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I met him less than a year ago when he visited the San Francisco Zen Center. Cool guy. Pretty funny. Very disciplined.

I want to share resources that have helped me in my own path that hopefully you guys put to good use. Before I share though, it's important to note - people who have walked the path are more often than not willing to help you. You have to put in the work in reaching out to them. If you have a true genuine willingness to learn and seek help, you will find that help. Martin Ball's Nondual Entheogenic Integration Coaching & Consulting - http://www.martinball.net/ I love Martin Ball. I appreciate his radical honesty, his deep compassion and love for those whom are suffering, his detachment from all fantasies and belief systems that are so often associated with this work. Martin is no longer doing in person in what he coined "Nondual Energetic Therapy" but is now offering coaching and psychedelic integration via Skype. Talk to him about the challenges your having in your own trips and how you're struggling to integrate some of the maybe radical things you may be learning about yourself. Martin is all about getting to the root of the matter and, as someone who I feel I have been failed by the highest regarded mental health institutions in America because they don't go to the root, I really appreciate that. Skype calls are either 30, 60, 90 minutes from I believe $75-$150. If you're someone that has trauma but is also very motivated towards Truth and spiritual mastery, I couldn't recommend this enough. Brendan Lea's Consulting - https://thebrendanlea.com/ Brendan Lea is Peter Ralston's longest student. He is taking over Ralston's Cheng Hsin slowly but surely. Brendan is an amazing guy to talk to who I'm glad I've gotten connected with. He also facilitates most, if not all, Cheng Hsin workshops. What I'm offering here is another Skype consultation he's offering that I learned about after getting connected with him via Facebook. Brendan is a very available guy. His consultations are $60 or $70 (I'm forgetting exactly how much) and when I talked to him we talked for several hours. Ask him about a variety of questions you have in your own contemplations and investigations and he will help facilitate you towards greater resolutions of whatever it is you're dealing with. Also, if you have questions regarding any of the stuff Ralston tends to talk about, he's the guy to ask... and I've found it's worth asking. Like Martin, Brendan is not there to indulge fantasies, beliefs, etc. and I find that very refreshing and I appreciate him very much. Cheng Hsin Facebook Dyad Group - For those who've done enlightenment retreats, you know that it's often done in what's called as "dyads". Dyads are 2 person contemplations where one person asks the other "experience who you are and communicate that to me" and then sits totally emotionless and silent for the next 5 minutes while you get to the truth of who you are (or whatever question you're working on) and then a bell rings and you switch. This is done for 40 minutes. Thanks to Brendan Lea, there's now a Facebook group that consists of a few dozen people who we can coordinate with each other to contemplate together in an enlightenment intensive format. I love this. Get connected with people whom are really serious and make friends in the process of doing this work. The last guy I did this with is a guy who was an ascetic in India for 5 years and is soon looking to go back and am already learning so much from him as we're contemplating. Makes this work less lonely and is a great support system. I suggest you get in contact with Brendan Lea via Facebook to join the group. Integral Zen - https://integralzen.org/ Integral Zen is a Rinzai Zen (Hardcore Zen - deliberately tamed down since it's in the USA) Sangha lead by Doshin Roshi, the most enlightened person I've met and talked to (he really is a trip) but grounded in Ken Wilber's Integral framework. If you're not in the Denver/Boulder area where I now live, they offer online Shadow Work webinars, meditation sits with group discussions, and you can even arrange a free hour meeting with Doshin (I cannot recommend this enough). A great community I'm glad I'm slowly in the process of joining. I particularly recommend meeting Doshin via video chat. If you want to know what a REAL enlightened master is at a 2nd or 3rd tier stage of development, talk to him. I could go on about what it's like but just talk to him. Peter Ralston If you're on Actualized.org you know at least of Peter Ralston by now so I don't think I need to go into much explanation of who he is. I remember scrolling around the Cheng Hsin website and remember seeing his email floating around there. I decided to send him a few emails and sure enough, within a few hours I got a response. The fact that this man is this available for people to just ask him questions is crazy. Utilize him. He won't answer all of your emails as sometimes he defers them to maybe answering your question in a future newsletter. Be smart and deliberate with what you ask. You would be a fool to never even at least reach out to him. Akilesh Ayyar - https://www.siftingtothetruth.com/ Last but not least, @winterknight. Maybe I have a bias but Akilesh I consider to be a friend of mine now after having gotten to meet him in NYC over the summer. He's a great teacher and I love his perspective on what the spiritual process really boils down to when it comes to making authentic progress towards realization. I absolutely love his book "How To Find What Isn't Lost" and some of those exercises in there even showed me what my greatest strength really is. He's a great teacher and a very great person. Whether or not you agree with his positions on psychedelics, love, etc. I think is besides the point. That's for you to discover for yourself, not to simply agree with. However, he has had good history with psychedelics including 5-MeO-DMT (post liberation for him - which I find very interesting). He has done great study into psychology as well so I find his perspectives and points of view to absolutely essential. He is a great spiritual teacher who I hope you guys utilize. That's all for now. Fingers are tired. I have more resources but that's enough for now.

Interesting that’s how you interpret it.

@Synchronicity very interesting man. Just thought I’d ask some devils advocate questions. Does this make it difficult to do general thinking about everyday matters? Do you find you’re able to meditate or hone single pointed concentration very well? Would you say that what you’re able to look into in this “bundle” is a matter of how much intent arises to actually care to look into it? Hopefully this has been serving you well and hope you use this experiences responsibly. Could you be more clear here? Didn’t really make much sense as to what you’re trying to say.

Wow... so many questions... first off... how do you function? Lol Is this a constant experience for you? When you say you experience what it’s like to be say a pen or hell, me... are you saying you have a literally sensory experience of what it’s like to have my personal embodied perspective with my memory and knowing of what it is I’m seeing, hearing, smelling, tasting, etc.? How bout that of something like a concrete wall? We can say the concrete wall is made of fundamentally consciousness... but you’re saying even inanimate objects have some degree of experience. What does that mean when you say you experience what it’s like to be a wall? Are you being literal or what it’s like to be one with the consciousness that wall fundamentally is like in a deep state of samadhi? Or are you seeing something beyond that where you literally have almost a cognition of what it is to be nothing but that wall absent of your own embodied perspective? Are you liberated? What is your relationship to self-survival and suffering? How do you know those infinite glimpses into an infinite number of perspectives and lives are really true? How do you know that what it is you’re seeing (pardon the limits of language) is grounded in something that actually is/did/will occur(ring)?

Can freebase be plugged or only HCL?

Note: I will try to be as precise with language as possible. Why am I only conscious of my interpretative framework? I don’t understand what a framework really is. How does it exist? If I look at a TV, just by calling it a TV is giving it a story and I relate to that “object” as a concept based on my own interpretive framework which contains all my opinions, judgements, feelings, values I have in relation to TVs which is all based on my stage of development as the ego that I have. However, I also the ability to project that other people have different relative points of view about that same object that may be different from mine but I still can’t see it from their POV. Why? Furthermore, what is the mechanism of this evolutionary intelligence? Or, put more simply, what is the mechanism of evolution? How come I can’t seem to be conscious of it moment to moment? How come I don’t notice this framework when I’m out in the world? How is it that an illusory sense of “I” can evolve at all? I mean, I can notice (illusory) “objects” of form change moment to moment. Evolution does certainly seem to have an intelligence to it but how come I don’t notice it? Is this even possible? Where does this framework even exist? If I look at the room I’m in now if I was at a 2nd tier stage like say Turquoise as opposed to my current (at least cognitive) stage of post-structural Green I would probably relate to it pretty differently but the room would still look and still seem exactly the same so what is it that would be different? The interpretation itself isn’t even real, not to mention the fact the room I’m calling a “room” isn’t even real.

My friend had a saliva trip where he ended up staring dead at a wall for 10 minutes only to then scream uncontrollably and was then out of breath explaining that he lived the life of a panda from birth till death

Did you even test the “mdma” you bought? As someone who was part of the underground rave scene for about 7 years, I can pretty much promise you that if you bought this at the event, didn’t test it, and don’t know you’re dealer, it was hands down not mdma. A single mdma dosage/trip can takes weeks to recover from just neurologically. Use these things responsibily regardless of the situation. +1

Your shadow reeks. Please get it checked out. Lol if you’re gonna use the suffering I deal with in life as some sort of pull to win something all because your tits are in a tussle because I’m not putting up with your fantasies and projections that just shows how ignorant and selfish you still are. If you don’t like the questions I have on here then skidaddle. You’re on my post buddy. Bliss isn’t something you find but you can keep lying to others and yourself if you still want to. If you’re really gonna use someone’s vulnerability about their life as a way to have a one-up on them because you can’t just agree to disagree, admit your ignorance, or just walk away that shows how much you’re in your own spiritual narcissism. You ain’t awake buddy. Nor am I. Keep typing like a spiritual keyboard jockey if you want but keep your fantasies and projections you have of me to yourself. I dont not need to indulge your fantasies nor play coy.

@ActualizedDavid sounds like a healthy mom but I wouldn’t call that enlightenment at all though. Glad you have a healthy relationship with your mom though. Don’t take for granted how beneficial that is in your own well being an pursuit of truth.

Is that something you wish to solve directly as you to start to embody Truth more and more in your own consciousness work?

Perspective itself is an illusion. A useful activity. However there is no such thing as another perspective. There is no “meta perspective”. You haven’t had an enlightened as to what existence is. The nature of existence was my first enlightenment experience. This is not something that’s up for debate. You’re not conscious of what existence is. Lol yeah because you’re reading it that way. I don’t care what you consider that to be. Your considerations of the matter are irrelevant. Impossibility doesn’t as what’s possible can only be “informed” by possibility. Don’t agree? Go study other enlightened masters the nature of possibility. Here’s even a video if this entertains you. Lol look at the very issue with the question you’re asking. You still don’t get what an illusion/existence is. Get the nature of existence then we’ll talk. You of all people on this forum should not be lecturing people when you yourself have said you just follow Leo and don’t seek for yourself. Don’t go around lecturing people on matters you yourself don’t actually to become conscious of independently free from dogma and hearsay. You’re talking from a place of fantasies.

First off, stay in your lane when it comes to trying to lecture me and trying to stand on some pedestal. Don’t try and play that game. Second off, the Absolute nature of existence, consciousness, etc. use whatever word you want. If you’re here to cherry pick words, go ahead. However, I’m making a distinction between existence and the Absolute nature of existence. Relative existence is an illusion. Reality, world, mind, self, objects, etc. are an illusion. Illusion doesn’t mean they don’t exist. It just so happens though that the condition of their existence or truest nature all happen to be the same. If you wanna call that Godhead, Emptiness, Nothingness, Void, whatever. I don’t care. It’s true independent of the word you slap on it.

Dude don’t get pedantic with me lol. There’s limits to language. what you and @Scholar don’t seem to get is that impossibility is a limitation that is only possible as a possibility. There has to be a possibilty in order for something to even be made as an assumption or belief or reality that something is impossible. How? No one can say, but you can know. Bottom line: impossibility is nothing but possibility. You also seem to be missing what existence and illusion is. Existence is an illusion and an illusion is existence. Illusion literally means ‘something that appears and seems one way but it’s actual condition is another.’ The sense of “I” is an illusion just like all experience but the illusion isn’t “impossible” because if you look into you’re experience there it is occurring. Now what’s the nature of it? Go find out.

First off, nothing that is relative is fundamentally true. I’m not going towards that in my own investigation and contemplation of this matter. This whole notion that all because something isn’t absolutely true that it doesn’t warrant questioning is just silly. Also it depends on what you mean by a “spiritual paradigm” as that is completely vague. Seeking understanding of something that isn’t fundamental isn’t a waste of time. It’s seeking understanding of your own illusory experience. You can’t grasp what something is an illusion without actually grasping what the illusion is. Which is what I’m trying to understand. Language and symbols aren’t real in yet you’re constantly using language and symbols by the mere fact that you’re reading and registering this. So language and interpretation is something you do, we could say. Okay... but what exactly is that? What is it you’re doung? What is the function or occurance in you’re experience that is creating language? How did it come to exist outside of blabbering (more language) more cosmologies and stories? How does it occur? Sorry but these are questions I have. If you wanna call it a “spiritual paradigm” go ahead. Doesn’t really make much of a difference to people who seek understanding.

Fair point. I think we’re in agreement t

How do I know if a Tarot card reader is any good? So it’s badically a psychic medium for getting clear about my desires and obstacles? What do you believe is the right way for someone going to a Tarot to treat the session in terms of expectation as to what they want to to get out of it? What is the medium trying to help someone who goes to a Tarot reader do?

This is the shit I’m talking about.

First off, I’d be cautious of the word “ego”. There is no “I” to dissolve. When you realize for example that the sky actually isn’t blue, that doesn’t mean the sky stops looking blue. There’s a distinction to be made between the sense of “I” (which you’re not - that sense will remain for the most part after enlightenment) vs. character. The character itself can “dissolve” as a result of massive purification or purging out of what’s totally false but the sense of “I” doesn’t go away. And it depends on what you’re talking about when you say “insight”. If you’re talking about, as Paul Terlic is quoted for saying “the ground of Being” (or emptiness of Godhead), you can realize that right now and that is really the “deepest” as far as Absolute truth goes. There is no “greater” as far as Absolute truth goes. How much that permeated the indivuality or the Ego into an ever more infinite sense of “I” (like one experiences on psychedelics) is a game that can and will go on forever - not saying don’t pursue that, but there’s a distinction worth making there.

@Keyhole people who truly know these spiritual truths to the core are not wasting time on a forum preaching. Don’t agree? Go into the world and see for yourself. People who ACTUALLY are seeking are not on their ass talking shit. They are genuinely seeking and putting in the work and those who have truly realized these truths, are not imprinted with Leo’s language (that’s no fault of Leo that’s just the issue of people who just watch shit all day long and now they think they know what they’re talking about) which is exactly what you see on this forum so often. If you’re not genuinely awake, you are not an authority of what enlightenment is. If you are not taking time out of your day to deliberately and genuinely and honestly seek whats true and you’re talking and debating the theories and concepts of spirituality all because they make sense in the mind, that’s lying, breaking integrity, and not really seeking. And of course they can’t be held accountable for their talk because of the nature of the Internet where people can say whatever they want. Interpret it how you want. That’s up to you. If you actually pay attention to how people talk on here and how they just become parrots of Leo (or any other spiritual teacher or any other influential person - you’ll see their followers just program themselves to the leader) how they project, you look at how often a person is on here for hours and just talking a big game, etc. you’ll see more clearly. Do we know for sure? No. However, we can say the same thing for Trump but when you look at his talk and all that he does, you can be sure as hell hes lying. A much more accurate assumption. And if you think I’m talking as someone who somehow holds the wisdom is just criticizing others, I’ve said it more time than I can count how much I don’t know. Go look at my posts. You’ll see actual questioning regarding my own ignorance. However I also have masters I study from in person now and they are the antithesis of what I see from most “spiritual people”.

Most of the people who spend all day talking on here have “taken the blue pill”. So yes. It’s easier to talk shit and pretend you know and disguise ignorance for false wisdom.

Today I was reading Kant’s Critique of Pure Reason. As I was reading and trying to grapple with his language while also trying to contemplate and experience what it is he’s saying, I realized how challenging it is because I’m still at a post-structural stage of cognition because I kept wondering “How do I know what Kant is calling ‘reason’ is what I’m calling ‘reason’? If it’s all completely relative, how do I grasp what it is he’s really saying? I could read this whole thing through my lens and come out with a totally different interpretation”. Of course, as far as my own conceptual understanding goes, yes all things are relative and when one reaches systemic/integral cognition, all relative truths are all still relative but things are now understood and cognized to have more truths than others. Though I understand that conceptually, that’s still not in my experience. As far as (my own) post-structural cognition goes in my own experience, all things seem to be just as equally true in the relative world. How exactly do I go beyond this in my own cognitive experience? Does shadow work play a role?

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