cycle that keeps feeding into a loop where I feel sad and vulnerable and I end up succumbing to pressure and then the person who is supposed to help me starts preying on me. And then I give into those people who don't really have the best interests in mind for me. They are not really interested in knowing what works for me but rather hammering their own self righteous opinion down my throat.

The more I cry, the more I breakdown, nothing is ever going to actually work. I will end up feeling wasted, drained and another week of depression will set in. I've been preyed on horribly to the point that I don't trust humanity anymore. I'm wary of the online world. I trusted people and they betrayed me in the most unthinkable ways. I was on the verge of suicide and I was extremely lonely. Angry, sad and depressed. Those were my emotions. I felt like a whore who was prostituting herself day after day so that a Pimp would allow me to live. I sometimes just don't want this existence. Whatever emotional support I ever got, it always came at a huge price. It's unbelievable what I was put through