MikeB

I enjoyed End of Your World. Reading Ken Wilber No Boundary right now. I feel like I'm leveling up as I go through it. It's one of my favorite reads ever. Some of my other favourites are audio books by Eckhart Tolle, War of Art by Steven Pressfield, Science of Enlightenment by Shinzen Young. So many....

I am going to read no boundary after my current book. I would also like to know anyone's opinion on Ken Wilber' philosophy.

Any tips on keeping awareness in the body?

A few weeks back I felt as if a force field was moving from the front of my body to the back. I felt as if my brain was being rewired, but it was my whole body. I got scared and panicked. Everything I knew was being destroyed. At the same time, it didn't feel unfamiliar. I have been thinking that time is irrelevant. I have come this far already. When it happens does not matter.

" losing your awareness in the first place? " Good way to look at it. I am not feeling that I was losing it. I amfeeling that I am trying to find it. " bad habits/bad programming" I have bad habits and programming. I have been thinking about how to bring those feelings out so I can feel them and accept them. I think it is during "Meditation" and "Contemplation". I really need to feel those serious feeling stuck in my body. Have some thoughts on that. Gonna test tomorrow. Please explain more "on the "see" label"

One thing I noticed is you can get rid of negative body sensations by feeling into them and accepting them. The more I do this the faster they go away. But I have been practicing intermittent fasting for almost 2 years now so I feel that has an impact. Mind body awareness has been critical to where I am now.

I am looking to keep the awareness 24 7. I can go deep, but I want to get some insight on how others have done it for long periods of time during normal life. Day to day. I know it is always there, but I keep going off track. Edit: that is a good tip to feel your clothing. I agree.

I don't know where I am. I believe I am going through the awakening process. Dealing with people is such a struggle. Media, work, my home... Everyone I deal with, it just seems like they are disconnected with reality. I know they are, but it is so difficult to deal with it. What I understand is that I need to have compassion and understand that they are asleep, but it is a constant barrage of stupidity. Being awake is a lonely place. Even my boss. We have a very open relationship, but his ego is strong and is controlling him. Is it compassion I need to develop or is there something I am missing here? How do I get over everyone's stupidity to get over the frustration? Then there is my wife. I keep planning on how i am going to leave. I think she is going crazy. I see it in here eyes. Her ego is completely in control of her. She will not listen to any of my advice. I can not even talk to her. I can't figure out if she is faking it to get me to leave or if she really is going crazy. On another note, there are alot of things going well for me internally. I am finding myself or not lol. Things are good, I am just super frustrated on how to deal with all this shit around me. Any advice from someone who has experience with this would be appreciated.

How do I find the love? My wife is a crazy bitch. I am about to leave. This is going to tear my life apart. I know in the end this is the thing to do, but how do I justify my actions?

I was going to say new earth.

Thanks Leo. Now I'm all fucked up. LOL. Did the breathing for a whole 30 minutes. My fingers and wrists locked up and I couldn't use them for about 20 to 30 minutes. This is real shit. I could not use my hands. They were fucking locked up. It was scary. Then I proceeded to jog around a couple blocks... 24 hours later I feel enlightened and I no longer give a fuck about what anyone thinks about me. I feel like the world is mine and I can do whatever I want. I cannot wait for next weekend to do this again, but I have tomorrow off and I am contemplating doing it again.

Practicing for two weeks now. Asana Wow my back is weak. Getting stronger quickly though. I find doing some stretches prior helps alot. I hold most of my stretches for 30 seconds. Swaying like a skyscraper. It is distracting. Should go away. I am trying to follow the book as much as possible. In the book it states "The hands should sit gently on the lap with fingers INTERTWINED, which creates a neutralization of the current". I know it says should, but it seems pretty important. Everywhere I search on the internet, noone is doing this. Only figure 3 shows this .They typically have their hands on their knees. Leo, if you can help with this one please do. Nadi Sodhana Pranayama I found elsewhere today to count the joints on your hand. 12 per. Right now I am just breathing until it feels good enough which is terrible. Going to test. Should do the trick, I just want to keep distractions to a minimum and keep my focus on the important things, rather than having to count. Blow your nose prior to breathing. Clear your throat. Ujjayi Pranayama This is not easy for me. The research I found today made sense though. Get good at Nadi Sodhana. then move on to this. It's a habit. One step at a time.

Exercise. Do 10 push ups, squats, some leg lifts and lunges. Get your heart pumping. Don't over eat and drink plenty of water. Watch some Jocko Willink. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QQTYWxeAy9k