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That's better. Thank you

Why do you think that all religions talk about an afterlife existing? Could there be some truth to it or just metaphors?

Really I don't like it and it upsets me

I don't like my smile

@NoSelfSelf that was the first thing which came to my mind. Sort of sarcastic. Take whatever meaning you want out of it. I don't take it seriously

I just had this cute thought about afterlife that even the real life we're living now isn't that real let alone what comes after it

I'm sure you can. Keep up the good work

@stevegan928 i think you can actually put your imagination into a career and go about daydreaming all the time and get paid for it so you wouldn't have to fight a gift that you have

Have you experienced thoughts as sensations happing in the body and not in the skull?

No one's found anything on Korean, Japanese or Chinese blue people? These countries still remain mostly alien to us.

Good advice

I recently realized sth. Men really can't help themselves to not think of women as merely a sex toy. It would be hard to understand why men have treated women the way they have for thousands of years if you look at the situation from a woman's point of view. I mean I even view objects as humans who deserve love but it's clearly not the case with men. They view everything as tools to be used up until they're obsolete and move on to the next thing. Maybe it's not a manly thing but more of a spiral dynamics thing. I'm not sure. But now I can at least start to see how different two people can be. If I viewed people the same way as men typically do, then it would be totally understandable to treat people that way without having a problem with it. In the past I would normally assume that everyone thinks like me so then I would often be shocked to see people doing certain things and be left baffled for days thinking how could someone ever do such a thing. Recently I had this dream two nights in a row about how my mother was self sacrificing to help my brother with a project he had. It was like my brother was using my mom as a tool in his machine and my mom willingly and lovingly doing that while in the process she would literally die ( in the dream she was actually mutating and would turn into sth unknown) and I was there shouting at the top of my lungs telling my mom to get out of there, he's fucking using you but I wasn't being heard. That one was a horrifying dream which I had two times. That dream was a symbolic dream not a literal dream depicting my brother's behaviour towards my mom, he'd never do such a thing as to even say sth which would make my mom sad. I guess that's how I feel subconsciously about the general situation I'm in. Feeling I'm being used. And feeling the same way for a lot of other people who live or have lived in the past, like slaves and such. I feel deep compassion for slaves who lived their entire life times as tools. I have an extremely sensitive soul, I've had a lot of nights crying because I knew there are people who are suffering now. I've tried real hard to stop being sensitive to that degree and I don't think I'm that sensitive anymore. I have even developed a hard skin for the pain of other's. Now I only worry about my own pain as I know that's the only pain I can actually do sth about. I don't really know what has caused me to be this way, I don't remember myself going through some sort of trauma in the past. Oh I remember some things, even when I was little I had these sorts of ideas like my prayer to god would be that I don't care what happens in my life, you just make sure every other person is living happingly, that's the only thing I want from you. Now it makes me think that whatever's happened to cause that mentality must be from the times I can't clearly remember, so I'll never know the cause!?!! You know? There are a lot of tendencies that I have today and when I trace them back, it always ends with me having had that tendency since I was little, like younger than 6 years old. And I never find sth like an event or sth someone has said to trigger that tendency. My trace back always ends with a question mark . I have a terrible memory I forget the things I've gone through extremely easily. I don't remember anything pass the age of 4 or 5 , it's totally shocking to me. I could possibly have gone through a horrible ordeal that has wiped out all my memory clean. Haha. Who knows, I obviously don't. Maybe childhood cartoons or interactions with kindergarten kids has had some influences. That can actually be the case cause my patents say there sent me to kindergarten from a very early age cause both of them worked and couldn't keep me. Whatever it is it must be due to kindergarten experience . I wish I could remember exactly what's happened so maybe I could reverse some bad influences it might have had. I feel like sherlock Holmes digging my past this way.haha But it's worth the time I think, to know what has happened to shape my psychology this way. I wrote so much that no one would probably read any of that so no one would really know of my crazy subconscious issues . I could actually not submit this one cause it would reveal too much about me but since I reasoned no one would read it, there's no problem.

@stevegan928 you seem like an artistic type of guy, am I right? Do you by any chance have an art related career? That sounds like sth I would love. But I guess I have the same problem as you do

I wanted to take this course in DNA sequencing in edx but I couldn't because of the sanctions on Iran so that made me want to take the course even more. By using a VPN you can do that easily so that the edx website wouldn't recognize you as someone living in Iran. Now the irony of all that is that Iran's government censors a lot of websites but US government created vpns so that Iran's people would be able to view their material regardless. The vpns can also be blocked but the US government goes out of its way to keep changing the servers so that we could use the vpns. And it's totally ironical for them to create a tool to be used against themselves. Funny ha

It's not

Do patriotic values count as stage blue?

@Leo Gura how come when you edit your posts it doesn't write edited !?!

I don't even know who "they" are. It's just a way for me to express my ideas. Not actually talking about any particular group. Actually it's a representation of the truth of my own hidden motives and mindsets. And thanks

I still don't get it

This guy the other day said that he's not really afraid of anything or afraid of dying and one reason was that he thought that the world was no longer worthy of living with all this nonsense going on and it clicked in me very well. When you have to work so hard only to get to the basics, it should get you thinking that this world might not be that worthy after all . You know? It's so right. This world is nothing but a sick game. Not that important. Yet people go around acting as if shit mattered. It fucking doesn't. It's funny how humans can fool themselves so much to keep on reproducing and bringing new humans into life all the while none of them knowing what the fuck is going on, why should they even be here and just blindly, with total ignorance keep on living for years and years and thinking that any shit that they have is of some sort of value and get themselves lost in it and occupy themselves with that so much that by the time they're on their death bed, they are gonna be wondering what the hell did I do in my life? Nothing, it all passed so fast, I hadn't begun living yet. Then to fool themselves even more, they start counting all the "important" stuff they did and still wondering why they can't feel the joy of it. Really sad. The worst part though is that this cycle repeats itself again and again. Everyone falling in the same trap. So fucking stupid. Well right now I do feel a bit down. Feel like the Sky's crushing me underneath itself. Yup I feel hopeless right now. Fucked up. One of my childhood and teenage fantasies has always been to be a homeless person living under a bridge. Haha. I find that very comforting and liberating for some reason. Cause then I wouldn't have to worry about nothing. I could just get into this victim mode and be sad all they long. Haha. I like the idea of it. Kinda bizarre I suppose.

You can even imagine that someone kills one of your family members and then he himself dies the moment after. Now what can you do ? Nothing, literally nothing to neither bring back that family member nor to punish the person who did it. Maybe you could receive a fee from the killer's family or sth but that's it. that's the end of the deal. What happened, happened and nothing further can be done to reverse it. Now I would say that's fine, that's how it must've played out. And there is no problem. But if you think there is a problem, do you have any suggestions to solve it?

@Star Net if there was actually no legal way to get your money back which I don't think is the case then it would be a flaw in laws created by the government which if the lawmakers realized and agreed to change could change and there you have your justice. If the laws didn't change, you can do the what you think is just illegally or choose not to do anything illegal and just accept the situation. There isn't more to that story

That's how I think about it too but I guess we can't ever be sure till we actually die

And also you can think of it this way that as long as that person is alive you can treat him with your version of justice (you can take your revenge and you don't have to forgive) but after he's dead, your justice dies with him (you can still choose not to forgive and hurt yourself even more) but since there was no injustice with the big picture perspective to begin with then the fact that he died before you punished him does not pose an actual injustice problem for the world so no solutions would be required. Religions use the same logic as yours to prove that heavon and hell must exist so that everyone would get what they deserve fully. But that doesn't necessarily have to be the case.

@Star Net so the thing is you would punish anyone who hurts you and that's okay but when you can't punish that person as you said then there's nothing more for you to do but that does not pose a problem as you think it would