Tyler Robinson

Today was a sad day. All past memories came up. It was hard. Still trying to heal.. Survive. Get by

Yup I have heard of such.

My last epilepsy episode was during childhood. Variations in light or sound trigger my episodes sometimes. And sometimes over stimulation. So games like poker can trigger it. Reading and writing tends to soothe it. I am not on meds. It just healed on its own. I never had a full episode but I'm prone to seizures under extreme stress or fright.

Today I felt ugly inside.

Say goodbye and then block her and never message her again.

Message to myself I'm the only one in the world who will truly give a fuck about me. Right?

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One brave step at a time. Even if I don't live tomorrow, these videos will always stay here on my channel. Maybe someone from my family will know that I left something when I disappeared from this planet. Was feeling suicidal again. Venting about it helps.

Venting my trauma again.

I'm watching the "the Exorcist" right now and it won't let me watch. The lights go out or I get weird smells. Or I feel exhausted suddenly. I'm slowly trying to watch since past 10 hours. Very exhausting movie. And it's paranormal. Something happens when you watch this movie. It's insane.

Subjects — Science Arts Philosophy Medicine Religion

Today I kicked a door out of anger

Contribute horror music.

Ok got it now. That's understandable.

Not necessarily totally healthy but yum yum for cheat days.

Post away.

I got Covid @Espaim I got Covid twice this year. But I recovered well. But I did suffer a seizure which caused the left side of my face to become non responsive. After a month it became alright. Now my face is back to normal. I try to avoid extremely bright lights.

Wooof! Your point flew over my head. I don't even understand what you're trying to say.

Maybe he has some mental disease. But if he was my dad, I would straight up call 911. Ain't gonna put up with that kind of shit. He is very controlling and angry person. And I have my own anger issues to deal with.So if he and I met at a place. Explosion of temper. And I never get along with Sagittarians. I get into explosive fights with them.If I see an overly active person, I turn into a raging bull (they look like the red cape of a matador to me), I get triggered very badly when I see an overly active person (probably it triggers something in my trauma, I was raised by a Hyper strict parent and people like Andrew Tate invoke my childhood wounds of feeling controlled and bossed around. Stage Red really drives me red with anger. These people were the source of my trauma. So my pushback is equally hard. It's like punching the punching bag in the gym kind of anger. I get filled with feelings of revenge. Tate has that boss energy which constantly ignites my submerged trauma and the fact that he is a Sagittarius. Nobody bosses me except God. I'll give up my life but won't allow anyone to boss me. That's why he invokes strong feelings in me. If Tate thinks he is a Cobra, then I'm black mamba. And he needs a black mamba to back off.

This is my 4th attempt to try to watch the movie. Everytime I try to watch it, something happens and I get distracted. I have never been so distracted while watching this movie. They say people actually suffered heart attacks while watching this movie in theaters. I'm taking a chance. If I die, no problem. You can write obituary here later..

It seems like the movie is not allowing me to watch it. Mormon Lords help me.

Happy Halloween.

Lack of racism.

They look very happy.