John Iverson

I really don't know what change it is, but something is happening to me.., it feels like there is no turning back.. there is no way out, what will happen to me is permanent.. and it is inevitable.. what you advice i think it is the right thing to do.. but arg! Ego backlash is so strong at this time!... you know if ego backlash hits you it is so destructive my mind starts to see that i am still this self, but i know something is change but by having ego backlash i don't know what is this and it is hard for me to see what change will manifest.. because i am now doing the old pattern of my mind.. it feels like there is no change.. but i know somehow there is..

How can you say that i'm abusing it?

That is exactly what is really happening to me, imean one of the things that is happening to me, huhu, imean like there is nothing here , there is a point that i become aware of being here with the ego then i try to meditate as i try to observe then it will go back to being aware with ego.. holy fuck!! Hahahaha all is experienced,

Dude! Man!! You didn't end up sex with those girls! Cmon!!! Your ender is a sign of hey let's fuck now! Hahahahaha.. me too i am currently doing Pick Up i am just starting, listening to your story here makes me arggggggggg!! Dudeeeee! , you waste the oppurtunity!!

I think there is something beyond that, we live in this body because You want to experience life in this body, all expereinces past present future of you, and all the self you will become in this present moment..

We have spiral dynamics that will signify their own views on politics, how about people who doesn't want to vote ? I talk to some people that they don't want to vote, because they generalize the government as bad , as in the whole government is bad, what i say to them is you try to research for yourself, because i see that they are coming from they see things base on their mind, they see what the mind is creating.. so i said that do your research and see the truth that there are some people in the government that it is good and they do have a vision , but they are cloudy, they have a cloudy perspective why they do not want to vote... i also realize how the mind is creating in our heads and see that as the Absolute TRUTH, this election i see how our mind works when it comes to politics and that view is also manifesting our own actions, behaviour, views, beliefs and what you do when you interact to other people.. and what kind of words they use , man! Theeee words ! Hahahaha speaking of words i become conscious of what words that triggers me to vote ,.. so here is my story, i only research for senatorial candidates, after i voted for senatorial candidates i try to scan other pages for governor, vice governor, etc. and i saw the partylist and i try to scan what are the candidates for party list! When i saw the word "AWAKE" damn!!! Even tho i don't research what platform they want to do.. i voted "awake" my mind starts to create reasons why i should vote them.. as if it is the truth.. i don't know that is the truth because i have not search their plan or platforms.. but i link it to the Awake wordhuhuhuhu i know that is wrong but now i am now aware of that damn! It is strong!

Thankyou

So an update to my pick up journey, day 1 is so smooth i mean not that smooth like Owen or any RSD guy but i can approach and do the process i learned in RSD, i have he number of a girl that i met last sunday, somehow, but this day i try to do pick up in my own school/university it is so hard! It is so hard for me To approach , i don't want to say any excuses i'm so sad! There is so many things in my mind arg! , i'm scared to fucked up and i cannot use the technique , so many girls that i let them pass arg! Last sunday i am so happy now arg! I am so sad! I know in the positive side that i must just approach and let it be , be outcome free

That is so easy for me, and pick up has a process i don't wanna be sexual or using push and pool to my friend hahaha , i want to use it to someone my type or i have a crush on hahaha, but i am thinking that i will ask every girl that i want to date, even the friend of my friends or my classmate before to practice

Thankyou! I have my vision to that is why i am inspired doing this stuff but i dont know why i cannot do this! I am positve to myself! But my excuses are oh! You are not yet knowledgable, you are not yet ready! I learned somehow the game but arg!! , i know that my value is at 9 and i know i can talk to any girl i want! I can feel it and i know i can!! But! Arg!

Okay, you're right, i am college there are many girls roaming around, arg! It's hard!! So many resistance in my head!

Is that okay? Because i know mastery is also your career?

Aw! What a nice reply from you ?, this is what i need to hear

Aight!

We will rock en roll! After my mushroom trip it opens up alot of my blockages and i become confident and the burst went to this i can say to myself even you fucked up there is nothing to be lose, i am already nothing, bold and i don't have anything so whatever i said it is nothing, if my approach is wrong? So what? I don't care , i can lose 999999999999999 times because i have nothing to lose, i want to be engage what stage i am at, and be a hero! Take the responsibility and be a man! Go move forward to your beat version of yourself! Don't think just go with life and say yes! You have nothing to lose! This chapter of my life is not perfect, if i have a choice i will do pick up when my schedule becomes free, i have my own house , and i am free everyday i can do pick up to improve my skills but arg! I don't want to waste my time judging myself in the moment.. even my schedule is every sunday i will do pick up atleast i am doing my job to take action! , no excuses!

Aight!!

Ow yes! Okaaaaay!

i have a question is it possible to flirt with a girl that i am still grounded to my authentic self? Technique like push and pull i don't feel it is authentic to me..Anymore, tho i have not yet test it personally, because i said to my self after this cleansing and healing through mushroom trip i will now go and do work to ask girl out and get girls laid, should atleast try it first? And give it a try because i still need to do the basic rules of dating to tease a girl? Say something like push and pull? This mushroom trip cleanse my need for girls, but i still want to pursue sex just for me to go full circle

Hehe really? What they say and what they do is different? What you thought about manifest through actions.. what your beliefs are refelcts to your actions, or what activity you participate, hmmmmm? I realize something here.. maybe that is their belief, what they have is a belief and they choose to not vote because they have ignorance and blockages somewhere within themselves, so they are not ready to see what others see, it is like you cannot expect people to be at the green stage when they are in blue stage all they will say is the absolute truth! Ohhhhhhhhh!! But , there is more to discover about this topic this not the answer yet.. i need more profound answer here, give me some more repliessss to this topiiiiiiiic i will reflect in this topic even more

China claiming west philippine sea is their own land, ? Atleast topic about china is still included to the topic about government haha

The weather to?

Of what?

Election or leader in politics or politics is not like a weather, i mean weather , you cannot control the weather.. but in the election you can navigate it you can alao be a leader because your vote is the power, you have the power , if you voted for someone for greater good then make him win!! If your assumptions about government is bad, oh that is a problem.. i don't know why, that is the reason why i have a thread about this topic because i am ignorante about them, about people who doesn't want to participate to this matter

I know and i am aware that some politicians in the government is full of bullshit, but hey! There is someone outhere have a vision, have a LIFE Purpose to have an impact to the world and government is a nice medium to create, so not all will do bullshits! In e givernment there is someone out there would do things better than bulshit politicians in the government, atleast they could do better if no one have a passion for now to do great things.. so if you vote that guy or that person and try to help him to his campaign! You open some possibilities for him to win and to actualized his potential! Do to better things atleast.. or if you vote atleast you add 1 chance to win if you do not vote you help the bulshit politician to win via popularity and via you don't speak your right! As a voter you exercise your right as a citizen..

Why? Imean why they don't vote? WHat is the subtle behind that truth? Mmmmh @winterknight's answer somehow uncover some answers that is possible reason