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Thank you so much! I really appreciate it.

I was really into lucid dreaming when I was about 15 years old. I read a book on it and did many of the practices to where I was getting lucid dreams two or three times a week for a few months while I practiced them. The practices consisted of asking myself throughout the waking day if I was dreaming. I would either do this from memory alone or use a trigger. For example, every time I see a fire hydrant (any object really) I ask myself if I'm dreaming. It's really great because you can explore the dream world and mold it to fit your wishes. Also, whenever I would lucid dream it was always my intent to find cabinets, drawers, and other compartments to read the papers that were left in them. I wanted to use this as a means of uncovering things hidden in my unconscious. But I was only ever able to make this materialize a couple times. One time, I was in a check-out line at Save-a-Lot and a man came up to me with a watermelon and dropped it into my hands. It was surprisingly light because it was hollowed out. I opened it and found a flyer advertising a cult that worshipped and feared the cold. Dreams are very interesting, and being conscious in them is very empowering.

Thank you! It is called The Diamond Net. Here is the link. https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCvW2U2-szAK2lBzUYOw0DwA

Thank you. This is really great advice. I've looked at a lot of information online about SEO and different ways to grow a Youtube channel, and I often run across the same information. I'll keep the questions above in mind for the future.

I went through all kind of abstract explanations and ideas over the past six years, since those experiences, trying to replicate them again in a natural way. It's not to say that I didn't derive a lot of value from my contemplation and research. Much of it has really helped me get my mind right and understand my experiences. But my seeking has, in many ways, served as a distraction from the surrender and stillness necessary for the experience. This has been the recurring theme of my past couple days, with many synchronicities (including our conversation) pointing me away from seeking and postulating and toward the mundane experience that I have resistance to. This conversation has been very helpful to me. Thank you.

I'm assuming that you want to be more masculine to attract a woman and not just for the heck of it... Most women that I know are not attracted to extremely manly men, but men who have a more subtle, nuanced, and complex masculine energy. If memory serves, in a case study I read about years ago, women living in first world countries tended to find men who were of average masculinity more attractive than extremely masculine men. But women living in war-torn or impoverished societies found polarity masculine men more appealing. So, trying to be the "most masculine" could backfire, especially if it's a pretense. Simply highlight your natural masculinity and work on your other traits for the best chance of being noticed. Women like men who are interesting and exciting people first and foremost.

Thank you for writing this. I had always assumed the artificial induction of the experience was the sole cause of the re-constriction of consciousness and the foolish assumptions that came up afterward. It gives me a bit more to think about.

On the spiritual development side, I enjoy Shinzen Young, Teal Swan, and Matt Kahn.

Seek alignment with your true nature (enlightenment) by relaxing and surrendering to the experiences of your life. Love what comes up unconditionally by accepting all emotions and experiences. Relaxation is the only way.

@Trisha @abrakamowse I had two experiences similar to what you described; simultaneously giving and receiving unconditional love and a deep connection to al that is. Mine were induced through drinking a tea often used in shamanic vision quest rituals. Even though the experiences were the most beautiful experiences of my life bar none, I recommend seeking these experiences without the aid of psychedelics or entheogens. The heightened awareness ended as the influence of the tea subsided, leaving me with the memory of insights translated into a lower level of consciousness. I made some very unwise decisions in my life after that happened by trying to abstractly apply those insights.

Great video! Exactly what I needed right now.

Thank you for the advice. I sort of hit a dip this past week because I've been sick, but I normally post on Wednesdays and Saturdays. This I've been consistent with until this past week. I have to get the fire poker after me. When I said my content quality was high, I wasn't meaning that it needs no improvement or that it would resonate with everyone. I put this to avoid getting advice on improving content, and to put emphasis on getting advice on marketing techniques. I will definitely look into Gary Vaynerchuk.

"successful people do things well, especially when they don't want to." - my high school chemistry teacher

"Love and work is to human beings, what sunshine and water is to plants." - Jonathan Haidt

"Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger" by Daft Punk

Enlightenment is just as pointless as non-enlightenment in the grand scheme of things. But looking for a point is only a mechanism of the human lens. But enlightenment is optimum happiness and peace of mind. Since everyone's actions are trying to lead them to happiness anyway, enlightenment is the most worthwhile thing to pursue. This isn't because it confers value upon a person or that i will make your personhood more enduring or that it will solve all your problems. It's worthwhile because you will be truly free for the rest of your life. Fear of death causes much of our suffering. Enlightenment is freedom from all fear of mortality and change, because you have nothing to lose but a concept. From this comes clarity and equanimity that no one is capable of from the egoic perspective. It is the freedom from self-lies and illusions of separateness. It is ultimate receptivity to love. From my experience, I can't imagine that a nihilist is truly enlightened. Those two perspectives seem like polar opposites to me.

Just be an emotionally healthy and well-developed person without fear of approach. I'm certain David Bowie never had a problem attracting women, and he isn't a typical alpha-type... he was just awesome. Be you. No apologies. That's alpha.

Reality supersedes reason. Reason is a mechanism of the human lens and nothing more.

I enjoy her work a lot. I watch her videos every Saturday, and I know I'd be in a much worse place psychologically, had I never seen them. But she has an energy that I'm put off by. So, I hold the things she says very loosely and only use what is useful to me. I think, ultimately, I'm put off by her because she is the closest thing to the human embodiment of my personal shadow. Thus, I get a lot of good information from her, as well as a strong aftertaste of emotional discomfort. That's when you know the medicine is strong.

When I had my experiences, there was no true distinction between other and self. So, I naturally wanted to treat others well in a most genuine way. On the other hand violent, hedonistic, and destructive urges came up too; chaotically clashing up against my urges for benevolence. It was like a perpetual thought war going on in my mind that I was suddenly able to take myself out of and watch from the sidelines. I even had an urge to cut myself just to see the blood and enjoy the sight of it. But I had the wisdom to know that these urges weren't worth acting upon because they would cause suffering to me and others. But I also realized that everything was always in divine order: the good, the bad, and the ugly. So, if I were to act on my destructive urges, reality would still be perfect. So, it seems to me as though that particular Zen master directly ignored the voice of wisdom... either that or the voice of wisdom was telling him to do some fucked up things... The latter possibility is terrifying to me from the perspective I now hold.

I enjoy Teal Swan. I know that I would be in a much worse place than I am now, without having seen her videos. It's a possibility that she's manipulative. Some say that she's lied about her past. Some say she's a cult leader too. It could all be true, but it is irrelevant to me because her work is downright helpful. But if she ever offers me a glass of Koolaid... I might have to pass.

From my perspective, I tend to be attracted to men who are great at making plans, warm-hearted, encouraging, deep-thinking/intellectual, mysterious, reserved, hard-working, laid back, with the ability to laugh at himself. I also appreciate it when a man clearly delineates his higher and lower nature. Business on the streets, animal in the bedroom. I like to feel as though I'm peeling back layers and uncovering mysteries and tapping into deeper levels of intimacy. I also like to feel stable, emotionally supported, intellectually stimulated, happy, and calm. So, I'm attracted to men who make me feel this way. Looks, muscles, and other manly-man traits are secondary concerns at best. At worst, they may feel inauthentic, which will undercut my ability to feel calm, stable, or to experience deep layers of intimacy. So, be yourself, if you approach enough women, you'll find the ones that are attracted to you.

I'm definitely going to try this in a systematic way. When I was a kid, I used to try to stay conscious as I fell asleep. I wasn't trying to get anywhere, I was doing it for fun. I also had a lucid dream a few weeks ago where I was dreaming but I was still conscious of the sensations in my sleeping body. This was the first time that this had happened to me.

Did the lady give you details about her experience?

INFJ or INFP - I've taken the Myers Briggs many times and always score like 49/51 in favor of either the J or P. INFJ generally fits better though.