Tyler Robinson

I'm not sure if you were raised Christian because you have never discussed that. But you do embody Christian values of love, forgiveness etc. If you look at a typical Christian, you would find them corrupt but Christianity as a movement focuses on true virtues and morality. I don't find corruption in that. For example the cardinal Christian values are very close to stage Green.

Can there be regression into Blue that is more healthy?

@UDT thanks

I felt very vulnerable with George.

Carrying? Caring?

Sir, I will never go against your rules. I will never steal anything from you.

I stayed silent. I didn't say a thing. I felt weak. I wanted him to hold me. Sir Barkley.. He owned that town those people. I was his object. His object of desire. He owned me just the way he owned everyone there. Nobody would dare to say a word against him

And I came to his palace like home. I stood there with my hands folded. I was nervous. He came closer. He said he wanted to beat me as punishment. Then he told me to take off my clothes. And get fully naked. I did that. He kept looking at me. He looked at me in my eyes. Then he came closer and placed his hand on my naked breast. I could feel his hand. He wasn't holding my breast tightly. I felt scared. I felt bare, naked, vulnerable.

So... At the riverside I stood there and he was approaching. He broke my stuff and I was pissed at him. I asked him how dare he do that. I grabbed a stone and tried to throw it at him but I stopped short, I thought I probably shouldn't be so disrespectful to him. I was being arrogant. He was angry at me. He wanted to punish me. He commanded me to come to his place. Sir George Barkley. Everyone called him sir. He was the big guy there. Like a mayor of a town. He was the commander. I wasn't afraid of him.

George Barkley. My relationship with George Barkley. I am feeling extra weak and vulnerable today. I think I want to die. In some way. I had these fantasies with George. He is my savior. My protector. I want his love. I want George to hug me, love me. And I imagine him being cruel to me. I was acting arrogant and egotistical.

Why is living so hard?

Childhood trauma is an extreme situation to deal with. It has a snowballing effect on me. Then I have certain medical situations that aren't healing. Depression isn't easy either. It's like cancer of the mind. My brain has almost rotten because of childhood abuse. The problems aren't special but they have a chain reaction pattern to them. Honestly I just think I'm too unlucky. When I try to do something good for myself, something else goes wrong. Sometimes I reach the edge of my strength to fight. The problem with comments like yours is that it's easy to think that a person doesn't have big problems but that's because you simply aren't living inside that person's body and mind. My life is hyper complicated with issues. My only relief is that I'll never be a mom. So I'll never pass on my problems to my kids, such a possibility will never exist I have a couple of mental illnesses apart from medical issues. These mental illnesses are hard to beat. Life for mentally ill people isn't easy at all. It's a struggle. I'm just happy that some day this struggle will end and I'll be set free. I didn't deserve the life I was given. I sometimes wish I never had mental illnesses. My life is so ugly that focusing on others makes me forget my own life

Why is my evolution so important to you? I am evolving but at a slow pace. I'm not putting effort or focus. But sometimes when we evaluate people we learn a lot about life in general. It's not about finding a flaw. It's about learning about flaws. We learn what not to rely on. Tate is a bad influence and only through learning I won't follow him. My own flaws are far far too complex. Don't you think if I think about others, I won't think about myself? Of course I do. But I don't have millions like Tate to change my life overnight. To be extremely honest, you can't do much self development if you don't have much money in uiur ba

The problem with his psyche is of a dual nature. You can expect a sociopath to change with enough self reflection because there's not much to gain from sociopathy. But in Tate's case, he is not only a sociopath but also a ruthless capitalist. This means he has learned to benefit financially from his sociopathy. This is rewarding him. When you are a capitalist like Tate, and something (no matter how evil) is rewarding your bank account, then it is less likely to shift your shitty ethics. His ethics are a mess and to top it off, he is getting rewarded quite handsomely for his bad behavior. That is his weakness. It's like an addiction for him. Breaking such a cycle would need tremendous self resolve that most people aren't capable of. Tate, given his history of impulsivity, risk taking, manipulative tendencies,his penchant for money, attention and endless bragging, I highly doubt he would be willing to leave his candy store. For a kiddy guy like Tate, these things are way too big to quit. They are his gold. He will sacrifice his peace of mind for it. It's not about self reflection. He doesn't want to compromise on what he wants. He is too tempted to what he is getting. All of the following he has been getting is like a drug for him. He has to stop being greedy, but that's impossible.

It takes a lot of integrity to say NO to a scammy source of making money. Tate doesn't have that level of integrity. He is greedy for money and he has low integrity. Dangerous combination.

Hmm

@AdrianBartan absolutely no. If he gets out of this, he will soon land himself in another soup. That guy is looking for attention, fame, money, excitement (not in a good way). His philosophy revolves around considering himself smart for scamming people. I mean the name is Hustler university. He has made hustling his religion. You cannot stop a sociopath no matter how hard you try. Punishing sadly never works. He needs a 180° change in his mindset. Since his lifestyle rewarded him with money, I bet he would want to change his mind People like Tate are very lazy. They don't want honest labor because that means hard work. He doesn't want to do that. Maybe he used to work hard in his early days. When someone offers you a bucket full of fish, will you hunt for fish? That is what's happening to him. He got money in quicker ways and he got hooked. His situation right now is - "you can't teach old dog new tricks." He doesn't want hard work. He will continue to do this in a million different ways until he doesn't get tired of it himself. He is too self righteous and arrogant to ever consider other's opinion. He fully believes he is right. Sadly such people get karma served but it still doesn't change them. They will drag it to the hilt.

To be honest I had predicted this long ago when I first heard about Tate. What clued me? - his audacity. I knew if a man was so openly bragging about how women are to be treated as private property, I knew something more was going on than just parroting philosophy. His caliber, his reach with the audience, something about it appeared too shady to me. This guy wasn't some public prick in my eyes, he simply wouldn't collect such massive following if it was just sound bytes. I knew all of this was a huge layout like an operation. When you are that audacious, something deeper is lurking in the shadows. For some reason, it's that audacity that gives away vital clues.

He is feeding off of people's anger. He is capitalizing on men who have anger as a result of not getting women. He uses their emotions, it's pure manipulation, sympathizing with these men gives these men a sense of understanding and closure. There's nobody to listen to their woes. Tate gives them a listening ear and an outlet. This causes a lot of men to overlook what other criminal things Tate does.

I'm really mad at you. Because I remember how aggressively you used to defend this Tate guy against me. For this dude you wanted to ban me. Good. Now it's boomerang-ing back in your face. Now defend him a little more. Haha the joke is on you actually. You need to apologize for it.

@Fearey I'm leaving this forum. I'm too fed up with this place. It messes up with my head too much Too many people attack me here for just expressing my opinions. Instead of debating an opinion people constantly choose to attack a person. I did not even start the discussion on who is developed. Someone else did who keep attacking me for my autism. I'm just fed up. All the negativity here has impacted my mental health. I'm normal with my neighbors and other people. It's only here here and here. This feels like a constant personal attack zone and im tired of complaining to mods. I came here after a 1 week break. It's the same. I'm a good person at heart and generally polite. This place drives me on edge and makes me angry and agitated with the constant personal tone of opinions that makes me copy others behavior as well. I'm done with this place. It's too much and it's never going to improve. Bye and fuck this awful place.

I'm not angry. Just pissed off at how you measure everyone at your level when people here have much better opinions. The fact that you bring them down to your crab bucket is very narcissistic. Stay happy in your bucket and keep worshipping your hero Tate. Join more courses. Lul.

Hmm

Why don't you just put me on ignore and move on. Like wtf is your problem with me dude? Wtf is your problem? I get it that you don't like me. I get it that you don't like me. But I don't like you either. So why not make peace and just stop quoting me dude. I do not want any conversation with you on the forum. Then you complain about me to mods. It seems you are the one who wants drama.

I'm in love with this picture. Taken from Proserpina's journal.