LoNatural

I can relate, I´m 18 too. As young men we have to find our place in the world and It´s not easy. Youth is the most difficult part in a young man´s life because we don´t have nothing to offer...yet. I can also relate to the suicidal thoughts, I don´t buy into the whole "suicide is bad, you are a snowflake, bla bla bla". Whenever I feel suicidal I renounce to my identity, to my expectations and plans, I simply let go of all of it, and a new playfulness arises, maybe I can´t do X at the moment, but I can do these other amazing things instead so who cares! Hope it helps, hit me up if you want

I have been taking prozac for 3 years now, for me It´s worth it. My goal with prozac isn´t to magically cure mental disorders (depression and anxiety in my case) but to be functional in the practical world and keep on studying/working. I would take it if and only if I had a serious pressure to achieve a material goal like fixing my finances, but in order to really treat de issue, drugs don´t do anything by themselves.

Yeah It´s really simplistic, but it still makes sense

It seems you are a PLS guy

Doing good things and quitting the compulsive grinding is really healthy and good for everybody. Just don´t expect girls to "compensate" you sexually for it, attraction is not negotiable.

That guy is really honest, one of the few "mgtows" that don´t seem to be bitter and spits some truths with compasion.

The greater your looks and status the less effort you´ll have to put in your relationships, I would just focus on that till you excelled on those, specially status (career, social circle...)