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Last Tuesday I had my very first psychedelic experience. I took 75 mcg of LSD, which I thought would allow me to just dip my toe in the water but which ended up being a really intense experience. Early into the trip I set the intention to completely surrender everything, and it soon became incredibly clear to me that there is only consciousness. It sounds cliche but it's true. Life is and always has been a journey through consciousness. Consciousness is the only thing you will ever explore. I also saw that all the things that I had been holding onto were absolutely groundless, which shook me pretty hard. Everything you hold as true is only true because of your notion of it as being true. In essence any idea, feeling or phenomena is absolutely groundless. And this goes down to even your most fundamental principles of behavior. I saw very clearly how I'm creating my own reality, and how much garbage I have in my own mind (or more accurately, the negative karmic potential associated to this consciousness). You can run away from the neighbours dog but you cannot run away from the subconscious. It's always there and it's shaping all your perception. I saw how there is no hidden reality and how you only have the present moment to deal with and your current karma. Everything is here. Every decision you make is exactly here. Nowhere else. It really made me see the value of resting in silence (meditation), as that it is the most direct practice for dealing with all that "garbage" that I became so aware of. Resting as your true nature melts everything else away, and it's a blissful process. It also helped me realize what I want to do in my life. To exist. Existence is the most fundamental thing there is and that is what I want to align my life with. The rest may simply spring from that. So I need not fret over what to do with my life. The question I am left with after this experience is who am I? On this trip everything melted away except for the innate quality of consciousness that was experiencing. Everything was morphed but not "that". And what on earth is that? It feels like a dead-end, and that I'm not getting any further trying to understand it because that is what I am. I think I can only seek to be it.

Mind fields are not connected to each other. Every mind field is on the other hand connected to the shared field of God.

I had actually planned to take a break and live a more sanctuary lifestyle over the next couple of months, so the timing was actually kinda alright.

That did not sound like Bill Gates, at all, so I Googled it. Turns out it's a spoof story. https://www.independent.co.uk/news/uk/home-news/coronavirus-bill-gates-fake-news-the-sun-letter-naomi-campbell-instagram-a9421251.html Social media are not reliable sources of information.

People are already craving social interaction deeply. This is a shared experience of isolation, and it is only natural that people would want to come together after the fear of the virus has subsided. This is a collective trauma that needs collective healing. I can also speak from my own experience and say that social withdrawal has been massively helpful in dealing with my own social anxiety, although that was under very different circumstances. But I notice nowadays I'm happy to just see another person regardless of who.

Or the opposite, as people have the opportunity to figure out who they truly are.

What's low-consciousness about acknowledging beauty? Am I being vain for admiring the beautiful mountains, or the clear blue skies?

@Mada_ Cults are very much about the dynamics and not neccesarily what the "leader" said a couple of times. In other words, it's generally non-verbal and moreso reflected in attitudes rather than precise spoken words. Personally I don't care whether this is a cult or not. It is what it is. You sure about that?

@LfcCharlie4 The Wim Hof method, I second that. From their newsletter: "The 2014 Radboud study showed that WHM practice upregulates your immunity by increasing the production of white blood cells and B-lymphocytes. These are the little critters that protect you from foreign marauders such as viruses."

I've had similar fears. I haven't done LSD yet, but oftentimes when I focus on my chest area I get very anxious and feel like I'm going to have a heart attack if I keep doing it (I get weird sensations in my chest). Facing the prospect of my own physical death is very difficult, but I feel like I'm gradually getting there. I wonder what that would be like on LSD. There is this one quote by David R. Hawkins that I particularly like: "In serious spiritual work, it is necessary to have a few simple basic tools that are absolutely dependable and safe to rely on in order to walk through fear and uncertainty. One basic truth that is of inestimable value and usefulness is the dictum that all fear is fallacious and not based on truth. Fear is overcome by walking directly into it until one breaks through to the joy that the fear is blocking. The joy that follows facing any spiritual fear comes from the discovery that it was merely an illusion without basis or reality."

What does this perception exist within?

It's a cheap wake up call. The world is simply not prepared for a widespread pandemic. This virus is sufficiently deadly that it is being taken seriously, but not so deadly that it will cause massive destruction. This lesson will prove valuable in the future, when much deadlier diseases are to come. The fragility of the system has become apparent. Any big disaster can put it into shambles. This will make people appreciate the system more, and financial cuts in e.g. health care will not go unnoticed. People take for granted how comfortable and secure our lives are. This event might help people appreciate life more. The undervaluation of the sick and the elderly have become apparent. In the beginning most people did not take it seriously because it mostly hit the sick and elderly, but now we are fighting hard to spare them. "It's mostly just the elders who die" is no longer considered reassuring. People are witnessing the consequences of poor leadership and flawed systems real-time. (Norway specifically) The lack of authority and clear leadership has become apparent. There was very much confusion in the beginning, and people did not know who was in charge or who to listen to. So much more. I hope that this will take the world in a positive direction.

They're hard to find but they are out there. Lots of Facebook groups are actually pretty decent. "Experiential sharing group based on teachings of David R. Hawkins", "“Demon Support” Unofficial Objective Personality Group" etc., depends on what you are into. The community around Objective Personality is SUPER active by the way. Tons of different groups and packed with supportive, growth-oriented people.

@Lento got banned for questioning Leo? Wtf? That mod should be banned.

Outside of your comfort zone is the place to expand. Inside of your comfort zone is the place to heal. Demonizing and vilifying comfort is not constructive.

Maybe you just need some rest. When you're being lazy yet guilty about it it's very easy to get stuck in a limbo. So maybe you should just allow yourself to sit with your laziness without any guilt. Try doing 2 weeks where you give yourself permission to be as lazy as absolutely possible, and see where that takes you Chances are you will experience big resistance to doing this. I can relate to that of not enjoying oneself, I've been like that since my early teens myself. In my view, a disinterest in ordinary things is merely an invitation to find enjoyment in deeper things. I'm probably the one least interested in watching movies etc. among those I know, but then again I don't really know any others who would find joy in pure silence. Embrace the gift you have been given.

People have always been acting irresponsibly towards each other on this forum. Couple spiritual bypassing with low emotional intelligence, and that's what you get. That said, I'd advice against taking your trauma ideology too seriously. Like all belief systems, it has its limitations.

If you could design your life from the ground up, is this how you would want it to be? It's easy being lazy when you have no intrinsic motivation to do anything else.

When people try to "let go" of resistance as a way of avoiding suffering then it is indeed suffering. It's the same resisting mechanism. Letting go of resistance is ultimately a form of surrender. "I have tried everything and there is nothing I can do. I surrender". Even resistance and suffering can be surrendered to, so this runs pretty deep. Surrendering is not really a doing. It's more of an attitude, that of aligning with what is. Instead of resisting resistance, allow yourself to resist with your entire being. Align yourself with your inherent freedom to experience whatever you are currently experiencing, which is joyful in a way that far ecompasses whatever suffering might be going on in the moment. That is what liberation is. The recognition that you are free to suffer, just like you are free to be well.

@IJB063 The people who made that definition probably thought that pain and suffering are synonymous. It's not. You can never free yourself from pain. However, by letting go of your resistance to pain you will be freed from suffering. Suffering is resistance to what is, which is gone when you start seeing the inherent beauty in pain and all that exists.

No suffering is necessary. "Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional." - Haruki Murakami

@studentofthegame It's great to hear that you've found healing, and that you're striving towards balance. It's always nice to hear from you, and I'm interested in hearing more about how you've been doing. The last few weeks have been very emotional for as well, but that is not without reason however. My father passed away abruptly 7th of February, and it has truly been a humbling experience. It put me face-to-face with my self-centered vanities, and opened me up to this deep, profound love for my father that had always been there yet ignored. And this love has been amazingly healing in the grieving process. The weirdest thing is that the incident did not feel random at all. It felt like the perfect storm in a sense, in so many ways I won't go into detail about now. We can talk more on PM if you'd like.

These things that you're saying is no universal truth, and totally depends on the circumstances. Your post, on the other hand, strikes me as highly unspiritual. Dogmatic, black-and-white, shaming. You covered them all.

Sounds like a deep form of empathy. If you model to your friend how to deal with such feelings it can be profoundly healing. The problem arises when you do not know how to deal with them.