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@Nahm oh that explains it. I kept going through all the scenarios of how you could possibly use your iPad while running when all your body is going up and down

@Nahm you go for a walk after running

Have you noticed how after seeing sth differently, you can never undo it and see it like before!? It's a strange phenomenon which I've noticed very starkly with faces . I read this article a while back about how faces which are more symmetric are more attractive so then I started to analyze my own face to see how symmetric it is and day by day I found more and more unevenness in my face in all different features like the whole skull, eyes, nose, lips, cheeks and all the other parts and I started getting real upset at how uneven my face was and how not normal it was and why is it that among all humans only my face should be that uneven . the part which was the most shocking though was how I had never seen any of this ever before, not even a clue that, that's how I look so I started to also pay more attention to other peoples faces as well and my shock got even deeper that how every face I look at has the Exact Same unevenness, identical to mine and not just family members but strangers in the street and not just even my own country but also European and american actors and actresses in movies, everyone I saw had the exact imbalances identical to everyone else's and other than that, the fact that it was the first time I was noticing all this after 17 years of living was even more mind blowing . so sth interesting came up in my mind about why is it that our developmental genes has the exact same coding for facial development and all I could think of so far is that it might play a role in letting the eyes have the most efficient location in the face to that one would be a bit upper and more outward protruding than the other so when we look to the side we can cover more areas to see . but I'm sure there has to be more to it than that. maybe I'll look this up in the future, maybe there's some research on this . anyways, it is really interesting to see how much you can ignore about what you see and not even know it. It's mind blowing to not be able to trust your perceptions and flawed judgments based on inaccurate information and how much damaging it can be in other areas of life. While we're at it, let's also talk about this other new thing I've noticed about how we see things. When we look at an object from an angle where each eye sees a different portion of the object, the brain puts these two different images together in a way we would see the widest picture possible and the most comprehensive view possible so we don't miss any detail and what this does is some times we see a double form of the object if we are too close or we would see the object bigger in the place where the two different images from the two eyes overlap. A very good example of this overlap is when you look in a tiny mirror and you see a huge nose and you think oh this can't be true and in fact it's not true because your brain is playing tricks on you and If you close one eye, you will see the normal size of your nose and the face. This phenomenon is especially more obvious with mirrors because mirrors tend to show even a wider view of the background. So this was another interesting thing I've noticed which is quite fun to see how your brain manipulates your reality . there's also a phenomenon I had read about before, saying that some people see themselves ugly while in fact they're very pretty but they can't accept it buy hearing it from others and I bet it is because of not knowing about how their brain tricks them when they look in the mirror and that it's not a psychological issue of seeing yourself as being ugly but just a case of having two eyes !

Hey I realized sth new about myself and I don't know how to interpret this. I had a slight glimpse into what my life would look like if I had no strings attached, if I had Nothing to lose, if I had gone through everything that there would be nothing else left to frighten me, if that were the case, I'd probably end up being an underground mafia leader going about murdering and taking down other mafias hehe. I say this because of a movie I just watched called In The Fade and I thought to myself what would I do if I were her and I realized if I were like her with nothing else to lose I'd try to get to the bottem of it and murder each one of their Mafia members so they can't do sth like this to another person which was exactly what they did, they continued murdering other non German people so if I got to them first it wouldn't sound that bad of an idea, it would be a reason to justify my actions but either way my point is if you asked me this a couple of years ago about whether I would kill someone or not , I would've had a cardiac arrest just by thinking about killing someone but now, I don't really care ! I just don't care and it sounds to me like I'm going insane or sth and it worries me a bit. The only reason that I'm not going wild murdering people is because I have strings attached, I have things to lose and because of those, I decide to play it nice but as soon as sth happens in my life to maybe give the sense of having lost everything already then there would be nothing to stop me from killing people, like for real. I don't know how to feel about this . of course all of us are murderers if we have ever stepped on an ant or killed a bee or a bug even not knowingly , it's still murder but we don't mind that, we only care if it's a human getting killed so there is a double standerd here in saying that killing humans is bad but killing ants is fine and you won't be prosecuted for that cause what's the difference between the two? they're really the same. So if sth does happen in my life to initiate the killer beast inside me, what do I gotta do!?!? But mostly I'm always quick to forgive and let things run how they run if it's a personal matter but if I do find myself in a situation where it would need my interference to kill someone, I'd do it with no remorse ! I don't know , I guess I'll see when that crisis happens then I'll know what my true nature is

@Faceless any conversation you're a part of becomes a hot topic. I wonder how many times you refresh a page Just kidding

Nice, I like you already . keep going

Maybe here is not the place to discuss this but I thought it would be cool to do so . I learned this new thing about quantum mechanics which I hadn't payed attention to before. You know how electrons are allowed to have quantised amounts of energy in each energy level that they're currently at and if they get enough energy they can move to the next level, right? But they can't move between the two levels, not like real movement but even that process of getting from the energy level that they're at to the energy level where they want to be, they can't go through that procces because then it would mean obtaining an amount of energy which they're not allowed to have so what they do is that they travel through time !! Very interesting but the question is why would energy make an electron travel through time? Why would it even be that a second later the electron would want to be on a higher level of energy? Why not sth else? How does energy start a time travel? What do you think?

No. The thing I said about quantized levels of energy was from our school book but the other thing about time travel, my brother had told me and I've never looked deeper into it cause it just made sense

@Viking so correct in saying we get fascinated by false ideas that's exactly the case

Lol Wow this is so deep. The answer to all life's problems

I don't have any of your requirements but I can't hold my tounge so here's my answer if they are as conventional as you say they are, even when you introduce them to psychedelics and leave it up to them to decide, they won't choose to try them. you can try it and see that I'm right then I would automatically fall into those three categories you described

One thing about time I can never understand is this : if you were moving at the speed of light, time would seem to stop but for how long? Cause time has to resume eventually for the light to even move . it's like time stops for an eternity but also continues to pass somehow??!!? I never got this

A calendar would be a good start

They think of time like space time continuum ? General relativity and quantum mechanics don't go together? I didn't know that. So what basically backes quantum mechanics? Because I've heard general relativity is backed up by a lot of proof

@swan_Joshua yeah thanks. I think that my understanding of what you said is along the same lines. About fear I think it's a good idea to contemplate on the nature of it. I've never really done that so let's give it a try right now . even sometimes that I'm not fearful of future I still think there are tanglibe dangers out there which can threaten me because I still have to live in the society and I could only be free of all these obligations if I were to live off on my own but that can't be the case if I want to survive so maybe to want to free myself up I have to create a stable surrounding for myself so that I wouldn't have to worry about it on a daily basis. I really think that's the only the way. maybe the only thing I can do about it right now is to not get annoyed or agitated by problems and to not take them seriously but still take the right action to solve them just like when playing a video game we don't actually think that those problems are gonna hurt us but we still play the game by the rules along with all those different emotions that come up but in the midst of all those emotions of getting afraid of sth, getting excited and all that, we still know no matter what the outcome would be, it won't change anything. the exact same thing goes for life. in the big picture of life problems don't exist, we create them, oh! we can actually melt away all our problems by stopping to create them, yeah I hadn't seen it that way before so I guess it's not about stopping to have negative emotions but to actually stop identifying with them. yeah that's what it's about, to let life happen, to play by the rules and have different emotions come up but not identify with them. kinda like taking a back seat to life and observing life happening with all its different colors and whatever happens knowing that it's not gonna change anything, it's neither good or bad whatever it may be, both the success and the failure mean the same. yeah that attitude can bring on more relief and actually no more worries to be had, well maybe worries would come again but it wouldn't mean much maybe it's just a tool to prevent me from screwing too much and sth useful not necessarily a bad thing. What do you think?

Well you just threw everything out the window. Good

Just copy the link here . that'll do

Yeah maybe but honestly it's disgusting if anyone does it

Sth just popped into my head, a sentence I had written to myself in a dream years ago . I never forget the peculiarity of that dream. Here's that sentence : Only when you love the world, you can love yourself.

I didn't know but guessed maybe it's just sex in the shower but when I checked it, I realized it's more disgusting than that. I don't see how it can provide sexual pleasure

There are tons of issues in everyone's lives and I'm mostly talking about psychological issues and insecurities and different addictions that every person growing up develops . it takes huge amounts of time and effort and sufferening to cure yourself of all that, when you start to see all the impurities that are there and you think to yourself OMG how is it even possible to discover and purify yourself of all this mess and it just hits you that well why isn't everyone else doing anything about it !? It's totally shocking to see all these people walking around not doing anything about it, pretending to be happy, not even realizing there is anything to fix . I guess their issues go so deep that it makes them so ignorent of everything that they don't know there exists a problem to be solved and of course when your problems are too much and too overwhelming to deal with, the best way of dealing with them becomes to forget they exist so you can continue on with your miserable life because the amount of suffering you're gonna face, if you were to deal with them head on would be too much to handle but sometimes you forget about your problems to the degree that , that forgetting becomes another problem which might manifest itself in terms of notable and diagnosable medical conditions, either mentally or physically, your body starts yelling at you so then you notice you have a problem and sometimes the pain of that medical conditoon is so much that it will heal you of all your psychological issues right away and gives you a fresh start or it might not go all the way to heal you so it makes you go crazy and insane and that is exactly what happens with most people towards the end of their lives because not everyone will go through that much suffering to be healed from it and we do call those old people crazy. it is exactly because of that . so I just told you the end of most people's stories: they start fresh but slowly accumulate all these psychological burdens, they keep on carrying it around with themselves without ever taking look at what they're carrying behind them, their body starts to alarm them in various ways, they don't listen , now they're old and are facing all sorts of diseases both physically and mentally, they literally get crazy and are pushed away even by the society that created them , now after a life time of misery which they weren't even aware was the case this whole time , they die and the cycle continues for their children and the next generation and the next and next and so on and so forth . so the problems exist even if you're not aware of them and they are ruining your life none stop. as much as you'd like to deny it, it still hasn't gone away . The only way that I've found so far to at least start to realize problems do exist is solitude and the only people who are lucky enough to get to see that unlike most people are the people who were always a bit of lone wolves, those who never really fit in. that's how it mostly works and that's the start of all the biographies that I've read so far . the reason is that the only way you get the chance to look within the inner workings of yourself is when you're alone and there is no other distractions. It all came to my mind because I went to a place where I saw really unconscious people operetaing like machines in a factory doing everything robotically without even knowing why there doing it. It's been a long time since I've been around people like that and actually been like them myself but after I started to stop being like them, I thought that everyone must've stopped as well but clearly not .

Exactly But really I bet a lot of people would show up but of course let's have Leo come to us why not

I'm not having a good a time. I truly hate social hierarchies that idiots build around themselves just like what cimps do and actually a lot of other animals do too. It's the most basic thing social animals learn to do to survive. I've always hated all that . Remember the hatred thing with my mom ? We had quite a fight the other day, one day after I wrote that thing about my mom, I had all these pent up emotions building up until it all exploded out and we had a good fight which ended up in both of us crying while my father was just running around trying to calm us not having any clue as to what was going on but eventually as I was crying I decided to forgive her for all she's ever done and to let it go, let go of all the hatred, all the anger, everything and decided to love her for who she is and stop trying to want her to be who I want her to be so I went to her and huged her, trying to calm her in my arms . so yeah feels much better to stop expecting her to be what I want, feels better to let go of all that anger. just like I want to have my life she has hers and it's not for me to change .

You don't really have to do anything for it why not just give it a try? it wouldn't hurt even if no one shows up, would it?

Here's a good way to not feel numb for at least some time whenever you really feel low or sth, solve a math or geometry problem or write a piece of code or a simple game or sth challenging like that. it makes you feel engaged in the process and really happy when you finish it. no one can feel numb to amazingly good feeling of solving a really challenging but not too disappointing problem. it's not a very deep way to solve your problem but at least helps when there's no other way .