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@Grant6 Any permanent changes in your psyche, mood?

I never had an enlightenment experience, but I had a Dark Night of the Soul. And during this time once an idea came to me. I don't know if I saw something, experienced something or just thought something, but the idea was "the answer to the question, if God exists or does not exist, is there is no "exist" or "does not exist" in that realm".

@Breakingthewall @Javfly33 @catcat69123May psychedelics harm my psyche temporarily or permanently?

I have been going to psychoanalysis for more than two years. I had those expectations mentioned by @Motar. But I see no healing. I have pus inside me which I want to discharge. I feel that if I don't discharge that, I will always suffer. Before psychoanalysis during meditations that pus was always coming up, it was very painful, but each time it came up, I could not discharge. Psychoanalysis also did not help me to discharge it. That is why I want to do LSD to discharge that pus and relieve forever.

I wonder too. Unfortunately he seems to not come here anymore.

@Motar I also contemplate to try LSD, but probably not everybody changes after trips for better. How are you now?

So if you are a strong muslim, what are you doing in a heretic forum?

Then how come a language emerged in Eurasian steppes appeared in Indian subcontinent?

I am an atheist from a muslim community. Islam definitely is the worst religion on the Earth and not peaceful at all.

Is there a reason not to kill ourselves aside moral ones?

The dictator is becoming richer and more powerful. He bribes politicians even from respected Western countries. After tensions with Russia Western support to our dictator will only increase. Actually I think it is the United Kingdom that put his father on our head to suck our oil and gas.

I am from a poor country Azerbaijan and it is much safer than rich country United Kingdom (I have lived there). Because our people have strong family bonds, unwritten rules, classic sense of honour and etc. (For example, in Azerbaijan if you are with your girlfriend and you have an argument with a random guy, he will try not to fight you in front of your girlfriend or will ask you to take your girlfriend home and come back for a fight. Because beating someone in front of his girlfriend is not cool.) But still when it comes to non-violent crimes like corruption, bribe and etc, British people are much better than us. However my country is becoming more violent over time, because the values disappear and the poverty becomes more severe.

@ardacigin Everything is predetermined since Big Bang. After Big Bang every cause could have only one effect, so this cause-effect change since Big Bang could only result in this current shape of existence. Nothing else could have happened.

Why something exists? Why there is no total non-existence? If I was omnipotent God, I would delete myself permanently.

Could you please elaborate more on your direct experience? Our character, thoughts, psyche emerges from our DNA, experiences, parents, society and etc. DNA comes from our parents. So where is the reincarnation?

Why to evolve?

What is the point in testing humans?

How do you know that life is a test?

I have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder since childhood. It got worse over time and I got feelings that there are missions I have to do, otherwise I am incomplete, not worthy. I visited psychiatrists, psychologists, consumed antidepressants, meditated for years, but to no avail. I started to go to psychoanalysis in September 2019 and in January 2020 it was revealed I had repressed my homosexuality, which frightened me. So here is the long story

Psychoanalysis did not help me and actually harmed me more. It has been more than two years I go to psychoanalysis.

Where can I read elaborately about this topic?

Do you have a proof?

There are exercises that train your abilities to have lucid dreams, my friend has done those exercises and indeed has lucid dreams. But I have never heard of exercises to ender somebody's dream and I know noone doing that.

Is it possible to enter somebody's dream on purpose? If it is, how can someone train that?

I quitted smoking cigarettes, weed, shisha, drinking alcohol 4 years ago, but I still crave for them. I guess I will restart doing them sooner or later.