phoenix666

oh wow, really? I'm sorry to hear that. it's hard for me to fathom, cause I've had such a great experience on aya and it has already changed my life for the better after only 3 weeks. I'm still feeling the aftershocks and the world just keeps getting more mystical, magic and full of love. how exactly are you experiencing PTSD? (please don't feel obligated to share, only if you want and if you feel that it could help you dealing with it <3)

oh, shit it's all about love! it has always been about love! how could I be so blind? my whole world, my whole universe orbited around one or another form of love my whole life...how could I not see that? every phantasy was to make me feel love, everything I ever did was to feel connection and love! and for years I walked around thinking it's about success, achievement. oh, no..life really lies in fulfillment. and where do I find that? in feeling connection. to what? to everything. that's actually oneness in a nutshell: connection to everything. non-duality. no me, no you, no world outside of me. --> all is one. that's what I'm actually after. and I've always been after that, all along. maybe it's just a matter of definition.. but no, for me it feels like fulfillment=happiness=connection=love=oneness oh, wow this just felt really heart-opening it actually got me watery eyes

so beautifully expressed <3

@Nahm @Solace @Artaemis @Martin123 @sgn @Arkandeus oh how much I love you guys what's being 'wise' for you? and what's being 'blind' for you? I think being in love is seeing through the eyes of a child. some may call that naive. some may say it's the ultimate perception without prejudices and without web of beliefs clouding the inherent beauty and perfection of god or the absolute (however you wanna call it)

hahah it's ok, not the first time it happened on this forum.. I guess the '666' carries some masculine energy I found it everywhere, to be precise

thanks for sharing @GafaRassaDaba , that was intense. made me feel things let it sink in, it can transform your life like crazy <3

@Martin123 I'm actually a girl, my dear but I know that feeling, I love this place and all of you guys too <3

@Sbilko do you think love needs a reason? but I can try to explain it logically, if you want. it was a sudden insight about everything I've done, said and thought about my whole life. it's very personal. I can only speak from my experience, my memories, my intentions. I thought I wanted certain things, not realizing that I was really after something else. and this something else is love. the infinite love you perceive when you feel that everything is one. that deep connection, the dissolving of every boundary. that kind of love. the one that can't be described, it has to be experienced directly. I realized that that's what I've been looking for all along. and that is also what everyone else is after, even if unconsciously. I hope it sounds plausible

so beautiful thanks for sharing let's speak and act from this wonderful place <3 embodying takes patience, but it's the heart of the journey

haha what's happening there? it's all around us you're right, but everyone has to find out for themselves. it's helpful to get inspired though <3 thank you yeah, literally loving it to death so beautifully expressed! thanks for sharing <3 yeah, all duality is self created and doesn't really exist. the world around us may be the same, but our perception of it changes. our eyes change and peak through to see the love in everyone and everything sometimes the masks fall off, or we can de decide to let them go to reveal what's really inside <3 thank you to all of you <3 you're all part of my journey, I feel so grateful

wow, I'm glad it doesn't bother you too much. I feel you about energies no longer matching with most people.. but new ones will show up, where beautiful ideas to share can grow on much more fertile ground <3

it's infinite. I'm infinity thinking I'm finite. by thinking, I create a limit. I close off the possibility of being infinite. or really, any possibility. I notice when talking and writing; every word is de-finition. putting a limit. it's this means it's not that. it's a separation! that's the creation of a duality: this vs not this. I notice that when I communicate through language, everything I say is actually false. as soon as I utter it, I see it's validity vanish. it's per definitionem not the thing which it is pointing at. wow and even deeper...same goes for every thought. thoughts function in a system called language (the finger, not the moon) I want the moon. I want to let go off the finger..

you feel it too,@PsiloPutty ? that's absolutely wonderful and I'm so glad you enjoy that. yeah, it's good to have a reminder from time to time <3 sometimes we need a little input to see it shine through, planting seeds here and there this place is perfect for sharing love - giving and receiving <3

it's unbelievable. a piece of fucking art that's the universe waking up, everywhere around us yay let the mushrooms have their wicked way with finite minds the shroomgod loves us <3

oh wow, I actually expected something like 'I felt our connection deepening' hahaha shit but I guess you guys are right, most people probably just think we've lost our mind. I will go by the 'if they want something, they'll come to me' approach in future I guess have to keep this in mind

I've just realized that it's all about love, it's all around and inside of me remember, @Nahm , you've told me all along? but I had to go a long way to see it for myself... thank you so much <3 this is love too, thank you, thank you..

I'd recommend you to not snort it, but to put it into a capsule and ingest it orally. much smoother and lasts longer - and won't irritate your nasal cavity I've had a wonderful experience with it. it was like actual therapy for me. it helped me talking about some very dark stuff which was still spooking around in my subconscious. I was able to talk about it freely, in order to let it go once for all. for me it was just pure bliss. my mind got so silent that I was able to really, like really connect with my body and specially with my emotions. the silence of the mind enabled me to become aware of the perfection of each moment - for the first time. I seem to be more in touch with my emotions since then. if used correctly, I think it can be very powerful and healing I wish you a wonderful experience

awakening is happening. I can't force it because it's already here, every moment. right under my eyes. it's right here, hidden under the veil of perception. what's this veil? it's layers and layers of identifications, beliefs and thoughts. I want to dissolve all of that with increasing awareness to become witness of my awakening - mine and the one of everyone and everything around me - because it actually is happening everywhere, anytime. I just have to dissolve that veil, so that I can see it unfold before my eyes. let me become a silent observer, let me become silent, witness in awe of an awakening universe

wow, one of the most powerful videos I've come across thank you so, so much Matt. you've changed my life the uneasy feelings I get around people sometimes aren't mind. I actually feel how they're feeling in their body in that moment. I feel it clearly with my dear mam. then I want to anchor what I think would help them most. I want to anchor love, security, courage, strength, trust and joy for my mam for example. for my dad I want to anchor love, satisfaction, calmness and peace. all decisions are already made. looking back I can see that everything I did, was exactly what I had to do in that moment, given my circumstances and my experience. there is no right and wrong other than for 'me' what I can decide though, is the intention. the reasons I do things for. bring good, high vibrational reasons for everything you do in your life and watch your journey blossom. to be conscious, to be aware means to set the most powerful, loving intention behind every action and word <3

@kieranperez oh, I feel you so much my journey seems to be similar I have this intuition to research into the life oft Christ (among others) too lately

I found a deep sense of peace and calmness. but there is still a little seeker in me. I'm still looking for something. meditation shows me that this little 'seeking bone' is still there. it got more quiet and patient, but still and it's ok. this little seeker brought me here. I don't want to fight it. maybe it's here to be loved?

to hear I must be in silence I feel it more and more, the calmer the mind, the deeper the connection how to calm my mind though. sometimes it's just racing. I've always been a thinker.. I'll focus on my breath, again and again

inspiration, like the one I get when reading your posts, @Nahm <3

wow <3 awe is expressed in silence in silence there is room for everything thanks for sharing @Arkandeus , very beautiful <3

he talks a little about his story at the beginning of the interview he's so far out there, I think most people can't even understand what he's saying. I watched the video some months ago and felt that way about some of his words (other parts resonated quite well). I watched it again today and he seems to speak directly to my heart <3 yeah, so gentle and kind. he reminds me of that vision I have of an enlightened being, being so empty to be a mere vessel of the universe/absolute, of unconditional love very inspiring <3