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I have been having trouble sleeping the past several days, which is rare for me. It was like I was just energized and couldn't turn it off. Then, I read about that eclipse and I was like, "hmmm..."

If he still thinks the same way, he believes the same about women too and that society has suppressed this fact. He's very pro-polyamory in general and thinks of monogamy as an attachment. So, it sounded like he might have been using a double standard. But if he still thinks the same way, I don't think he is.

I recommend NOT avoiding the thoughts and emotions related to men. So, if you feel afraid that you might be bi-sexual just let the feelings hit you. Your dad might judge you, but you don't have to judge yourself. Just let yourself experience whatever is trying to happen.

You're mixing together judgment and discernment. Judgment is attached and wants to invalidate and demonize your manager for being manipulative and brainwashing people. But discernment is detached and will just tell you that she's being manipulative and trying to brainwash the employees. If it's a fact, it's a fact. That's calling a spade a space. Calling her the manipulative manager bitch and hating on her and invalidating her existence, shows that you are perceiving things with the distortion of attachment to the way things SHOULD be. So, your judgment will keep you from perceiving what's true. This is why judgment creates a barrier to Truth. But it is fine to recognize what she's doing as something you don't want to be involved with. This is necessary for being able to make decisions. But you don't need to demonize her to make better decisions.

The key here is to distinguish between judgment and discernment. Judging is not necessary, but discernment DEFINITELY is. Judgement is all about determining the validity of something. And because everything is valid, it only gets in the way. So, when we condemn something or say that something shouldn't exist, we are judging. But with discernment, we are just trying to call a spade a spade in a way that the human intellect can grasp and that can be communicated to others. This is very important to be able to be able to call a spade a spade for practical functioning, otherwise we leave ourselves open to making bad decisions.

But we're not talking about subjective opinions here or what type of tea you like. We're talking about what you OBJECTIVELY know and don't know about reality. So this very statement illuminates the truth in what I said before. You've basically just said in your statement that you take the 'realness' of your interpretations on faith, without any proof because you don't know anything. And you know what, that the first thing you've said that's absolutely true and honest. That's what human beings have to do in order to function in this reality that they literally know nothing about. They have to create a premise based upon their past experiences and things they've learned in this reality. They have to exercise faith that when they're walking that the floor won't disappear underneath them. And they'd do well to practice a relative belief in science as a perspective and tool for practical functioning. But when you're grounding yourself in what's true, these faith-based beliefs (including the beliefs that science works and that the floor won't disappear underneath you) have to be recognized for what they are. They are only beliefs based upon what you've noticed in the past and learned to be true. But the past doesn't exist. It may have never even existed. All you have of reality is the present moment, which is a non-point. And everything you've ever experienced may have simply been an illusion. And you'll NEVER know. Edit: I won't be able to come back to this for a while because I have to film a video. But I'd be happy to see what you have to say.

Why does reasoning come after? Is that a belief? And how can you be so sure you know it's true, when you don't even know why you think that?

Now, look at this statement and tell me how you know it's true.

He actually isn't hating on science. He's just saying that science is not the ultimate perspective. Let me put it to you this way: Do you think the scientists that work in the Matrix, can use science to realize that they're in the Matrix? The answer is no, if they live in a perfect Matrix like we do. That's because they are studying reality from within the system of reality. They have no ability to get an outside vantage point. So, science is incredibly useful within the illusion. It's great at observations of how things work, which can then be used to invent things within the illusion. And its a hallmark of human development that's allowed us to thrive as a species in many regards. Having said that, it's horrible for recognizing the illusion for what it is. That can only be achieved in the firsthand experience, which science is a part of but is not outside of. But you don't have to believe me or Leo or anyone about this. Just be able to separate belief from things that you actually know about reality. And once you can separate the wheat from the chaff, you'll realize that it's all chaff. And it will be in your best interest at that point to realize that you're in the ultimate blindspot. You know no more about the actual nature of reality than you did as a newborn baby. That's true no matter how deep your scientific knowledge and understanding goes. So, if you are in your living room, you don't know if your bedroom actually exists. For all you know, everything could cease to exist every time you stop perceiving of it. All you'l ever have of reality is your little bubble of reality and its consistency of patterns and understanding. This gives the feeling that there is a continuity and 'realness' to it. But for all you know, it could be a complete and total illusion. And you can never know one way or another. All you'll ever truly know about reality is the awareness of the present moment, which is a non-point because the present moment has no set duration. So, all you know is the fodder of the mind, which is just sounds and images floating around in your field of perception. But to boil it down to basics; science is the wrong paradigm for examining questions of an existential nature.

Turquoises are genuinely in touch with their emotions and are naturally empathetic to the suffering of others, and are humane as a result. So, it doesn't have anything to do with "reason" as reason is a function of the mind and empathy is a function of the heart. So, if you are conscious of the suffering in a really palpable way, you will naturally not want to contribute to it because the suffering of others is LITERALLY your suffering. You can FEEL it. It's a function of the heart which is superior to the mind in these matters. But it also won't make any logical sense to contribute to the killing/torture animals when it can be avoided by eating other things. So, it's not like the mind won't play its part. But don't look to the head for understanding. That will bypass the emotional awareness that you need to become more conscious. It's easy to hide away from your emotions in your head and be like, "Well, technically plants are alive too. So, why is it worse to kill animals?" But that's just the mind intellectually bypassing the awareness of the emotions using reductionism and logic. You'd be essentially using the truth to lie to yourself. If you look (and really look without retreating into the mind), you will FEEL the difference between killing an animal and killing a plant. And those feelings are valid and should be listened to. The mind may tell you otherwise to keep you in homeostasis though. It's good at rationalizing things away and creating blindspots that keep us in our comfort zones.

You should do a gaming channel if it's what you're really passionate about. Your emotions should tell you what's right for you. Don't feel obligated to bypass things that you're genuinely interested in because they are "low consciousness." Not everything has to center around "high consciousness" things. In fact, notoriously "low consciousness" things can be done in a conscious way, and "high consciousness" things can be done in an unconscious way. Don't bypass your genuine interests.

She probably won't refuse. But I guess the answer is not to do anything that's going to make you uncomfortable. If you're pre-occupied with that worry, you won't really be able to let go and enjoy the intimacy. So, because you probably want to have a sexual experience with her to be in the moment and enjoy it, and because you probably will be too worried to let go and enjoy it if you don't know her STD status, then it makes sense not to do it.

When I was dieting and exercising to lose weight after my pregnancies, I weighed myself first thing in the morning every single morning. I always did this after using the bathroom and prior to eating or drinking anything. It was super motivating to see that I was losing a few fractions of a pound per day. And it didn't take me long to lose all the weight. The first time I was even able to get down to 118 from my max pregnancy weight of 195. The second time I went from a max weight of 195 (again) and got it down to like 122. Now, I'm like 130 because I haven't been paying attention to my weight. So, I need to get back on track with an exercise regiment and get back to paying attention to what I'm eating and how much.

I would express to her your concerns and be really honest. But do so in a way that emphasizes that it's just your paranoia and not meant in a way that shames her for her past. Then, let her know that it would just put your mind at ease if she did that, and that you want to be able to let go of that worry when you're intimate with her. She will probably understand and not take it personally. I was worried about that before I lost my virginity and later relaxed a little with it when I became intimate with my long term partners. I think it's really common, and she probably has had similar worries in the past. But you know it is better safe than sorry. And you'll probably not want concerns like that circulating around in your mind, because it might ruin the experience.

Who exactly would benefit by pushing that narrative? If it were some processed Cocoa company, then the raw Cacao companies that they're trying to 'beat out' by conducting such a study would be able to avoid it by beginning to process their Cacao. But I looked it up and it appears that the study was funded by the Brazilian government. And they found that 98% of Raw Cacao sourced in Brazil contained a significant amount of Mycotoxins and the fungi that create those Mycotoxins. So, if anything, they stand to lose something by conducting that study as I'm sure they make a lot of money in taxes off of Cacao export. But even ancient peoples in South America soaked and roasted their Cacao. They didn't consume it raw. So, it's not a new thing. I trust that they knew a bit more about these things than modern raw foodists. Also, human beings are part of nature and cannot actually go against it even if we tried. So, given the fact that all human societies have cooked their food, it means that cooking is natural for us. Choosing to eat a raw diet is also natural for us. Eating meat is natural for us. Going Vegan is natural for us. Basically, every diet that will sustain human life is natural to us. Human beings are what I call "adaptovores". They eat whatever they can eat. And once food is abundant enough and a variety of food is possible through export, they can choose to eat more ethically. So, I choose to err on the side of caution, and only eat Cacao here and there in small amounts. It's not like Cacao is some miracle food that must be consumed to stay healthy. There are plenty of other raw foods with similar or better benefits and none of the drawbacks.

Be careful with Cacao, and only eat it in moderation. On the packaging for it you'll see that it's not recommended for pregnant women because it can cause birth defects, because of the presence of Mycotoxins. I'll paste a little information below that I found about Cacao a while back. "Whilst it may seem that raw cacao is the sure ‘go to’ choice, there is a grey area that shouldn’t be ignored. According to the National Confectioners Association (US based), the raw and un-roasted form of cacao, which lacks the heating process, makes the beans more susceptible to bacteria and toxic contamination. This happens because any heating and roasting process will destroy bacteria. Over half the microbes that contribute to fermentation naturally create mycotoxins. Mycotoxins are fungi that contaminate food and are unseen to the naked eye. When the roasting stage is removed, like it is with raw cacao, the mycotoxins remain present. Alfatoxin and ochratoxin are examples of mycotoxins and according to renowned nutritionist Georgia Dind have the following effects: • Neurotoxic (destroys nervous tissue) • Immunosuppressive (suppresses immune function) • Genotoxic (causes genetic mutations) • Carcinogenic (cancer causing) • Teratogenic (causes birth defects)"

Huge swaths of the population are becoming more conscious since right after the 2012 shift, and those who are not becoming more conscious in that way are reacting against it strongly. And the shadows are rising and taking hold of those who aren't becoming conscious, bringing light to that which has previously been swept under the rug for those who are becoming more conscious. This is why there are an increasing number of Trumpers, Incels, MGTOWs, Red Pillers, climate change deniers, misogynists, defenders of crony capitalism, hyper-rationalists, white supremacists, Alt-righers, and anti-feminine pseudo-intellectuals (like Jordan Peterson). They are walking examples of the collective shadow. Then, there are also those who stay stuck in neutrality because neutrality had worked in the past, and they created an ideology around always taking the middle ground. So, they get swept into unconsciousness and the shadows are taking hold of them too. And the shadow of humanity have taken hold in these groups, BECAUSE we are becoming more conscious. And the defenders of the status quo are resisting that consciousness with so many buzz words and ideologies. And this acute emergence of resisters and status quo defenders lay bare in gruesome detail, the ugliness which has always been there underneath all the niceties of society. And now, like turning over so many rotting logs, it makes it uncomfortable to be a person who is aware... which in turn begets even more (unpleasant) awareness. But many of those who are becoming aware are largely silent, because they know resisters to consciousness will jump down their throats and call them names. So, the loud voices of the resisters to consciousness, drown out the voices of those who are becoming conscious. But that doesn't meant that they aren't there. They are, in fact, a larger percentage of the population than the defenders of the status quo. So, it isn't just people on Actualized. These are just people who are conscious enough to see what's happening around them. So, consciousness is coming whether its unpleasant or not. And consciousness is coming in the form of these Shadow people and what we can learn from them and their self-created prisons.

Oh, I should have mentioned that I'm not sure if I actually ended up in Paris. That's just where I intended to go. I ended up on a pedestrian walkway, which emerged from the gray of the inside of the door that I jumped into. And on that walkway I materialized right up in the girls' faces who were conversing on a bench. They didn't see me, and it was too close for comfort. So, I walked down this road which lead to a bridge that sat near a river, where there was a mountain-like structure that reminded me of something that you'd see in a place like Arizona or New Mexico. It was made out of redish-orangish rock. But I didn't pay any attention to what I was wearing. I was more focused on seeing if the scene had consistency. So, I walked down that road a bit. And I came back, and the scene stayed consistent. It was still the same place I had just come from. But I met up with these three people, one of which is a well-known spiritual teacher. We were on that road and conversing together about some kind of plan. But the funny thing is, I can't really remember what we were talking about; just the general vibe of it. But I've never had any issue with getting back to my body. I've had the opposite issue, where I can't sustain the experience. So, staying out for any extended period of time is highly unlikely. Probably the longest experiences I've had with Astral Projection have lasted less that 30 minutes. But mostly I can only sustain it for a minute or two. So, I wouldn't worry too much about that. But entities can be an issue because they're scary. So, I don't experience them very much anymore because I've done a lot of inner work. At least I believe that's why I don't experience them as much as I used to.

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This article gives basic run-down of what the risks are for women with regard to intermittent fasting. It also gives some alternatives to intermittent fasting, so that you can pick a fasting schedule that doesn't mess with your hormones. https://blog.kettleandfire.com/intermittent-fasting-for-women/ But basically, the idea is that if a woman's body registers that food is scarce, the reproductive functions will start to shut down. Basically, it registers that you're starving and wouldn't be able to have enough nourishment to feed both yourself and a baby. So, the body makes it to where you can't get pregnant by stopping menstrual cycles, releasing less Estrogen, shrinking ovaries, etc. I also read in another article that it can increase Testosterone production, because your body wants to gear you up for hunting in a food scarce wilderness. Basically, allowing you to fulfill the male role of provider in the earliest days of humanity.

@crushangel Yes. Those are astral projection experiences. It can be difficult to leave your house. But definitely try to. I once jumped into my front door. And everything went gray, and I decided that doing so would bring me wherever I wanted. So, I tried to go to Paris (for no other reason than it was the first thing I thought of). I ended up in the middle of a pedestrian walkway. Then I went walking around in that location, and saw a lot of cool things. I even met up with a few different people and had a conversation. That's the furthest I've ever consciously projected to. Most of the time I have trouble leaving my house. But occasionally I can make it out to the neighborhood and walk around. Once I make it that far away from my bed, it becomes a lot easier to sustain the experience.

It's been a mixed bag of things. Overall, I am glad that I can do it. There's just so much potential for exploration and travel, that I don't mind that scary things happen from time to time. I have encountered negative entities before, including dopplegangers. Once, when I was living with my boyfriend in high school, I decided to take a nap while he was at work. And I woke up with sleep paralysis. So, I sat up after I snapped out of (or thought I had snapped out of) sleep paralysis. But I was actually unconsciously in an astral projection experience, which all seem very real. Then, my boyfriend came in the room to let me know that they had let him off of work early. And he sat next to me on the bed, and we were having a conversation. But as we were talking, I noticed he was acting strangely. His personality and mannerisms were different. But I brushed it off, and I decided to go back to sleep. So, laid back down and as soon as my head him the pillow, he jumped on my back and started biting my shoulder as hard as he could. And it hurt.Then, I snapped out of it and I was in the same spot, only no one was around and light was off. Then, once a few years back, I fell asleep on the couch and woke up to someone unlocking the door. It was my mother. She said that she had just gotten off of work, in a very casual way. But I realized immediately this was off. My mom doesn't live with me, and she doesn't work in the middle of the night. So, as soon as I realized this, "my mother" floated sidelong into the room adjacent to where I'd fallen asleep, all the while keeping eye contact. So, I got up and walked over to the opening of the door she floated in to. At the door, was a doppleganger of my daughter who was about 3 at the time. This doppleganger wasn't scary. I almost feel like she may have been a protective force. So, I stood next to "my daughter" and looked into the room which had a couch in it. And on the couch sat a doppleganger of my mother, my father, my sister, and my husband. And they were all looking at me with deadness in their eyes and were lethargically beckoning me toward them. So, I turned around and went back to the couch, and lay back down where I had fallen asleep in the first place. I've also had invisible forces pull me out of bed. And I encountered a man made entirely out of long black braided screws. But I've also levitated and explored the inside of my house and the area around my house. I've traveled to other locations and met interesting people. So, even thought occasionally I've encountered negative entities, it's been worth it for me.

I've been having astral projection experiences since I was 13. I had a few when I was very small too, but I didn't identify them as such until much later. I just thought paranormal things were happening to me.

There are likely subtle and overt beliefs, thoughts, and mindsets that are designed to keep you in homeostasis. Ultimately, it comes down to identifying strongly with thoughts and believing the thoughts that come up because they are seemingly coming from you. Then, once those thoughts sweep you away, all kinds of emotions get triggered from past traumas. So, it really becomes a snowball effect, where your thought patterns keep you stuck in homeostasis, which causes negative emotions, which cause more negative thoughts, which cause more negative emotions, which cause more negative thoughts... And this continues ad infinitum, unless you can become aware both intellectually and emotionally that those thoughts are not from you and are not to be regarded as true. They are just holding patterns of the mind. So, my advice is to practice Vipassana meditation where you can gain skill with recognizing when you've become swept away by a thought and gain skill with detaching your awareness from the thought stream by resting it on a sensory experience. Eventually it will become second-nature and you won't get lost in the thought stream or tricked into believing that voice. But while you develop that skill, it is very important to get in touch with your needs, feelings, and desires. It is really common for people to repress these things when they're seeking enlightenment. So, it's good that you've noticed that. But it's important to have faith that the process is working, even if it's working slowly.

Maureen Murdoch wrote a book titled "The Heroine's Journey". I found it a lot more relevant to my life than Joseph Campbell's "Hero with a Thousand Faces." At the end of the Hero's Journey, there is the return to the motherland symbolizing the return to the feminine. So, a lot of the hero's journey is about going out into the world and overcoming obstacles and returning to the motherland (the feminine) in a more exalted state. And yes, the dragon is a symbol of the Shadow Feminine, just like Medusa, Sirens, and other feminine monsters. So, Maureen Murdoch had asked Joseph Campbell, if there was a journey that women had to take; a heroine's journey. And he basically told her that women are already in the place that the male hero is trying to get to. So, he said there is essentially no journey for women, because they're already there. But because that wasn't satisfying (and also wasn't true), she decided to write the book, "The Heroine's Journey." And reading it cleared up so many things for me. The heroine first departs from the motherland, just as the hero does. They either have to reject the good mother or the tyrannical mother. Both must be rejected. They experience the severance of that which is most similar to them (the feminine), divorcing themselves from the mother and suffering the mother wound. They then embark upon a similar journey to the male hero following the boon of success. But the difference is that there is an inversion about mid-way through the journey. When following the boon of success and facing the obstacles and gaining success, they recognize the mother wound and their dis-satisfaction, which causes them to turn inward. Then comes the descent into the Underworld. A common heroine's myth is the myth of the Goddess Inanna who must descend into the Underworld to meet her sister Ereshkigal who is the queen of the Underworld. But in order to be allowed to enter the Underworld, she must shed all of her status symbols. Then, as she descends even deeper, she must shed all of her garments. And as she descends even deeper, she must allow herself to be dismembered completely. So, esoterically speaking, this is all about the journey into the subconscious and the connection between the psyche and the Self (with a capital S). But in order to make that journey, all attachments need to be relinquished to be allowed to descend. Then, after the descent to the depths of the Underworld, there is ascension where a more exalted version of the heroine emerges. Much like a Pheonix who was weak and disintegrated into ashes, then rose even stronger from the ashes. Then, there is a return to the motherland and the feminine, which heals the mother wound. Now, heroine's journeys are not as commonly written about or depicted as hero's journeys. Like, the majority of all stories ever written are hero's journeys, because we live in a masculine-oriented society. But if I had to name a couple heroine's journeys, I think "The Wizard of Oz" is a great example of a heroine's journey, as well as "Alice in Wonderland." But the main difference between the hero's journey and the heroine's journey, is that the hero's journey is mostly about the external landscape and the heroine's journey mostly about the internal landscape. That said, every single person who wants to exalt themselves to their highest and reach their fullest potentials will have to go through both the hero's journey and the heroine's journey, many times over the course of a lifetime. But I definitely resonated more with the heroine's journey at the time that I read it. It really fit me so much better than the hero's journey, even though I had already been on a handful of different hero's journeys.