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Believe it or not I actually like Sam Harris' original 26 minute guided meditation. He times his pauses well and provide enough space between each "instruction" and incorporates self-inquiry at the end. Though I don't use it anymore I do think it's good. It was that meditation that made me first realize I don't know who I am referring to when I say "I" which got me on the path of spirituality.

*insert video on recontextualization*

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Instead of rose petals it’ll be 5-MeO

I couldn't have found a more perfect real world photo that depicts this difference perfectly. Notice how tense, rigid, upright, and heavy Putin is and how featherlight the monk on the right is.

FOR THOSE COMING TO SAN FRANCISCO: Depending on when Leo comes here I HIGHLY suggest you bring some sort of face mask due to the current horrendous air quality. The smoke from the fires up in Northern California has the air here in San Francisco (I live here) really polluted. Again, just from the smoke. We have worse air though here than Delhi and Beijing. The AQI yesterday was 400 (double that of Delhi). The air probably won't be as bad by the time @Leo Gura get's here but it's just a heads up. P.S. I can't wait to see what Leo's legs look like in person and there better be goody bags at the end of the seminar filled with 5-MeO-DMT!

@youngshinzen holy fuck that actually sounds dope LOL wtf that's so awesome

The only true part of that whole projection of nonsense of yours. You don’t understand because you have fantasies over this matter.

@Javfly33 randomly found this just now at a bookstore here in SF LOL @Joseph Maynor go to Green Apple Books on Clement St in the Richmond here in SF! The books they have here on spirituality, metaphysics, personal development, etc. is nuts. They have SO many books from the booklist and so many books where I’d be look around on say amazon and be like ‘no store is going to carry this book’ I find all the time here. It’s nuts.

The 2nd might be a "Try not to Cringe challenge" for @Leo Gura LOL jk Orange reacting to Blue belief structure without recognizing it's own biases and it's own belief structure.

Simon Sinek is a good mainstream example of someone whose (metaphorically) pounding on the door screaming "THIS A GENERATION OF ADDICTS! HELP THEM OR WE'RE DOOMED AND THEY'RE DOOMED! SOCIAL MEDIA IS EXPLOITING THEIR BIGGEST WEAKNESSES! STOP THIS!" Remember, the world of attention is a well plotted out and exploited science by business.

The answer is going to be the same even if you take out the part about this being a question specifically about life coaching. Have you noticed that all the answers to all these questions are always the same?

Try more. Try harder. You'd be dumbstruck if you knew experientially how hardcore people pursue this. And how many is "many times before?"

I know “I’m only 23” but right now it feels like all the shit in my life is just hitting the fan and I just feel so absolutely demoralized about my future and like I’m not prepared enough internally/psychologically to turn things around. Still living at home with no real friends at this point at a dead end part time job with no support system at all but more importantly, no solid internal development, I just found out yesterday from my car insurance company raised my rates again for an accident that involved me getting t-boned from a guy blowing a stop sign and because the guy didn’t pick up the phone after I filed the claim on him to accept liability they actually dropped the claim, stopped pursuing him, and aren’t going to coverage about $5000 minimum if I’m lucky worth of damages. It just feels like my life is just in this melting pot and culmination mode of endless misery and hopelessness that’s destined for me and all the mistakes I’ve ever made are coming to haunt me and will to me being just another average person that accomplishes nothing. Where there’s no background of sense of self-acceptance, self-esteem, how I was never good enough to my parents and how they coddled me with giving me all the wrong forms of help when I was younger and how stupid I was bullshitting around. I struggle to be concrete on my life purpose through the course after taking it 3+ times because it’s so emotionally hard when you have so much fear about how you can’t subsist which leads to being motivated from this place of aggression and anger which is really more of a reaction from this deep sense of hurt. I just don’t know how I can get myself out of this. I grew up in a emotionally and psychologically unstable family where screaming and yelling and suicide threats by my mom and yelling about money was the norm at my house, I struggled in high school from ADHD and from struggling socially and emotionally from the toxic parenting I got at home so I didn’t get to even get to taste some sort of freedom in what would’ve been “the college experience”. I have a terrible relationship with the family I live with now (my Dad) because I’m treated like I just my mentally unstable mom and how I’m some loser that needs to work 80 hours a week. I have no friends to move out with or anything. I feel resistance to just apply for a job here in San Francisco, because 1. I can’t afford to live here, 2. I hate living here in this claustrophobic neurotic human zoo, 3. Working these jobs, I’m sometimes in the bathroom just in tears because I’m faced with ‘this all I can fucking do and I don’t know what I actually can do.’ Every time I get another job like this (some low end job) I just get used to it and numb to it until I stop being numb to it and then I sabotage it by coming in late in stuff because deep down I’m reacting to how much I resent and despise hate with a very visceral hate how much I’m wasting my life in yet I keep getting caught in this catch 22. It feels like yes, life is a maze, this thing is fucking rigged against me to lose and go for fucking cheese, I don’t want cheese, I know the goal, but I’m not good enough in the achieve that goal and I can’t just ask 99.9999999% of people for help on this issue because they want cheese and I don’t want cheese. In yet, I’m not good enough nor prepared to get out of here.

I totally forgot about my time on Zoloft lol. I've been on all 3 types of meds. Yeah. I definitely stand by more by what I recommended before now. I recommend getting off these things slowly. Mood stabilizers are sometimes the hardest to get off, especially when you get off them cold turkey. I remember being Abilify for example and also Zoloft and if let's say I forgot to take them for a few days, the first day off I actually felt great. Mood was more up. However, by the 4th day it would be like this compounding withdrawal effect where by the end of the 4th day, in a time span of just 1 hour I could be chilled out and in a matter of hours or even just within an hour I could be borderline suicidal and I could't figure out why. It really is quite freaky and can be really destabilizing.

The atheist and theist are both wrong and are exactly the same. They both make truth claims which they are both ignorant of and have their heads too far up their own ass to admit they don't know because we live in a culture that's addicted to pretending we already know. All beliefs are false and both the theist and the atheist are still both belief systems.

No. Not really anymore. I don’t know what this has to do with anything.

People who say that are still ignorant regardless of their beliefs of the Truth. I can say “I’m god and everything is god,” but if I haven’t experienced that, I’m just as much a gullible sheep like everybody else. It’s just a belief and all mental models are false. All beliefs are false. Those people who talk a bunch of shit, I bet you never actually pursued this thing hardcore like the people who embody these truths. The Buddha never stopped. Stories of Christ and Muhammad never stopped.

You’re good man

You didn't stir anything up nor am I offended. I'm just calling it directly for what it is. You don't have to be "stirred up" to simply call out fantasy and delusion. All because someone is direct with you and doesn't pussyfoot around the matter, doesn't mean they're pissed or have their panties in a twist.

This is the part I don’t get. On what? And I know there can’t really be a set answer to that which is what’s driving me up the wall. The only thing I really wanted to master - running - I don’t really care that much about anymore. I don’t care about racing, competing, coaching other runners just to become more successful athletes (which is all the athletes I would coach would want anyways). My passion I care about and love to learn about now is nonduality and all the things that go along with it (psychology, psychedelics, reality, happiness, wisdom, philosophy, etc.) but I don’t want to be just another one of those guys that copies Leo or do the whole YouTube self help game. I don’t really know what I specifically want to master and I don’t feel like I can because I don’t have the money. It’s like that video: Where the changes you intuit you need to make require such a RADICAL realignment and you have no idea how and even what it will be. Its hard to have hope in anything when you don’t know what you want to have hope in. My life has no direction and I don’t know what direction I want it to really have because I don’t know who I am in terms of my passions, motivations, etc. anymore. I wake up everyday now and it’s almost the worst part of my day because I wake up knowing there’s nothing for anymore. I’m always touched whenever I read say The Hero’s Journey by Campbell and listen to: because it’s like “YES! THATS EXACTLY WHAT MY LIFE IS SUPPOSED TO BE & WHAT I WANT IT TO BE! RIGHT THERE!” In yet, when the video ends, I look in the mirror and I’m reminded of just how depressed I am and feel like I can’t because it feels like I don’t have the psychological resources and even psychological cognition. I can barely read a book without my concentration going all over the place and getting distracted by everything. Realizing how poor I am with money, how I have no skills to earn enough to just to go on my adventure and then come back. I’m trying so hard emotionally to try and have some sort of positive outlook and hope and try to put that into coming up with some sort of vision but I can’t. I try so hard to let go of negative thoughts in the life purpose course but when it comes to the exercise there’s just like this screaming voice of “I DONT KNOW!” In yet, when I try to calm down the only thing I feel is the voice or feeling pressing in my head about how I need to do something.

All your fantasies and ideas of how an enlightened person acts, talks, behaves is all bullshit. Ralston is authentic and very direct. These are all projections and all bullshit. a. Enlightenment, WAY more often than not, doesn’t change you. Understanding the Truth is a different endeavor than change. You can be extremely enlightened and still steal and murder people. b. Authenticity doesn’t need to conform to norms and common parlance. Ralston is so authentic and direct people overlook him. People want mystical shmystical stories of energies and shiva and deities. Ralston cuts through the stories (not to say they don’t have legitimacy) and goes straight to the matter and doesn’t play games.