kieranperez

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  1. @herghly can’t afford that at all right now not any time soon.
  2. I actually literally solved this problem for me last night! So for the last couple days I was putting my meditation off until the end of the day till literally right when I had to go to bed. I found that when I meditate and head straight to bed I actually find it so much hard to sleep because now my mind is at a higher level of consciousness now and has become more aware. So to test this hypothesis I moved my meditation earlier in the day yesterday which allowed me to get back on my normal sleep schedule. Hopefully this helps!
  3. @egoless if you don't like his advice then don't listen. Do it your own way. He's not pressing you to do anything. To think that is to be in your own little bubble not actually listening to the multiple times he's said that psychedelics is a path he wants to explore in what it can do in terms of growth on the nondual/spiritual path. He has said multiple times that you don't have to do psychedelics to attain the greatest states of consciousness that are possible. "If you want to do it the old school way, do it the old school way." Understand that all you're doing is projecting your frustrations, judgments expectations, etc. which mean absolutely nothing particularly onto someone who I assume you've never met in person. If you don't like the teacher you've been subscribed to, do what you can always do in say college, drop that teacher/class. Leo has his path which he wishes to share, document, teach, etc. That's his path & his choice. If you don't resonate with a lot of what he's saying regarding psychedelics, follow his other teachings that don't talk about it and apply that. The person whose ignorant often doesn't know the medicine they need. Hence the ignorance. Keep an open mind... Or don't. Up to you.
  4. I’ve been wanting to hear this for a loooooooooong time
  5. @Moreira LOL look at every legend of nondual traditions my friend. Learn systems thinking. So in other words, 'I'm just going to be selfish and only care about my own little agenda and not put in the work to make a change in the world.' Yes, in the absolute nothing is good or bad. None of it matters in the end. In yet, the most spiritual people human history has come to recognize were the most purpose driven people. No one is saying to become an ignorant ideologue that goes on crusades. Step out of your own little bubble. You can be enlightened and be feeling blissful but guess what, there are billions of people that are suffering. No one is saying what is good to fight for or not. It's your choice. Decide what cause is most meaningful to you and have that be something to contribute to the world. Stop being closed minded and in your own little private bubble.
  6. @Moreira Shallow perspective. The greatest visionaries have something they see worth fighting for. Nuance nuance nuance
  7. I FINALLY completed a whole month of consistent meditation every single day after 2-3 years of inconsistency. My meditation technique has been Do-Nothing. Are you saying to literally it's best to just commit to that? As in, if that's what I've been doing, don't dabble around with other meditation techniques? I know there's nuance to this which is why I just want to clarify.
  8. Of all the songs lol love it hahaha
  9. Inspiration doesn't count for shit if you don't take action
  10. Best for what purpose? I've had several years of Cognitive Behavioral Therapy and was in a hospitalization program at UCSF for it. Not sure what you're asking
  11. https://www.actualized.org/insights/profound-batman-003
  12. Be more concerned about you becoming a Zen Devil
  13. I'm stuck in a life situation I absolutely hate and don't see a way out. I have emotional meltdowns every single day. I have literally no money saved because of past horrendous spending habits. I have no money in my checking account because I'm not working simply because my Dad is not allowing me to. I can't move out and also have terrible credit because my Dad (who makes roughly $200,000 p/year) hasn't paid medical bills from 4+ years ago from a surgery I had even though he does have the money to pay it. I drive a car that's not legal to drive (smashed side view mirror, car's registration expired 9 months ago, lights out, engine is on the verge of going out, etc.) but I'm forced to for my Dad to drive my little brother everywhere. I didn't finish college (currently 22 years old). I have my Life Purpose and found it 2 days ago but I'm so deeply depressed and dealing with so much suffering that I can't seem to mobilize myself. I don't want to start working again because the only jobs I can get is just minimum wage work and to be honest, I don't want to go back. I hate my life so much when I'm subjecting myself to that kind of work. I also live in San Francisco, the most expensive market in the USA. I'm beyond willing to leave the Bay Area though. My psychology is so fucking weak I can't seem to mobilize myself. I don't know what to do or what I can do... Everything I come up with as a solution just depresses me. I'm shamed and guilted and talked to like I'm dirt.
  14. Self-actualization is not a destination. It's a path.
  15. I just read this as I'm taking a break during the Life Purpose Course and immediately I understood my Life Purpose... I'm literally in shock right now...
  16. I just got off 5 medications: 20 mg Adderall XR (I'm 22 and have been on ADHD medication since I was 5 years old 300 mg Lithium (actually super low dose) 10 mg Abilify 40 mg Prozac 40 mg Lamicitil What you need to understand is that things won't all of a sudden get better just from getting off these medications. What I got really tired of is hearing people who haven't ever taken any of these medications for years on end either saying I need to stay on them or making up stories about getting off them and then things will get better and what not. I got off my medications because I could see it wasn't doing anything. Simple as that. I can't stress enough the fact that you need to discard all fantasies you have about how things will be better once you get off these medications. No. If anything, be prepared for things to get worse in the beginning. I'm suffering huge mental and emotional fallout right now now that I'm off. You've had a tool that hasn't allowed you to be aware of all the stuff that's going on inside. I cry every single day and have huge mental and emotional meltdowns and haven't even been able to read books, apply for jobs, etc. because of this. I've been in a huge depressive slump right now. That all being said, understand that if you take the right actions to work on yourself inside, then you will see results from being off of medication. However, if you're not committed to doing that inner work (with assistance from others too) or your life situation isn't stable enough yet, then my 2 cents is to wait and get your basic needs handled.
  17. @CroMagna people don't make you angry. You make yourself angry. Most inefficient strategy you can have. Look at Leo's videos on emotions.
  18. Explain these "good insights" and the results you've gotten.