kieranperez

There’s nothing weak about calling someone out for their behavior. Belittle the behavior. Not the person.

I know where you’re coming from but this is a false analaysis. A newb meditator talking to a Zen master about how much he knows and what not is in no place to talk shit. That master has every right to look that newb dead in the eyes and shut him up. If you’re being coach by Phil Jackson in basketball and you’re a decent adequate basketball player, yeah you have the right to learn, ask questions as far as your learning goes, but you’re not in a position of authority to espouse stuff. There are certainly problems with having authority but there’s certainly a place for someone who knows what they’re talking about to shut people who are talking out of their ass.

@mandyjw god your full of shit and all talk

I've really thought about this a lot when it comes to contemplating my Life Purpose and boy is this something that's going to be messy. Now that we're in a world that DEMANDS and integral approach to spirituality, psychology, philosophy, human transformation, science, politics, and planetary restoration and also now that 5-MeO-DMT and other psychedelics is becoming slowly but surely more talked about... I really can't help but contemplate how an integral spiritual infrastructure could really be built, particularly in Western, 1st world, secular countries. What excites me is that all the tools seem to be there. Granted, legality of psychedelics of course is still a big issue. However, as far as I'm concerned, I think even that obstacle could still be worked around. The practices are all out there, the psychedelics that help most for consciousness work are out there as far as what are the one's to use (again, acquisition of such substances is another matter right now). When I look at popular sages and spiritual leaders like Sadhguru (I'm going to use him & India as my example in this post because he's just such a good, yet rare, example) I see someone and something truly extraordinary. I see someone who clearly is a masterful 2nd tier systems thinker. He's able to influence and talk to an enlightened yogi whose been in a cave for 15 years (Blue/Purple), economic and political titans (Orange), rational left brained scientists (Orange/Yellow), rural masses (Blue), kids as far down as elementary school, urbanites in their 20s pursuing sex/materialism (Orange), and attract the liberal hippies from afar (Green). You can even see in his talks and discourses he talks to all of them differently. He's even able to lead his sannyasis and he's actually very integral and 2nd tier in his approach by creating a system within his ashram where he can bring in both men and women and have an environment that seems to unite them all and even lead conscious restoration projects. It's fucking incredible that one man can lead all that in yet still have 1 month out of the year to spend in the Himalayas each year (read that in his biography). At the same time though (not even getting into his good fortune of his full enlightenment at the age of 25 - past 3 lifetime of work... as far as I'm concerned I don't see why this can't be the case), look at how fucking rare a person like that is. Someone who can withstand that workload, has that strong interpersonal and 2nd tier leadership skills, is as masterful and downright talented he is in the domain of spirituality as he is (beyond his depth of psychic proficiency and so much more, which as far as my research goes, is fucking off the charts if it really is true), not having gotten power hungry, the degree to which he succeeded in terms of impact on the world, etc. Also consider that he's in a country that has over 5000 years of spiritual infrastructure/foundation! There's a spiritual science there for building fuckin' temples at how to utilize them as energy centers for human beings (Agamas Shastras). I personally agree with @Leo Gura (which I think he hammers home on better than even than Ken Wilber) on the point that spirituality and really, the world at large, must go integral and evolve and include and embrace technologies such as psychedelics and specifically 5-Meo-DMT, EEG technology, what's to come with AI, etc. and also embrace other personal development schools, schools of psychology, science, art, philosophical schools, etc. which A LOT of these teachers reject because their whole impact is based around creating a particular niche school which excludes other things! Can you imagine going into a Zen monastery in Japan and trying to convince a Zen master whose been in a certain school that 5-Meo-DMT can get you to realize Nothingness in 30 min or less and that it's a much faster and more efficient tool than grinding for decades (which is not to dismiss work ethic or portray 5-MeO-DMT as some quick fix) that, for most people who down that path, produces a semi deep awakening at best? He'd keisaku your ass out of there. Hell, I would imagine even Sadhguru would dismiss it as a perfectly legitimate path. Even Ralston, a deeply enlightened master here in the West that seems to have no real attachment any spiritual system or spiritual culture and grew up a lot here in the San Francisco where I live dismisses psychedelics! What happens when the human guru is replaced with a syringe and powder made in a chemistry lab? How likely is that guru to either accept that or end up abusing that? Not to mention, the more integral you get, the more you'll have to realize that each person is of course different in their unique set of problems, their strengths and talents, emotional blockages, personality types, interests, etc. which of course undermines a set and stone system/school/tradition because the whole point of tradition/school/system is that it's different from all the others, even just from a business standpoint. Not to mention, the larger the school and the more people you draw in, the more you'll have to dilute your teachings, practices, and the Greater Jihad to fit the masses. Granted, going back to Sadhguru, I think he's being smart by having his ashram where he leads sanyasins where he goes balls to the wall with them so that when he dies, he's planted seeds that will live on after him. Even with that though, look at how much corruption, dilution, shenanigans, and the collapse in the quality of the school after the main leader passes on. What happens when Sadhguru's vision just becomes some ideological moral objective for his followers in 100 years that blindly follow that rather than think for themselves? What happens when you're school falls behind in it's spiral stage and grows out of date and becomes obsolete and eventually becomes regressive relative to where the rest of the world is? This is not even mentioning the work that comes with transcending cultural paradigms. Lastly, how on earth does a spiritual infrastructure get built in a country like say in the USA where our culture is not one of Christianity, Islam, Buddhism, but one of consumerism? We (I live in the USA so this is just an easier way for me to frame this) live in a country that as far as my (subpar) analysis and assessment goes seems to just be emulating the same pattern that lead to the fall of Ancient Greece. On the global macro scale, the USA is a baby country as far as it's age goes. If I were to equate this with a business example, we seem to be like just one giant MLM that's been parasitic on not just the earth but to other world cultures and countries. It's like a business who just aims for profits for the short and mid-term at all costs and get's wealthy in the beginning and stays there for awhile because its Orange, it's strategic enough to stay on top. In the end though the business falls apart because it wasn't based on those timeless principles longer lasting principles that undermine short-term growth. Not to mention, we don't even recognize our culture that much because consumerism is much harder to see relative to a lot of other world cultures. For better and worse, we have such a massive influence on the rest of the world. People in other countries (particularly in the 3rd world of course) still idolize America and wish to come over here for opportunity and a chance for them as an individual to thrive at Stage Orange and make something of themselves. We infect the world with our ideology and image of consumerism and Stage Orang mindset. Taking a step though, there are A LOT of pluses with that. So I'm not saying this to just bash Orange and the USA. Orange is multiplistic. It helped science and a lot of other fields and industries to really unfold which a lot of these countries really desperately need. It brought opportunity and set the stage for individuals to revolutionize and rebel against the excesses that came with Blue. At the same time though, we seem to be in a place without a strong nor up to date spiritual/metaphysical foundation/infrastructure which I think is really one of our primary achilles heels when it comes to the survival of this country and also the world since the United States is such an influential powerhouse. What happens to a family when the only breadwinner is dad and mom is a housewife and the kids follows dad no matter what because of the power disparity he has and dad is also a raging alcoholic that beats his wife and kids and gets away with it because he's the most powerful one in the house but eventually becomes so neurotic and dysfunctional because of his of his dysfunctional ego that he ends up in jail or dies in a drunk driving accident? Or if mom eventually decides to fight back and comes at him with a baseball bat? Is that really going to make the family any better? Or will that lead to the collapse of the family entirely? I don't know...

You said nothing at all about psychedelics so idk how on earth you can expect me to know you were referring to psychedelics. as far as your first senetence... yeah I don’t know what you’re saying. Get off this post if you’re not going to contribute and just be a little keyboard warrior. Theres a lot of nuance to what was posted.

You’re not specific as to what you’re talking about. If you’re going to tell me I’m full of shit have the cohesiveness do so. I have no problem being wrong. Learn how to make a point and be clear

@purerogue I have no idea what you’re referring to at all.

@kieranperez what are your thoughts on this?

Listen to this guy ^ on this subject

Appreciate the clarification

Cut your dogma. This distinction of “drug” is such a convenient self-deception to muddy the waters. I’m not saying “modafinil gives you motivation.” The motivation is a by-product. When you’re so depressed you’re ready to end your life and then you find a solution that helps really alleviate that and now you can smile and actually feel good for a whole day, I can 100% guarantee you’ll have more motivation, hope, confidence, and faith to live your life to the best you can. I don’t care what gives you that so long that it works.

@ravlondon https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9zIKQCwDXsA

I wasn't looking for conceptual answers with this post LOL I posted this with the intent to share a potentially potent and effective contemplation with those who are struggling moving beyond belief into true deep not knowing. I'm not looking for written conceptual answers. Whatever you or I write is not the truth and doesn't make a damn bit of difference as far as becoming conscious goes. Appreciate the intent from those of you aren't coming from the place of being some non-dual keyboard warrior but yeah, not looking for theories or explanations. You can't tell someone what a belief is at the end of the day and have that really make a difference in their direct experience.

I’ve been meditating on what the existence of belief is. In order to really start questioning, deeply not knowing, bringing up deeper curiosity, allow for more powerful questioning, and investigation I’ve really been keen on questioning and investigating what exactly is this filter (beliefs) that’s keeping me from being able to deeply question things. Despite the fact that I’m someone that’s deeply curious and has profound questions, my ability to contemplate at a hardcore level is stunted essentially by 2 things (keeping life situations out of this context): Horribly poor concentration... at times - working on that ADHD with the help of @Robby believe it or not along with concentrative meditation. However, at night I notice I’m abnormally calm and can drop into deep borderline samadhi like concentration where my observation can be totally unobstructed for several minutes at a time... quite surreal. Beliefs Starting this contemplation I thought ‘I really just want to grasp the existential nature of what a belief is. So, rather than start with something like the belief that I’m Kieran... let’s start with a more ordinary one.’ What I noticed though interestingly enough was that no matter what belief I really decided to work with... it still seemed real. For example, my mind came up with ‘I don’t have any beliefs.’ First off, I recognized that trap. Which was interesting. Then I put closed my eyes and began to “look for” the belief that there is an external world. Again... my mind didn’t want to recognize that it was assuming that. In fact my assumption was that I believed I knew better to believe in an external world! There it was again! A lack of both wanting and ability to self reflect because my mind already feels like it knew. I really started to get the depths of the analogy of how a fish doesn’t recognize it’s in water. Beliefs are so tricky to contemplate because you don’t see it as a belief. One of the hard parts when you cover a lot of “spiritual theory” is that beliefs start to become even trickier to spot because then, as this stuff starts to make more conceptual sense, that becomes the new beliefs and the new self bias!

Personally Prana, Kundalini, and Chakras are something I found is something I feel more than I have to visualize. Try guiding your awareness from the bottom of your spine and proceed from there. It starts out VERY subtle from my own personal experience. It’s like when you had that friend as a kid who would put his finger close enough to your neck you can kinda feel something. You don’t know if someone’s touching you, but you feel something miniscule. Slowly it starts to be more amplified.

At the core, selfishness and authenticity are incompatible. When you awaken Love, you’ll understand that Love as your true nature and being anchored in that truth (assuming you’ve purged a lot of your shadow) and embody it, cannot keep up one’s own selfishness.

@Leo Gura I totally agree. I think your video on “Understanding Awareness” really underscores this topic well. Its so hard to even maintain honesty without falling back into one’s own egoic habits (projections, judgments, criticizing, withholding, exaggerating, downright lying, etc.) due to one’s limited capacity for mindfulness and getting trapped in the mind rather than staying present and just reporting. There’s also the trick of how you emotionally relate your communications to others. For example: if I’m angry at say my boss, I’m actually hurt. However, if I come at my boss and say “I’m hurt,” I can say the words “I feel hurt from what you said back there,” but I can still be holding on to the anger in my body, my tone, etc. so really... I’m not actually being honest. Because I can recognize ‘ah! I feel hurt!’ But that doesn’t reliquish the deception of anger and break down that barrier because in some way or another I’m still holding on to it. Its so tricky. Especially if you throw Love into the mix. Really, any time I guess your not communicating from a place of Love and Truth, I feel like, at the bottommost core you’re still lying and withholding.

@Leo Gura does REAL honesty and the growth that comes from becoming increasingly more honest only become possible through massive increases in consciousness (of what’s really true - on the relative, personal, psychological, Absolute, emotional sides)? Personally I REALLY struggle with integrity and lying. This became APPARENT in my first psychedelic trip on LSD just a couple days ago where authenticity really began to truly flourish. I’ve read Blanton’s stuff and also Ralston’s on honesty and I’ve tried applying it but I feel like my capacity to communicate authentically and truthfully is always stunted and limited by my own involvement and attachment to my ego. Like you alluded to in your recent “Becoming God” video, it became apparent to my core, not as talk through a book or self-help video that I agreed with on a conceptual level, that honesty isn’t just about what you say. It’s in the way I walk, my tonality, how I hold myself, etc. However, that’s always of course stunted by my own ego and my attachment to its character traits, habitual behaviors and emotional responses, my own shadow, my self deceptions, etc. Could you elaborate a bit on this? And also how honesty can really effect one’s survival (not as conceptual identity but in “the real world”... you know what I mean). I feel like there’s A LOT to be said about this because as far as I’m concerned, honesty seems to have the potential to be a truly powerful spiritual practice in it of itself.

I do want to take those test as I am certainly curious. That’ll take time though. Long story short, someone on here (who shall remain nameless) hooked me up with an amazing sales gig in New Jersey and is inviting me out there with him where I have a shot at earning $50k+ in 4 months to help me raise enough money to move out and get my life on track and start build my life back. Considering the fact that I’ve never even had $1000 in my own name and bank account, this is the main priority I can afford to focus on. Once the money starts to come, I’ll be able to bootstrap myself even more to get my nutrition right, get the tests I need, have a place for myself for the first time ever, and really take personal development to a whole new level. Super exicited. Right now I’m trying not to get ahead of myself. Seeing your growth has both really inspired me to a point I can’t even describe but also I feel insecure cause I’m like ‘all the work that’s out there is already out there, I’ll never get to that!’ So I’m just trying to be patient with my own growth.

Yeah i have some. I took a full modafinil and it was definitely too much as far as the crash and also the nervous stimulant feeling I got in my body and my heart. The crash felt like my old Adderall come downs but that’s definitely because I probably took too much. I got to a point on Adderall where I was so shot by 2pm I’d need to nap for 3 hours. This wasn’t like that at all but similar in terms of the exhaustion. Half a pill is all I really need. Haven’t tried armodafinil but if it’s stronger in the bodily reaction, there’s no point. I don’t need to overdo this. I’m not trying to chase perfection in feeling good.

@Leo Gura I combined it with l-theanine today and good god... lol I was pretty much borderline meditating all day. It was crazy. Those two together are a powerful stack. This could really help me leverage myself and pick myself back up. I still need to tinker with dosage but this is incredible.

LSD is also used to treat depression. You can also use it to become conscious of God. A knife can cut more than just an onion. Do your homework and read the reports from other people. Stop being lazy with how you do your research. Watch Leo’s video on Nootropics.

@Leo Gura would you say from your personal experience that total liberation/God consciousness means No-Mind and also samadhi? Or is No-Mind a separate “accomplshment”/endeavor rather than total God consciousness and liberation? How does God consciousness/liberation equate or compare to deep samadhi states like nirvikalpa samadhi, jeeva samadhi, and sahaja samadhi? P.S. I’m incredibly happy for you seeing yesterday’s video. I had my first psychedelic trip yesterday after seeing yesterday’s video and I got a taste of God for the first time of my entire life. Thank you for everything. Thank you for showing me this was possible. Will post a trip report soon.

Especially if that mans meat has gonnorhea or some other std

Idk what that means but I don’t do no fap