Emerald

I’m afraid. It’s okay. This is the way it wants to come. The fear is not something to fix, solve, or overcome. It is only to surrender to the reality that fear is the reality. It’s hard to let it be. And that’s okay too. I let the difficultly be there. What is meant to come will come.

It communicated to me in the way I could understand it. It brought me through this process to help me purge and give me a message in the way I was capable of receiving it. Its main message was to accept and surrender to my human existence. So, it makes sense that it would come through symbolically in a way that I know how to process it.

There is nothing that needs to be dismantled. I am not fearless, so I am letting it be so. I feel very vulnerable, so I let it be. There is still so much that I’ve yet to surrender. I have so much I’m clinging to. So, surrender is my focus. And there is nothing that needs fixing or overcoming.

It could be so. Even still, it is okay.

Yes. I find the labor/birth that I experienced to be indicative of the end of an incubation period. For me, I had to struggle for 11 years as I did to understand surrender. There is no rush. Follow your intuition. My impression is that such an experience will only be given if it’s best for you. Only do it if it calls to you in more than just an intellectual way. Also, come to understand deeply why you want enlightenment. There is much growth to be had there.

When you get the message, you hang up the phone.

I let it be there. I don’t try to overcome it or “solve it”. I listen to it and accept it as a precious and vulnerable part of my humanity. It’s okay to be afraid.

It was made clear that I am only to surrender and accept and love whatever is. My path is surrender. There is nothing to seek here and nothing to fix. I will take existence as it comes and ask for no more than what is given freely. It’s already so much to open up to and so I surrender to it. And when I can surrender no more, I surrender to the need for respite and ask for mercy.

It was made very clear that I’m not meant to seek transcendence. God showed me its burden to have mercy on me because I never would have stopped seeking. And it said my purpose here is surrender to my humanity. And enlightenment is arbitrary in the eyes of God. I really felt how trivial enlightenment is in so many ways. And now, every time I go to sleep, I die. And when the absolute is too much, I ask for mercy and I find my life as Emerald again. It’s terrifying, truly. Most shouldn’t seek to become enlightened. The function of the enlightened is to bear the burden of the absolute in human form, to ease the sufferings of humanity. So, in whichever way you take it, have mercy on the human being called Leo.

I have been thinking of this as well.

I decided to share a piece of content that I thought would be helpful during the pandemic. I just wrote this message to my subscribers about Covid-19 and the quickly increasing influence of the Hermit Archetype on the world at large: "Right now our world is slowing down and settling in, due to the social distancing measures in the wake of the Corona Virus. And for many of us who are used to being busy, this marks an abrupt change in lifestyle that can be both relieving and unnerving at the same time. It can feel like life has been put on pause with no clear end in sight. And from some perspectives, that's absolutely true. We may be facing times of great boredom and isolation ahead. But boredom, stillness, and social distancing can be of great value to those seeking deeper awareness, self-knowledge, and inner peace. And so, the outer life may be put on pause for a time, but the inner life becomes ever more vibrant to us when it's all we have to focus on... just like stars in a sky with no light pollution. We often need these types of contrast to see the light that would otherwise be hidden. And in the contrast and dearth of stimulation, we find what was otherwise drowned out in the rigamarole of daily life. So, I see the world in the wake of this pandemic as a world that's VERY quickly falling under the influence of the archetype of the Hermit. And it marks a sudden shift to passive Yin from our typically active world of Yang. It is a time to let the dust settle, so that our deeper selves come through more clearly. It is like the Earth is beginning to meditate now, just as the Hermit does. Even pollution levels have dropped in some areas that have had to quarantine... just as the chatter of the mind starts to drop in the Hermit's meditation practice. My advice for this time, is to begin viewing this situation as a valuable experience for your personal and spiritual growth by purposefully stilling yourself and turning inward. Lean into the feelings of boredom. Lean into the feelings of isolation. They are great teachers... and very strict ones at that. To embody the archetype of the Hermit is to have embraced solitude to the point that you have found your own North Star and know yourself deeply enough to see your connection to all things. It is a feeling of completion and wholeness unto yourself and a peacefulness that needs no external stimulation. The Hermit is someone who is called inward to know themselves deeper, and voluntarily chooses to forego socializing and participation in the revelry of society. This helps them meditate with deeper concentration and hear the inner voice better. So, I recommend using this time of the Hermit to do Inner Work. Inner work includes (but is not limited to) meditation, journaling, recording your dreams, starting an Active Imagination practice, engaging in the practice of Shadow Work, or simply allowing yourself to sit with the feelings that crop up without distracting yourself. Don't think of this time as an interruption of life... but moreso as an inversion of life."

Thank you and you're welcome!

I totally agree with that. It really does seem that way.

I am a bit of Hermit myself as I work from home. I seldom go out. But for me it's a strangely serendipitous time. Recently, the aspect of me that feels deep levels of loneliness and isolation has been very palpably rising to the surface. And it came to a head in the days before Covid-19 was a clear threat. So, it's like I've been Hermiting for a very long time. But now, as the aspect of me that wants connection is in the forefront of my conscious awareness, I am now being confronted by a mandate to live as the Hermit. And the discomfort is making me go deeper into my pain. So, very serendipitous indeed...

Doesn't damage to your computer hardware prove that the internet exists inside your home computer?

That's not what he's saying. He's saying that there is a lot of risk in what you're proposing. It's high risk... with no guarantee of high reward. So, he's conceding that it may bring evolution. But are you willing to die (or have misfortune come upon you) due to a stage Red presidency, in order for that evolution to come about. Are you willing to be the one on the chopping block? Are you willing to be the sacrificial lamb? And he's saying that you may unconsciously asking that of others by suggesting allowing a destructive situation to unfold for the sake of evolution. He's asking you... are you willing to actually bear the brunt of the turmoil and upheaval that comes with Stage Red leadership for the possibility of evolution in the future or just philosophizing about it and ignoring that some may actually deal with some horror because of it. Are you willing to go through that horror to possibly evolve?

That would be pretty rough. The average rent in my area is about $1200 per month. So, that's $14,400 per year. And if you're only making $20k and you don't have roommates or a partner who works, then it will be a big challenge.

Yes. Working class are people who usually work in service industry or blue collar jobs, making $20k to $40k per year. Middle class are people who usually work white jobs like office workers, doctors, lawyers, etc. and make $40k to $75k per year.

Someone who is in the middle class probably makes around $50,000 - $60,000 per year. But most people that I know probably make between $20,000 to $35,000 per year. I am from a working class area though.

@Annoynymous Maybe or maybe not. We'll see if she endorses him. First and foremost, Bernie is a nice guy who wants to keep the fight clean. So, there's that. But more strategically, Bernie wants to pick up Warren's voters.

Racism isn't just about people being mean or bigoted to people. So, that's not true. It may or may not be that people of minority races say the same amount of mean things about other races... but I'm really not sure. My experience reflects that more white people do... but I'm from a really conservative place with lots of working class and poor white people. So, rednecks are the only demographic that I'm intimately familiar with. So, I could only give you very incomplete anecdotal evidence either way. But racism isn't just about saying mean things to people or hating on people for their race. It's about how the system is set up. So, racism is a very complex systemic issue, that everyone participates in... mostly unconsciously. So, mean words toward people for their race is just a drop in the gallon bucket symptom of the overall system. And the system is stacked in the favor of white people, and to the detriment of people of color. That's because we are still under the influence of the ripple effects stemming from Colonialism. I wrote about this a bit in the post titled "White Privilege" if you want to understand more.

It's possible, especially now that Warren dropped out. But the momentum is against him. I'm afraid it may not happen. But I'll keep on fighting the good fight.

Well, it boils down to them being properly educated and understanding what the greater good is and that they also benefit from the greater good. I've seen so many misinformed people posting bs memes that Bernie is going to tax them 52% on the $30,000 they make every year. So, they believe that a Sanders presidency would be disastrous for them. But the reality is that Bernie's presidency would benefit them. And they would see that the greater good that Bernie serves also includes them... and almost everyone in the middle class and everyone in the working class and under the poverty line. And the establishment leaders see to it that the people are ill-informed and misdirected to where they vote against their own best interest AND the greater good... which are one and the same. And that's why the establishment heads take the lion's share of the fault. Average people go for it. Sure. But it largely comes from purposeful confusion and under-education in civic matters handed down from the powers that be. So, I do see a big practical distinction between the establishment as an institution and the people that they manipulate into supporting them and the status quo against their own best interests.

I'll be doing an Ayahuasca Ceremony Soon, and I'm really looking forward to it. I've done Ayahuasca before but never in ceremony... and it's been a long time. Has anyone gone to a ceremony before? If so, I'd love to hear your experiences with it.

Yes and no. There is a lot of ignorance. That's a given. Lots of people at Orange and Blue. But I went canvassing for Bernie (only at houses with registered Democrats), and most people who were anti-Bernie were simply reiterating misleading and false talking points that the mainstream media has proliferated. One guy was genuinely concerned about Bernie because he was afraid he was going to "take away healthcare from people". And that he and his wife worked hard to get the healthcare they have... just to have Bernie kick them off. But when we told him that that isn't part of the Medicare for All plan and that Bernie just wanted to expand the Medicare program to everyone and include dental and vision, he was genuinely interested. He spoke to me and the other canvasser for 15 minutes about it. And honestly, who wouldn't be interest in single-payer healthcare if you know what it entails? Regardless of stage, if someone knows what's up, they will vote in their own best interest.... as long as they are getting true information. Honestly, even if someone's in Purple or Red, they are going to take the cheaper healthcare option if it's offered to them and they know what they're being offered. In fact, according to polling, most Americans (the majority of Democratic voters and a sizable minority of Republican voters) support single-payer healthcare, raising the minimum wage, taking aggressive action toward combatting climate change, legalizing marijuana, and getting corporate money out of politics. So, all of Bernie's proposals are popular with the MAJORITY of Americans. And many are just designed to put us on par with the rest of the developed world... which also has a significant amount of unconsciousness as it's not just an American problem. And yet they've gotten many similar policies passed. The problem is that Bernie's positions have been smeared and misrepresented. And many, who I spoke to, that said "Bernie is my favorite" also said that they didn't want to vote for him because they thought Bloomberg or Biden would be better able to beat Trump because of the money thing or because "we need a moderate to win". So, I don't necessarily see this as the will of the people and a reflection of where they really are. But I do see it as reflective of their level of consciousness because the media they consume is funded by corporations and wealthy donors that are very anti-Sanders. They will obviously have an anti-progressive slant, and most people (especially older voters) will fall for the misdirection. So, that's the part that's unconscious about them... under-education and susceptibility to misdirection. But their opinion is quite a bit more progressive than the establishment norms.