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Eckhart Tolle says in "The Power of Now": "The predominance of mind is no more than a stage in the evolution of consciousness." So did it contribute to the evolution of consciousness? To consciousness of human kind or individual person? If somebody was never preoccupied by his mind will he lag behind in terms of evolution of consciousness? What does Eckhart Tolle want to say here? My English is not that good, I may miss the obvious point.

Yes I agree with you. My mind asks endless questions and finds "bugs". Not just about spirituality, but about everything. When I was learning programming in an online course, I was the most question asking student. Questions arise in every aspect of life. With such questions I became atheist (I was muslim).

Can it come back? I suspect I will )) So there is a possibility that, even after enlightenment a person can return to pre-enlightenment mode.

When it happens, I deem my focus has wandered away from breath, so I regather my focus on my breath, to notice it.

Do you think, that there can be such intense emotional or physical pain that, anybody, no matter how much willpower he or she has or how much enlightened he or she is, would commit suicide?

I have never attempted to commit a suicide, but I am in a constant torture, which I am getting fed up of. It has been almost 12 years. I work, study online courses, exercise sometimes. Outside nobody knows what I endure, if I am not in crisis when the pain manifests itself outside as well (me crying or dry heaving and etc).

I dont know if it is for everyone, but for most suicide is mechanical. It is not fearlessness, but on the contrary is a tremendous fear. It is escaping the torture. Mechanical escape. Like, pulling your hand away from hot water.

When I was 25, unaware of the notions "spirituality", "enlightenment", "ego" and so on, for the first time in my life I snorted a drug, mephedrone (mkat). Until that day the only drug I had ever did was smoking cannabis. I was an unhappy, striving guy. I had no idea what the effect would be. But it was a huge happiness. The problems, worries, I had, seemed so meaningless, I smiled at them. I did not want to be the best. The existence was enough. I saw the truth. I felt it on my every cell. I thought I would never be that unhappy, wrong thinking, lost guy again. But after the effects wore off, my default mode came back. I was shocked that, how come it is possible. I know the truth, but I run after ambitions again. I want to be the best. to beat others. Again. Then second time when I used mkat, I took notes what I think, what I feel, how should a person approach the life. When I was sober I looked at those notes, I knew they were true, but I did not feel them. They did not give me peace. Afterwards when I was sober or drunk or high I thought about the life a lot, what is wrong, what is right, what is truth. I started to chase the truth. And I never knew that somebody else had this experience and these thoughts about life. Until one day, on facebook my friend liked a quote of Osho. I did not know Osho, I read his quote and it was exactly the same what I thought after mkat experience. I was surprised that I am not alone. I dug deeper and got acquainted with spirituality, enlightenment, ego and other spiritual teachers. I want to achieve that state without drugs. But I dont know once I achieve it will my default mode come back again.

In my country there is an entrance exam to get admitted to a university. When I was 18, I passed this exam with a very high score and afterwards fell in a huge emptiness. Emptiness emerged at the second I saw online that I got admitted with a high score. Instantly. This led me to depression and worsened OCD and for years I started to contrive absurd missions for myself to accomplish and they those missions were not related to my education. Actually I started to neglect my lessons and focused on those missions. The result was going to a psychotherapist after 8 years.

Came across with this article and wanted to share it with you. "We daydream so much that scientists call it the default mode—what the human brain is doing when it’s not focused on something in particular. The brain network responsible for daydreaming is named the default mode network (DMN). And much like letting your car idle will burn your fuel reserves, this “idling” activity negatively affects our daily happiness. The Harvard study, for example, discovered that people were the least happy when daydreaming. As Killingsworth summed it up, “A wandering mind is an unhappy mind.” Simply put, it feels good to be focused on the moment in a flow state and bad to be fantasizing about greener pastures, or the purple vistas of what might have been." "Brewer’s research centers on a region of the brain known as the posterior cingulate cortex (PCC), which is a major node in the default mode network. The PCC is one of the most active and densely connected areas of the brain, involved in emotion and memory processing. It also turns out to be very good at interfering with the flow state. In a 2013 paper published in the Frontiers of Human Neuroscience, Brewer noted that the PCC gears up when we are daydreaming and are caught up in DMN activity.[3] When the PCC calms down, on the other hand, we become more mindful of our immediate experience, making it easier to enter a flow state." http://deconstructingyourself.com/flow-machine-human-brain.html

Is not everybody's main purpose to survive? Why do we try so hard to survive and to avoid pain if eventually we will die? Is not the whole existence pointless and impossible to have a point? Should not human beings, who unlike other creatures have mind, commit suicide? Is there a global purpose or meaning? Do you mean by unknown that never can be known? Because if we did not care unknown we would have never evolved.

When someone does something unfair against me I get mad. I cannot forget it even for years. Every time I remember it I see the wound is so fresh despite the many passed years. If I dont respond to this injustice immediately, I start to beat or kill that person in my daydream. I suspect it happens because of my inferior complex. Is it ego? Does it happen to anybody else?

I had not heard of holotropic breathing before, so, I typed in youtube, similar breathing techniques came out but not holotropic. How to do holotropic breathing?

When I meditate sometimes my breath disappears. If it happens, should I look for breath to observe it again or just float in emptiness? How can one attend no-mind state, when mind involves in anything? Even when somebody meditates he or she instructs himself or herself, like "this is just a thought", "be in present" and etc. All of this are done with the help of mind. How can one detect Truth from untruth without mind? Or are there two types of minds, from one of which we want to get rid of and to keep just another one? Or do we just want to control mind but not get rid of it?

Hello dear forum members. I am new to the forum. I started to meditate 2 or 3 weeks ago and with a timer. I set a timer, sit on a chair and start to observe my breathing. In the beginning I meditated a 5 minutes session, then I extended it to a 10 minutes session, then two 10 minutes sessions, and finally to a 20 minutes session. So here are my problems: I get bored during meditation; I often wonder, how much time is left; I think a lot, during meditation just some seconds go without thinking :)) ; I always analyze how my meditation is going and when I notice that it is going well, I feel glad and excited like "yeah I do it" and immediately meditation gets ruined again. It is like carrying a precious thing and breaking it out of excitement; I always instruct myself during meditation, like, when thoughts come, I say to myself, dont pay attention on it, these thoughts are not important and will disappear; Two times I had a difficult session. Last bad experience was even worse than previous one. In the last minutes of session I got bad feelings, anxiety. I sweat, I became very nauseous, dizzy. I felt like trapped in a small dungeon. As if my heart would collapse. I thought I might faint or vomit, so first time in my life I opened my eyes and ceased the meditation before timer rang. Actually as soon as I opened my eyes the timer ranged, so I opened my eyes on time, but this is not important. I see there is a limit for my meditation. Should I actually go on and not open my eyes, when I experience such things again? I would like to know, taking into account above-mentioned factors, is my meditation still considered a proper meditation? Can I still meditate even if I am not able to solve above-mentioned issues? Thanks beforehand.

I have two more questions: 1. When I meditate I sit on the edge of my bed and I try to sit with a straight spine. But I cant hold it straight more than some minutes, so sometimes I bend a little or even lie on my bed when I see I cant handle. Is sitting properly crucial in meditation? Is meditating lying on in the bed decreases the quality? 2. How can I know if my meditation was fine? Should I feel something afterwards? Sometimes it makes me tired.

Is not Tai chi a martial art? Or there is a tai chi meditation as well?

Sometimes I think about suicide to escape overwhelming pain, but sometimes I think about suicide, because I feel emptiness inside. It is not pain actually. I just feel detached from everything, even from my parents and other loved ones.

I am 30 and I also dont know what is my life purpose

Thank you very much LaucherJunge. I will definitely read her book. However to be honest I cant imagine what can make me feel good. Because the life itself seems grey and nothing draws my interest at those horrible moments when I think about suicide. No success, money or anything external can make me even slightly better. I feel emptiness and meaninglessness inside.

Can this person be anybody or only the one with the traits which we have disowned?

Excuse me, could you, please, elaborate this little bit more? I guess, because of my bad English, I could not understand it.

Cant we live without ego? What will happen if we dont create ourselves? I thought you regretted for creating yourself and having a strong ego. But now I see you recommend someone to do so. I am confused.

Once my female friend sent me a printscreen of a facebook profile of a guy, who wrote about himself that he wants to meet horny women for sex. I said, it is good that he is forthright and does not lie and break hearts of women. She said that, he is just too stupid to lie and be indirect to get a woman. He has a very primitive brain.

Hi Hardkill, I can relate to what you are talking about. I am also not successful with women although I have tried hard approaching girls outside, hitting on them at various places and texting them on internet (dating apps and etc). I am not that handsome I think, although some women have told me they found me attractive. Because of failures I stopped approaching girls, however I still try my chance on dating web sites or apps. Before, I was thinking that, the only reason I dont have a girlfriend for a long time is lacking courage. But now I see my pick up line is very lame. I have a lot of friends and I am interesting guys. But when I like a girl I dont know what to say and how to hold a conversation with her. I become boring and even weird. Can I ask you where you are from. Because I am from a conservative country and it makes the situation even more difficult.