John Iverson

Don't let him initiate a conversation, act as if you move on, do your work.. i know this is hard.. let him see that you are not affected.. don't talk to him.. talk to him if work related.. don't open up about the past, this is the time that you must guard yourself.. what do you think your action if he is not related to your past? He is just an applicant?? Then do that.. do you see what i am trying to say here? if he initiate a conversation don't mind him.. if he gets too irritating say it to your superior or to someone that can help you... say something like what he is saying is unethical hahaha do that! Hahahaha

I see now the problem.. the problem about your husband, he doesn't fully accept you , he doesn't fully accept you in a way that your past he must accept and love that... he judge you and i see he doesn't want zoey in the past... He thinks that it will comeback, that is toxic ... very very toxic, in a relationship .. i don't know if he don't trust you? I don't want to say conclusion on this one but trust is very important... and he is having also a hard time dealing his peace of mind about it.. he don't understand you, and the situation.. i'm sorry.. i hope he could listen to you to say that what you do is your outlet for you to move on

If you want to understand yourself, make a time for it.. have sometime being alone.. contemplating for everything ., make time.. i'm not sure if we have a control but for what i am experiencing right now, we don't have the control,.because we have our own karma... you do what you do because of your karma. It is there to your own body and mind we don't have the control but the thing is we can untangle our karma by yoga... yoga is designed for that there are more reasons to do yoga than to meditate hahaha yoga is stronger, and beneficial what do you mean of """"when it comes to writing things down, I don't exactly have too many "hiding" options... when my husband would find them he would get really pissed and say that he doesn't want to be reminded of my past shit"""??? Is your husband against to you? Writting your own journal??, if that's so, He is not the captain of your life.. he is supposed to help you the fact that you don't have the money to purchase a therapist, he must understand that the other option is to write down what's on your head.. if he cannot able to stomach what you wrote down then don't make him read it..and say it, just don't read it! ? in the first place journal is personal.. use onenote to write a journal.. it have a password... set a password for it.. you must have your own personal activities .. it is like going to gym.. for example.. it your own personal activity., whatever your activities in life he should not the one who decide... ?

Okay wait,, lets settle this, what Leo said to you? I don't know, I don't read each post in this forum time to time.. , how this forum is too restrictive?? And how can you say that this place is junta??

What?? What happen ☺️

Telling your husband About that is right, hidding it from him is wrong.. no lies makes you free from you and from any trouble in the future, deciding to be open about that is also being open to yourself.. i want to say this to you but i forgot, hahaahaha

There is no quick fix because mind is our enemy here.. see how your mind create that, i am having a hard time to rewire my brain , don't let yourself rewire your brain in to something you will regret, i have habits that i want to stop but it is wired in my brain so i cannot end it easy... to grow is hard, all of Leo's video is hard because our mind is not designed to do that.. Leo's practical stuffs are the one that is challenging to our mind.. hahaha that's the reality... mind wants a comfortable and unconscious life.. it is easy for the mind do it... before I thought some of Leo's teaches us is easy.. but no.. and if you take solutions here, it is very helpful, you can have a solution here that is better than do therapy, but it takes time to do it and rewire your brain to become it.. or to inherit that solution to you.. imean the solution is action that you will rewire to your brain or mind.. it is inner game not outer..

Good! Yes!! Ajaaaa!!!

Like i said it is microdosing, the dose of microdosing is not a dose for tripping.. it is not that strong.. but very helpful to you... mushroom example.. is not addictive.. you must have the intention , set an intention to your mind what is the reason why you take it... for you to get on track.. psychedelics doesn't make you addict , it is not a stimulant.. it can make you happy that weeds.. feel better than cocaine,, but yea! Set an intention.. for the meantime you need this, there is a point that you yourself will way I don't need any drugs anymore.. but be open to trip in the woods with higher dose, dose for trippin hahaha tripping and doing it in higher dose is we need to do , but starts small haha this can help too someday in the future you can trip..

She is tempted do it again... that's it.. haha and that guy will manipulate her again if she give in to her temptation

I see this while reading your posts, i see it coming, you are in this forum to grow, to become someone that will matter, to become great, to become conscious, you are here for a reason, don't let yourself and your past hinders you to become it.. go on.. make changes, change your mind.. or choose to transcend it.. say to yourself i will not do it again.. start to your mind first.. it starts from you,.. if you want do drugs choose mushroom haha lsd hahaha it is healthy... we have terms from that e, tukso in tagalog.. tukso means temptation, but it is better to say tukso than temptation from what you said here... it is better term to you .. you are tempted to do it right? Think also what are the consequences? Try to think what that guy do? Think your family, your daughter, your husband if you do it, if you give in to that temptation or tukso, that guy can manipulate you.. is that what you want? Manipulation? It will make your LIFE situation harder for you ...you must see this coming zoey... before its too late

Work this out @zoey101 this is hard tho, but i also recommend this, do yoga, and meditation to let go things from the past.. if you can do psychedelics in a very small dose that do it.. you don't have to do trips because you are busy, but you can MICRODOSE you can do it even if you are busy , you can let go emotions from there..., i see that you are affected by him.. but try to take psychedelics by microdosing.. see what wisdom you will have if you take it before the day you see him

Grounded by means of your own values, what are your values, there is a new Leo, and Leo that is in stage orange, ground yourself for the meantime to the old Leo, try to spend more watching videos about Leo way back when he is in that stage.. try to search top 10 values,,... start from there.. and ow!! He has a video about past,,.. try also to watch that.. start there and watch and watch more videos

It depends to your intuition, i started using psychedelics at 18 grams of mushroom. They said that starts small but i feel to take it.. so it depends to your feelings

Now hahaha there is no time..

@Shanmugam see this?? Hahaha i saw this coming remember what i said to your posts about sadhguru and i drop also Leo's name.. this is one of what i am talking about.. atsome point people will see Leo or Sadhguru or any other mystics out there that there is some wrong about them .. or judge.. or rejected there is infinite reasons and contenxt that could be made for us to not grow or I don't know i cannot explain thoroughly why ego is like that but better to see this ability of ego.. ofcourse he is not conscious and he thinks that he is correct.. I don't judge you man.. i just want you to be aware of different kinds of self deception and the power of inifnite intelligence of ego

I will read it today, and yesterday i try to see what's in the book, and i see that there is no drawing to visualize what i am gonna do.. and where and part of the body exactly stated in the book.. i will use this post to ask questions hahha

What should my mindset here? What should i do.. my mind wants to waste time..i cannot control myself.. usually i am controlled that my time of meditation is at night doing it makes me sleepy.. or evem i am wide awake, i cannot wait till the timer goes on.. i can meditate maybe for 20 minutes but even my mahamudra and concentration meditation is at lose track.. that i do those things for the sake of doing it not to take a break.. so 11:30 i will start so in 20 minutes i will do mahamudra, concentration and meditation... before 12:00 am.. because 12 am is counted as another day..

My youtub channel is about interconnectedness and understanding each Paradigm of my guest in my youtube videos.. haha maybe i can use that? I don't knooooooow huhh before i can push myself.. i can meditate each time to time.. i can push myself but niw resistance is strongggggg.. emotion is fading.. and when it cones to imagining i cannot imagine

Resistance is very strong,. I cannot sit the way i do it before,. I can push myself but after 6months I don't know i want to facebook.. i want to watch vlogs.. even leo's video i cannot watch it.. plus i try to do youtube videos.. so i am very occupied and i dont know what is the reason why i am doing meditation huhuhu

It's true tho.. because mind also have a desire.. my desire is the answer that we can..l because since day one i want to be limitless in a way that beyond human i can know everything from little to infinite, from i know every knowledge and infos without studying and reading every book and watch everything in the internet or dvd's etc.. to blue print of the world.. and anything about this world.. that imean.. if i decided to be a scientist i can show them how something works.. because i know it not having a research.. it is in me.. i am also that so how come i cannot know that thing.. infinitely right..every human in this world is me, so it must be i am inifnitely ahead

Even we don't read anything is it posible to have knowledge?? Or we can know everything, we can know even every infinite information and knowledge have in the universe and other universe and the infinite information and knowledge in the book future and past inventions we can know it without reading or studying or conducting research?? Just do yoga and psychedelics? Imean just tap the infinite intelligence we can know everything. Information that will pops out in the future and information that mankind don't know in the past...

Ofcourse i know that, but you are not getting me, look.. if we cannot do that what is the sense of saying we are limitless.. if meditation , yoga cannot do that.. so those things is a waste of time.. if you are saying see it and try for myself, what's the point... imean i am questioning it for the people who is more advance than me.. they are first in this forum.. I don't know what is my rank here if what number i am here haha but can you get me? I am not saying that i want to stop haha

I watched this before.. Snake has level of consciousness that even human cannot meet the level of consciousness that snake has.. snake will go to you if your consciousness is also at level that snakes want to go to your head, is it head? I forgot... but really snake is truly powerful than any living creatures here when it come to they know everything happened in the history of existence,