Tyler Robinson

Puerevirden is an ancient ancestral spirit entity who is here to give me love and energy..

My intuitive senses generally work really well. But with Puerevirden I'm just not getting much at all. I got bits and pieces and that's it. 2 days ago I felt a strong sensation, a glimpse of Puerevirden. And that was it. Nothing after that. I don't even remember what it felt like. I might be going into bpd dissociation again. Because I'm forgetting things. I feel sad that I only got a glimpse.

When I see something like this, I feel deeply worried for men. Why do men do this to each other? If my guy was being attacked by another dude, I would stick myself to him and shield him so nobody can attack him. I don't want my man injured.

My intuitive senses generally work really well. But with Puerevirden I'm just not getting much at all. I got bits and pieces and that's it. 2 days ago I felt a strong sensation, a glimpse of Puerevirden. And that was it. Nothing after that. I don't even remember what it felt like. I might be going into bpd dissociation again. Because I'm forgetting things. I feel sad that I only got a glimpse.

Maybe a girl being wet for a man arouses him and it means a lot to him But there are just so many many men who are horny for me. It doesn't arouse me. And it does not make me feel special.. A man being horny for a woman doesn't mean much for a woman. It's just what it is.

I'm a typical woman I can't be satisfied only with sexual talk. I need charisma, appeal, good looks, attraction, attention, love, affection, care, generosity, someone to be with me for who I am and love me as I am. I'm sorry that I'm a woman. That I cannot be your version of a woman That I cannot be your doll that you can play with. I'm who I'm born as. How can that change? If I like a guy, how can that change? Many guys want me to like them. But how can I do that? When a woman falls in love, she falls in love, there's no meaning to it.

One day when I was weaving the basket, he sat next to me. He began telling me stories of his childhood. Puerevirden is subtle, charming. He flirts with me... I'm Escaping into another world where I'm with him. He is a bundle of masculine energy. One day I was cold and he placed a blanket over me and offered me hot chicken soup. Little things he does that make me feel cared for. I draw closer to him.

Puerevirden When I imagine him, I'm getting all kinds of black and white visuals. As though you're looking at black and white sketches. He is a wise guy. he keeps looking at me from a distance. He tries to talk to me sometimes.

And Leo should not promote weed here in any way.

For me it's My finances in order Me joining a theater company Having a wide circle of friends My health issues resolved. What's yours?

Puerevirden and I are living in prehistoric times. He does fishing and hunting. I make coverings and weave baskets. My house is not far from his. I'm the only woman on a tiny island. Most of them are men. They gather things. And sell it in other places. I live in my own little hut made from branches and twigs.. I can cook.

I feel horny every time I think of Puerevirden.

I've got to work hard on myself.

The one thing that I feel bad about is that I had this entity Puerevirden in my mind yesterday. And then the image dissolved within seconds. I forgot what he said to me. He said something and he did something. I forgot all of it

I'll place masturbating into two categories - one that is purely mechanical like clitoral stimulation. And one that is organic and consists of trust, feeling, bonding, intimacy and connection/affection I want to be sexually pristine and pure. I want to make this a daily habit. I'm already a virgin and so I don't feel guilty about sex, since I never really implemented any of my desires I want the organic kind of masturbation. Not the mechanical one.

I don't want to imagine that kind of sex. It was dirty. I never want that again.

I masturbated again. This time I felt a bit guilty.

List of entities Nelhemina Gaurzeugus Alpha Male 1 Larka 1, 2 and 3. Gaurgoul - any night entity that is ghostly and romantic. A skeleton. Rooberstifin Snake Puerevirden

Another entity that I felt when I was waking up is an ancient man who I have fallen in love with and who is kinda critical, harsh and ruthless His name is Puerevirden

I will call it Gaurgoul

Four kinds of people (romantic relationships) PHONY Shady Sneaky Stingy PHONY - phony are people who just pretend to be nice. But they show their fakery later. You feel that fake vibe. They don't mean what they say. They never turn good on their promise. They are pretentious. They are selfish. They say sweet things and later turn their backs on you when you really need them..Disingenuous. Hypocrite. Backstabber Shady - shady in my opinion would be a guy who is dating an underage person. Like they are aware that they are exploiting someone's weaknesses. They know that they are obviously doing something that gives a fair advantage only to them. They are not innocent at all. For days I had been looking for a definition on this. Or an example of what I would think is shady behavior. Obviously this is phony too because the person is not being genuine in their intent or they could be genuine with their words and sincere in their actions yet their shadiness means this Genuineness is pointless. The intent no matter how pure is still meant to benefit one party alone. The intent is calculated and selfish. Other examples of shady people - they use and throw people. They have a history of breaking hearts. They have scammed someone financially. They hide their affairs from their partner. They have covered up their jail record. They have mistreated many people. They have mistreated someone with impunity. They have been ruthless. Their friendships are pure convenience. They have committed atrocities, let's say their past partner has committed suicide because of their cruelty to them. Etc. Shady people can be way worse than phony. A phony can cause temporary feelings of betrayal and disgust and mental anguish. A shady person can literally put your life into jeopardy if you are involved in their master plan without knowing what it is about. They can pretty much screw you up for your whole life. Sneaky - a sneaky is a person who chooses to do things behind your back mostly. For example they might have been gossiping about you with their friends without you knowing it. They might be spying on you secretly. They might be doing silly stuff behind your back or when you are not around just to get away with it. They could be lying to you over little things from time to time. This is not a very harmful behavior. It's simply dishonest but maybe without mal intent. Stingy - a person who spends too little time or money. A person who is not generous. Too calculated, cold. Not selfless. Not giving. Especially when they have a lot of money. They are always thinking what they got to lose. They never want to do anything that doesn't suffice them in some way in the future. They plan everything meticulously and eventually cut you off to meet their own needs. They might not be shady or sneaky. But they abruptly cut you off when they need to in order to fulfill their plan. They keep you on a razors edge. They are careful in how much they barter with you. They never have friends who they don't need. They will constantly judge you, constantly calculate or weigh your value in their life. And cut you the moment they find you unnecessary.

Green Flags for genuineness.

I will call it Gaurgoul

Okeee I was a bit sleepy when I posted the entry above. The last sentence is a bit garbled. That's why.

Why you never told me that I belonged to you. Yesterday I felt a bit shy when you were talking to me and you told me how much you love me.. You came so close. You told me that you would die for me. I just need your love. When you asked me - what do I want most from you? The answer is nothing. You were going to be away from me again. In a distant land. I think the only thing I ever want is that you stay safe and never suffer from others. I hope you will remember me when you leave me. I cannot ask much from the kit.. Rethink