Samra

@Serotoninluv I was lying down most of the time also. On the second night, I had a mini second dose, and it resulted to a bad trip after the ceremony. But that could be because I was trying to control too much. I still don't understand what it means to have a trip with no visuals. Even my bad trip was with visuals. I guess I just need to experiment until I get it.

@Leo Gura I have a question. Not everybody have visual experience with Ayahuasca. I can't understand that at all. Because all my experiences seemed only visual. On my last retreat, on the first night, My friend didn't have any visual experience. She said she was just full of love. I literally can't comprehend what that means, cause my experience has been so intertwined with what I perceive and feel at the same time. On the second night, she wanted to see more visuals. So I told her to close her eyes right from start since she didn't do that the first night. And it worked perfectly for her! She saw all kinds of things. So I tried her method of keeping my eyes open. But my results where quite negative. I felt no love or openness, and in fact I closed down. How can you have a trip with no visuals ?

@GafaRassaDaba wow! Thank you so much for sharing <3 your experience is world's apart from mine on aya. Mine was quite stuck in duality, where I think you had the grace, practise and power to break through. I wish you all the best, and hope you can integrate all of this soon in your everyday. <3

@MadisonAlyssa I had (probably still have ) attachments to how I look, and making sure everybody liking me. Once you realize this power over you, and how you identify and limit yourself with it, you can little by little let go of it. This is how it went for me. I used to not step out of the door or go to work without make up, in fear that I might be judged. Now I am always almost make up free, except when I want to. I used to wear tight uncomfortable clothes at all times to show off my figure, now I wear whatever makes me feel comfortable. I used to care about my coworkers (90 percent men) not liking me. So I used to be either flirtatious, or a yes man. Now, I m neither. I'm brutally honest with everyone, and that has caused a lot of people to dislike me, including my bosses, and that is ultimately fine. That showed me in the insight that I need to become a master at what I do to gain respect, not my charms. I'm sure you will change as well as you go through this work. As Leo said, do the contemplation work, and be honest, kind and loving to yourself.

Teachings are the important part, not the teacher. Real Teachers are vehicles of knowledge and truth. When someone points at the moon, one should look at the moon, not the pointing finger. Some people are trying hard to learn about Leo as a person. But I think you should respect his privacy and instead focus on yourselves. Learn what you can from the class. It's like you are following your high school teacher or university professor around after school. It's weird and creepy.

I want something to humor me, excite me, frighten me, intrigue me, while give me insights from both emotional and logical aspects. Example, I love Cosmos and Neil D. Tyson 's delivery. I also enormously enjoy Alan Watt's audio's. He can be so funny and yet serious at times, with lots of stories in the middle. I guess what I'm trying to say, is that I love mysterious, meta narrative formed knowledge, and charming storytellers and teachers.

@Preetom Ah! I wrote this long time ago, before my Ayahuasca trip. I feel like a totally different person now!! I heard this idea of Court's Fool from Alan Watts I think. Love that man. We do need good story tellers though! Maybe thats why everybody's addicted to Netflix. We want good stories.

@Nahm your words just gave me the chills <3

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I wish you guys could read them in Farsi <3 it's just another level. The translation doesn't do justice. "Said : you are not insane enough. You don't deserve this house. So I went mad , and I broke all my chains. Said : you are not drunk enough, to be in company of divinity. So I drank until I lost all my senses. Said you already have your feathers, I'm not giving you anymore wings. So I lost all my feathers , crawling on the ground, in hopes that it will grace me with its ultimate flight." https://youtu.be/MzjPC2R3EOg

Interesting concept, but I don't think it works. If you are not ready for a breakthrough, or willing to do the work, nothing will change you. You need the grace and will at the same time. Personally, I don't even know why I became so interested in such topics and way of life. Sometimes it feels like luck, gift , or curse, but not my own doing. You see what I'm sayin?

I have tried helping my parents. But instead, I became so judgmental, harsh and aggressive towards them. The problem is, we have this notion that parents are invisible adults. But the truth is, they are just another hurt human being, who just want to be accepted. When children don't accept their parents, it really really hurts. And they can't change that way. Believe me. If they could, you wouldn't have had these problems. Just be the loving space they need as much as possible. You will have your moments of course. That is okay. You will see better results that way. Remember, You only have one mother and one father in this world. Don't treat them in a way that will bring you regret.

There is a spiritual and non-dual approach to this issue. But I'll give you an example of my own experience, regarding the studying situation, which is not spiritual at first glance. Our minds are lazy. It doesn't want to work. So it uses any mean necessary to not overwork. That also includes being negative. You might call it resistance or procrastination. It is also related to our Chimp mind. Gently fight your chimp mind, and get back to work you need to do. Don't let it become an excuse. It is normal to have negative thoughts when you are doing a difficult task. But the only way to vet over it is to keep going despite of yourself. It will become easier.

@Dodo your questions are legit and full of curiosity, but I'm afraid I dont know the answers either. And my opinions won't be good enough for you. But your curiosity will take you to interesting places. That I do know look for your own direct experience.

Hi All, I am currently living in UK, and I had my first Ayahusaca experience here in Europe! For the sake of the privacy and safely of the people involved, , I will not share too many information. All im going to say, is that it was not hard to find a super reliable source in Europe. The lady who set the ceremony, as well as the Shaman and his team were incredible! By the end of three days retreat, I was in love with everybody involved, and the Shaman and his team. He had studied in Peru under Peruvian Shamans 14 years ago, and he constantly travels between Europe and Peru. The medicine herself was great as well. There are couple of things I am going to warn you about doing Ayahusaca if you were thinking about doing it. 1. Do not do it without a master Shaman(s). This medicine is super strong. You need someone to guide you through it. It bends space and time, and it literary takes your spirit out of your body ( at least thats how i felt and I saw). It is a very intense experience. Never do it with amateurs or at home. Do not take this point lightly. There are many cheap places in Europe who just provide the medicine for cheap and an amateur person who just do it for you. Do not do it. Don't be cheap. Find a reliable source and a proper master Shaman. Very important. 2. You do not need prior experience with other psychedelics. I did not have any. However, you need to be super open minded. Dont go just cause. Only go when you have the calling. You know it when you do. 3. One or two session will not change you. For better or for worse. So don't fear it. Also don't get disappointed if its not a miracle cure. 4. Never push anyone to do it with you. You must have a calling. I had a calling , and i needed to go. But my partner and friends were not ready at the time, so I went by myself. In fact, I recommend doing in alone. Especially without a partner. I think that is the best and least distracting way. 5. Ayahusaca is not a psychedelic trip. It might happen, but thats not what you are there for. You may not have any visions. It is a healing medicine. It is a teacher. It will may not be a fun experience. In fact, it is quite a difficult inner journey. Simply because it shows you your most inner secrets and lies you believe, that you do not want to face. But is it worth it? Absolutely. Some of the most brilliant and significant teachings i ever had. 6. You need to let go. I could not let go all the way. I could not face my demon in its totality. So my experience was not full. But now i know what i need to do for my next healing session. I know what to meditate for. So maybe don't go to Peru for your first time. Try somewhere more local. Once you become more familiar and the master of your fears, then go for Peru. That is my plan at least. Practise makes perfect. 7. Follow the necessary diet for at least 3 days before the ceremony. Anyways, There is so much more I can say about the experience itself, but I want you to see it for yourself. Do your research, but dont listen to other people's experiences too much. I did not. I just went for it. So i had no particular expectations. Let me know if you have any questions, Ta! Samra

@Dodo when I say Alien, I mean an unknown entity/ being/ consciousness. Be mindful of what you consider an alien. Some people have fear of the world alien because of cultural background subconscious. And it's real to my experience. What do you call real? It's not real as your grandmother. It's another level of reality. Reality have so many layers, and none of them are totally true . The totality is the truth, not the individual. All I say to you is that it's not creepy. It's so loving and motherly. You don't need to do it. You will get a calling when if you are ready one day, and you can choose your path. There are many paths. There are many teachers. And yes, it did left me. We have a mutual understanding. She/he/it is not there to harm me. She is here to teach, heal and make you remember.

@Charlotte I'm glad you like them <3 I was fine! I was fine after I caught some good sleep. it's all part of the journey. Nothing to be afraid of.

@MrDmitriiV yes I've seen them! Haven't had the chance to read any yet. Thank you!

No. Don't do it at home by yourself. That's not the point of ayahuasca at all. There is a reason for vomiting and pucking with ayahuasca. There is so much about plant medicine that we don't understand. That's why there are shamans. You puke because you have to. Not everyone does all the time. You must do it with a proper shaman. Otherwise go do one of the "high" technology psychedelics.

@Vladimir wow! Thank you for sharing!! You have done so much! So many amazing experiences, visions and insights! I have not done San Pedro and kamboo yet. I am doing a shamanic diet next year for 10 days. It will be 7 days solo in a cabin, one meal a day and three ayahuasca sessions. You cannot leave the cabin surroundings. You have access to nothing except some papers and pencils. The shaman will come to you once a day for a simple meal. And you have to take a certain plant medication daily, which will affect your dreams. The medicine will be given to you based on your experience of the first night with mother ayahuasca. Different plants work with different chakras. My shaman told me I am ready to go further. He said ayahuasca is a general medicine. It's the other plants that do the work. So I'm going for it next year. Once you wrote your report, please tag me somewhere so I can find it and read it!

Tips for learning yoga?

Yoga is not random. Not in my experience, especially when you do it right or have a good teacher. You can clearly see physical, mental and spiritual (or whatever you like to call it) improvement within a years time, even if you only do it for one day a week. The trick is to do it right. But it's good that you are doubting. There is a privilege with a doubter to go deeper and search higher. Who knows what you will find Do the doubting, and do the seeking.