Mercurio3

Enlightment is this, to stop being. Stop feeling every piece of you. And at the same it is being everything. Being infinite. There is no other way. It is nothing visual. It's just stop being something to be everything. It envolves you. That absolute white light. It is pure consciousness. Don't be afraid. Just surrender to stop being and immediately you will be aware of being ALL. Nothing to do with N,N-DMT. I can see it now. Thank you all.

The main “problem” is... when you observe the common dreams, there is always a “main character”: “YOU”. Who is unconsciously creating all the dream and experiencing it, conscious of being only the “POV” perspective, simultaneously. So when I got a common dream, are the parts which I am not conscious of being -the bear, the chair, my mother-, is every part conscious of itself? Or just exists “the dream” and “ME dreaming”? You see? It ends in SOLIPSISM. Edit: Ok. There is no “dreamer”. Only a part that identifies itself as a dreamer. Right?

The only reason is you’ve fogotten what you really are. But you can remember. That’s “enlightment”.

In the end is all about remember what you are. 5-MeO-DMT, N,N-DMT, Changa, Ayahuasca, Mushrooms... are only tools which help to remember the Truth. But the first step is to forget ALL you think you are right now in order to remember what you really are. Death? What you really are can’t die. PS: I’ve just smoked some Changa (N,N-DMT & IMAO)

You only can learn through the experience itself. I mean the first times probably you will lose yourself in the visual-games and mind-games, which are really beautiful and funny. Also you will have outstanding insights. But you won’t have control over the situation because you don’t know it yet. Probably at the third or fourth experience with mushrooms you will have total control over that.

Notice that non-duality is just ONE thing. And there is no difference between who is observing and which is observed. So, for example, is like an uniform and infinite light in all directions envolving you. And you are not just watching this light, you are this light. There is no distinction.

Happy all the time? That sounds like delusion. The ego can’t stick. It is always in permanent change. Being only in one way is like trying to control yourself. That’s ego. These -repressed- emotions will blow up in the end. Have you not yet realized that you are not here to be the same all the time?

1. You shouldn’t care. But if you are totally honest to yourself, you really believe that you are what you see in the mirror. It’s like an actor who forgets he is just playing a role and believes that he is the character. If he was conscious of being just a character, then he didn’t really suffer. See? 2. Everything and nothing are ultimately the same thing. That’s non-duality. There is not two things but only ONE which manifests itself as whatever is possible to be. It is infinite, no begin or end. No limits. No form. But infinity must include all limits within itself in order to be infinite. 3. Death. But as life, it’s an illusion. Existence is infinite. It only can exists. Forever. Existence can’t escape from existence. If you feel your life too miserable, remember that it is just a dream, a game. Don’t take so seriously. Don’t be a slave of your own ego or ideas. Try to observe. Try to meditate. The game will be played as you look to the game Itself (karma). You can be aware of that or not.

@zikzak That’s curious, I’ve never been able to reach that state and just stay “here”. If I do well then I can’t avoid disconnect from my body and enter into hyperspace. If I didn’t then is just like a higher “meditative” state, even no visuals at all. In order to reach what you describe I like mushrooms.

Yeah, it’s quite “rare” the non-dual experience vaping N,N-DMT but definitely it’s possible. It happened in my first time so I had the idea of it was more “common”. My friend experimented exactly the same thing before I did. There is something very characteristical of that experience and probably you won’t read much about it: when you’re gone out of this “reality”, if there is a sitter watching you, you seem to be just sleeping with eyes closed and SMILING. Not a simple smile but a TOTAL SMILE. But if you search about the “DMT smile” across the internet, you won’t find very much. 5-MeO-DMT is far far more direct to non-duality, of course. In a sense N,N-DMT is more a “psychedelic” experience type while 5-MeO-DMT is 100% ego death. But the ego death is possible with both substances. 5-MeO-DMT probably is the most effective tool to achieve that though and more “shocking” and hard to face at the same time.

@zikzak Maybe it’s a key factor too, of course. But the primal factor is bad vaporization. If you don’t do it fine then very few amount of N,N-DMT will arrive into your bloodstream. Anyway before you reach the non-dual state you must pass through all hyperspace, and many times the ego resists to die and see the final truth.

@5driedgrams About N,N-DMT extractions, there is no “solvent traces” in the end. Best option is hexane, which is so volatile and just evaporates. Don’t worry about that. However a very high pH could extract another alkaloids in addition to N,N-DMT, so be careful with that not using too much caustic soda. Pure N,N-DMT is totally white. Yellow or brown traces are from another alkaloids. You can check good extraction teks in DMT-Nexus forum. Also a fine vaporization is essential. Most people burn N,N-DMT so they can’t reach the ultimate non-dual breakthrough and they think is all about “visuals”, “mandalas”, “entities” or “hyperspace” (all of that is DUAL).

@Leo Gura Thank you. Certainly it’s essential the distinction between the “relative” and the “absolute” when you’re talking about something, of course. But in the end, when you filter whatever through the “absolute” perspective you can notice that ALL things tend to behave in a similar way, same patterns. That’s why extrapolation of concepts is very useful. I am you, are you aware of that right now?

@jpablos16 “Nothingness” is the same as “Allness”. Everything or nothing are just subjective names for the “Oneness”. PS: Se nota que eres hispanoparlante .

@egoless Direct experience vaping N,N-DMT.

Consciousness comes from consciousness that comes from consciousness that comes from consciousness... to infinity. There is no *begin* and there is no *end*. All is just existence itself that is aware of itself. Ever. The mind can’t understand this because the mind is a *limit*, so it only can understand what is limited. And reality is there is not limits or boundaries at all. It’s crazy, isn’t it?

@Leo Gura I guess I don’t grasp it. I mean I can understand the “concept”, the practical duality in that, but I use to think there is no “a body” ultimately. Just as reflection or manifestation of my ego, an idea of myself. And actually there is no *me* beyond the illusion of separation. Another question: do you “remember” the ultimate non-duality state (absolute infinity) as a kind of being and non-being in an “orange” infinite light? And also a “smile” that melts with your “eye” like a “tear”. It’s impossible to explain. Like being “nothing” and “all” at once, what is the same. The eternity. Just existence itself. Something like that is what I experimented when I had my first N,N-DMT breakthrough.

@Leo Gura I don’t really understand the difference between “physical” and “energetic”. Is not the body a reflection of the mind? No “matter”, just “energy vibrating”, isn’t it?

My sitter has confirmed that I exhaled at 11 seconds and that I was breathing normally. So yes, my breathing issues are just psychological. Leo, that’s not subtitles, it’s me talking over your voice.

Thank you Leo. “Black out” was a way to say it but actually is always a “white out”. I become this infinite white light. Anyway I feel as if my “automatic” breathing stops, so I start to breath really strong in order to feel it and ensure not to die. Probably is just my paranoid but it really scares, is absolutely literal. No issues with breathing when it is snorted? I guess I’ll try to smoke 15/16 mg one last time and if I don’t breakthrough then I’ll snort the HCl. Despite I got experience smoking it do you recommend start with a low dose first? By the way I did a Spanish voice-over of your Absolute Infinity video around 6 months ago. I hope you don’t mind. If you don’t like or have any problem with that I’ll delete immediately of course:

Thank you very much, that reassures me.

Ok, thank you. 20/25 mg seems too high, but I will try in the 15/20 range. It feels like I’m going to absolutely collapse and explote in infinity. Like no limits, like becoming the sea. And as if I was going to experiencie all the eternity that exists. But my main worry is about breathing. Don’t you have issues about that? Yeah, I guess I’m not dying ‘cause I’m really worried about literally dying. It was in one massive hit until I felt the blackout. My sitter said me to exhale after 15 seconds but I didn’t even hear or see her. Just didn’t breath until I strongly do to finally stay here. And then I started to laugh.

I’ve just smoked 13 mg of 5-MeO-DMT. Months ago I tried it with lower doses (7 mg) a couple of times. But I can not die. I resist myself. How do you handle the no breathing? Because my only real feeling is that I can’t breathe literally anymore while I’m floating in this absolute white light. Not really scared. I was just laughing like an insane person and saying “Oh my God, oh my God, oh my God”. Just shocking. Maybe problem of smoking it? I got in HCl salt too, so I could snort it. Two years ago I had my first breakthrough smoking N,N-DMT. It was like nirvana. Self and no-self at the same time. Pure love. It changed my life. But 5-MeO is fucking miles away from that, is literal death.