John Iverson

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There is no voice inside my head.. but even i try to connect what they are trying to say about topic in school naturally it rejected it.. yes I don't waste time.. but my innerself wants to express... but in duality it cannot express it.. idont know now...

Ego is like the lighting in the sky lighting can shiw up but the lightning can't touch the sky... if you look at the sky there is ego but it cannot touch you it is sinply percieve... it like lightning and clouds a sensations... it is a part of you that you will perceive it, it is not you..

Thankyou, today I can use my no self to them to my professors but to listen what they are trying to say I can't listen to it... am i being arrogant? Or bad? That I don't listen? Am i being judgemental? A while ago my professor talks about anxiety of the people with separation anxiety, soldiers in the battles who have ptsd, how can i say to them that those things are just a memory, and when you say a memory it is in the past or you think in the future.. so it is not existing... it is not true.. argggg i want to go to college for someday i have a back up plan to have a job to make a living for my self to sustain what i want and what i want to pursue,, but what they are trying to say is I can't listen to it i want to go out in the classroom... how can i go live a life with a purpose and do what i want to do but what i want to voice out to them is not true for them.. I can't live my life for ego ... I cannot take it if i let my ego do such things.. I want to do something but i am now different to all of them... I don't know how to express myself..

Okay this is simple as neti neti method of Leo, who are you , what are you... right? Those are questions you follow.. but what i am gonna share to you is more direct than that.. so of course you do meditation right? You observe those sensations.... thoughts... feelings.. right?? You are aware of you are conscious right?? .. so there are two things : If i gonna remove your hands, arms,eyes,stomach,ears,nose,fingers,body,brain,mind what is left?? Second, instead, ask your self who am i what am i.. direct it ask yourself if who are the one who see consciousness?? Who saw that you are conscious? Who saw that you are asking questions? Who saw the one you use to see and feel things.. who saw the one you percieve.. what is the one see the perciever... that's it if there is a thoughts come out.. ask who see that i see these thoughts...

I hope you taste the lilbit honey in there.. from there i hope you find your real self...

Feelings and thoughts are not consistent they are always changing... because feelings and thoughts are not true...

It is imposible to numb it., the more you get conscious the more you will understand that all fears are just a thought.. there is nothing real there.. those are not true..

Antidepressant is good, i'm a psychology student.. in the hierarchy of needs.. if he need a medicine for his depression is okay... even if it is a chemical just see that it is also a nature and a creation.. in hierchy of needs.. we have all need to satisfy for we to be able to go in the top... as long as it is helpful to him then there is nothing wrong...

Yes.. you're right

None.. all you've seen, experienced, even realities you can't see is belongs to non... it express itself naturally...

So you have the desire that you want a friends with benefits? Truth is you can't control life.. and if you are conscious enough having a desire is an illusion of your mind.. it becomes your feeling.. and that feeling will consume you and it becomes get frustrated because you can't control it you are not living by reality ... you neee to wake up..

Money is my problem to go to process of improving myself.. money is a threat to me right now.. all plans you have will cost a money.. if you want to go somewhere you need a money for food, for house you pay for it... i am college student right now even i want to be a autodicat I can't do that.. i need to go to college for me to have a money someday.. i dont know.. i want also the life that im in another country or i'm in place that i retreat myself... but i cant do that... because i dont have money..

You don't have to let go your business... go make a living.. you are lucky because you have the source you have to get a money, all you have to do is plan what will you do to that money.. haha if i were you use the money you get in your business to use that to improve also your mental health... or anything it is up to you..

Do you want to work it out? You are in a better place.. first try to meditate.. watch video of leo about meditation.. after that notice everything... and feel what you want to do.. you must be friends of your inner before anything else.. you must know your inner self.. it will somehow little by little remove your frustration.. if you want to improve your life feel what improvement you like but first know your self and watch videos of Leo.. step by step... me too i'm improving my self... now i'm not perfect but i do what i feel to do...

Try to be conscious, it is enough to know why you are like that... you will find out soon.. i had watched a video of Leo that if now you have a threat you stisfy it first... I don't know what is the title of that... but also try to balance it... what ever you do try to be conscious.. you will know your self more, and it will have a change in your life.. expect to fail many time in this process.. expect as you get a long to people if you will you want to get along to girls , expect that they will turn you down.. but if someday have the realization of something.. you will get better and the attraction will improve... it is something that you will work out.. the journey is something that you will get many years.. don't change... be conscious and work that out.. surpass it by satisfy it .. then you go to the next level.. the next level is when you look back of being needy of hirls will not same as you before.. you will see it..

In my case before, i'm needy too, i did 1 month isolation to people, the only thing i open before is this forum... it is important that you use meditate to be conscious... my neediness for girl is not that as needy as before anymore.. because i am now conscious, girls is one of my hierchy of needs that i working out to have that is different to one i am before..

Your thought... you believe that unconsciously... so now that is the you thinks you enjoy it

You don't have to fix it there it is a delusion you don't have do anything for you to be okay is to wake up .. see that is not true.. and experience it.. and any fear in your life it will affect you but fear will not cling to you as a person anymore... it becomes a distinction ohh that is a thought..

Watch Leo's Video about past... fear is illusion.. if you ever done a meditation you will recognize that thoughts will comes out w/o you who make it... your fear of the dark is a thought you believe that is you..

There is non... reaching enlightenment is not something that one buddha differs from krishna.. if you feel the emptiness in a moment, and you go back in a person you will see Buddha there krishna jesus christ all is one.. all is there... there is non most remarkable spiritual teacher because they point finger in that oneness

Speak without identity... and it follows.. don't worry it is okay...

They are the one who can improve it by themselves.. What r u saying ?? I don't say it as if that i am now in the stage that totally i am free to the ego.. atleast As of today , now ego is my friend.. my mind is convinced that it is illusory it is the one who will trap itself to be able for me to see clearly,my mind move amd say it to me that heh remember this remember that... i see it but I don't cling to it i know i see that it is the thought.. but i can distinctions that non of those is me.. the one you remove even the consciousness if you remove all the only one who can never be removed is me.. the trie self .. i have this aha moment.. so i give back to life.. i know how ego control each one of you.. ego use even your meditation or contemplating for you to lost... i point the ego in you not to project.. ego can stick me anytime but it cannot now remove the truth that i finally now i achieved through process.. my own process.. don't depend on a concept.. or stick what Leo said to you.. or a guru said to you.. if you are aware I don't say anything according to what is needed.. or what you must do.. there is no need to do.. i've been there so for you to be aware opsss not to fall from destruction i will help you .. i point that ego for you to be aware of that so you don't consume too much time.. you will waste your time.. doing things that ego is trying to say to you... I already achieved oneness ... that even the ego i see it in others.. if you achieve it is effortlessly see all.. it is effortless to see everything...it is effortless it is also help me to confirm always for me to do not forget what i achieved right now... i only point.. thats it... i also point my ego if ego comes out.. you cannot attain it by meditation as is haha that is why i point.. not to say a concept.. you don't need a concept or.. to do contemplate.. because ego will use that.. don't cling have your own discovery of truth based on your awareness and consciousness.. you will never fall in to traps ...

You will notice that AHA you are a thought, you are ego!!! So ask yourself who saw that you notice that aha moment? Consciousness is not you. Even consciousness is can be seen.. remove all that what is left is you...

Because you believe in the ego .. you give in to the ego said to you that you cannot just come to it again.. who you really are is not someone can take away from you it is unmovable you cannot shake it.. nor break it... who saw that you saw god damn thing? It is beyond saw or see if you saw ahaaaa i saw it.. you will also see that you saw you saw hhahahaha you confirm it if you believe on something that affects you by asking to yourself who see that now i say that i cant just come to it again?