Tyler Robinson

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Everyone asked me why I didn't run. Why I didn't escape. Why didn't I call the cops or my mom? Well i was young, just starting out barely. I was under his control. He knew my family. Deep down I had fears he would kill them. No he did not have sexual intercourse with me. But he molested me. He raped me with objects too. He wanted me to stay a virgin. He felt happy that way. He did practice oral sex with me. He made me do sexual things for him. He wanted anal sex with me but I refused vehemently. He would sneak into the bed with me and then sleep with me. Grope me. He did all kinds of sexual things with me. He was scared I would get pregnant. So he didn't want to penetrate me. He wouldn't use any protection and would ejaculate on my body, not inside me.

And yes the incident where I tried clothes in front of the mirror. I was young. Just barely 16, when I went to live with him. My mom sent me. She thought he was a protective figure who would love and support me. My dad had already died.

And that incident where I liked a boy's photograph.

And that incident where I was cold and dying.

I don't know where to begin So many events happened between me and Philly. I don't know how to explain all of that He was my abuser. He said so much to me. So much has happened in a very short span of time. I developed Stockholm Syndrome at some point. I felt guilty for not obeying him or sometimes rejecting and dismissing him. There was the food incident, the mouse incident, the bracelet incident. The pot incident. The crying incident. All of it... Janessa. Janessa. Janessa.

Bypassing attraction is a very difficult thing. It's very inherently programmed into our genetics. I also don't see what's wrong with it. It's how nature wants it. Why would you want to challenge nature? Nature knows best, it knows what's best for any given circumstance. Lovely graceful women would make loving caring mothers and healthy fit brave men would make protective fathers. I don't see how mother nature went wrong in creating these attraction traits. Attraction ultimately boils down to reproduction, children and procreation. Sex is not fundamentally about pleasure. Biologically sex is a way to produce babies. For a baby to survive the harsh environment of the world, the father will need to be a strong provider and protector so nobody can harm the baby and the father is always able to rescue the baby in every condition or circumstance. The mother has to be loving and supportive and someone who can be caring to the baby so their needs are always met on time and the baby survives. That's why men are attracted to loving, graceful, obedient and kind women who are also beautiful and loyal. A woman who is not loyal might even ditch her child. I see that mother nature is working perfectly in synchronicity with what a child needs as parents. A father who cannot provide or protect and mother who is neglectful, unkind, harsh are very dangerous to a child. That's why these traits are unlikable in mating and are automatically weeded out by social evolution. Dating is the most Darwinian thing on this planet, more Darwinian than any other system. Since dating is the birthplace of evolution and continuation, it will exhibit all the core aspects of Darwinian reality. Yes dating is brutal. So is survival. But in the bigger picture it's compassionate, it allows the stronger to survive and doesn't exploit the weak. It let's the weak auto-eliminate itself, thus not perpetuating its suffering anymore. This does not mean that the weak is not deserving of love. It only means that the weak is just not capable of withstanding the load of survival. And therefore justice must happen, it has to be fair. Will you build a house on stone or will you build a house on toothpicks? Darwinian theory follows the principle of fairness and justice, only the mighty can survive, but also the loving. We call God the Almighty for a reason. Hate results in destruction. So we don't expect the Almighty to look hateful. The countenance is pleasant and graceful. Dating in some way reflects God or Godness indirectly. It shows that the mighty and loving will survive and procreate. It does not show hate for the weak but it takes on the battles that the weak probably cannot fight and will thus perish leading to death of all or survival of none. Thus the bigger brother has to fight on the battlefield and the younger one is absolved of such responsibility. But victory and reward goes to the one who wins and the one who toils. It will not be fair for the older one to have won battles and the younger ones to enjoy the rewards. It won't be fair that women sleep with weaker men who don't do anything to help her whereas the ones who protect her are the strong ones and get nothing. So it's only natural that women reward brave men by admiring and wanting them. Survival belongs to the one who survived. The one who actually fought the battle. So they rightly deserve to pass off their genes and they rightly deserve to continue surviving since they fought for it too. So mother nature bestows on them the gift of procreation and survival. The universe desires the mighty to survive and the good to win. So it has always been and so it will always be.

@Carl-Richard I felt very ashamed of myself after having that dream because I felt a deep sense of regret while in the dream that I was withholding information that could have been useful. I spent 2 days ruminating over it and feeling a deep sense of shame and guilt building up. When I woke up I decided to be upfront about it which I rarely do. My own insecurities to blame. The dream probably foreshadowed my own despicable behaviors that lead to guilt. I had a premonition as a teen about a family member who died a week after the premonition. I acted sneaky and stayed mum and told no one. It still haunts me. Maybe the dream in some way represents shadow aspects of my character and conscience. It took me a ton of effort to write down the interpretation. I had the worst kind of ego backlash and my mind was finding all kinds of distractions.. I indulged in food, watched a lot of movies, slept and overslept but my mind kept saying no no no. Finally I told myself I gotta to do this somehow and get past it. Once I wrote the interpretation I felt such a huge sense of relief, like a cloud over my head had flew away. I felt deep peace. I felt good after opening up about the dream like I did my moral obligation and I had nothing to feel guilty about. It was over.. The dream was purely psychological and it enmeshed a lot of my deeper issues regarding my morality and character, my lack of responsibility and my evasive behavior, it was like some sort of a therapy session. It really addressed a lot of elements of my past and hidden fears, ego backlashes and shadows. It was something.

Maybe my dream was a warning to you. I don't know. It was supposed to alert you. But anyway you take care and be careful.

ok...granted.

I had a dream about you and I even wrote the whole interpretation and you never responded to it. I kinda felt humiliated. And it was a genuine dream. Who treats someone so disrespectfully.

@Mesopotamian that part where she makes her own money and has society protecting her doesn't matter much to her, at the end of the day it doesn't change her basic biology. It's like me telling you - "hey I'll tell all beautiful girls to sleep with you and will you accept a 400 pound woman and sleep with her and be attracted to her after sleeping with all those beautiful girls." Your answer will be a NO. You'll say you can't change your biology and no matter how many beautiful girls you get the chance to sleep with, you are still not feeling attracted to a 400 pound woman. Your brain just doesn't feel it. Similarly, a woman just doesn't feel it for a man who can't provide or protect. You're still lucky as a man. Men rarely ever give chances to ugly women. Women on the other hand are far more generous and often fall for assholes, unemployed men, ugly men, homeless men, short men, criminals, men who have been to jail, drug addicts etc. I have seen very beautiful women in love with all kinds of unattractive men. You should be grateful rather that women still don't mind if you're poor and easily fall for superficial charm and vibe. If women were very calculated then they would have always chosen wealthy dudes, but that's not the case, women choose all kinds of dudes. I remember dating a short guy. Really unattractive. But he had a way in which he could talk and seduce me and make me feel loved. Women fall for stupid shit much to the advantage of most men. Ya'll be grateful the stakes aren't high. I don't find short men attractive sorry. It's almost like I regret giving my heart to a short dude.

A woman will always look for a provider and a protector. That's a woman's biology and it's firmly rooted in her. You can't remove womanhood out of a woman just because you can't provide or protect her. And a woman will never look lovingly at a man who fails to protect her because that's just how her female brain works. She does not find such men "manly" enough. It's like a switch in her brain. If she sees a man not up to her expectations, the switch goes off. It's over for her. Her body doesn't respond to such men. Her body is activated when she sees a protective male figure, it gets her turned on and wanting him. This is both evolution and biology. That's how a woman naturally feels and desires..

And someone like Andrew Tot?

Haney left town and I felt relieved. One day I took Philly's gun and began playing with it. I was trying to learn to use a gun. It was jamming and I couldn't get it to work. Philly saw me doing it. And he began wondering why I was playing with it. Why did you take the gun? I was just trying. What would you need a gun for? I like it. I wanna know how to operate and shoot with a gun. Oh...you're planning to shoot me with it. Don't say crazy things. I never had such a thought. That's not a child's toy, you know. C'mon give that here. Give that to me. No. I want. Give that here. C'mon. And he snatched the gun from me and kept it back in the place where it was hidden.. Ahh.. I guess I need to give this gun back. I don't need it anyway. But why. Shut up!

All kinds of men are interesting to women. All kinds of men get married. The only ones who get dumped and divorced are assholes. A lot of men choose family and kids over careers because they want to be involved in their children's lives. In fact the biggest struggle for most men is work life balance since they really wish to devote more time to wife and kids which they can't. For most women this is not a problem as most women tend to automatically want to be stay at home moms and expect the husband to pay bills. A loving caring man uses his job and earnings to support his wife and child, not to abuse her. Why do you automatically assume the negative? Also just because something is uninspiring doesn't mean you have to hate lt. You could still do it as a duty. Maybe you don't like the nature of the work or it's not interesting enough but you could be having your friends that you made at your workplace and you could be spending time with them or you could be going to work because you are used to that environment. The fact that the job helps you pay bills can also be a motivator for most people. Think outside the box. This is a joke. It's not that women don't like clarity. It's just that their emotional system messes them up. This is like saying we should hate children who get angry and throw tantrums. It's feminine nature to be emotionally confused. It's masculine nature to give her a sense of order and direction. You're almost forcing a woman to act like a man. You have zero containment for a woman's flaws. Goodluck with that attitude. All women look for happiness in men. This is feminine nature. Masculine nature is gaining approval of the female. Feminine nature is giving that approval. Men are giving. Women are receiving. The very first thing a woman will want from you is happiness. Feminine happiness. Sexual happiness. You can call her selfish. But mother nature made it that way. No. That's why it's called "emotional." You have only met them in your dreams. Your theory doesn't match reality. A relationship is a transaction. Satisfaction of mutual needs. Relationships are based on attraction. Compatibility comes later. The strength of a relationship does not depend on any kind of compatibility. It depends on how willing each person is to please the other and how aligned their pursuits are. Also depends on the nature of their individual problems and how severely these problems impact the function of the relationship You need relationship experience to speak with confidence on male female relationship dynamics which you sadly don't have.

Have lower expectations. Don't expect too much out of people online.

This is toxic Masculinity. A man can love a woman deeply and it will have nothing to do with his career prospects or his success. All the guys who are into wage slave jobs or labor jobs are zombified? I don't find them boring at all. A person can be interesting to talk to even if they are into mundane jobs. You have invented some quirky stereotypes around men. Maybe they're more passionate about their families than a career. That's not passive aggression. It's called confusion. Women don't have clear cut theories on everything. They mostly work with instincts. Nothing to do with oppression. Women have emotions. Women engage in a lot of emotional logic most of the time. Emotional logic is not always crystal clear leaving room for ambiguity. Human love is finite. You can call it low consciousness but it's reality. The only form of love that comes quite close to unconditional is a mother's love for a child. Romantic love tends to fade away with time.

I think academicians lack EQ.

That answer is so ambiguous and has absolutely no correlation with women. Women don't care what career you're passionate about. I don't know why and how redpill contradicts any of the stuff you're alluding to. Men have had and have been having relationships with women despite all that. What truth? What is love and what do you think most men and women define love as? How does your definition differs from anyone's?

More moralizing and shaming. Continue. Don't lead with love. Don't practice what you preach. And just keep mocking because that makes you feel superior lol. All that empty bullshit sarcasm. Snarky attitude. Mean beaches. Respond to one question in 1 week and leave it there. Write what I want. Essays yea. Respond to mega-threads. And completely cut off communicating with disrespectful folks, maintain boundary. Why do they care. Anyways who cares in the moment is the one that matters. Work with wisdom.

Side note — Talk to newbees. And forget the old bees. Only talk to people who know how to respect. This is the best trick. Just forget all the old ones who are holding onto any kind of baggage or are too nosy. There's just no point. It's a mental asylum anyway. Once you cut people off, just cut them off for good and never go back, there's no need to. You're hypersensitive. The only ones who matter are ones who care. And there is no need to seek validation. Anyway everyone is just a shallow cuck. So if they don't validate then fuck them.... Cut down the need for validation. Cut people who make you even slightly uncomfortable Learn to be a jerk. Be free. I want to back off into my own little world sometimes. Just hide there. Free. No drama no mess, no dealing with difficult people.

So that day it was it. Philly won't have it anymore. Philly came out with a gun. He pointed the gun straight at Haney. Haney was trembling with fear. Philly then warned Haney to not touch me even with a stick... Or else.... Haney got the message. He backed off. A month later, someone said that Haney had left town forever. The threat was over.

For a while I felt protected with Philly even though he was my rapist and abuser. I felt protected because if it weren't for him, then Haney would have probably sold me to someone. I needed protection.. Then one day Haney came to the door. He was standing at the porch. He was waiting. He thought Philly wasn't home. Philly had a gun this time. He had hidden it on top of the cabinet. Haney stood on the porch. I could see him from a distance.