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we love you, Leo! <3

as always <3 it just feels right in this moment. I literally feel like a newborn.. I know, the world around me may be the same, but my eyes are new.. wow. I can't even imagine.. is that what's happening to you? this is so wonderful. I keep falling in love with life. it's all perfect. I've been blind to love and beauty. and most people are.. it makes me sad, but I can see the beauty in it. the whole process of learning how to see again.. that's the journey we're here for. that's why we exist. I want to help, I want to help so much..everyone deserves to see the beauty. I want to help people feel the love again <3

that's wonderful. yeah, they can be a real door to 'the other side' I know that feeling what helps me a lot to integrate my experiences is contemplation and journaling

thank you so much, dear @SoonHei so glad that my description resonates with you! exactly <3 that's wonderful, if using herbs helps you to tap into such feelings. now imagine that you can feel like that without <3 you have it in you, you just have to become aware of it

I love that quote, @Gabriel Antonio <3 such a relief, so freeing a beautiful perpetuum mobile sketch: Scientists have searched for a perpetuum mobile; they have found it: it is science itself. - Victor Hugo science sustaining itself

I can only speak from my experience right now.. it doesn't really feel like I've gained anything. more like I've lost a whole bag of fears, worries, concepts, beliefs, expectations. it's a high-like state in the sense that I feel like I'm floating, I feel lighter and more in synch with the melody of life. as if I'd let go of lots of resistance and now life is just flowing through me effortlessly <3 I don't know, it's hard to describe

so wonderful <3 it is therapy, miraculous medicine it made me reconnect to my emotional body on such a deep level, it unlocked so much love and beauty. it made me realize the perfection of reality. that everything is exactly as it should be. every atom is at its place. just utter perfection, if you just surrender to the flow <3

oh wow, to become empty is to be filled with the divine <3 the less I am, the more of everything can flow through me those glimpses literally kill me, I love it. the problem is, I get attached to them...it's hard to not get attached to such freedom, peace and bliss. how?

one of the most humbling insights I've had it clicked during a meditation session in the Zen monastery: this path doesn't add anything to me. it's actually a process of subtracting. it's the process of shedding layer after layer. of what? 'me', my personality: the concept of 'me' I have in my mind. all the things I think about 'myself'. that toxic accumulation of past memories and future expectations that merge into my self image (my story, my character). that static idea I have in my mind. all those beliefs and concepts. layer after layer, I let go. I become lighter and lighter, until I dissolve. until I surrender all resistance and merge with the incredible flow of life and death. it feels so good to let go.. relief, freedom. the strange paradox of making myself so vulnerable, that I feel invincible

thanks for your welcoming embrace <3 beautiful to see you here again <3

you know, there is that small part in me which can't help but wonder how my life would be if I became a nun you're so right Solace, I start to feel it. everything is the same, my perception of it though.. <3

<3 this spoke directly to my heart thank you, Solace

Hei sorry, I didn't know where to post this question. Since the videos are probably about enlightenment/consciousness, I decided to try it here. I can't play part 2 and 3. part 1 and all other videos are working. it's telling me 'Unsupported viewing environment: Your system is having trouble playing this video' anyone else having this problem? how can I fix this? (sorry guys, I'm really a walking catastrophe when it comes to technology ) it's so frustrating, I really want to watch those videos! thanks in advance <3

very interesting, thanks for sharing! I wonder how I'd do on 5 days in solitary confinement.. I hope one day I'll find the balls, time and opportunity to try.. hmm.. what do you think? would there be a lot of difference between people here on the forum and others, which don't consciously work on self actualization / enlightenment?

thank you dear Pluto, this is gold <3 true, if you shine the light of awareness on your depression, directly into its heart, you discover its illusory nature. it's empty, it doesn't exist in the present moment but I keep forgetting as well.. thanks for reminding me

in my experience you can meditate your way right into the depression. breathe into it, really feel into it. go through it mindfully and come out on the other side it hurts a lot, I won't deny it. but 'bad' emotions are here because they want to be acknowledged, accepted and specially be loved <3

OMG I love this one too. Awakening is always an accident. Meditation just makes us a little more accident-prone. I can't remember where I got it from. maybe Leo mentioned in a video? but it stuck with me as well. it's like increasing the probability to get struck by a lightning by going on a mountaintop, waving a metal stick. I've also just read in Sadghuru's book yesterday: we can consciously increase our awareness until a certain point. we can open our chakras with yoga, meditation and all that. but the final step is out of our hand. enlightenment/access to the 7th chakra is not in our hands anymore. that we can't decide for ourselves. what a coincidence that's beautiful. this just made me smile. thanks for sharing <3 we are, we're even here for the same thing <3

a sudden realization during concentration practice. I always worry because I want to do everything right. I value efficiency, my mindset is heavily influenced by christian ora et labora. hard work will pay off. that's how I grew up, that's how I lived life, school, university and sports. I believe I have to earn results. that's what my parents and grandparents taught me. we don't get anything for free. is it really that way? or is it an extremely crippling, limiting believe? do I have to meditate like crazy for 10-20-30 years to embody enlightenment, oneness, love and compassion? truth is, I really don't know. I just realized: whatever I do -working hard, striving or slacking off and relaxing, letting things flow- that's what is supposed to happen. it's right, it's perfect. why? because it's all one. in the end, it's one and the same. inside is outside. it's all two faces of the same coin. that's when I felt my 'self' vanishing and expanding. my sense of self started merging with something I could describe as an empty field of awareness. it was all open, wide, calm, peaceful and empty. I hope this can motivate and inspire on or the other here <3 I know it's hard, it's painful, annoying, boring. sometimes it seems so, so meaningless. but then one of those moments hits you. it's worth it. just do it.

this is so true. I've never been a religious person. I've been an atheist for as long as I can remember. I hated everything around church as a child and teen. but now, the deeper I go, the more I find myself using religious vocabulary and analogies. they just seem to fit. it's hard to express some of the stuff and religious jargon just seems the most ...appropriate. one year ago I would have laughed at myself using words like love, god, trust, prayer, surrender.. but they are strong. I get the essence of every religion now and that they point to the same thing, consciousness.

still chewing on this video.. I've had a couple of existential crises since watching it for the first time, also after some trips. and I feel like it was not my last one yet.. I gotta bite the bullet, again and again, deeper and deeper. will it ever end? I love it, bringing Nihilism full circle. nothingness becoming everything <3 me too, I'm so thankful, every day

thank you so much for this your words just boosted my vision. we're all here to elevate and help each other. and what you think, you become. a strong vision is everything. what is yours? and your purpose for doing Kriya?

this resonates so much with me <3 hazy path indeed, sometimes. yes, the vision gets foggy sometimes.. then looking back can be so grounding and soothing. we're in this together <3

when it comes to being a strategic Mofo ( still loving that video title) and longterm thinking, we tend to think about the future and our vision. but it can be every bit as useful if we turn it around. when we get stuck, frustrated, demotivated, inpatient and start doubting ourselves this can be very motivating. ask yourself: where was I one year ago? stop for a second and think back. you don't need to share it, if you don't want. just think about it. what kind of person were you even 3 months ago? half a year ago? maybe before you discovered Actualized.org? before your first retreat? before your first trip? before starting a yoga or meditation practice? holy moly, this can bring me to tears if I actually think about it. pat yourself on the back, you're doing great. you're perfect <3 thank you so much Leo and to all of you kind souls on this forum

so glad to hear that everything is here to help us grow.

thanks from the deepest place in my heart, as always, @Nahm