Tyler Robinson

A few hours ago.... I walked into the kitchen. And I suddenly felt like someone (a ghostly presence) was watching over me. They seem to have taken fancy at me. They were creating this strange sexual tension. Similar to Succubus /Incubus And they looked like a skeleton

I thought of another entity. Gaurgouls. I've realized that my spiritual path is through entities. Only entities can help me One is Rooberstifin Second is Gaurgoul Third is a snake Then I have Larka 1, 2 and 3. The others include The other characters are Alpha male 1.....and Gaurzeugus. Nelhemina Nelhemina Gaurzeugus Alpha Male 1 Larka 1, 2 and 3. Gaurgoul - any night entity that is ghostly and romantic. A skeleton. Rooberstifin Snake

Got so much off my chest. Lifted a burden off my shoulders. Now I need to start thinking about my future. See everything happens for the better.

Quiet. Orientation Observation . Decision Action

I like eating detergent.... Umm.. Sometimes. Just scraped off and ate a little bit right now.

It’s a complicated tale — about culture and privilege, guns and mental health. But it’s also about sex, pornography, and the increased pressure on young men to live up to some mythical “player” status — now amplified in a thousand social updates and dating apps. American college students today may not actually be having more sex than their parents, but it’s easy to see how an isolated young man might perceive the opposite. Like most boys, Rodger described seeing his first porn at age 11. It’s a safe bet that what he learned about sex on the Internet was not the stuff of three-dimensional women.

I'm dancing like crazy right now. Like this.. Lol.

If Columbine taught us about school bullying in the 1990s, then the brutal killings at UCSB give us a glimpse into the toxic way that failed sex, misogyny and modern masculinity are intertwined.

Right now I'm dancing to this song. I like the beat. It's so much fun. So much fun dancing to this.

Elliot Rodger had never kissed a girl. In a culture of casual sex, he was a virgin — at 22. He was lonely, angry, humiliated, depressed, and also likely struggling with mental illness. He couldn’t understand why others got to have what he didn’t; why girls always seemed to go after the “obnoxious jocks,” not the nice guys like him.... why he had to see it all around him — from porn to campus party culture — as if taunting him. He was always missing out.

I won't be able to structure this in the best possible way because of my low IQ, autism and my lack of ability to articulate properly. Anyway I'll give it a try. When you want to feel someone or know something about them, read their character, energy, heart, mind etc you have to use your emotions. There's nothing wrong with this. Like Flowboy said the only way to know if someone is being genuinely good is through intuition. And for intuition you need to rely on emotion. Whereas once you have used your emotions to figure things out, remember to trust what your emotions are telling you. They are your basic guiding tools. Use it abundantly. What to do next? Once you have it figured Then... Use your intellect.. Like this — I have highlighted the stuff in bold. I don't want to talk about it any more. That's not how I interpreted the situation, but it doesn't matter how I interpreted it. What's the point of that bullshit? Stop worrying about Leo or other people on this forum. Focus on working on your own life. I am telling you to let it go because you are clearly overreacting. Leo is not a horrible racist you paint him to be. But arguing with you about it is useless so I am telling you to let it go instead. I am telling you this not because I find you annoying but because I can see how worrying about that distracts you from actually changing your life for the better. You don't like Leo? Fine find yourself another teacher who you like. Or just figure stuff out on your own. But don't get stuck for another 10 years bulshitting about useless shit over and over again. Can't you see how you are wasting your life that way??? You are right about quitting the forum though. I should do that as well. After using your emotions you have to use your intellect and wisdom and do what's necessary to ground your life back to where it belongs.

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I feel slightly relaxed right now..

After glancing through the posts above, I have come to the realization that I indeed have a few shadows to work on which are probably the reason why I am so resistant to certain people and certain ideas... Its like every time these things cross my path I pull out a dab dance move. These shadows are — Shadow against rationality and logic Shadow against success and successful people (refer Robert Greene) Shadow against tough love Shadow against masculine energy Shadow against money. This is okayish Shadow against honesty Shadow against criticism Shadow against selfishness and machiavellianism Shadow against narcissism

Everytime I listen to these two songs I feel strong male energy coming towards me. Is it just me or others feel it too when they listen to these tracks? Do you catch the same vibe as I do?

Why do you like me?

Insanity can be an episode that mentally ill people go through. A person who is not mentally ill cannot be experiencing insanity. And I'm severely mentally ill. I went through temporary insanity but it lasted for 3 weeks. I was sleepwalking all the time I needed drugs to snap out of it Also insanity is visible through insane weird actions. And during those weeks everyone told me I was acting weird. I became temporarily insane but it lasted a long time.

@Gabith also please don't entertain thoughts of suicide. It always gets better. Trust me. All you need is patience brother.

Lmao the joke...... I attacked Leo for the first time in my life and i got so many special visitors on my profile lolololololol Aka mods...... I must be such a rebel. Smells like rebel spirit.

You're dealing with people who are not authentic. Cut them off. Speak less with them. Don't be attached to them Seek people who genuinely care about you. Such people will respect you. You need this thread. Look for green flags. The entire list of green flags is in this thread. Once you find such people, all your problems are solved. If the people don't show these green flags then boycott and avoid such people.

Continued from above........ The other important lesson that I learned is that both emotions and logic/intellect/wisdom are equally important. I used to give a huge amount of importance to emotions and I used to have a contemptuous attitude (you can call it my shadow) towards anything that is intellectual, rational because it used to make me feel as though I'm materialistic, cruel, unempathetic. Anybody saying anything rational used to piss me off because my mind would take it as - "these are uncaring selfish people, they use their brains instead of hearts because they don't care about feelings and they only care about doing things logically because it serves their purpose and they are insensitive." that used to make me shut my mind to anything logical being whispered to me. Like I would simply block it from my mind. Any rational talk would piss me off to an extreme level. I was simply not ready to take in anything logical or rational. It carried a dirty smell in my mind. I used to look at such people with suspicion, anger and derision. I used to grind my teeth in anger because I didn't want the world to be logical.. I don't like mathematics. It makes me angry. Anything rational makes me feel like it's cold and uncaring. The vibe. It looks harsh to me. As though the person who is being rational is being harsh and unkind and my ego goes into pushback mode. I push very hard against any form of rationality. It hurts my insecure ego..my ego lashes back very badly. It eats at my deeper hidden insecurities. I feel like I'm being ignored or not allowed to live. Rationality feels threatening to me. So my reaction is a huge pushback and extreme resistance to anything rational. My whole life I have been feeling things rather than thinking. Today I realized that having an emotional reaction, feeling things instead of thinking them etc is absolutely alright but not the be all end all. Rationality carries some worth and has its own place. I'll put it this way — Approaching things emotionally helps to understand the thunder. Whereas approaching things rationally helps to calm this thunder. That's how it is. I'll explain this further with an example in the next post. I'm busy eating pineapple right now. ♡✸♡ ♡✸♡ ♡✸♡ ♡✸♡ ✸✸ ✸ ✸ ♡✸♡

@Bojan V

Yes yes yes... Even though my own brain is not working rationally right now because my emotions are clouding my judgment, others on the forum are helping me to see the path. Even if in my mind I thought Leo is racist, why should I give it so much importance and attention. Why should it matter so much. Leo is not the only man on the whole planet. There are people with bigger hearts, people better than Leo. But I also learned another important lesson which I'll share in my next post.