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@krazzer I would be interested to hear more. What are you doing now? Did you find another job or are you self employed? yes and now I have three more month at this job? This feels unbearable long.

I just took a leap of faith and quit my job today. But I have three month leave notice. So it's three more month. That in and of itself was very revealing. Many fears came up and it showed me how easily one can become comfortable with a stable income. That will keep many people in jobs they do not find ultimately fulfilling. It almost would have kept me sucked in. I feel generally good about the decision. Although I now have to face many uncertainties. It i am sure it will grow me much more than if I would have stayed. I am glad I could stay true to my values and did let money blind me.

Yes, finding a job can be a lot of work, but in the end it should be possible to find something. My primary goal at first will also be Yoga. I want to become enlightened of course I am especially interested in dream Yoga. Which actually require more conscious effort during the day time practice than one might think. How do you choose the Yoga path as a source to provide for your needs? You are a teacher? I could see myself becoming that (part time) as well. But it would require years of practicing on my side first.

@aurum thank you very much for your input. I think I am in an easier situation as my passiv income from investment could actually cover a rent-free lifestyle. Meaning all expenses except the rent for an apartment. And as I am going to life at my parents house again (at first), I think it will not be stressful at all until I generate income again. but yes, I also think that I will actually be working more and especially physically harder than now. But I like work, if it fulfills a purpose for me. And that is something my current work lacks completely. So I dread almost every second of it. Yes I am going to quit this week. Because I have a three month leave notice, it will actually be end of September when I am done.

Good question and I think I cannot answer it anymore. But as long as I can remember I always leave the best parts of food for the end.

I am thinking of setting up a permaculture farm nearby a city. So that people can come there, pick their own food and spend time in nature. It should be a kind of food forest where everything is edible. Of course many more subideas go into that but this is the basic idea. Get people out of the cities and back into nature in a meaningful way. People need to understand again that nature is not only that thing you look at on your hikes (for example) but that it is actually what we depend on for our life.

@puporing thank you so much for your reply. I would like to ask you a few more questions. As you seem to have been in a similar situation like i am. I have no debt and am actually already half way financially free. Meaning I can cover half of my expenses if I rent my own apartment. That is why I temporarily move to my parents. That way I have enough time to start my business without having to focus on making money. I can focus on developing a business based on what I think will bring people the highest value. I will have the time to study all the subject I need to be successful. So you say that you have also stopped using your degree in your job/work? It will be that way for me. Actually I think that a mentally difficult decision. To say that all the years of studying will pretty much not be put to use any longer. How difficult was this for you?

@Goliath hey! sorry for the late reply. Nice that you living so close. Lets meet up! I am 25

Yes, I am also from Germany. Close to Frankfurt. Would be interesting to know someone personally who is interested in those same topics. Especially as I am a bit afraid of research into psychedelics all by myself Where are you from?

Thanks for your post. I know, my journey has just yet begun. I am still afraid to experience that absolute truth again. It felt like too much knowledge was revealed at once. But maybe after three years it's time again to take a look into psychedelics. But sober life is so beautiful, I do not want to go anywhere. I am practicing all day awareness or awareness of the senses throughout the day. As much as I can. And it helps to stay present and without judgement. Trying to focus on everything at once silences the mind because it is so demanding. At least at first.

I do not even know where to start. It this post racked something open inside of me which I was too afraid of to acknowledge. I had a 3G mushroom trip after 10 days of fasting and realized exactly what Leo's post is about. But at that time I could not realize it and bring it back to my normal understanding. I experienced exactly that: I am all of it, infinity, there is no outside or inside no other no self... It has been going on forever and will ever continue. Going into that experience three years ago, totally unprepared on a spiritual level, left me frightened and in constant worried I might fall into that void again. But this blog-post gave me some kind of instant enlightenment I think. But honestly I have no idea. Everything is so quiet now. Peaceful, I had to cry. I had been thinking a long time about the implications of this trip. But nothing clicked except for this one simple blog post. For me it explained everything so beautifully. Thank you Leo for all of your work. It is unmeasurably valuable. I guess I needed all your former input to get this realization. Where does this realization take me? I think it will take the edge off. I am always too serious. Thinking there was something to achieve in terms of personal development. But it's all it anyways. I can feel so much love radiating through me, reality is just .... god. But really there is no word it. But for me the first that comes to mind is god. Somehow its it's also painful to think from this true selves point of view. Nothing exists outside of me. Others are really me and I have to experience all the beauty and pain of the world. All the madness and all the ignorance.... I think that's the understanding which underlies true compassion. Somehow the spiritual path seems the only available option for. Everything else would be active denial. There is no going back. I just hope Leo is not only talking from delusioned phsychedelic mind to another?

@zikzak interesting! i was also trying out 20mcg at first and felt almost the same effect as with 40. But I had a life changing mushroom experience. That one basically got me started on the spiritual path. But it also imprinted some weird believes into my brain. Such as that the psychedelic experience is the real death and i have already been going through it a million of lifetimes. And that i am living this life already for the millions time and never being able to avoid this trip? And now all the spiritual texts seem to describe such experience. I don't know yet what to make of it. I just mention this to say that psychedelics can definitely also be detrimental. But than, out of the negative experience arose my positive interest in uncovering the truth and reaching for enlightenment with proper Buddhist teach inquest and teachings.

Let me pick up this topic again. How about other people's experience with AL-LAD. I did a 40mcg experiment and found that I could think, meditate and contemplate well on that dose. Without really feeling any strong effect. Therefore it did nothing to me feeling-wise. I would not label that recreational use. Because I also worked spiritually during that trip. I was fully capable of contemplating what I planned to do. And as the thoughts felt very sober, i can still relate to them thoroughly. So overall my experience with this substance and dosage has been positive. What are your experiences and opinions on micro dosing? I described my experience in more detail here: