lostmedstudent

@zambize some people have looked into the Roman Catholic Church scandals, and the only thing they’ve concluded is the sexual repression and psychosexual immaturity as the most probable main cause of these acts, as you pointed out .

@wavydude hahaha yeeaa

Back when I was reading through the truth contest, I came across this website http://antispirituality.net/truthcontest which criticizes everything about the truth cintest anyway I’d be interested to know what you think of the text if you do have the time to read through (the truth contest I mean)

It has some good points and I was feeling like I discovered a gem just like you until they started talking about the beetles and how the beetles are god. Then I looked up online and it turns out that at the end of the book, they ask you to email the author , and that’s when they ask you to contribute monetarily and spread the messag through YouTube spamming haha

It gets prett wacky though.. it becomes pretty ideological and it plays with the words to trick you. I read it a long time ago but it just seems like a scam in the end. It asks you to contribute wi5 10% of your salary and posting comments on YouTube . That’s why most of us got there from a YouTube comment. i d say read it but keep your skepticism

Wow I am definitely scared of death. One thing however I have learnt to do which I find might help is to start by letting go of fear in my dreams. I tend to get “half lucid” in my dreams kind of like a partial sleep paralysis where I am confronted with dream death and I just want to move and wake up yet I don’t fully know that I am dreaming. So instead of fighting and making myself wake up. I would relax and sink into the dream and then I just kind Of fall back asleep. It took some practice but I think it’s a good practice because when you are threatened with the “near death”, the best way is to surrender and accept it. However, i get those dream death sporadically so it’s not like I can practice consistently. In one of Leo’s videos, he mentioned that all of our fears , jealousy, anger, comes down to the fear of death. So instead of tackling the fear of death specifically, we could work out and surrender to our feelings of anger, jealousy, etc. Those emotions arises every moment so practicing surrender to these feelings could help us learn how to surrender and how to just fully give into the experience when it comes to death. Psychedelics definitely help too, since it drives us to a state of ego death and we are forced to accept and surrender. (I am just speaking for the sake of argument, I haven’t done psychedelics my self )

I’m not trying to save others. But as I pursue the truth, I tend to reduce all problems to “it’s the ego” to the point where I don’t know what other advice to give people other than telling them they need to realize that it is the ego. Although it may be true, it is not practical or useful for someone who is not at the stage to grasp what it means. I tried once telling one of my girlfriends and they all said “this is so deep” . I could tell that they think I’m like philosophizing and being deep for the sake of it.. even though I was just trying to dig the root and it wasn’t that deep. similarly when I work with patients with anxiety and depression, I can’t just tell them “you need to realize the truth” when they just poured out for hours about their work and family problems. Anyway, I just feel like the more I work on myself, the less I am helpful to others in terms of giving them advice and help them with their problems. Thanks

Thanks everybody for your advice / response! Much love

@Hellspeed yes I am overthinking at this point, I am not there my self

@cetus56 wow that is a perfect analogy! Yes! Indeed! I need to watch the movie for what it is, judging it and saying it’s bad only makes it worse for me. Might as well engage with it ! Thanks

I think the more that I read about enlightenment, I meditate, and read on different books about spiritual development, I in a way “reduce” all problems to the ego. I “believe” that all problems are due to the ego and attachment and the image of self , and so on. But what I started to realize is that I tend to judge other people’s problems and also reduce their problem to : “ they just don’t understand ego and enlightenment , that’s why they are suffering”. I feel like it has a very negative play on me because I tend to Be judgemental of other people and think that I’m “beyond” their problems because I know of the ego... i find myself a little detached socially too. I tend to not be bothered / interested by the things my friends talk about, the colleagues talk about. I think to myself:” that’s not important, that’s a bunch of things that people have strong ego talk about. I have more important quests” But I feel like it’s not healthy for me because I’m just judging other people and not really doing self work. It’s again my ego doing that. I’m glad I realized this but I don’t know what to do... my tendency to judge is so strong ... Does it’s happen to you guys also ? thanks

Has anyone tried kolanut? Can they be considered nootropics ?

@Tony 845 ????????

@Hellspeed wow i thought reading books and listening to podcast is part of the practice, the diligent way.... so what is the diligent way? self inquiry and contemplation?

@Strikr no i am not doing my best, because i am always able to find excuses. in terms of teachers, i only have leo and authors of different books that i read. how do i find a teacher in real life?

@Strikr I’m trying to figure it out. My purpose is to find my authentic self and to realize truth

@Strikr what do you mean take a very high dose of what we need ?

@Tony 845 I’m not trying to help others. It’s more my tendency to judge others ... thanks

@Serotoninluv I am not sure I can answer your question

So how can one become enlightened if it cannot be explained. What should one do

@ivory thanks. I don’t think I’m depressed, I don’t meet the clinical criteria and i do still have pleasure in life. But yeah like Leo said, we may encounter darkness, depression, all kinds of ego backlash in spiritual seeking. I’m sure the clouds will go sooner than later

@Emanyalpsid 100% agreed. I have trouble keeping the mindset that there is no better or worse people. I tend to categorize and judge Thanks for the nudge, I will continue my work as diligently as possible

@SgtPepper thanks for the insight I didn’t think psychoanalysis was that drastically different from other types of psychothérapies. Maybe I’ll give it a try, for some reason, I am still leaning more towards self-inquiry, meditation, and using psychedelics as an aid. Have you gone through psychoanalysis? Yeah it definitely is counterproductive. It makes my journey “one step forward, two steps back” . Just when I thought I am making some progress, my tendance to judge and envoy drags me back down to point 0

@winterknight really? Why not Self inquiry and meditation and awareness. I tend to over analyze already

Thanks a lot Yes indeed I do a lot of projection. I will continue to be as aware as I can and work on it. @ivory I just find I’ve become a “sadder” and more “dark” person recently as my interest in personal development grows. I’ve lost interest in normal social conversations. I am in a really weird spot now.