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I don't know if I should start a new journal or just continue here. I'll keep on writing here who cares Yesterday I went to the amusement park and tried some of the crazy stuff there in the hope of getting triggered like before but guess what? Only for one second I felt I was getting excited after one second everything seemed normal, like nothing was happening. My excitement tolerance level has gone up. How the fuck do I find sth to excite me from now on I didn't believe myself being so relaxed while everyone was screaming and I was mostly trying to at least enjoy the view. Fucking absurd. That's not how I would've felt in the past. Then after that I bought a chick and I was adorning it every step of the way then as soon as I got home, I regreted that. I wanted to just sleep but it was screaming at the top of its lungs just because it couldn't find me but when it could see me it would stop screaming but obviously I couldn't stay with it all night and I thought it would eventually tire itself out but that didn't happen. It was screaming all night long. Either way, couple of years ago my friend and I both bought 4 chicks at the same time. Mine died one after the other in a week span and I was literally gertting depressed seeing each of them dying in different ways and oh my god they died horribly only because of my ignorance and I felt so bad and promised myself to never buy one again but I did and regretted that again. My friend's chicks though, grew up and were hens then she passed them out to someone else, I guess to get married and have chicks of their own Her house is a jungle full of different kinds of animals but she knows how to keep them. I would get bored of them the first day. Actually that's how I feel about having kids as well. You have to do the same thing for at least two years and after two it would still have its own kind of troubles and basically you have to worry about him or her until the end of your life cause moms and dads can never rest in piece always worrying about the child even if s/he is all grown up or at least that's what I've heard and in my mind that sounds like a hell of an unnecessary commitment which I would never in my right mind choose to commit to. But I'm sure just like the promise about not buying a chick I would have children and regret that one too for the rest of my life

Leo counted universities and different companies and basically most of the organizations active in a country as orange so if a country was fully green would it stop having those organizations in it and people would just sit around doing nothing cause there would be nothing else left to do?

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im learning driving now my dad was so excited that my exam was finished so he could teach me how to drive it was pretty cool today although it wasnt my first time driving. the last time i was behind the wheel i was about 9 or sth. now it was nice to see im all grown up since the last time cause i could actually see out the window without having to put sth on the seat to give me a lift up i will be starting my official driving classes in one day i think. even though i will be taking classes, my dad still wants to teach me himself. i will be starting my guitar classes as well. i know it is late to start learning music now but what can i do? i still want to learn.

You're amazing You keep making me feel love overload

Hey I took the exam it wasn't bad. It was good. Fairly fine. I am satisfied. The final result hasn't come yet and it won't come until next month or so. Overall it was fine.

Here's what i dont get, if an organization is orange and people turn into green after some time, would they eliminate the organization entirely or would they only change their way of doing things slightly?

Im fucking stressed out right now I dont know what to think about To thinks it's gonna go great but then if it doesn't i would feel more stressed out while taking the exam and seeing that it's not going as i hoped or the reverse Ahh I've been having this tingling sensation in my stomach all day long it just doesn't go away whatever i do

When kids are born, the first stages they go through is the ones before red, but if they grow up in an orange stage family they're likely to never cultivate stage blue thinking. That means skipping stages which Leo says is not possible. So is it possible? Another issue would be, how I can resonate with three different stages at the same time. The values in each stage are supposed to be antithetical to one another. Or maybe we can behave according to different set of values in different facets of life?

This forum then is green I used a racial slur and i got a warning

Whaaaat? I feel dumb

Why so sorry? Is it that bad to have even a little ego?! Then how would you feel about me with the hugest ego you could find around here, hah?

@Leo Gura Did you have weak thyroid when you were a child as well? If yes, had it had any effects on your normal growth as a child?

@stevegan928 i fucking keep telling you, you're an artistic and you say no I'm just a daydreamer The world needs your gift man. Come on

You're saying he was yellow cause he was passed green therefore he had no problem with being immoral? But it could also be that he was below green?

I don't get what your saying, are you saying yellow exploits or doesn't exploit?

Steve jobs didn't even have proper respect for human life and he never showed any compassion for all the misery he brought to the workers in China He was a businessman, no one can remain a businessman after he's reached to stages like green or yellow. It can't happen

It is just imagination for me and nothing more but if you say reality is infinite then it would mean that there could be reality that never ending suffering could be the case but also another reality with never ending joy and if those were the rules defining those realities then nothing outside the rules could ever happen meaning you would be suffering there for eternity. At least that's what's reasonable to think it implys if you say reality is infinite.

It does actually sound scary if you think of it that way. Infinity, no boundaries, every possible reality that there could be, god knows what realities he could create By that definition heaven and hell also exist, and a place where there's never ending suffering also exists

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By the end of this week, I will have taken my exam and exactly another 6 days, the initial intent of writing here for 132 days will be met. Can you believe how fast 132 days can come to an end. Well I feel I'm ready and prepared enough for the exam but the possibility of me not getting the result I expect is definitely there so don't rub it in my face if I come here next time saying I didn't make it, Okay?? Anyway wish me luck I will post my results here so this journal would be a complete record of the journey I took and the results of those thoughts and mindsets and efforts which were written here would be visible. And if I do fail, I can learn a lesson from my mistakes. This is goodbye for now. You do wish me luck okay? Don't forget

Yeah very positive manifestation of blue. The guy would even help the Japanese because his duty to god would come before his duty to his country Patriotic and religious at the same time creates interesting behaviours

Hilarious

The world cup this time has become so unpredictable, Argentina got removed!!!! Who would've beilevd that!? You could see the anger in messi's eyes and messi is the only football player I ever loved but I was also happy to see a weaker team make a difference this time. The world cup result makes me feel more hopeful about my own future, that sometimes unexpected things can happen. So excited right now

Just give up already (I'm in a bad mood today so just ignore me)