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@Leo Gura I think of it more like actively listening with an open mind to the concerns of my partner and seeking out the truth on the subject for my self since I know nothing firsthand about the health risks. I have toad medicine, which she is fine with me taking, but it’s not available all the time. Nice chatting, look forward to your next video, especially the final video in correcting the stigma of psychedelics!

@Leo Gura the issue isn’t my personal fear of the risks of psychedelics, the issue is putting my girlfriend’s worries about me potentially inhaling solvents to rest. I personally think that if I am inhaling (the smallest amount of) solvents, then whatever health risks that come along therefrom are a small price to pay for the most profound experiences and realizations of my human life. A person that I love and that loves me is worried about me damaging myself, and I am not educated enough on chemistry to factually give her reassurance. @zikzak this person has a genuine interest in psychedelics and understands the potential benefits. We are tentatively planning our/her first trip, but what you said made me think that maybe her concern is coming from a fear of psychedelics and she’s coming up with excuses for me to leave them behind or cut back (I only trip once a month, no matter what the psych). She has mentioned a number of times that she’s interested, but afraid. In any case, I have hcl on the way so for now she won’t have to worry about me inhaling solvents, just insufflating them

@zikzak that was my defense too, but she’s still not convinced. We don’t eat fast food and her argument is that comparing inhaling solvents, even .1mg, to eating fast food does not prove that inhaling solvents is safe. My problem is that I am just not educated enough on this type of thing to have a strong case. @AlwaysBeNice yes it’s quite worth it to me, but I’m up against convincing a girl who has never even taken mushrooms. So the “it’s worth it” defense doesn’t ease her mind lol @Leo Gura your concern is appreciated, but doesn’t answer my question. My diet is not the absolute best, but I do pay attention to what I’m putting into my body. @Mercurio3 thank you very much for taking the time. Now I have to find a way to prove that hexane is totally evaporated and to prove (or convince) that what I’m putting in my body is safe or safe enough.

Hello family It has been quite a while since I have been on the forum. In that time I have had three toad medicine experiences, two of which were the most profound healing experiences of my life, my last one being a full blown true to life enlightenment experience that showed me that I only had a personal concept of an enlightenment experience before. I wanted to record the fading effects of my last experience as Leo did, because my behavior was very similiar after having been given the knowledge and wisdom the medicine bestows. I decided against it, in an attempt to absorb and retain as much of the gift as possible. Thank you so much Leo for clueing me in to this astonishingly useful and healing molecule. I am actually here to discuss the possible dangers of inhaling trace amounts of solvents used in the extraction methods of nn dmt and possibly 5 meo dmt. I am not sure of the process in which synthetic 5 meo is procured, so I’m not sure if any solvents are used. I am no chemist so I appreciate your understanding my ignorance of the topic. My girlfriend worries about me damaging myself by possibly inhaling these trace amounts, even if the substance is 99% pure. If anyone has any information regarding this please reach out to me. Scientific journals or any sources would be greatly appreciated. Thank you and I love you all

@doronshadmi I really appreciate that. I do not have any more at the moment, drawing is a thing that i love but don't do enough. The pride and sense of accomplishment I felt from this drawing has motivated me to draw more though, so I should have more soon! Thank you again, sincerely <3

My first ever drawing of someone that I️ was proud to give to them because I️ felt you could tell who it was.

@zikzak I'm sorry i never checked my atomizer, but after my last dose of nn dmt (50mg with probably 20ish mg leftover from previous doses) with my lollipop pipe and torch, i will be returning my vaporizer hahahaha. One hit. ONE. And i was rendered unable to even take another hit. Pineal gland popped. Full blown OBE did not matter whether my eyes were open or closed (as if i could tell at that point) I finally got what i would believe is a full dmt experience, which i thought i had already had... HA! My heart sank as i with the utmost certainty, "Mike ("me") is dead." Unfortunatelyi kept waffling on accepting my death and fully letting go. I kept saying yes im dead... no im not! yes i am... no im not! but i'll never forget how my heart sank. I hope to fully let go on my next dose after an appropriate amount of rest and reflection, but i'll leave it at that for the sake of the topic of the thread. @AlwaysBeNice When plugging, I use an oral syringe with some type of lubricant and get on my hands and knees, then bring my head to the ground so my ass is up in the air and administer... letting gravity do the work. I make sure the oral syringe is in there a decent amount, 2-3 inches and the muscles in your rectum will keep the liquid in. I then lay on my side in the fetal position for however long depending upon the substance. Although i have yet to experience 5 meo, the rapid onset of nn dmt is hard for me to be with, and i find it hard to be able to recall as much as i'd like. I am after that smoother onset like @Flicker_boy mentioned in hopes of retaining and recalling all I can. Enjoy your trip everyone

I just acquired a vaporizer intended for wax for my nn DMT. Now, I have not used it yet (not in the right head space to take much away from it) but the coil/atomizer inside it heats to a glowing orange, and i can only assume it will heat the crystals to vaporization without burning it up. I also utilize a lolipop (meth/crack) pipe with a torch lighter held plenty far away enough to not burn the crystals up. I find the torch to be much easier to get the crystals to vaporization than dancing a regular bic lighter around the pipe as the physical world melts away after the first hit. Lastly, I have used a square of tin foil and a paper plate rolled into a funnel (wider at the end to catch all the vapor) and a bic underneath and had wonderful successes years ago, but then youre left with the remainder on the tin foil rather than safely waiting in the pipe for the next ceremony @herghly I too am interested in plugging nn DMT (and any other substance that will work with that ROA). No shame in my game lol. I have yet to plug nn DMT, but will share my experience once i get hcl.

dayum! 2 grams?? Were they cubensis or panaleous cyanescens??

UPDATE: I have found other keepers of the toad on various social media platforms and have been gaining their insight and absorbing their experience with caring for their babies. If anyone ever provides a home for a bufo alvarius and needs info or help please reach out to me and I will try my best to help with your questions and/or put you in contact with my newfound friends

Might anyone have any information on proper care and milking procedure of the bufo alvarius toad? I am aware of temp ranges (some say 70-75 deg F... some say 75-80 deg F... 85-90 deg on the hot side/end of their terrarium), I am aware of their diet (calcium dusted crickets, mealworks, silkworms, and even pinkie mice), I am aware of proper handling procedure (wash hands before ad after handling and wear gloves), tank substrate (vermiculite and coconut husk), all the basics. I'm mainly looking for: Feeding schedule and Milking procedure (I am aware that a 4-6 week resting period is required and quite possibly would let them rest longer) Let us please rest assured that I revere these animals and their medicine (although i have never experienced it) and pride myself in proper trip protocal. Let us please know that I am a responsible adult looking forward to loving and spoiling these animals and do not see them as just a means to an end. I have watched and listened to roughly 7-8 hours of informational videos on bufo alvarius, Dr Octavio Rettig interviews and ceremonies, 5 meo, etc. If anyone has their own toads and is willing to share their experiences with caring for them, please reach out to me!

There is a RUMOR (more than a rumor... a lie) that he is playing Terence McKenna in a movie based off Terence's book "True Hallucinations", but this was actually a type of guerilla-style seed planting from a Terence McKenna Facebook page to pique the interests of the masses regarding Terence and, ultimately, psilocybin mushrooms. Other seed planting tactics involved taking pictures of pop icons (Taylor Swift, Justin Bieber, etc) and superimposing Terence quotes about taking psychedelics, so the mainstream followers say, 'oh wow! Biebz likes to take mushrooms? I should look more into mushrooms!" I didn't say it was a safe tactic, and I didn't come up with them either... I'm also getting way off topic. Jim has social media going crazy right now and I love it

I sit cross legged, but I find I have a lot of... idk... blocked energy? in my hips. I have pain in my hips most days. I'm wondering if maybe you have some suggestions.... maybe i'll start a thread about it

Yes when I heard her say that I was like damn wtf!!! He did so well. <3 <3 <3

I'm tearing up reading this. So happy for you! All the love and respect in the world to you and to your mvp gf!!!

I love the "as taught by" parts! I like to copy and paste threads like these and go over them in the evening and possibly implement what I think would help me. I also pick up names of gurus/authors/philosophers etc to look into! Thanks to everyone!

I see this a lot with people that are getting back into it. It happens to me too. Firstly Give it some time! Keep on keepin' on! Secondly Remember that negative thoughts will breed more negative thoughts, which breed negative emotions and negative behavior. It's not easy to tell your mind to quit with the negative bullshit... but I think with some more time those thoughts will go away. Embrace that feeling of accomplishment once the workout is done! Maybe get a gym buddy! It's nice to have a friend hold you accountable and vice versa. I always go harder when I have a friend with me pushing me. Thirdly Get into some cardio that you really enjoy doing! And not just running/jogging (unless you really enjoy it) I love to skateboard and I love punching my punching bag. That shit will get some endorphins and adrenaline pumping and will make you feel and think better. I love taking my aggression out on my punching bag, or better yet, sparring with a friend. I have no doubt that once you find that physical activity that you love to do, you will choose it over sitting at home every time

I already gave reputation to 30 posts today so I have to wait til tomorrow but thank you I love when people post their notes on videos! I'm printing and reviewing them! Thanks again!

You are the man @The Monk !!

I would say that if she really wanted to be with you, she'd make that decision for herself and not let her parents affect that decision. Work on the neediness thing. I'm working on it within myself too. Be open with her about how you feel about the whole thing. Maybe even start dating other girls. That might light a fire under her ass to realize she's losing someone she wants. Or maybe you'll find someone that matches your devotion

It's really nice to see the great advice you've been given. I see a lot of my younger (and to some extent my present) self in your post. I saw on another post that you are 18. It is incredible that you're not only on this site, but you have 388 posts! I hope you see the value in someone that's chipping away to discover/realize Truth. If I were giving my younger self advice regarding this topic, I'd say that anything outside of self-actualization/enlightenment is a distraction right now. Get on an exercise regiment, get on a daily meditation practice, watch what you eat/eat more raw food, drink your water, read your books, watch Leo's video on self esteem, don't compare yourself to others, set daily/weekly/monthly/yearly goals and make plans for reaching them, keep seeking and taking advice, don't take anything personally or too seriously, learn from failure and keep moving forward, don't beat yourself up, and know that everything you could ever want will come to the self-actualized and/or enlightened self (this is advice I'd give my young uneducated self... we can argue about "everything you could ever want" somewhere else as, paradoxically, "you" and "want" both go out the window with enlightenment) I know its a fucking pain in the ass. Your mind craves this person. You crave your perception of her life and her being. Remember that what/who she actually is is not identical to your (most likely idealized) perception of her. It takes damn near every bit of energy to deal with the experience of not feeling wanted by the person you want so badly. I'd probably tell myself "fuck it man, just let it go. Just keep on keepin' on and not only will you get everything you ever wanted, but it will come to YOU!" Also remember that in as little as a year, you'll look back at all this and laugh and wonder why you ever tripped about it in the first place. Girls find a guy who takes care of himself incredibly sexy. They obviously respond well to a guy who takes care of his body, but they unknowingly respond well to a guy who is taking care of his mind and his spirit. Girls love a guy who has purpose. It might be hard to imagine right now, but you just might attract someone who blows this current girl out of the water <3 I'm not an expert on this or... anything I guess lol, I'm just telling you what I'd tell my younger self.

Printing and saving <3 <3

@LiakosN I firmly agree. I find myself very present when my girlfriend and I have sex. It's a great feeling. It's no substitute for my regular meditation lol, but it is very meditative to the two of us. I hope we get to be present together tonight lol

I had a lot of trouble with girls in my class taking my attention away from my studies. They still continue to take my attention away from my work lol. If I could give advice to my 20 yr old self in class, I'd say be a boss at the class! I dicked around when I was 20 and missed a great opportunity (being that my mom worked for a college at the time and I got reimbursed for the classes I passed) If I was acing the class, I'd have great grades AND the girls would have wanted me to help them study! Instead I was busy trying to make them laugh, didn't pass the class and didn't get anywhere with the girls haha

@Ilya checking out the link. I've seen you mention these courses in other posts and im glad im checking it out! Thanks for sharing it!