kieranperez

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  1. I’ve been noticing this pattern in culture now recently where I notice people on YouTube, blogs, sports coaches, people on the street, TV, athletes, etc. using the term “ego” more than ever now. I don’t feel like this is an accident since personal development is a hotter business/industry than ever now and online success coaches and what not are flooded throughout social media more than ever. Have people been noticing this trend? Obviously they don’t know what it means ?
  2. No I get you. Brian’s content just doesn’t resonate with me and my personality. I personally resonate more with Leos content and focus on combining nonduality and personal development in a very explicit, non apologetic, bigger picture way. I had Brian’s app but didn’t like it. Glad it works for you! @Gabriel Antonio @Emerald Thanks. Yeah I feel you guys might be right. I’d need to move out of the San Francisco Bay Area which I both do and don’t want to do but I’ll figure out something I guess...
  3. Already know about it and have the app. Don’t find it that useful and doesn’t really resonate with me.
  4. This is a question I’ve been puzzled by. Like, are people like Buddha just that much more enlightened than everybody and had that much more self mastery and that’s why they left their mark in history and are revered by even other VERY deeply enlightened people? Cause, we can great Zen masters today who are supposedly very deeply enlightened and even do a lot of shadow work and stuff this day in age (Doshin Roshi from Integral Zen comes to mind) but still stuck to a Buddhist practice which of course is a practice given by a sage thousands of years ago. Just been something that’s been on my mind these last few months
  5. Take the life purpose course and stop asking variations on the same question.
  6. http://www.theatreofyugen.org/ First thing I saw when I began my research into the term "Yugen" after seeing @Leo Gura's blog post on it... Located in the Mission District in San Francisco (not even 2 miles from where I live). Super cool. Thought I'd share
  7. This is like a 3 year old asking how to beat Lance Armstrong in the Tour de France before the 3 year old knows how to ride a bike.
  8. I don’t know. I’m not enlightened, not that far along the Spiral, etc. Maybe. He’s farther along than I am so hey, maybe I’m wrong. I’m open to that. Maybe he’s right about Leo, Sadhguru, and whoever else he deems unenlightened and deluded being a quack about nonduality and what not. I’m not enlightened so I can’t be here saying whose right and whose wrong about the nature of reality. My job is to discover it, be open as fuck, assume I’m wrong, etc. I just don’t see, from all that I study and practice, a deeply enlightened person needing to fit some sort of bill. I get it, he’s studied with Ralston and has done lots of 5-MeO. Cool. I just don’t think this approach to saying ‘fuck all these quacks and phonies, I’ve studied with the real ones and know the truth,’ is one grounded in greater wisdom or greater perspective. I’d put money down he’s never met @Leo Gura so I don’t think he’s in a position where I can take his criticism of Leo being some phony very seriously.
  9. Yes and Michael Jordan had a “lucky” part of the bench he would always sit on, would wear in his old UNC basketball shorts in the NBA, but is that why he was MJ and as good as he was?... No. The guy was one of the most talented guys in the game and worked sickeningly hard.
  10. I actually thought about this a lot today. I live in the San Francisco and have lived in the Bay Area for the 20 years of my 23 years of life and I’ve been to other 3rd world counties but haven’t actually explored much of the US or even California. I was deep up Northern California near the Oregon border and it stuns me all the time just how barren, broke, and undeveloped a lot of the parts of even the state of California is. A lot of that time was spent thinking ‘’man. I’m so involved thinking about how to get to stage Turquoise in life (and obviously yellow) that I’ve lost perspective.” I mean, the only places to eat we’re just a McDonald’s, Quiznos, Burger King, etc. you can see people shooting up (though we have a lot of that here in SF), run down homes, so many extremely obese people, etc. Actually got pretty a little disheartened because cities like San Francisco are developing more and more faster and faster every day , month, and year and these parts of the state/country are stagnated in their personal development for numerous decades now which means their economic situation is just going to get worse and worse since stage blue has become a lesser economic force over the years, leaving this kinds of people obsolete... and there are A LOT of them. Stage Orange growth only cares about advancing itself and not that which isn’t thriving. It doesn’t have a holistic enough collective development plan nor have much concern for the greater collective beyond Orange’s current collective that it situates itself in... even though Orange is only involved in that collective only for its own self oriented advancement of its agenda.
  11. Interesting take on the use of Spiral Dynamics. @CreamCat @Joseph Maynor There’s really not that much of a point in talking about Coral, Teal, etc. the information is out there sure but the amount of time it takes to really embody all these parts of the Spiral takes a long time more often than not. Less %0.001 of the global population is at Turquioise. How about we get there first and then continue? It’s not talked about because the demand isn’t there. The demand is more for getting into the 2nd Tier. I personally find this whole TJ bashing people like Sadhguru, @Leo Gura , etc. to be just silly and a waste of time and actually hypocritical. He talks about how these people give off all this stuff about what enlightenment is and is not, how they’re all wrong (as though he knows them personally), that they’re full of shit, they’re fake, that they put on a mask of what enlightenment is and all this stuff in yet at the same time by definition of what he’s doing and saying and the way he’s doing is no different from that which he’s criticizing. He goes on this rants on enlightened gurus and enlightened youtubers and stuff and it’s like dude ‘you yourself are trying to tell other people what enlightenment is, how everybody else out there is except for the people you study are wrong and or full of shit, how you have it right, etc.’ I don’t know TJ at all. Seems like a developed guy for the most part. He personally doesn’t like me that much (gave me some advice that was helpful on IG and then saw I gave some criticism about him here on the forum and then went off on some rant on how I and these guys on the forum are full of shit and blocked me). However, the overall concern and approach over AI and how we need to wake up to the realities of what might come in the near future I think hold ground and need to be looked at. He just needs to chill the fuck out.
  12. More videos on emotions and other such "negative" emotions (even there is no such thing as negative) : Anger Part 3 Pain Suffering Etc...
  13. Master yourself deep enough and authentically and honestly ground yourself in genuine detachment (no real PUA is authentically detached) and all these pickup antics will seem childish and for kids.
  14. Holy fuck it's just a metaphor or mythological framework of nonduality! My old Atheist paradigm get's more and more demolished each and every day... LOVE IT
  15. I'm so stuck in fear, anger, rage, anxiety, and total stress right now and thus not able to take any steps because I'm so stuck in my head as I have so many things conflicting with each other and really need some advice. Right now I'm living in San Francisco at home. I NEED to leave home ASAP. This environment is fucking toxic and each day I stay home more and more I feel more and more disempowered, useless, unmotivated, angry, stuck, etc. I'm literally being pressured by my Dad screaming in my ear every single day that I need to pursue success hard and that I'm not a man how I have these moral obligations, that I owe him, that I should be working 80 hours a week, how I should fuck my passion, suck my boss's dick, I don't deserve happiness and that I need to shut up and work, how he's ashamed of me because of all this stuff, etc. I hear this everyday and I just bottle this in and can't work or focus on my Life Purpose because I'm screaming in my head or I'm about to beat the daylights out of him and I have so much built up stress and anxiety. I can't make a decision because I can't think straight. I want to make enlightenment, personal development, distance running, yoga, consciousness to be the backbone of my life and the business I want to start. I want out of here so bad but I live in this city I can't afford and I'm afraid to go tell my Dad to go fuck himself and I honestly can't bare another day being here. My work gives me no fucking hours (less than 10 hours) so I don't have the money to just move. I don't have a car now either. I thought about taking some classes online to build a career and learn some valuable skills like web development or something and I just get so pissed off because I'm like 'I'M NOT EVEN GOING TO BE DOING THIS! THIS IS GOING TO TAKE EVEN MORE TIME! WHY PURSUE SOMETHING I KNOW I'M GOING TO QUIT?!' I literally feel like I'm dying. Like I'm going crazy and am going to have a hysterical meltdown. I have no one to get some real wisdom or advice from. I feel like I need to leave NOW because I can't take this anymore but I don't know what step I should take because I can't calm down and think straight. Please, really need some advice.
  16. Assuming Jesus was even a real historical character, which a lot of scholars in religious studies and history would suggest the stark possibility that he was merely and only and spiritual archetype and not a historical person. Agree in the anaology though.
  17. Make the distinction in your direct experience between perception and the truth of whatever is in question.
  18. Depends on where that motive is coming from. Some might want to become a sage and totally liberated from a place of a status and need to achieve and what not. Some might pursue it because they’re so stuck in victim thinking that they think that this spiritual thing will be their way to finally “escape”. Some really are willing to geninuinely and authentically surrender (VERY rare) in order to attain liberation.
  19. When I noticed it didn't really answer any of my questions.
  20. For those on here who are very spiritually motivated and deeply into the higher aspects of personal development that are still stuck on Life Purpose here’s a question I sugges you ask: If you got full and complete enlightenment where the infinite became your norm and you attained “the end” (I don’t suspect there would be such a thing but for the sake of this example let’s go with it) - what would you do to impact the world? Imagine you got all that which you have been seeking NOW - you didn’t have to go to a monastery, a cave in India, take 5-MeO-DMT, none of that, it just happened - how would you impact this world? Remember you wouldn’t need to seek anymore because it’s just you. That journey is over. There’s also no more desire to work on yourself. So unless you want to mahasamadhi your ass out of this existence or just live as a hermit, you’re probably going to want to do something (however it would be from a place of love, compassion, consciousness, and Truth). What is that which you do?
  21. Can't believe I've never heard of this guy till now. Look this guy up. If enlightenment is your life purpose do research into this man. His level of attainment, discipline, impact, artistry, and diversity is quite extraordinary and inspiring. He died in the late 90s. Great book to start: Living with the Himalayan Masters
  22. First things first: you’re not the first one to have this problem... AND THATS AMAZING BECAUSE YOU CAN GET OUT Here’s my advice... WARNING - You won’t like it: Be honest about your addiction with her. Now... before you do (if you do) let me explain why I’m giving this as my advice: I know many addicts. Fuck, the moment I walk out my door here in San Francisco I see people shooting up passed out literally everyday. Addicts have low integrity with themselves and other people. Honesty exposes you. There is nowhere to hide. It’s the beginning of you taking ownership and spilling out everything. It’s cathartic. The cathartic process is frightening, terrifying, depressing, soul wrenching, and uncertain because you don’t know what’s going to happen next. For instance: Am I going to get kicked out? Am I going to get sent away to rehab? If I go to rehab am I going to be that guy that just goes in and out and gets used to leaching off the system? Will this ruin my future? What if I tell the truth and still nothing changes? Ruthless honesty with yourself and others and making your #1 principle in life Truth is crucial. THAT is your saving grace. Not in the sense that you need to get enlightened or something. Truth is like a plunger that sucks up poison. Think of those things that are used if you get a mosquito bite and you have that suction cup device that sucks up the poison out of you. Think of that device as Truth and what your sucking up is deception, the devil, all the excuses, traumatic experiences, neurosis, etc. However, the only way to get that shit out of you is to actually use the device (Truth/REAL honesty) which most people don’t use. And here’s the real catch: You’ve got to be the doctor and the patient which is to say no one can do the real heavy lifting for you and you have to do it. Please, if you need help, GO GET IT. You’re not a bad or weak person for getting help but the real inner work is done by you and you alone. You got to have the initiative. No external source will ever be enough without your unwilling and unrelenting initiative and commitment to Truth. Much love man ❤️ Hold on to Truth. It’s a painful scary ride at times but hold on to it and be the passenger in the ride and let the Truth you wherever it needs to take you. Stay out of its way and you’ll make it through. Have faith.
  23. Wrong question and where I think you’re going wrong. Follow this bliss as what you’re describing seems truly authentic. What it sounds like your getting stumped by that’s really blocking this deeply intuitive creative capacity that CAN create massive value in the long run is that you’re trying to take this round peg (this deeper intuitive drive you’re describing) and trying to fit in this round hole (your current area of expertise and domain/industry). This is where I got stumped a lot. I wanted to take this new insight on what I’m really excited about and fulfills me and try to take that into my current domain of expertise and then get frustrated because I don’t know how to make them fit... Which isn’t to say these two thing can’t fit! Sometime they do go together but sometimes they don’t. Be willing and open to your intuition and where this bliss can take you. And of course, take the life purpose course if you haven’t taken it yet.
  24. @Joseph Maynor it’s a clear read and that’s precisely why it’s so hard - you’re likely to overlook it. What’s hard about it is how patient you have to be reading and contemplating something so plainly written. In Ralston's sequel to the Book of Not Knowing he wrote in the introduction about how well written it was and how, because of that, most people missed what he was saying (though people are going to miss what he’s talking about regardless of how he communicates these things).
  25. Good God HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA