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Does anybody else have sometimes really good days, or maybe even a week of being really conscious during the day. And then you get triggered, or maybe even nothing special happens and you just fall back into old thinking patterns, then you get thoughts like you learned nothing and made no progress at all and become depressed. Then you feel bad about feeling like that, you question the whole self actualization process and if all this spirituality stuff is just bullshit and delusions. Can anybody relate to this?

@GreenDragon thanks a lot

By the way, I absolutely do believe that all of this can happen from psychedelics.

@LoNatural its not, there is no emotional intimacy involved

Can someone who does Kriya Pranayama answer me? Im confused about chanting ohm 6 times through the thirde eye while inhaling/exhaling. 1. Should you really do it 6 times for a single inhale? So that it comes out as something like ohmohmohmohmohmohm? 2. I know where the third eye is but what exactly does it mean to chant something through the 3rd eye?

@LoNatural arent you 18 years old? You shouldnt give up on women yet. I'm 28 and I tried until I was 27. If you are at that point its fair to give up and accept it. But at 18 everything is still open.

Im having a daily mediation habit but I dont want to full on yoga yet. Kriya Pranayama seems quite simmilar to mediatation. I dont know if it could be more effective to try to do that for a while or if I should stick to normal meditation.

Im talking about the 3 small books by the same author in the "Meditation & Yoga Techniques" section. I bought all 3 of them and I noticed that from the audios alone you would get the idea that 5/5 book contains all the essential techniques but the foundational techniques are actually in the 3/5 rated book and most of the techniques in the 5/5 book just expand on them. Just a warning for anybody who only wants to buy one of them and goes for the higher rated one.

The 3 star one, or both. I think the 5/5 book alone is a bit useless if you want to start a practice.

Are you guys really doing a full Kriya Pranayama of 108 cycles? If I take an average of 4 seconds per inhale/exhale that comes to 1 1/2 hours. Also, whats the point in doing 108x6 breaths when there is no instruction what do after your set of 6 breaths? Why not just do it 648 times, is it just structured like that to keep better count of it or is there anything else to it?

In which ways are Materialism in the form of chasing wealth/external goods/fame and philosophical Materialism in the form of belief in an external world connected?

OSHO says here "Whatsoever is natural always gives you a satisfaction, because it satiates your body, saturates you. You feel fulfilled. If some thing is unnatural it never gives you a feeling of fulfillment" I experience the exact opposite. If im eating only vegetables im hungry a couple hours later and I sometimes get digestion problem,0, meat always lasts me longer and my body has no problems with it. Also his claim that Humans are Vegetarian is highly debatable. His theory about toxins being released into the animals body when it dies even more.

In my experience its not addictive but also not very useful spiritually

What would you do if you just suck with women in the way that you just cant find one that would think of you as more than friend for about a decade and its causing you massive emotional problems and depression in your everyday life. The advice I got from Leos videos on this are contradicting themselves. On one hand you should go inside and work these issues out because you are creating these bad emotions yourself. You also should not need a relationship in the first place. On the other hand the solution thats often recommended is going into PUA, talking to a lot of girls etc. which would seem like chasing an external fix to me. So what should you do if you have this issue?

@Samra My only concern with that is that I know a lot of guys who have tons of female friends but get no action whatsoever, theyre just the best friends. On the other hand my sexually sucessful friends barely have real friends of the opposite sex and are quite misogynistic. @Feel Good which book?

@Emerald thanks I guess I could try that

@Emerald There is defenitely something about the way im behaving. But its nothing gross, just something subtle that makes me look asexual to girls. Its rather an internal issue I think but I dont know where to look for whats the issue. its just something about my whole behaviour. I dont think even the girls couldnt point at it.

I went for the "external fix" in clubs and in my social circle for about 7 years with no results, for the last about 2 years where i discovered actualized.org im focus on the internal with dailty meditation and a little bit on the external if an oppurtunity arises. Would be interresting to know if you could overcome these negative emotions and you biological urges completely without needing the external fix because thats the direction I start to prefer.

In a blog post leo talked about the human aspects of god. Are we the center point of his creation? Are there enlightened aliens?

I developed a crush on a girl and she didnt feel the same. Im feeling really strong negative emotions because of it for some days now. I didnt talk about it to anyone, I find myself thinking about her having sex with other guys and how she enjoys it. When I see her somewhere I dont run away, I talk to her and even watch her flirt with other guys. I find myself seeking out this pain instead of running away, not because I enjoy it but because I have this idea in my mind that I think learning to deal with these negative emotions at home alone by myself could help me grow by facing them head on. I even find myself having religious thoughts about it (very very unusual for me), that "god" sent this negative experience on me to grow me, and using that to convince myself to feel the emotions and just tough it out. But Im having my doubts if this could be sado masochistic / unhealthy behaviour and if im just torturing myself or if this is really a healthy way to think about it. Whats your opinion on this?

@zunnyman This is a panic attack brought on by weed paranoia. Ive been through it, this has nothing to do with spiritual progress. It will get better, give it a week. If you have to smoke weed just make very light joints please, the strains today are too strong and have too much THC so unfortunately this happens.

@Quanty "Move on", you people here are always talking like if its a choice, and maybe it is to some degree but come on, someone going through a breakup or losing a parent etc. will have some emotions to handle. Its not like anyone here is practically on that level where you are facing something like that and brush it off. Granted, my situation is very minor. All im doing is accepting rejection, not chasing her and going within myself to deal with these emotions that will come up. I know this attachement will be gone in a couple of weeks max, but there is no way around it I will have to deal with something. If im now starting to feel bad about feeling bad I think this will go in an ugly direction.

Enjoy it while it lasts, the weed high changes slowly but noticeable from when you begin to if you are a couple years in. For me it went into the direction where it made me more and more paranoid and self conscious so I stopped without a problem because I didnt enjoy the high anymore after it gave a panic attack one too many times. Ask any heavy smoker about this, they will tell you the same. If you have to take drugs its one of the safest you can do though, many people smoke daily without problems. Quitting it was never hard, even when I still enjoyed it.

How do you know the emotional suffering with raising your consciousness and doing all this work will pay off one day?