John Iverson

Thank you, i need to know something I don't know that you guise know. That is why i post it i have hindsight .. so i need lists for me to know almost everything i meed to know even the most hard distinctions that is not easy to know that exist out there...

Be specific, what i can develop being a man and in attraction that i would follow? Make me happy and identify? give me lists

Noted!! This is what i mean! Thanks

Just give it to me and it is for me to find out if that will resonate with me or it is not what i am looking for...

I mean the distinction of being man and in attraction, not the whole personal development thing...

I'm back posting here again, i know a trust worthy psychic here in the Philippines, this morning i watched his video and Trump would still become a president.. idk other info of his vision but because of that Trump will start a war... i am posting it here because i want to know how possible is that and what makes trump do such a thing even though he lose the election...

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I love how you guise giving something on the table please continue

Yeah maybe but also trump is red on the stage of development he could also do such a thing, it is not impossible ? Maybe?

What? On my birthday ahahahaha

3 months ago i have this terrifying mushroom trip that haunts me about i am one in the universe, and until now i am scared because there is a point where I don't know if my mind is responible for that or what I don't know either what is happening or why it is happening? There are days that my mind remembers that experience and put me in that scary experience, that experience i called it insanity, i am still scared and it bothers me about family life and my life purpose and my sanity. i am scared with this experience of i am walking a path where no one is with me, i am alone in this path, at the same time i am wanting that my family is with me in my journey and there are people with me where i can communicate with them, even if it's not like a communication about spirituality or passion thing, i mean i want it to be like they are just existing there , i am still scared that time passed so fast that i do not have the courage and time to spend time with them even if it is shallow and express what i want to express to them. I want this comfortble life where i am just here existing in there reality field. I am afraid to proceed with life without them. And spending my time alone selfishly doing i want to do with my life, and that my mind will have an excuse to not call them or spend time with them cause i am a coward.also taking for granted their existestence that i could not pull of i need to pull of in the moment . Even if it is that the case because i am in this house with my parents and my brother i am rest assured. and with the experience about my own insanity in my past experience..? It is too much for me to handle so when that thought or experience came up i distract me self into this reality i put my perception in my surroundings, or i go to social media and spend time there chatting people, and i give my self to them, or spending time talking with my parents, my mind is still recovering. the problem is i cannot do stuffs productively, if some task i want to try doing it my mind sabotages me in to that family matters and in to that being alone in the journey and the problem i am going to face in the future, that i am going to live a house where i am alone and what if there is a problem like something happen in the toilet bowl that i cannot fix who i am going to call? Who is going to help me fix that, or how i am going to transfer my things in to new house what is the strategy or what. also i cannot do stuffs because of this thoughts and feelings that i am scared about. I want in this comfortable life in this very moment... at the same time i am motivated to do stuffs that interests me but being alone in this journey haunts me

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I need guise your say here, this is my situation This is the point in my life that I'm in my ojt, after that I have a plan to work in Neurofeedback, I don't really know if that's going to happen, that's the only job I want to go (((but i am open to other possibilities, if you know something i can work on while doing my life purpose and i can have a profit to that i will get that opportunity.. a work or job that is new or have a significance , something like working on Neurofeedback it is new and it has a significance.. I don't want a job or work that it is now meeeeeh)))), I don't really know how much money there is, I'm a psychology student, I don't have a goal to get liscensorship, i already waste my life I don't want to waste my life even more so after college, the idea is I'm going to go all in to my life purpose, I'm going to leave my parents house, i anticipate and I think it's going to be hard for them, and also it is going to be very difficult for me, because all this time I depend on my parents from washing the dishes to laundry, to budgeting my income to cleaning the house, to cooking, the toughest part for me is getting the money and I don't know if my salary will be enough to survuve alone here in the Philippines, would you please give me a suggestion? beyond I can think of right now. Upon graduating my mother have an expectation she wants me to become a Psychologist and she has planned going abroad or work somewhere to give me money to support proceed my study to have master’s degree and to pass board exams I'm going to become stuck in giving support to my parents after graduation. That's why I know it's going to be rough for them to have a son like me, that's so different from other people, having their demands and expectations to do all their expectations or whatever they have programmed by society, they're going to pull me to do what I have to do(I choose to do what I want to do,..” my deepest” and “meaningful desires”), but who's going to help them if I leave? How can I help them, how can I express my love to them, I have this thought that what if while I am pursuing this they die? how can I fix that? I don’t know I am weak right now, I don’t know how or what I am suppose to do how can i fix their funeral or the papers, the hospital stuffs or who’s going to be their look out if something will happen? Whose I am going to call to fix that kind of stuffs or if they become older who’s going to takecare for them. That is also my concern, they expect that the children are going to take care for them when they become older but until I die I want to focus to my life purpose, I also want to make life easy for them, but having this journey it affects how they will live their life, they will have the toughest life, they will struggle more compared to life of the ordinary whose going to give in to society, (by choosing the path of roadless travelled.) I have a plan to not bother to talk to them for I want to focus to my journey and also because I don’t want to hear negativity, I want to become busy and focus, I want to make them see rather talk.. The next time I let them see me is by the time I am successful by doing that, I don’t know if that is the right decision or if i can do that either, I am bothered not going back to them and need their help and make them say I told you so my son. Because in my side there is always struggles, the ups and down of life and they programmed me , that family is the one thing that will help if something tragic happen to me... so if my actions is being a rebel, something what I communicate to them by this kind of actions they have the last say to me.. This ( “see I told you” “you will come back” life will give you tragedies if you not obey your parents and in the end of the day you will comeback for help.. ) this is bulshit but please give me a salvation to this kind of program… it is a long journey, they will not see me for a long time, they will have a negative thoughts about that kind of behavior, I am a selfish it will spread out to all of my family/relatives and I am going to be a disappointment I cannot face my family even now, thinking the plan I have, leaving all my families and parents?, It is complicated to me I am a breadwinner in the family also I cannot express my concerns for them, I talk to my mother but the frequency is not match but I give her love and I said to her where you want to travel ma? One day if I have financial freedom I will treat you wherever country you want, (my life purpose also will help me to have connection so yea oneday I see it is possible because of my connections that will give me accommodation, I am optimistic hehe), I need them to have faith on me but ofcourse they cannot understand tho my mother’s response is hehe you are the one who suppose to fix our passport hehe uhm? ((((Okay that response is coming from FEMININE ENERGY THO TO TAKE THE LEAD HAHA) , my plan is I will say to them that you guise must have a work because I cannot yet give a support that you expect, living in the philiphines is hard even I have a degree the cost of living is not enough my mother and I last time talk and I ask her to compute the cost of living if I am going to lilve alone, how much money I need from day to day, in month, what we computed is only for survival needs where I am going to get money for my life purpose? To but books!!!!! WHERE.. the money is not enough maybe to the cost of living like house rent. The food, the soap, the electricity, the water consumptions, etc. you know what I mean you guise in America people there when they turned 18 they are out in parent’s home… my mother’s age is in 40’s, my father’s age is in 50’s my father should become more masculine but he is in the Feminine side, my mother is the one right now making the decision, his thinking is he ioverage in the work.. that makes me have an uncomfortable feeling about him, I am frustrated typing this to all of you, I am afraid that they will settle it in media, there is segment here in the Philippines called Tulfo, that something like this will happen to me, I am going to jail or obliged me to support them or I am going to get embarrassed to all people abroad or here in the Philippines whoever watch that, I think in blue stage in consciousness they will not understand my side, even if they are in the level of they want to give me equal statement.. because of their consciousness , you know what I mean, this is the best i can plan of, first to graduate to have a more descent profit , even tho I don't want to study in the university i decided to graduate cuz I don't know any alternative it (if you want to help me or support me or give me home or something go I need that) it is very hard for me,… to all in my journey, but i am hoping that i have a future that is great ahead of me that is waiting for me, i really feel it, tho, i am already done the life purpose course, i am now on my way to finish the working on my subconscious mind , i think if i am going to finish that stage in life purpose course i will become inevitable.. and i feel it, i can see that by this time i am already surrendered with any fear, i let this feeling of (idk what is this, a feeling of pure desire of what i want) to melt with myself and become the force and flow and to serve this desires, it gets clearer and clearer doing subconscious work, my concern is I don't want to go back to my parents house because my money is not enough or I will have a problem that I don’t see or anticipate by the time I bite the bullet to go all in in this path independently.. in addition, hmmm my time is fully occupied that i cannot do the work.. I don't really know tho if that is the case.. but realistically i think that will happen... what is other suggestions you can think of? I need an advice from the people who already past this stage... you know you can relate to me, i would much appreciate your response... i am on my vacation so i have so many time before the ojt begin and i have also time before stage of working in Neurofeedback., also I don't know if living alone i can freely do the activities that I expect, “smoothly”, i have a thought that it will not gonna be easy and free, I don't know? Doing the the manual laundry, cleaning the house, cleaning the bathroom, work at neurofeedback, “i think it is 9-5?”, eating breakfast, lunch, dinner, take a bath, etc all survival things occupy my whole 24 hours time so what can you say about that?? PS: i really need to go and live away to my parents, what do you expect will happen if i do pick up and practice occult in my parents' house? Hahahaha!

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If you are going insane how would you react ? Happy?? Realizes oneself is very serious stuffs that is what i experience.. when you become conscious that you are alone in the universe you me, I don't want that how am i supposed to live with that.. i am alone? All along.. dayumn!!

I don't want to take anything even coffee or alcohol.. even alcohol the experience is not the same anymore, when i drink alcohol for me it is another state of consciousness.. yes and mosly i spend my time doing tiktok haha, and i let myself slackoffs, be in the comfort, i think i also have an ego backlash from that.. idk what will happen to me.. i think the mushroom i took messed up my brain haha i hope that it isn't

It made do tiktok acct ? I am enjoying it..

True! It really enhances my trip ?? okay ☺️

I don't know i bought 4grams but i divide it, to be honest I don't scale it but i think it made it strong because of i use lemon. I intake it with lemon, I soaked it for 20 minutes in lemon before taking it

Share it here what you have learned,and share your insights right now after years, months, or days of progressing it and applying it to your career and to your life purpose

While reading so good they can't ignore you, i have question in mind about practice, is there a point where After reaching a certain point I should stop practicing it and move to the next skill i will be working on Or is it a forever practice? Or should i focus on one things? If then how about other thing i could practice? Or exploring for what i understand career capital is like this for example i am a boxer, i deliberate practicing my strenght after a certain point then the speed then agter a certain point my lungs, after a certain point my agility after a certain point techniques so on and so fort... yea i'm improving forever but in different varieties one at a time, ... but how can i apply 10,000 in that ? Oh man make me understand this career capital better there is an example in the book where Tice practicing his new skill for his new Tune after he acquired the new tune because of deliberate practice he can now move to the next what can you say about that example? Give me examples for it

Why?

I learned alot about reality, infact reading it i became more mature about how i see reality, reality is not really illusion or something guys talk about here , hmm I understand even more what illusion is, yes it is illusion but reality we are here, and we are really human , human is reality, hmm ? I am going to stop there, i want to express more interesting , i learned about reality that we are here to experience, we experience to grow, and i get inspired about how our choices made us and actualized our present moment and become who we are, i also learned the about actualized and unactualized past and how it is connected to the larger picture of reality , what might happen did now happen i like the insight about choices, being, possible and probable state...

Are all human beings Growing same as we actualizers? I have thoughts that not everyone is self actualizing same as we.. most people not really in a path of growth, they grow only here and there, but not really GROWWWWWWW! Share your understanding about growth

Is it possible to sustain good emotions and at the same time you don't feel negative emotions at all? Or a strong negative emotions? And if yes, could i get that through this kind of approach? (be more focus on this feeling good such as desire and this will completely ignore the negative emotion? And now i will live with this good emotion for the rest of my life