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Conor McGregor is a well paid chimp in a suit. People like that are utter narcissists and miserable human beings. All this translates to is that you’ve never hung around people like that. Look, I’ve been where you’re at so I get the idolizing of such competitive motherfuckers. Believe me... I GET IT. To back up a step, I’ve met and talked with athletes such as Michael Jordan, I have several friends who are Olympic medalists, I know and have met sprinter Michael Johnson, and #1 overall NFL draftpick and lead quarterback for LA Rams Jared Goff who played against Tom Brady in the last Super Bowl was my homie in high school since he lived in the town next to me in Marin County. You need to understand that these people are not happy nor are they fulfilled at all. They live a very sugary self indulgent life that’s all about them. Understand that the narcissism you see there is fed on the notion that they’re not good enough and that they’re not happy. They may set a good example for strong ethic, granted. However that’s about it. If you really start to wake up you’ll start to see how toxic these peoples lives are personalities really are. They’re entire lives are built on a house of cards. They think their success means a damn thing when in fact, it doesn’t. They’re not more special than anyone else. To have that mindset is to have the mindset that you will always be miserable unsatisfied with life and yourself. You’re still under the impression, illusion, and utter lie that getting everyTHING you want will make you happy but all you’re doing is just being a rat eating more cheese in a maze that’s designed for you not to eat more cheese but to escape and that in eating more cheese you just miss the entire point.

Yes and other cult leaders talk about spirituality. So does Jordan Peterson that doesn’t mean they actually walk their talk. Doing what the fuck you want even if it seems beta or feminine af is being a man. This childish notion of hyper masculinity is actually being a pussy to the denial of your own femininity. Your clinging to hypergamy. LOL

Elliot Hulse is an ideological cult leader driven by fear. If you have to play a macho never back down attitude/role to be alpha, that just shows what a scared little beta you actually are. Realization of God will humble you and curb stomp your ideological life and mind. There is no beta. There is only the alpha.

ADHD is grossly overdiagnosed. Most people who are diagnosed with it who just say it’s symptoms due to lifestyle and all this truly don’t genuinely understand what ADHD is for those that actually have it. Most that are diagnosed also weren’t thoroughly tested. ADHD is a real condition. I’ve talked about it on several posts so I don’t feel like going into what it is here but it is a legitimate condition with a few variances. As far as the general neurology, people with ADHD have very low production of dopamine and serotonin output and have very poor production in the prefrontal cortex. For certain cases this can make life feel very impossible to manage in micro and macro things. ADHD is both a blessing and a curse. For me personally, it does feel like the latter. I would trade anything to have a cure for this.

How adorable

I feel like this could be a helpful one

I can only imagine what it’s like being your neighbor and living in the apartment next to you as you have these awakenings

@LiberatedMonkey the fact that you made it to 6 hours it took that long to set to set in, to me is impressive if you’ve never done anything like that that before. If you remained totally motionless during that... my hats off to you. @Mikael89 monks and yogis for thousands of years have been able to go as far as a week in totally locked in meditation without getting up without food or water. Yes it is the body/mind reacting but through hardcore deligent and discipline it can be done and has been done. The degree to what the human body can do is totally unappreciated and underestimated. Especially in our pathetic undertrained 21st century society and how low we set the bar. You can literally run down a horse and are designed to run hundreds of miles at a time. Think about that when you think running 10 miles as a big deal lol It has everything to do with enlightenment and awakening. Mastering your emotions and being conscious of how you’re doing all of those things. Dealing with the fear of death. Becoming conscious of pain has everything to do with overcoming self-survival so long as that’s the intention and becoming conscious of what self survival is. Hence hardcore asceticism

The thing that I think I’ve always admired about the revolutionary mystics, saints, sages, etc. is never really what they do after realization. I think the admirable thing for me personally is the commitment these people had/have. For me, the example that deeply gets this across the most is that of Om Swami because this is the thing that inspires me most when I read his story (his memoir is the most impactful book I’ve ever read. Period). Its a single minded commitment and integrity these people have for their pursuits. What you hear, read, but more importantly FEEL when you come across these peoples stories is a single minded passionate yearning and need to know what’s real, who they are, etc. When you read about The Buddha, Om Swami, The Marathon Monks, etc. These people have a willingness to die quite literally. Me personally, that’s what I feel gets across to me most when I listen to @Leo Gura talk about these things and all these people and that’s why I stick around. Personally I think this is the key that at least I miss since I have very weak integrity and what not but the thing that’s also the most inspiring. People willing to live under a fucking mountain and throw away everything just to find out what’s real. There’s nothing admirable about living under a mountain. There are bums that do that. It’s the conscious choice and reason as to why they’re doing that. Do you really see the point in pursuing truth? Or is enlightenment just a commodity for you deep down, beyond all the talk and citing of scriptures and all that other stuff? Lot of people on here talk about this stuff and Spiral Dynamics like being stage Turquoise and all that stuff like a commodity. Do you ACTUALLY want to know what’s real? Or do you just want to get better at talking about it and being another nondual keyboard warrior? This post isn’t about me. I just want to share this and raise this. I’m trying to call people out. Do what you want. Say what you want. Hope this strikes something.

@okulele thanks ❤️ I’ve noticed that my craving (I actually like that word better to be honest - more accurate) is starting to grow deeper. A lot of assumptions have been falling away. My last lsd trip really was the realization of Leo’s video on The Purpose of Life and I’ve been avoiding the work more since then out of fear and what I pointed out here. It just seems too good to be true that I can do that. In yet... it’s who I am and I know that’s why I’m here. I really understand and can appreciate more the reality of how hard it is on the inside for the hero to accept the call and the inner dilemma

Alcohol is a helluva drug

Well yeah. You have to get in your own experience that you truly don’t know and that you can’t go through life not knowing. You can’t start a CONSCIOUS and DELIBERATE practice until you have that openness. That openness is the beginning that sparks the eventual fire. However, there are thousands of people who have that openness but lack the integrity and belief in themselves they THEMSELVES can do it and thus have trouble mustering the action needed to follow through on their commitment. Which, partially, explains why we don’t have more enlightened masters in the world.

I’m using personal commitment and crave synonymously here. What you’re describing is what I’m talking about. For me, those are pretty much the same.

@ardacigin you’re missing the point. If you take what I’m saying as literally go do what they do, then you’re missing the point. Ralston did all his consciousness work living in the US. Granted he’s also a freak of nature. Yeah there’s a cost to this work along with any endeavor you master. Athletes often have nagging shit later in life as an occumulation from the staggering work they put in. There’s a cost to pay in mastering anything. And yes, this isn’t everyone’s cup of tea. Not everyone can be a hardcore yogi or enlightened master. Where did I ever suggest that? Having said that, there are other avenues than just traditional meditation and yoga. Often times were just following a path that isn’t custom to us.

What was it about being with Ralston that you found so profound? You brought that up in your interview and I’m curious what you meant.

Yes and yes.

Fair enough

Meant more in the beginning after your first 1 or 2 trips My biggest struggle is pretty much always post trip when it comes back to the self esteem issues of my everyday life. I keep debating with myself whether or not to buy it and hesitate cause I feel like it’s not the right time. Especially the feedback I get from others.

@Leo Gura would you say there is a right time in one’s life to take 5-MeO? This all pretty subjective but would you say the ego backlashes you have on 5-MeO are much more emotionally grueling than substances, retreats, etc? How did you feel the next couple days emotionally after your first couple trips (particularly the first one)? Do you find the ego comes back really quick once you come down? I find substances that have a slow come down are actually much harder to do with emotionally and psychologically.

@abrakamowse Yeah I saw that video when Leo posted that on the blog. Couldn’t agree with you more.

@legendary an exorcism is the exorcism of the ego. The ego, character, self permeates your entire energetic, psychic, and bodily system. It manifest in your adopted and habitual holding pattern. Your habitual emoting pattern. Your habitual emotional patterns. Your habitual thinking patterns. Your habitual perceptive patterns. So on and so forth. So when you see an exorcism happening “out there” and you writhing, rolling on the ground, speaking in tongues, etc. that’s actually the self trying to survive and resist surrender. Or you can see it as the process of breaking up the self and those are the reactions. You’re bringing up all the stuff that have been repressed, denied, etc. in your psychology but that manifest in the body becaue the body (including brain) are very much (yet not entirely of course) manifestations of one’s psychology. It’s kinda like a deep tissue massage on muscle tissue that’s so matted down, has deep knots, doesn’t have much slide and glide, no suppleness, etc. and then you go on a foam roller or have the hands of a masseuse break up those tissues. Brings in more bloodflow, separates the tissues, etc. which is all well and good but it also hurts like hell. In the case of an “exorcism” it quite literally feels like hell.

@Norbert Lennartz there needs to be a form of pest control for nondual keyboard jokeys like you on the Internet. I dare you to spew this garbage to a enlightened master looking you dead in the eyes. Its clear you’re not here to learn.

hahahahaha and how are you going to pursue enlightenment without your survival needs met? Please tell me how that actually works out in practice. Guess what? Most people on planet earth can’t realistically pursue enlightenment BECAUSE they haven’t met their survival needs. You understand the enlightened masters we know of today we only know of them because they had a society that nurtured their survival to such a point where they could pursue such an endeavor? Do you understand this? Zen masters are only able to be Zen masters becaue they created a society and social and survival infrastructure that allows them to do that. Spoiled rich kid who doesn’t appreciate nor understand the privilege he’s been given and doesn’t understand that he’d be dead if it weren’t for the luxury of his privilege. Biting the hand that feeds you... and they do feed you. The human condition is not something you solve. Enlightenment doesn’t “solve” the human condition. Enlightenment gives you the consciousness of the human condition itself. However the condition itself will remain. How you relate to it can change. However... there is no enlightenment without survival. Period. End of story. And you will not be able to pursue enlightenment if there is no system that allows for such an endeavor. Do you understand ashrams, monasteries, etc. are nothing but mini societies that require the leniency on the rest of society in order for it to survive? Monasteries and ashrams and friends and all of that all involve social hierarchies. Enlightenment doesn’t eliminate that condition. That will remain. In yet it’s still an illusion. HAHAHAHA “but where your dogma?!” INTEGRAL. Integrate the partial perspectives. I don’t know where you’re seeing me not suggest what we can do. Go back to my first comment on this thread. Further, yeah I don’t have all the answers. Hence this being a nuanced and complex issue in the world and not some ridiculously convoluted one of “everybody needs to get enlightened and we need to just see society as an illusion and you do you and I do me.” This Nondual keyboard dribble. As though the world’s issues are that dumb. So yeah I’m not just going to cling and preach some ideology lol. As though having my own pet ideologies are really of interest to me nor benefit to the world. What you’re failing to appreciate is the paradox. There are no others to save and so therefore you vow to save them. Everything is absolutely perfect and so we must work enormously hard to fix the catastrophes occurring that are to lead to even bigger catastrophes. That’s not a contradiction that’s a feature. In yet you can only see that feature when you stop hanging out on only one side of the street.

@ajasatya

No there is no difference between libertarianism and you, actually lol. Of course. The human condition will remain the human condition even after enlightenment. But of course, libertarianism tries masquerade that truth in order to justify their own agenda. You’re making a duality between you and the rest of the world and how you aren’t part of it. Yeah, bullshit lol you are COMPLETELY part of it intimately. Even if we create better systems, yes that is for survival but now the survival system doesn’t just include us as people but now we can create systems that serve the survival of mankind, the environment across the earth, other species, etc. and create a more integrated world. Libertarianism is grounded in making distinctions between self and other rather than integration of self and other to create a greater whole. LOL translation: whether it works in the real world or not is irrelevant. So if it’s just cool fantasies I believe in or not, oh well.