Samra

@MarkusSweden I think that Jordan Paterson is misunderstood on some levels. Listen to his podcast with Joe Regan #1070. I don't undrestand many things as I haven't touched the absolute, yet. However, I have clearly experienced feminine and masculine energies when I was with ayahuasca. Call them whatever you want. In my opinion, on this level of existence that I am currently experiencing, while there is no clear definition of male or female , there is definitely a feminine and a masculine energy, playing with each other.

@Shin yeah, I dig it

@Shin yes, precisely. I wonder if I have split personality sometimes. Or that's just the nature of the inner work. Maybe both. Where is the awareness in this?

I had a strange experience today. My ego started singing a lovesong to me, and begging me not to go. It was sad. I felt sad and cold hearted. It felt like going through a breakup, when you are the one who is doing the break up, and the other person is doing and saying everything they can to stop you from leaving them. It was very bizarre.

@General 2 if you would to get discouraged everytime someone tries to sell you their own shortcomings, you will never get anywhere. Hear it one from ear, let it go from the other. I have been told so many times that my plan is not going to work, and against all odds, it did. Although this should not be your goal, it is such a satisfying feeling to prove to yourself that you indeed did had it in you go get em tiger

Its not about the size , for me at least. My most favourite partners were not the ones with the biggest size, but the ones who made me the most comfortable, and adored me the most, and an animal at the same time. hope that helps! so dont worry. Just learn to be comfortable with yourself, and your comfort and confidence will be your weapons.

@General 2 I dont know how old you are hun, but in my experience its never too late for most things. Unless its physically driven, it should be fine. I have switched my career path 3 times already. Age and life experience gives you an edge. You catch up pretty fast. Don't sell yourself short. Also when you are older, you tend to study more efficiently. No need to really accelerate. Just give it all your attention and enjoy the challenge. Life is not a race. Your tomorrow is now.

Persian celery Stew with basmati rice. I'm actually not gonna write the steps, cause it would be long. Just the ingredients. I share a good link. If u have any questions just ask. Celery , parsley, coriander, lime, onion, garlic, turmeric, Cinnamon, chilli flakes, tomato paste, if u like meat or fake meat ( dried soy protein chunks are especially good) . For basmati rice, search Persian rice. You can switch white to brown. https://turmericsaffron.blogspot.co.uk/2009/05/celery-stew-khoresh-karafs.html?m=1

I think the idea of calcium was sold to Society for marketing purposes. Regardless, you can get calcium from : kale, broccoli, oil Chou, almonds, supplements...

@Psyche_92w maybe i make a separate thread for that. However, there are tons of recipes online. I cook my rice Persian style. That means that it boils for 15 min, then drain water out, add oil and water at the bottom, add rice on top, and let slow cook dry for another 30 min. That way the excessive starch comes out. https://www.google.co.uk/amp/s/www.epicurious.com/recipes/food/views/persian-rice-with-golden-crust-100915/amp

@John Iverson I had similar issue as well. For me, it was the fear of not sounding intelligent enough because of my accent. First of all, remember that you will get better in time in everything you do. So it's okay not to be great at everything all the time. Be kinder to yourself. Second, it really doesn't matter what others think. No one really cares about others. We are all self obsessed by nature. So don't take yourself so seriously. Third, get out of your comfort zone and learn some face to face uncomfortable situation skills. I did lots of theatre and hung out with theatre and art peeps to learn their language and behavior, as well as give less of a shit. Totally worth it. Met some of my most funniest insane friends and learned so much from them. Also, watch some good old school stand up comedy. Bill Hicks, George Carlin, Dave Chappelle.... so many. In my opinion Comedians are intelligent people, who don't give a shit the most.

Try replacing bread with rice, couscous, quinoa... . Brown, red and black rice are better than white. But if you prefer white, get basmati. Also, you can make pita at home super easy and fast. Use brown rice flour if possible. It needs no yeast. Just flour, salt, olive oil and water. You can add any other spices you like as well ( turmeric, cinamon, garlic powder...) sweet potatos are also good. Hummus, lentils,beans. All of these have lots of calories. I'm very skinny as well. I have been eating gluten free, dairy free and meat free diet for a year, and I haven't lost muscle mass. My tummy is flat, and I have lots of energy. So don't worry. You will be fine. I take Flaxseed oil supplements as well. As Leo said, ease into it. It's a slow process. You will get better at it.

@spicy_pickles Don't think twice. Get out of this now. And don't let anything intimidate you. When I was much younger, I was in an abusive relationship too. One time I tried to break up. We ended up in a random park, late night. When I started the conversation about splitting, the dude took out his big pocket knife and started playing with it, meaning I cut you if you break up with me. I was sweating my lady balls out, but I did it anyways, and just started walking away, praying that he won't stab me from back. Mind you, the effin idiot that I was, he managed to lure me back again soon after, cause he was mentally abusive and I was just pathetic and weak. Mental abuse is so much more powerful, dangerous, and hard to navigate than physical abuse. So, leave now. Don't look back.

The trouble with being so young and energetic like yourself is , that you are going to get a lot of good advice here and there, but you won't listen to any of it at the end. Why? Cause heart knows no logic. So you go on and make your mistakes. And you will learn from them. And hopefully you won't be bitter, and bounce back. And then you will give advice to younger kids and they won't listen to you either. You will be fine, no matter how hard this seems right now Here is my advice that you are not going to apply : leave this relationship. Forget about the friendship. Out Grow your self and intelligence. There are a lot of interesting people out there for you to date and befriend.

It can work. But you need to play an entirely different game. The more important question is, is that worth your time and effort.

I have an inquiry about this "dream of life" : In my night dreams , I am aware that I'm dreaming. At least 50 percent of the time. When I'm aware, I sometimes play with the dream and change the rules or outcome as the self pleases. Other times , I let it play out however it wants, and I just enjoy the show. So the question is , do we become aware of the dream and play with it without the ability to fully get out of it, or do we wake up, and the night/life is over. Or do we wake up to another dream. Until we wake up from that dream too , and infinity.

@MarkusSweden that is very kind of you. I wish i was wise, but i ain't. I just have been brutally hard on myself all my life, and i can now clearly see the damage and suffering in doing that, for others as well.

I think you should Do what you love. You will find the light in there. It's not the other way around. If it ends up that it wasn't meant for you, you will find another path.

This is my new insight regarding thought and awareness. There is no such a think as though , then awareness, then though ,... and a loop goes on. Instead, awareness is always , present, absolute. Though takes its attention. So the phrase : " that thought was not me, it was a though." Is itself a though. And there is nothing you can do about it , from the perspective of the mind. You need to break that loop by not playing that game. And one of the first step is to not be judgmental of the though. Let it come. Be loving to it and let it play. Even be humorous with them. Your awareness can handle it and much more. It will eventually dissolve in love.

It's a deal Update me as well please!