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this is beautiful <3 don't beat yourself up, it couldn't have happened any other way. you deserve love and kindness <3

perfect <3 thanks for reminding me. I've been facing the same issue lately. I guess the answer is once more - to turn inwards. it's really always to turn inwards. being a living example of all the teaching - sensitive people will notice, hopefully

this. thank you, so useful. I've been waiting for such a video for a while now actually.. the checklist is gold <3

oh, I feel you. it really is rejecting on a physical level for me too. my body contracts, I get all tensed up. wow, you really think so? this is a wonderful way to look at things, thank you

thank you for the summary,@Aimblack I tried to ponder upon those questions/inputs. I actually felt myself relax into it more. yes, the choice...I really want to surrender to all parts of reality, also annoying uni-stuff. I hope it will get easier no, not weird at all. this <3 I think this is what I was unconsciously looking for, not knowing how to verbalize it. this. this is gold, thank you. I don't know if I can make this work, but the idea inspires me a lot, thank you so much <3

surrender this is something I seem to encounter again and again on this path. it's also one of those things that seem to never end. there is always more to surrender to, more resistance to release, more 'things' to fully relax into. it's really about that, I think. realizing that everything is exactly as it should be. it couldn't be any other way. and it's perfect. this forever unfolding flux, this endlessly play between coming into being and fading, life and death how well can you relax into it? how well can you go with the flow? how well can you play with the flux instead of against it? how well can you surrender to everything that arises? surrender, surrender.... showering it with love

I actually 'know' that from direct experience. but thoughts are still very present in my life. they are becoming more and more positive though. and much more peaceful <3 I'm curious to know yeah, I've already realized that the sneakiest, most deceptive thing there is in my life .. is my own mind. it's scary and exciting. it's piece of art!

@yawning_ as gentle as the breeze of air on the leaves yeah, feels like it, it really does. moments of deep peace, love and calmness are expanding and frustrations are becoming rare in my life. studying for exams seems to be one of the last things I have to see the light in and surrender all resistance to.. <3

@Aimblack sedona method? could you maybe give a quick explanation to how that works? thank you <3 @yawning_ thank you so much for your advice. it's actually what I'm trying to do. I'm probably too inpatient and need more practice. I'll just try to stay as aware as possible and most importantly to be kind to myself whenever I notice being lost. it's so important to see noticing low awareness as something positive. it's actually a good thing whenever I notice 'oh, I'm so unaware and lost in my emotions'. I have to remind myself of that. let's shine some light of awareness on that frustration ;-) thank you <3

thanks for your inspiring words, as always @pluto I'm so grateful for this place. I wouldn't be the way I am right now without all of you guys.. thanks from a place very, very deep inside my heart <3

thank you, @Hsinav , so glad you enjoyed it <3

@Solace thanks, I'll try to do that, maybe in combination with breath awareness

yes, they all talk about the same thing, in different languages, epochs and cultures <3 and, yeah, they get lost in the language instead of looking at the moon ..

that's actually exactly what I feel

<3 I intuitively did something similar during my meditation session today. then people appeared and I told them 'I love you' each time I felt something in me expanding, suddenly something illuminated, there was a bright light around my head and tingling in my arms I love the idea to surrender to the heart completely. what exactly do you mean by that? just by focusing on it, physically?

oh wow, this movie speaks right to my heart so inspiring I can feel the truth in me becoming louder whilst watching <3 thanks for sharing, @luismatos

wow, this touched me deeply. can I ask you what you would do differently if you had the chance to? what would you have offered him from your heart? I'm sorry for your loss, I send you my blessings and love

oh, no matter how wonderful you imagine it to be, it's infinitely more blissful and overwhelming than you can ever fathom. glad my experience could inspire you <3 this is what we're here for

wow, thanks for sharing @Serotoninluv <3 would you mind explaining your insight about intuition some more? I'm trying to work on mine.. but it's kind of hard because I can't really put my finger in it. I really don't know what it is. I kind of hope that my 'gut feeling' will get stronger if I meditate and live in silence and minimalism enough.. but it's just a belief for me at this point

it did? do you want to share how exactly? I love it <3 I often think about this lately. specially after reading McKenna.. I also get this tingling sensation whenever I think about it. @Nahm thanks, as always <3 @Leo Gura oh, you have no idea.. or actually, you're probably one of those who really have

thank you so much,@AleksM glad you liked it <3

I've been a seeker for my whole life. even a good friend told me today (and she doesn't know about any of this stuff) that I've always looked like I was searching something. I was unfulfilled, unsatisfied. I had that never ending need in me - to want more and more. and I didn't even know what. I thought I wanted things. so I ran after them. it was desperate. nothing could fill it. last year I realized I wasn't looking for things, but for feelings. I chased mystical experiences, love, enlightenment. awakening. I don't know if I am enlightened.. but I've definitively had some minor and a huge awakening experience over the last months. now I feel peace. I feel joy, a calmness. I can go deeper, I know. in fact, this will never end, it will always be possible to go even deeper. oh, how much I love this. but it feels like positive motivation now. there is nothing missing in me. I feel whole. now I cry maybe because I really mean it? I don't do it to fill a hole in me anymore I do everything because I want to become less and less. I want to become empty. I want to radiate love and compassion, I want to help others attain this state too

I feel my mood fluctuating, but it doesn't scare me anymore. I know the emptiness now, I know the nothingness of things. nothing is permanent, everything will fade (emptiness remains) I think I can overcome sadness and devastation more lightly now. I try not to be afraid of them anymore, I try to welcome whatever arises. I try to embrace whatever negative emotion may arise. I know that it will make me more humble and more compassionate I'm becoming more and more aware of the mechanisms inside my mind: how all my problems are actually self-created and, really, nonexistent. wow. it's all in my mind, isn't it?

@zenjen have you watched Leo's video about loneliness, my dear? helped me a lot in my experience, loneliness starts to dissolve as soon as I shine the light of awareness on it. no distractions, face it. sit with it, observe it. feel the emptiness of it, see it unravel <3

@lukej wow <3 it's the same for me. I've been listening to a lot of Matt Kahn's teachings over the last year, but I've never really committed to something like that. but definitely felt something special whilst reading your post. <3