KellyJoe

@AstralProjection Thanks for the video. Just freaked out a bit when it happened. Will continue the journey. And if I get any psychic abilities I'll PM you first.

@Azrael Thank you so much for sharing. I may have to talk to you more about this at some point so thank you!

@Fidelio Wait, I have never heard of a brown eye? There's more?? Shit....Literally

@Azrael Thank you. Thank you. This makes sense. I so look forward for the demon to vanish. I slowed down my meditation because I don't know if you can do it too much but I will resume. Any advice on how to treat the day to day? For example, I stay at home with my kids. Can all of this occur inside me as I keep a calm face? Or are they going to get my subconscious wrath in their face? Also, did you practice yoga while you went through this? Hatha, kriya, or kundalini? Seriously, thank you for the advice.

Through 4 rounds of mushrooms at low doses, taken about every 3 months, and meditaion, I opened up the chakras in my body. I can feel them individually with the exception of the root and sacral chakra. I have also felt energy (I think it's energy) in my entire body at times of meditation. Kinda feels like an orgasm of the body. I have been feeling so much pressure in my head over the past 3-4 months in my third eye area. Anyway about 2 hours into my sleep one night, I felt like I got shot backwards throught a tunnel, and it felt like my entire self was in by head. I could see/hear my thoughts but I was separate from my thoughts. They were sort of above me. It lasted seconds and then I woke up and my body got really heated and then went away and then heated again and then went away. This lasted most of the night. Also I definitely felt energy going through the crown of my head. It was kind of a relief because I have been feeling so much pressure. First of all, what was that? Third eye? I thought ego death initially but I wasn't scared and I still felt like I was just inside my body, if that makes sense. Also, any suggestions on what to do now? And also, I don't plan on taking shrooms at the moment and I have stopped meditation since this happened about 4 days ago because I was afraid that there was too much energy. Do you think this is all okay or am I screwed and I did I do too much too fast? Thanks!

I have thought about this as well. I have actually stopped myself for a long time of self actualizing or just living "better" because I never wanted to be better than other people. My family doesn't live that well. Everything that you said plus more. They don't try in life at all. Government takes care of them. They eat badly to the point of teeth falling out and kidney stones. Alcohol, drugs, and I can keep going. Because of this, I didn't try as much as I wanted to because I didn't want to be "better than them" but then I felt bad when I was with my husband's family who functioned well in this society because I thought they were better than me. After meditation, I realized all of this thought is in me. It's not true. The ego compares. Comparison doesn't really exist. Osho says, "If you are egoistic you are bound to compare yourself with others. The ego cannot exist without comparison, hence if you really want to drop the ego, drop comparing. " It took some time but I started to eat better, and exercise better, but I just don't talk about it with others. I just do it. I don't think I'm better but I know I feel damn good living like this. Like @Natasha said, you are here to live your life. If you think about the comparison too much, the only person you are stopping is yourself. And if you want to self actualize, you will be surprised how many people you affect in a positive way.