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how would I go about doing that?

Why should I stop associating with my friends? They are not doing it on purpose its just normal for them, its completely on me to get angry about this. I've been trough all that PUA crap and it didnt work out, it actually hit my self esteem pretty hard because I got some of the worst rejections in that phase and no success, some day I was just over with it and tried just living my life and find a girl the "regular" way, after all all my friends didnt need that PUA crap, right? why should I? Well that was about 6 years ago and nothing happened yet, its like I'm cursed. The good thing about it is that I probably would have never gotten into meditation and philosophy if I had a girlfriends because I wouldnt have to find ways to deal with depression, loneliness and negative emotions. So maybe it all makes sense in the end and it all happened to push me into that direction? I dont know, but I like to think about it that way. I wouldnt quit my meditation now, no matter what happened, thats for sure.

@Ether but how do you surpress your bilogical urges?

Will it be possoble to view the books that flew off the list somewhere?

Its not about the sex, its the lack of validation. I truly think I'm a great guy but reality just shows me that im not desireable.

but how? how would I do this shadow work?

@egoeimai It is limiting beliefs for sure and I keep working on those, but I cant get over seeing girls flirt with my friends because its just objective evidence right in my face. It just happens to them and to me it doesnt, no way around it. These guys are not into self actualization or doing anything special and they just have success with women without putting any effort into it. I know its unhealthly to obsess over it but thats just triggers me like nothing else. My romantic life is now an almost decade long inner battle and it just feels like im hitting into walls all the time and get no further.

Leo talking about 4chan got me thinking what he might think about https://incels.me its a website I sometimes visit just to see how other lonely people who for some reason or another cant attract girls spend their time. The theories, studies and body dysmorphia and neuroticism is all over the place there but I find it quite addicting to come back, no idea why.

What did he do the remaining 2 weeks? He said he would answer that in the video but never said it

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Philosophical_zombie For the last couple of meditation sessions I tried taking the concept of a philosophical zombie and then substract it from myself. Such a human could have thoughts and emotions or he couldnt function in the world, the only thing lacking is the awareness experiencing all of it. I try to get a real sense of it. I guess this is simmilar to Neti-Neti, maybe its helpful for someone.

@Leo Gura will you ever try MDMA, Ketamine or Weed to test out their spiritual potential? I guess someone who is as far gone as you could give a good estimation, would certainly interrest me what your take on these substances is. Meditation on Amphetamine/Adderal, which would help keeping you hyper altert and focused, would be another unusual spiritual experiment that comes to mind. But that is very questionable. What can be dismissed immediately in my opinion: deliriants, Benzos/Alcohol, hard stimulants, all opiates

@Leo Gura I would, im just still inbetween both sides. It seems to me that the same way the materialists handwave away the mind-body problem and their axioms, the spiritual people do the same thing with their inconsistencies.

Apparently god (or me) is concerned enough with reality to think this whole thing up, up to every atom yet at the same time he has no desire to interfere with it? Why wouldnt you manipulate reality in a small way just to convince your ego (even when you are not identified with it right now) that you are not crazy? God has to know hes going back into deceiving himself to become Leo again. Why not leave a "note" for yourself inside the matrix to convince yourself to break out. It just doesnt add up for me, sorry. Your arguments against materialism make sense to me, but this could all be explained by the work of a materialist brain. If the 5-MEO acts as descartes demon, you can never know for sure if you are not deluding yourself. We know deliriants like datura can put people into all kinds of deluded states, how can you be sure that the 5-MEO trip has more truth to it?

@Leo Gura If what you said is true wouldnt it then be possible to do things considered paranormal when on a 5-Meo-DMT Trip since you are in "god mode" as you call it. Shouldnt you be able to interfere with reality at will when you become god? Just consider someone literally flying through the air while tripping balls, I think you wil agree this sounds silly, but why? - Wouldnt it be a reasonable assumption based on what you said?

What if a computer became conscious. As I understood Leo he would think that a conscious computer has a qualia. I think this is wrong. I think a computer can get at human levels of interaction but wouldnt it be more simmilar a philosophical zombie, where nobody is there inside to experience it? Otherwise you are in a way back at materialism where consciousness arises from sufficiently complex building blocks. @Leo Gura By the way, can we have a closed forum section where nobody can create topics and you create one for every video? So that the various discussions about each video arent scattered around the other forums the days after. It would also help people who discover the videos later to find the further discussions it sparked conveniently.

@Jed Vassallo thats what i referenced

it says i cant look at them here, does it work for anyone else?

@Leo Gura it was my popup blocker plugin "Privacy Badger", ive deactivated it now it works

thats the url https://player.vimeo.com/video/272706026 cant view it directly either. maybe its some regional restriction

I dont get it i got it to work once when i copied the url directly from the HTML blog and it worked once, now all videos are disabled again. Yes no problems viewing other videos.

Sadhguru is legit, OSHO too

I get that it contains say and wheat but how much soy sauce are you consuming on average... If I season my fresh veggies and high quality meat with some soy sauce in the pan, that cant be as bad as eating a loaf of bread, right? Also, Leo didnt really get into why diary products are bad. That genetically engineered wheat does make sense to me but does anybody know why milk is bad? What about really fresh milk that hasnt been pasteurized? Also, what about oat? Still that episode had so much good information, does there exist any kind of cheat sheet for this kind of diet so I can have a quick look before shopping?

Here https://www.oshonews.com/2011/10/10/science-fifth-body-osho/ Osho writes I tried it like an idiot and of course nothing happened, lol. If anybody else wants to try, to get a needle floating on water use a little piece of paper like here