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@Ether of course it is an ego game. It's all ego games! I'm well aware that, as you are. I'm playing until it's no longer necessary. The other option is to drop all games. And I can't do that, not in this lifetime, not in this karmic body. So let's play

@Gladius ayahuasca is no nonsense drug. You respect her , or she will show you who is the boss. I'm actually meeting Madra this weekend myself (so fuking excited and nervous! It's like meeting my crush on a date :p) I recommend doing the diet properly two weeks before. Also limit you internet intake of news , YouTube, bullshit... just reduce noise from life as much as possible. I do Hope the retreat you are attending is legit. Best of luck!! And share your visit later

@Zweistein it was quite interesting. He obviously knew a lot about spiral dynamics, but he tried to stir me away from it. For good reasons ( they don't want to say one colour is better than other). He said their Drives are based on Spiral Dynamics , but it's not the same. It's a circular shape rather than spiral. Meaning that no drive is better than another. It's just dependent on circumstances that one drive does better than others in different societies. For instance, UK is mainly green and blue. Us is Orange and blue. China is purple and yellow. Etc. He said although you can go through personality development in your lifetime (spiral dynamics), your drive won't change that much. So my main drive yellow ( dreamer , future oriented) and second green ( caring) third red ( decisive) .for example It means my main drive is not money or success, rather it's freedom and fun , then people, then action and speed. And every company and every team needs all drives for different reasons. For example , our company has a lot of greens ( people care about each others needs and feelings, very British) , and very few reds ( aggressive decision makers ) and while that seems awesome at first, it can become a problem. Because at crunch times, we are at lost cause we don't have a lot of aggressive decision makers. Yellows are too much of a day dreamers sometimes, but they are also super future oriented and creative. Blues are past oriented and discipline. The combo will have hard time getting along, but they also compliment each other. Also a yellow can learn discipline even if she doesn't like it or it's not natural to her. Same with blue. All of this reminded me of something Alan Watts used to say. Too many saints or enlighten people , or too many scientists is not a good thing. It becomes like a cancer. You want a mix. And you need to accept everyone, and bring the best out of them. This doesn't mean you can't develop through different stages of personality and become turquoise or what not. That's a whole other thing I guess. Thanks for checking!

@herghly Last time was alright. I had a hard time keeping the tea in my stomach. My friend who was with me was vegan , and he got a lot more out of it. This time I am physically and mentally more prepared. I let u know in two weeks time!

@Leo Gura Thank you! :> Happy to see you back. Can't wait for your upcoming videos and blogs. I hope you experienced what you wanted in your retreat last month.

Its been a year, but im finally going for my second Ayahusaca retreat. This time with a friend from Canada, and it will be in Portugal. I actually wanted to go for a 5 Meo DMT ceremony with a Shaman in Germany, but after talking to my friend, we decided to go for another Ayahuasaca ceremony before 5 Meo, just to be more prepared. I know nothing really prepares you for 5 Meo, but i still felt this is the way for me. I am hoping to be able to go way deeper this time. I am on a lot more strict diet, I have done a lot more research, I am more proficient with Yoga and meditation. I have read more books, watched more videos. Hopefully, I can have a breakthrough. If not , it will still be a lovely inner journey, shared with ma gal. I'll update this post in four weeks time. I am going on an internet fasting for the next two weeks to cleanse the mind, as well as the body.

@Zweistein Yes, I have changed a lot since two years ago, when i started following Leo, reading good books and implementing certain habits and practises in my life. But i'm still not a yellow. Im most likely at stage Orange. I probably knew how to hack the test. Also, who knows how accurate it is. I am going to have a one to one with the head psychologist , and im planning to bring this up, and the whole Spiral Dynamics and see how he responds. And yeah, they are making a lot of money. But they are actually teaching people how to deal with themselves and with each other , so I think they are doing some good for the company and the individuals in it. Most people have never touched a psychology book before in their life, so this is at least something.

So last week, our company started this workplace psychology thing called Management Drive. They asked anyone who likes to do the a long test and see what category they are at. You can download their app and after you do the test they will send you all these information about your drives, your states of mind, your weakness, strength, what colours you work well, what colours you might have tensions with ,.... . I did the test. And right after i got the results, I realised this is Spiral Dynamics, just re framed for a corporate company. And my colour is a big yellow. So this cannot be correct. there is no way i have reached the stage yellow. I haven't even reached stage green yet . They also said i have a bit of Green and a bit of Red in me. I think I kind of hacked the system and the answers. Have yo guys have done any legitimate test and got weird results?

I have smoothie (homemade almond milk with fresh fruit, spinach, and bunch of other goodies) for breakfast ( after 11 am usually, cause i do Intermediate fasting) Plus Green apple and low suger almond and peanut butter for lunches, I try and stay away from Gluten if possible. But otherwise, I buy : - Avacado -Lime -hummus - Bakery bread toasts (fresh rather than packaged) - Chicken or Tune -Parsley or coriander And i make a bad ass sandwich with them! I obviously cant finish it all, so I half everything, wrap them good, and have it for two or three lunches in the week. We have fridges in our workplace so its easy to store stuff away.

Something happened at work yesterday, and I have gotten extreme feeling of envy and jealousy. So much that I couldn't sleep even after meditation. I'm trying neti neti techniques, as well as breathing into it. I'm learning a lot about how much more work the ego needs. Now, all the physical emotions are concentrated in my chest. I cannot breath into it anymore because of the amount of pressure. Do you know a way for me to release the tension? It's like a huge blockage of chakara. Thank you

@Charlotte @Otogi @How to be wise @Martita thank you all **** lots of love

Maybe! It's the good old ego gas :)))

Why the god head likes to plays the game of hide and seek? I can list some reasons, such as thrill, boredom, self preservation, surprise, self reflection, seeking, loneliness, but they are all so low level consciousness. I can't seem to see it yet from a higher perspective.

The way i like to look at it, is that if i was ( or am) god, and i like to make the ultimate Game, i make this as game as smooth and as unhackable as it can be ( and as god, i know every infinite possibility, because i am infinite). This is the game for me to surprise myself at the end (and its impossible to surprise me), so it needs to blow me away and make me laugh when i finally (or if ever) figure it out. So can I ever hack it? I dont know! I have until infinity to figure it out. So illusion is not just persistent. Its the game itself. And maybe the rule is that if you want to get out of the game, you need to play it (paradoxical) like Jumanji.

What is the mechanism for this? When you breath from mouth , the levels of oxygen and CO2 changes or something? I only ask because i passed out for couple of seconds for my first try, so i wonder if I did it right. Can the same effect be achieved through heavy nasal breathing? I guess i try that out myself.

I just did my first try. I think I passed out (lost consciousness) around 20 minutes mark, in a pleasant way. All my senses, including my hearing started fading. I panicked tiny bit at first, but very soon relaxed into it. After couple of minutes, my senses started coming back. I felt a lot of vibration all over my body, especially my right elbow, which has RSI. Maybe It was healing my elbow! Now I have a bit of a ringing in my ears. But I feel alright.

If I decide to quite my current identity (persona) ,with all its attachments (house, job , relationship, ...) and just start new with the authentic self, How and where does it begin? And what is the worse thing that can happen?

I have been thinking about improving my drawing, communication, creative, and story telling skills for a while now. I have always worked on my own visions, but i thought it might be a fun experiment to see if I can draw an interpretation of what others are experiencing. I thought this might be a good practical practise for me. If you are kind enough, please share with me a description of a scenario, Of an experience, an emotion, a vision, a memory, a dream, an energy, a feeling, a none feeling... This can be super duper abstract. It can be crude, ugly, beautiful, fantastic, empty, psychedelic, magical, ordinary, sad, happy, scary, mind blowing, unreal, absolute... anything you desire. I just ask to keep the description short, not pages long. Try and get to the essence of what you see or feel. The drawings will be super rough. I am not a proper 2D artist, so dont assume anything grand. It will be just a quick sketch. But I will put my heart and soul into it for you. If any other artist would like to participate, please do! Lets see what we can create together

@Nahm I am very happy and flattered that you like my work already. Its super heart warming and gives me a lot of confidence boost! Thank you <3 <3 I cannot sell you anything right now however. All the art done in this thread is my gift back to the community, as well a none pressure practise and exploration space for my self. Also, I am not a painter at all. I am super new to this, and my current art is not at an execution level to be commissioned, and im not just saying that because of lack of confidence. I know good art. I can send you a good picture of the art, and you can do anything you want with it. Re commission it with some other artist, i dont mind. I give you the right. If anyone really liked the artwork and wanted to give back and support, please donate to Actualized.org and support Leo so he can keep up making awesome content. Lots of Love <3

We are already absolute infinity, we just have forgotten,or have become too numb to it. You knew this at some point . And sometimes it's takes a lot of effort to remember effortlessness. It goes against our own engineering.

I learned that it is really easy to get corrupted. That no matter how good you think the cause is, sometimes you just have to step back, retreat and be patient. It is not always worth it. Respect others and neighbours even if they dont always respect you , or are fearful of you. That it is possible to gather an amazing group of people in one place, but it needs to be done in intervals, and you need enough time to adjust. You cant just take over in somebody else's territory and claim it without resistant. It should be done with respect and in in time, so others can adjust.

@Nahm thank you <3 still long way to go

@Slade Thank you so much. Ill try and polish it for you at some point. This is quite rough.

@Slade

I attended an ayahuasca retreat last year, and I'm doing one this year. Different People have different experiences, depending on your state of mind, body, your level of openness, the retreat, the medicine, the shaman... So like others said, just go for it. You will be fine regardless I had no prior psychedelic experience s and I did just fine. The medicine will show you what you need to see. Enjoy your trip!