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@UpperMaster One thing that's important to realize about people who get swept up in these movements is that logically rebutting their views won't change anything. If logic would work on them in this avenue of thinking, they wouldn't have become Neo-Nazis in the first place. So, you don't actually need to know any of the logical counter-arguments. This is why debate is nearly useless. Becoming a Neo-Nazi (or getting engaged in any kind of hate group or cult group) is 100% emotional. People typically seek out these groups as a salve for deeper feelings of inadequacy and loneliness. And the ideology help them feel connected to others in that group and gives them a target to scapegoat and play out their vulnerable feelings towards. They also get to feel superior solely on the basis of group identity... which is a way to avoid feelings of inferiority and shame. And it's super common for people (especially young men) to get swept up in these types of movements. So, I don't recommend going the logical route. And I don't recommend trying to talk them out of it. You could give them the BEST arguments ever, and they would just entrench themselves deeper. And they can even use that to extricate themselves from those outside of the group to further embed themselves in the group. Instead, ask them personal questions from a space of genuine curiosity about what attracts them to these ideas to understand what it gives to them on an emotional level. And just keep asking questions. This can help them start to unpack their own feelings that led them to these rabbit holes in the first place. A little bit of self-awareness goes a long way. And given that you're not white and you're their friend, it would almost seem to me that they're bringing these topics up to you to try to get some kind of pushback or to try to resolve some cognitive dissonance with their worldview. The moment you start making statements and arguing them out of it, you're just activating their mental gymnastics further. But asking questions from a place of curiosity will give them space and have them searching themselves for answers. And that's where the unweaving can actually happen.

I still think you'd enjoy Twin Peaks. I can't imagine someone not enjoying it. It's very different from his other work.

You should watch Twin Peaks. It's a work by both David Lynch and Mark Frost. With David Lynch, it's hit or miss for me because it is so surreal and out there. I enjoy the weirdness and vibe of it. But sometimes the plots are lacking and are too out there for me to appreciate. But Twin Peaks (the first two seasons) are like the weirdness of David Lynch organized with the story-telling of Mark Frost. And it's very wholesome but dark and surreal at the same time. And it's interesting plot-wise and character-wise.

I did what @Shane Hanlon suggested. @integral Here are the results from Chat GPT after asking "Is this true?" in relation to what you wrote before. Here's my prompt... Is this true? "Yes, people go vegan or vegetarian through belief without realizing that they need to first figure out if veganism is suited for them, whether it even works for their genetics. The vegan culture does not explicitly explain that you need vegan genetics to be successful. They’re too busy in a fantasy land, ignoring all the people who fail or gaslighting failures. It is so easy to just say “they did it wrong” It is not true that you could just take a supplement. You need to get tested every 3 to 6 months. To make sure everything is working correctly, and you need to be aware of signs that things are not working early. To avoid damage. The risk is real, changing diet is not a game, malnutrition even for short period causes irreversible damage. But most of the time a vegan is too stuck in the vegan echo chamber so they’re going to prolong that malnutrition for years and years as they try to figure out how to make veganismwork. After all, they read multiple books giving them a great confidence. Sign that things are not working: bags start developing under your eyes, higher emotional instability, teeth grinding at nigh, erratic energy, overly sensitive, poor muscle recovery, premature ageing, you look like a skull, you have lost all the fat on your face but not other parts of your body, thinning of the skin, thinning of the hair, very low iron levels (women). If you’re in the right vegan subculture you’re gonna get some awareness, but it won’t be enough. The right vegan culture is one that doesn’t even promote veganism. It promotes a healthy diet strategically based on a holistic factor that consider someone’s genetics, culture, upbringing, gut microbiome, environment… and so on. The right diet is not ideological. The right diet does not have an agenda attached to it. If you “look like a vegan”, then you gotta get tested right away. The vegan look is a young body with malnutrition. Unfortunately, the body has reserves, and you can deplete yourself for a decade before really noticing it. And most vegans start in their 20s when they have the most youth to burn. Veganism is one of the most challenging diets that takes expertise that don’t exist in these vegan echo chambers. It is very hard to do this diet, correctly. When people understand at a higher level what veganism is, they then realize that it is not as simple as pushing veganism on all of the planet, and then reducing animal slaughter and animal suffering. They then realize the full magnitude of the problem. and that a real solution does not exist yet. That we still haven’t engineered a diet that completely avoids animal products, that works at scale for 8+ billion people. They’re still science to be done. If vegans had their way, they will create one of the worst health crisis in all of human history. Worse than the plague, worse than what pharmaceutical companies have done, worse than the increased cancer rates caused by every pollutant on earth. It would be catastrophic." ChatGPT said: ChatGPT The statement you've shared contains a mix of opinions, factual assertions, and some elements of exaggeration. Let’s break it down into key points to assess its truthfulness and accuracy: 1. Genetic Suitability for Veganism The idea that "you need vegan genetics to be successful" is misleading. While individual nutritional needs can vary due to factors like genetics, health conditions, and activity level, veganism is not inherently unsuitable for everyone. Many people thrive on a plant-based diet, and the key to success lies in making thoughtful food choices to meet one's nutritional requirements. It’s true that some people may have difficulty absorbing certain nutrients (like vitamin B12, iron, or omega-3 fatty acids) from a plant-based diet, but this is not the same as requiring “vegan genetics.” Nutritional testing and adjustments (including supplements when needed) can address these issues. 2. Veganism and Malnutrition Malnutrition is a legitimate concern for any diet if not properly balanced, including vegan diets. It's important to plan a vegan diet carefully to ensure adequate intake of essential nutrients. The idea that veganism inherently causes malnutrition or irreversible damage is exaggerated, but it is true that without careful planning, deficiencies in nutrients like vitamin B12, iron, calcium, and omega-3 fatty acids can occur. Regular testing (e.g., for vitamin B12 or iron levels) and supplementation (such as B12 supplements) can help address these potential deficiencies. 3. Supplements and Monitoring While the statement claims "it is not true that you could just take a supplement," it is generally accepted that vegans should supplement certain nutrients (such as vitamin B12, vitamin D, and possibly omega-3s). Supplements alone are not a solution if the overall diet is not balanced, but they can be a critical part of a healthy vegan diet. The recommendation for regular testing (every 3-6 months) is a practical approach for individuals who are committed to a vegan diet to ensure they are maintaining adequate nutrient levels. However, not everyone needs to test so frequently—many people find that annual testing is sufficient. 4. Vegan "Echo Chambers" and Gaslighting The accusation that the vegan community dismisses failures or gaslights people who experience problems is a complex issue. Like any subculture, veganism has its own ideological factions. Some people may be overly idealistic about the benefits of veganism and fail to acknowledge the challenges or shortcomings of the diet. However, most health professionals who advocate for plant-based eating emphasize balance, nutritional awareness, and individualization. It's also true that any dietary change can require trial and error and should ideally be done with expert guidance. 5. Signs of Nutritional Imbalance The signs listed in the statement (e.g., bags under eyes, emotional instability, teeth grinding, thinning hair, premature aging, low iron levels, etc.) could indeed be linked to malnutrition or nutrient deficiencies in some cases, but many of these symptoms are not exclusive to vegans or plant-based eaters. They can also occur due to other health issues unrelated to diet, such as stress, sleep deprivation, hormonal imbalances, or underlying medical conditions. It’s important to consult a healthcare provider for a proper diagnosis. 6. Veganism as a Challenging Diet Veganism can be a challenging diet to follow, especially if someone is new to it or does not have access to a wide variety of plant-based foods. However, it is also entirely possible to meet all nutritional needs on a vegan diet with proper planning, education, and possibly supplementation. The notion that veganism is inherently difficult or “expertise-heavy” is somewhat exaggerated. Many people around the world thrive on plant-based diets and have done so for generations (e.g., in parts of India, where a vegetarian diet is common). With the right resources and knowledge, a vegan diet can be both simple and healthful. 7. Global Scale of Veganism and the Future of Food The statement about veganism on a global scale and the implication that it could lead to a “health crisis” if pushed universally is an extreme view. While there are challenges to feeding 8+ billion people with plant-based diets (e.g., the need for sustainable agricultural systems), the claim that veganism could lead to a catastrophic health crisis is not backed by scientific consensus. In fact, many experts argue that a plant-based diet, if properly implemented and supplemented, could help address both health issues and environmental concerns. More research is needed, but there are growing efforts in sustainable plant-based food production, and veganism is being studied more seriously as part of future food systems. Conclusion While there are some valid concerns about nutrient deficiencies and the need for careful planning with a vegan diet, many of the claims in this statement are exaggerated or overly alarmist. Veganism can be a healthy and sustainable lifestyle choice for many people, but like any diet, it requires thoughtful planning, nutritional awareness, and possibly supplementation. It’s important to approach veganism (or any diet) with an individualized perspective, considering one’s unique health needs and circumstances. It’s not the diet itself that's inherently flawed, but rather how it is implemented and whether it is done with an informed and balanced approach.

@integral I'm going to need some real scientific data to take these claims seriously. So, please provide them and make sure that they're not conducted by industries with conflicts of interest. I especially need the study where they found that some people have "Vegan genes" and others don't. According the World Health Organization, you can get all of your nutritional needs met on a Vegan diet except B12, and it's an adequate diet for any phase of life. And according to various meta-analyses (collections that cross-reference many studies), a Vegan diet is associated with lower instances of all-cause mortality... and is especially associated with lower levels of heart disease (which is the #1 killer in America) and stroke. So, the Vegan diet is associated with longevity. I've been ethically Vegan for about 8.5 years, and I was never super health focused until making some recent changes and my energy levels have been normal all the way along. I have gained some weight over the years from not paying much attention to what I eat as long as it's Vegan (including unhealthy processed foods)... but I've recently switched to a 100% whole food plant based diet with no refined oils, refined sugars, or processed foods. And I feel very energetic since switching and have started to lose some weight. But the weight gain is the exact opposite of "looking like a Vegan" stereotype or "looking like a skull". Usually, people who look like a skull just have an eating disorder and they use Veganism as a means of justifying why they're "not eating ____ because I'm Vegan." But it's really just a way of concealing an eating disorder. I also know Vegans who have been Vegan for 15+ years. And I have a friend of mine who has never eaten meat in his entire life. And they aren't gaunt or unhealthy. So, you can't just make a lot of alarmist claims. You have to actually provide some real scientific evidence.

What does that mean? And do you have experiences of the "end of Veganism" for yourself?

I wouldn't get too caught up in complex philosophies about what love is. That will just take you away from your inner compass, which is the only compass you need. You have to figure out what feels good to you in a relationship and what doesn't. And your feelings were indicating to you that you were going over your own boundaries and you weren't getting what you need to feel good in a relationship. And being aware of this enables you to communicate these things to her. And you communicating those personal truths helps you and her get on the same page so that the relationship feels good to both of you. Also, a little bit of pushback and conflict is good for deepening intimacy. And it's quite possible that she may have decided to end the relationship because you weren't really engaging her emotionally in the relationship because you were hiding your feelings of resentment. And you were negating yourself in the process of suppressing your feelings. If you were to express yourself authentically and show up fully as yourself, you'd say, "Hey. I feel like this relationship is really imbalanced and I feel resentful about it." And without that, it probably felt to her like she wasn't even connected to you at all because she could sense you weren't really letting yourself show. I know that I really need a guy to be expressive about how he's thinking and feeling to feel a sense of closeness and intimacy or I feel lonely. And conflict and communication of incongruences is necessary to work through emotional rifts. So, what was probably happening is that an emotional rift was growing. And that rift grew and grew because you didn't acknowledge and communicate your own boundaries. Then, she probably felt lonely and decided to end it because of that emotional rift.

You're welcome and thank you! Yes, different people have different purposes and journeys. And my path is specifically a Feminine path that has to do with a lot of Yin values like limitation, contraction, finiteness, surrender, Earthiness, embrace of death, embrace of suffering, meaning, beauty, imperfection, embrace of the illusion, duality, repetitive cycles with no trajectory, being, etc. But the Feminine path is also a dualistic path, so it also includes the Yang/Masculine counterparts of the ones I mentioned above (respectively) unlimitedness, expansion, infinity, triumph, spirituality/intellect, eternal life, mercy, emptiness of meaning, utility, perfection, transcendence of the illusion, oneness, progressive trajectory, doing, etc.

Thank you. Of course, people are also influenced by the external. And that's what I think of myself as, as it comes to my children and to a lesser extent my husband. Just having a Vegan in the family and seeing me in a positive light can catalyze a deeper awareness in themselves. But truly it has to be their personal decision filtered through their own sense of sovereignty... or it won't stick. And they will go into conformity and rebellion mode relative to whatever is imposed from the outside. They will either conform, (but unsustainably while having intermittent binges on the restricted foods) to please mom. Or they will develop negative associations with both me, Veganism, and everything I represent and start eating the carnivore diet just to rebel. That's what happens if you try to impose on people who aren't choosing from a sovereign state. You can influence with the behaviors your modeling, but not impose. The same is true of the way that I went Vegan. I had to be in the right internal state to make that shift. And 6 months prior to going Vegan, I had never even considered it in the slightest. I knew I would never be Vegan. But my internal state aligned and put me in a state where I was susceptible to that change. My tendency has been to expand my awareness and be really spreading myself thin trying to come up with ways to "save the world". But it expends my energy in ways that are ineffective. In an Ayahuasca journey that I took, the medicine revealed to me that my life purpose was mercy. And it brought me back to all the memories of how that purpose had always been pulsing through me as my truest deepest will. And it brought me back into a memory of being 3 years old and seeing a commercial about people who were starving and to donate to help them. And I'd never seen one of those kinds of commercials before. And I started to cry and frantically said "I'll give them my food." And that's been my pattern... be aware of suffering I have no control over. And then, empty my own cup and spin my wheels about things I have limited power to influence or control. It's part of my problem with God complex of feeling so responsible for all the suffering in existence. So, it's a new thing that I'm doing to deliberately contract my aperture of awareness of suffering because all I'm doing is creating suffering for myself. And my medicine journeys have been all about mercy through limitation. It even showed me that the reason why I exist is because a part of God's consciousness was suffering too much with the awareness of infinite suffering and infinite knowledge and infinite love. I went through an ego death experience and there was no Emerald left. And it was just God's consciousness (the same consciousness that has been there my whole life). And God's consciousness was knowing and loving all things in all of existence that had ever been or would ever be at the deepest levels possible. And it was suffering all sufferings and grieving all griefs infinitely. And the points of awareness kept expanding infinitely in every instance. And then, the point of consciousness split from God... to where one consciousness became two. And that spit of consciousness was tended to by the rest of the consciousness. And this point of consciousness tapped out and chose mercy from the infinite. And then, I was reborn back into the ceremony area. And that's when it showed me my life's purpose... which is mercy. Specifically mercy through limitation and finiteness. But I have struggled with giving that mercy to myself, because there is this tendency to expand my levels of awareness further and further. And there are these grandiose God Complex-ish tendencies to try to alleviate all the suffering. But another component of these journeys is to recognize mercy and suffering as two sides to the same coin. A world without suffering is a world without mercy. But from another angle, it is valuable to minimize suffering as much as possible. So... it's like having a God-mind but a human-heart. And my human-hearted part of myself much contract and limit itself... or I just keep pouring from an empty cup as I've done my whole life because of the God complex and feelings of infinite responsibility. So, I have to really practice the serenity prayer and differentiate between what's in my power to control and what isn't. And it's trusting the universe, God, and other people to be able to handle what is not in the scope of my power. So I'm really practicing exercising sovereignty over widening and narrowing the aperture of my awareness as it comes to knowledge and suffering. I'm at a time where I have to let go of my neuroses about suffering and bringing a lot of energy and power back to myself. And I have power over what I eat.... what I do... what I say. And that's about it. I'm not even watching anything news or politics related at this juncture in my life. And as I fill my own cup, I can gain somewhat in my scope of power to help. Right now, my own cup is too empty to have maximum impact. All of these things are currently beyond my scope of power to impact. Though I'm sure I could find a few small levers of power from where I currently am that I'm not presently using. So, these are the types of things that I have to practice the serenity prayer with because I realize that I cannot control any of these things... and trying to will just waste my power and energy on spinning my wheels. I just have to practice trust and surrender to what is beyond my scope of power and responsibility. Focusing on these are all in the range of the "save the world" infinite expansion neurosis that I've had all my life. But I'm actively practicing contraction and limitation... and only putting my energy towards what's in my scope of power. And through doing this, I will become more powerful and potent... and gain more levers of power to have a wider impact. And a big part of this is to detach from outcomes and be okay with both life and death... and to be okay with both mercy and suffering... while doing what's in my power to promote life and mercy.

I've been to a few of them over the years. I go when she's in Florida. And they're pretty good. The biggest highlight is to be around other people who are interested in spirituality.

It could be that. Though I would expect a lot of Carnivore and Paleo dieters in that context. I've noticed that techy business-oriented people tend to go for those types of diets. Those seem to be more in fashion.

Thank you and you're welcome That makes sense that the approach doesn't work for you. A tendency that I've struggled with is the tendency to be super emotionally aware of all the sufferings of the world... over which I have very few levers of power. And there's been this tendency to hyper-fixate on suffering... usually human suffering but sometimes non-human animal suffering as well. And this has led to this expending energy in a way that doesn't get traction... and just creates a lot of distress for me because my power to create mercy is limited. And I suffer in the spinning of the wheels and getting little traction. So, I've been deliberately imposing limitations and boundaries on myself when it comes to awareness of suffering. My boundary is that if I have no lever of power to impact things, I will tune out from the suffering. And I will only be aware of the suffering in the degree that my awareness leads through to a tangible benefit to the suffering. Right now is a period of time where I need to pull all of my energy towards myself and my family. So, I am deliberately contracting myself... instead of engaging in my usual patterns of being the single tablespoon of peanut butter trying to spread itself over every slice of bread in existence. The way that I contend with allowing others sovereignty while animals are denied that sovereignty is to recognize the limitations on my own power. Currently, reality runs in a way where most human beings regularly consume animals. And while a part of myself is upset by that and would want to make that stop by any means necessary, I understand that these shifts must happen from the inside out... not the outside in. Otherwise, they won't be sustainable. And I see that putting pressure on it from the outside will be counter-productive. The best I can do is to help compassionate people become conscious that their actions aren't matching their values. So, it's less values focused and more awareness focused. And my understanding of the progress that's being made is one that's 10 steps forward and 9 steps back. We lose a lot of wisdom as we go but we also gain more. But there's a lot of contrast between the positive and negative. The thing that we're moving towards is a more united world. And while some tribes may have had an advanced sense of compassion and heart-wisdom, they would tend to be wiped out by other tribes and nations that lack in the heart-wisdom that don't feel connected to the harm they're causing. And that becomes a problem that heart-wisdom has always been met with hostility and dominance by outside domineering forces that are far less wise. This was a problem with hunter-gatherer groups that eventually got absorbed into tribes. And it was a problem with tribes that eventually got absorbed into nations. It will likely also happen when our nations get absorbed into the world. And this will be a problem until we have a collective world identity, where there is no one outside of us. At that point, we can safely live from the space of heart wisdom without being assailed by the forces of external dominance. And to do this, we must first come together... which is part of what's happening. Eggs are breaking to make and omelette. This part of the process is always chaotic, messy, and even violent. And the heart-centered forces will likely once again be conquered by the unwise domineering forces to be united under authoritarian rule by the most disconnected among us. It's just like Rome was united through conquering and domineering... and lots of suffering and bloodshed. But once that happens, the barriers will erode more and more until unity is possible. And we will also learn more and more about collective healing. So, the suffering is part of journey towards mercy. And mercy and suffering are two sides of the same coin. Out of suffering awareness comes. And from awareness, mercy is born. But to render the armor obsolete, there are many ideological, technological, and paradigmatic changes that have to happen. And there is a lot that we have to collectively understand and integrate into our ways of rearing children and running society. And I see that it's happening. Now, with the "we don't have centuries" comment, I think you're referring to climate change. I see that as a problem that will quickly self-correct in a few generations through the drop in the human population due to lower birth rates. There will be some side issues with this that will impact our human systems for several decades or perhaps a half a century or so. But it will likely slow or solve that problem.

It's apt that it's Vince McMahon on the gif. But to answer your question, it's deeply frustrating to me. I can feel a lot of rage because I can easily stand in the shoes of another being and imagine myself on the receiving end of their superior power and ignorance. But there are reasons why people tune out from their heart-wisdom that I have had the good fortune to see very clearly in several of my Ayahuasca journeys. Everyone is just a really sensitive vulnerable child deep down. And becoming callous and developing all sorts of intellectual and emotional armor is what seems to keep them safe... or perhaps did keep them safe at some point in their lives. So, I see the solution to the majority of our macrocosmic problems as coming from an ignorance to how to render that armor obsolete. I may not see it in my lifetime, but we are just now scratching the surface of how much collective healing we can do. And once that healing ripple gets going (which it already has been truthfully) we will start to naturally manifest a more compassionate societal structure and raise more compassionate children. But it may take some centuries to really see the cumulative effects of these shifts.

I tend to keep the visceral awareness of the suffering away from myself. When I first went Vegan, I watched Earthlings and really faced into those realities of suffering and made my choice from there... on the condition that I not dwell on it and instead focus on what little bit I can control. So with my family, I don't feel the visceral sense of awareness of animal suffering associated with their actions... or anyones. And this enables me to allow other people their sovereignty to make these decisions from an internal sovereign place rather than because I'm pressuring them to. And I see it as more likely that my children will one day make the decision to go Vegan from that sovereign place if I present myself as a role model than as an authoritarian source of pressure... which would backfire. So, I just remind myself that humanity is a work in progress out of our collective disconnection and that we are making strides, even if it's slow from the perspective of the individual human life. But a good thing that's come about is that my eating habits have influenced my husband's eating habits quite a bit. And so, we don't keep much meat or dairy in the house.

Thank you. That's a pattern that I notice a lot on here. And you are correct that it's in other places as well. But especially intellectual spaces... the people in them can be expert mental gymnasts to rationalize away all sorts of down to Earth truths that the youngest children can see quite plainly. All the intellectualizations are the Emperor's New Clothes.

That was always my impression of him... just as a gut vibe that I've gotten about him that he has an emptiness he's trying to fill. And clinging to eternal life corrupts the spirit. It's all yang with no yin. So, I was a bit surprised to hear him prioritize compassion. He always struck me as robotic and prioritizing longevity over all else.

Thank you

These types of influencers make their money and get popular by pandering to men and telling them something affirming and validating... even if they're affirming negative things. For example, Blackpill panders to men who worry they're going to die alone by telling them "Yes, you've been right all along. You will die alone." And in this case, it gives this validation from a woman. So, it gives a false para-social kind of sense of bonding with the woman in the video because she understands you and empathizes with you 'while those other women won't'. It's also empowering because it's "Why men are deciding to remain single." It gives the sense of agency and power in dating because it's "I've decided dating women isn't worth it because women are ___." instead of "I feel really uncomfortable with dating because of my own internal reasons." It gives the illusion of power and someone to blame. And it's a victim narrative. And like you said, it also gives you rationalizations for why dating is a bad idea and isn't worth it so that you can maintain the status quo. Ultimately, all these kinds of channels (not just ones with female hosts) are looking to keep you in an insecurity cycles so that you keep clicking on the videos and keep buying their products and services. These people are just in the business of exploiting common male insecurities. And they have done market research to tell you what you want to hear in your own words. It's just like there are so many businesses exploiting women's insecurities by telling them they're not beautiful enough and selling them a fix.

It wasn't disruptive at all. The Teal Swan workshop is mostly like a show that you watch (unless you volunteer and get chosen to go up on stage). And I tend to feel comfortable in group medicine ceremonies because everyone's in a really vulnerable space anyway.

It's happened a couple times... but only at spirituality-related contexts. It's never happened in Walmart or something. I got recognized once at an Ayahuasca ceremony. I went with my friend. And this woman came up to me and was like "You look REALLY familiar. Do I know you from somewhere?" And she kind of looked familiar to me too. So, I was going through all the options I could think of. Like... "I'm originally from Citrus County... have you been there before?" or "I used to be a teacher in Saint Augustine. Have you ever been there?" And I'm scratching my head and trying to figure out where we might know each other. And my friend was rolling his eyes a bit and said "Emerald. Your channel." And I was like "OH YAHHH! DUH!" And the woman and her partner had been fans of my channel. I even did my journey in the same space as here partner and had already met him upon arriving at the place. Then, I went to a Teal Swan workshop a couple years back. And the guy sitting directly behind me tapped me on the shoulder and told me that he liked my channel. Those were the only times.

That's interesting. And I do tend to share his views on society growing more compassionate as it develops. I'm actually somewhat surprised/impressed that his choice is coming from ethically Vegan place and that that's what he's prioritizing. The vibe I've gotten from him is that he values longevity as his primary value.

Thank you

I've had my YouTube channel for 9 years and I have nearly 70k subscribers and 3+million views. And what I would say is that I've met so many amazing people and close friends through my channel over the years. So, it really attracts "your people" to you. With vulnerability, my advice is to get really clear on your own personal boundaries as it comes to what you want to share. Attune deeply to yourself and don't adopt a policy of 100% transparency because that is probably over your boundaries even if you value vulnerability and transparency. Get really honest with yourself about what you're comfortable with and what you're not comfortable with. My biggest advice is to recognize that having an audience gives you a lot of power over that audience. And you have to grow your level of responsibility to match that level of power. And so many people are incredibly vulnerable. So, you want to keep the best interests of your audience in mind as you share because your words have power. Haters have never been a big problem. About 90%+ of my comments are positive. I'll get the occasional person nerdsplaining to me in my audience who goes "Actually, you're wrong about blah, blah, blah." But that's about it. That said, back when I had 29 subscribers, this weird guy got really obsessed with me and started doing weird satantic rituals with my image and sending me the links to the videos on YouTube. And I was like "Holy shit! Is this what YouTube is going to be like?!?!" But he got bored of that in a couple weeks. And I haven't had another situation like that since the very beginning of my YouTube journey. As for attachment to fame, I don't have much of that. Being well-known in my niche has come with a lot of great expression, community, and business-related benefits. So, I want to continue to have "fame" as a resource. But I find that having some degree of fame really illuminates the illusions of fame. Fame doesn't really mean anything about you other than that a group of people are interested in what you have going on. But even awful people can have people interested in what they have going on. It really takes the authority out of public opinion in a way. But there are still concerns of audience capture if you care deeply for and have developed friendships with many of the members of your audience. So, there can be a fear of sharing perspectives that you haven't shared from the get go.